Thread: Linh's Workbook

16.06 2014

Before going to sleep I was doing my WILD routine with success! I entered my dream while being aware of dreaming and I was amazed how quickly everything went because I was just lying in my bed saying things like tonight I'm gonna have my lucid dream

Nonetheless it was unfortunately only a short moment of joy. After checking my surroundings to confirm myself that I'm currently dreaming I saw that certain person who gives me a weird and creepy feeling and I can't say why. It was also not a someone I dislike but seeing him in my dream was so real and unexpected that I lost my focus and my (self)awareness dropped. I questioned myself if I was still dreaming with the help of my RCs. However, the whole situation felt so real and everything was so vivid and since I was in a familiar environment there was no help in getting out of it and become more aware again. I still can't figure it out why that person's appearance caused me those numb and confusing feelings. After all I was more surprised because seeing him after a while was actually quite nice but I never expected it to happen even in my dreams haha because he isn't a dream character I use to see in my common dreams. Then the dream went on like most of my other dreams. I've seen him later in my dreams again while I was talking to a friend and damn it was so vivid that i couldn't believe it myself that I was dreaming although I knew there was something wrong with my surroundings.. LOL. Whatever, shit happens

*Must handle unexpected appearance of certain persons in my dreams more professional-> do not question DC's in a way that they bring you out of your own concept!!!
*being concentrated while doing my RC's
*let emotions not control my mind

-> next time/ very soon I'm gonna give listening to music a try again before going sleep. Had some nice experiences back then and wanna have some changes in my WILD routine

Hey Linh, welcome to Intro class!

Congrats on your recent ld success! I find it's a good idea to have a goal of something to do in lucid dream, that way one is somewhat less distracted by dream characters. We have cool montly goals that you can check out here:

Tasks of the Month & Year

Wish you luck with your goals of conquering nightmares. As someone who used to have a lot of them and started working on reducing them, I can say it's totally possible. I did it in mainly two ways - one was to use autosuggestion not to be afraid and second to become lucid and change any unpleasant situations into more pleasant ones.

Hey my lovely fellow dreamer~:heart:
I'm gonna check out your advice soon to get some inspiration from it so it will be easier for me to conquer my current deficit because I must definitely work on being better in stabilize my (self)awareness for and in LD's in that way I can become less distracted by DC's and have much more nicer experiences

I really appreciate your cheerful words and I must say that I'm very confident in overcoming those nightmares since I made such a giant progress and so many great improvements

18/19. 06 2014

I thought since I regularly do my exercises for conquering my nightmares everything would turned out to be alright again. But I relapsed and had many nightmares within the past two days. And since I have many dreams in a night the feeling of having nightmares and recurring dreams are killing me inside again. Almost the entire day I'm under shock from it and it hinders me from doing my daily things. That sucks especially the dreams I had!

An abstract of my dreams I had the other day: I dreamt of one of my former friends and the main reason why she is not a friend anymore is that she never cared for me and was always displeased with me as a person and I have no need for those persons in my life. Nevertheless everyone who appears in my dreams has always the same personality and she is just as shitty as she normally is. But in the dream that she was moving far far away because she was kinda ill and they couldn't have cure her if she would stay in her place. Hearing those news I felt deep sadness and questioned myself what have happened to me to feel so sorry for her. I was incredibly mad at myself at the same time for having those emotions and feelings towards her. And as I went so see her to send her off she showed her true colors again and send me right away not to forget that she had still much energy to dis me. And i was like WTF?! Girl why don't you appreciate my kindness? And then it came to my mind why should someone should realize it when everyone has another definition of kindness and friendship. But I was kinda hurt by her behavior in a way that I couldn't manage to cry to let my emotions out. And in that moment my girlfriend appears in a sudden and said it was my own fault to believe she would change and I'm not allowed to be hurtful and must be ashamed of my own behavior instead. Her words made me so speechless and was actually the most painful thing which let this dream turn to a real nightmare. At that moment I was asking myself am I dreaming? Because in real life as well as in my dreams she is such a lovely person and one of the most adorable people I've ever known. While I started to sob I began to realize it was a dream but too late haha because I slowly woke up while thinking about I'm actually dreaming right now...

*must definitely raise my self-awareness
*start using autosuggestion more often and integrate it into my daily schedule
*having regularly bed times and stick to it

30. June 2014

My well- being and mood got worse these days again and I'm currently on recovery since the weekend. But somehow it get worse each day...
Despite that some of the uncomfortable situations that happened in that short period of time influenced my progress in lucid dreaming because it causes me nightmares til now. But i could learn from it as well and I'm amazed how well i could manage the things in my dreams without becoming lucid! And through two nightmares i could solve some problems of mines which i normally blocked and don't want to solve it at all. Also with the help of those dreams i could get another view of my problems too where i thought they were just so hopeless and couldn't be handled. But i was probably wrong All in all thanks to my autosuggestion practices during the day everything was possible and i had the chance to really learn something from my nightmares/dreams.
I also must add that my dreams i had in these couple days were so vivid and after waking up i could almost always remember every detail from those dreams. It's so nice to lay in your bed and remember every dream in detail and replay every scene and relive it again with other feelings and emotions. That's the best part for me

By the way my sister is on vacation since monday so i use it as my new bedroom because her room has roller shutter and it is easier for me to fall asleep and i also don't wake up often anymore during the night. Furthermore these days i got tired quite easy in comparison to before so i don't have the need to use any pills anymore to be extra tired ^.^
-> it's a huge improvement for me!

Gonna look how everything will turn out the next days and I'm really excited right to be more successful than ever and also to be able to have some LDs again soon moreover i'm not too afraid of nightmares/recurring dreams anymore like i used to be

Hey Linh, sorry to hear you were under stress recently. Stilll it's very encouraging that you have been getting some positive experiences with your dreams. I agree that even non-lds can give us great insights and a different perspective of things. Keep up the good work .

4. July 2014

Still not very much improvements to see since the last post and it's kinda hard to get my motivation up with all the stress i recently put on myself but i'm not giving up yet


I had several dreams last night again and none of them were lucid but luckily very vivid and long again!
But one of them totally freaked me out and was obviously a nightmare... I have that close friend of mine and her DC is not really mean but very blunt and not comprehensible. Actually she acts like it sometimes in real life too but i believe she is also the kindest and most delicate person ever. But somehow every time i dream of her i kinda lack trust in her and so everything begins there... We supposed to meet up and i should spend the night with her as well but after we just saw each other for about 15 minutes and go eating she just send me off without any reason and after asking her about the plans we or rather i actually made for the day she brushed me off and there i was left alone again and her behavior of course hurt my feelings towards her and i totally went overboard and went crazy and just couldn't calm myself down so i just woke up from those overwhelming feelings and emotions. Now the creepy thing comes: The whole scenario like i described actually really happened and luckily it wasn't as bad as i imagined it to be. However i hate those dreams that come true even more if they are nightmares but someone once told me that the chances are very high that your dreams come true if you compare the amount of your dreams because it's actually very typical to dream from daily situations.

Another dream i had today which resembles the one from above where with one of my former friends who i still care for but of course we don't have much contact but what to expect from former friends. Anyway i meet up with him and everything went so smoothly like we never had any fights or always see each other. Nevertheless suddenly he said we shouldn't see each other anymore because he became friends with someone who doesn't like me at all. And i thought what the heck is happening right now? Trusting him one more time was a mistake so how should i deal with that situation? And in that moment there came all the flashbacks up with him with some good but mainly only bad memories and because of that i felt much pain in my chest and just wanted to isolate myself from everything. And the result was i woke up

Btw i actually keep two DJs at once. One for regularly dreams and i have an extra one only for nightmares with the whole details and stuff and i write down my daily activities in there too to have a clear view about everything what happened and compare my real life with all my dreams especially my nightmares. That's very effective but very exhausting on the other side as well. But what wouldn't you do to conquer your nightmares and having LDs right?

Everything is a bit off topic but i just wanted to capture my progress i made so far also if i had my problems

Good thing to practice: question and 'analyze' behavior of ppl who often occur in my dreams more often! Don't just block the reasons and causes of their behavior out instead of accepting everything like it used to be.
Maybe their are good chances of becoming lucid soon! Very looking forward to it

9. July 2014

Stayed the night with a friend but had some problems with falling asleep although i was very tired. But i must mentioned that he has that waterbed where you could regulate the temperature of the water or so like you desire. And damn that was such a indescribably feeling and i tried something similar to it when i visited my godmother the last time haha I must buy myself just a crazy waterbed as cool as those people one day in the very near future
However i did my MILD routine because it always helps me falling asleep much easier and it's also a good technique for lds.

I just said those mantras countless times to myself and i didn't recognize when i fall asleep but then i had this wonderful dream in my hometown where everything was just perfect: The people i met who smiled to me and also the familiar scenery was completely different but of course in a good way. Furthermore the wether was very comfortable. Not too hot or too cold. By the way i had some changes in my perspective without realizing it haha e.g i could saw everything like a bird...
Nonetheless while the sun was shining and everything was so abnormal bright i was walking through the streets towards the supermarket along with my sister who just came home to visit us. Suddenly there were a bunch of balloons flying besides us and i just took the chance to grab them and guess what happened~ they dragged me towards the sky and i was literally flying And in that moment i hold on for a moment and said nonstop i'm fucking dreaming nobody can stop me and i began to just enjoy the feeling of being truly aware that you are dreaming and literally flying at the same time. (if not that wouldn't be possible dude right? xD ) and because i knew that i was dreaming i knew i couldn't really die if i let go of those balloons and i did it because my heart was racing too fast because of the height like usual and i wanted to be a cat for a moment as well But in that moment the ground opened somehow. There was this huge hole and it was like i could look into the whole universe at once and it was the most beautiful thing i ever saw! :heart: My heart was pounding like crazy and everything was in slow motion so i could capture every detail i saw and felt; and although it was a ld i didn't change and control very much because everything was actually quite in the right place. And after that i entered into my dream world but not long after i arrived there i lost my focus and my sight went black and it was like i fall asleep in a dream and then i literally woke up in a complete new dream where i did some daily things again.

What a short but quite nice ld experience. Although i didn't really do something on my goal list like seeing christofer drew besides jared leto and having a fun time all together and listening to their beautiful voices i must say it was so wonderful and that just after a hard time hehe

=> no more suggestions and ideas for improvement except keep practicing like before!

Awww, this is a truly wonderful dream and lucid on top of that. What more could one want indeed.

13. August 2014

Damn how much time went by since my last entry. But i was kinda busy (so this will be a long entry) because i had some problems with my weight which not only effected my physical appearance but also my mental health so i spent some time in a "hospital" and it worked wonders on me. During and after my visit there i could fall asleep much easier than ever before. I don't need hours or the help of mantras to fall asleep anymore. It's for sure now that i definitely solved my problem with falling asleep at night Why didn't i've seen the doctor before and spoke with him about my weight issues.... My problem with nightmares seems to improved as well. I didn't actually had nightmares but rather those recurring dreams all the time and somehow since i take a break from home and friends to spend time on my own everything got better. So for over a month now i don't have a single nightmare

However there are a lot more things lately which affected my consciousness/ awareness and therefore my dreams on a positive way of course. But there is one exception.
After my hospitalization i went on holiday with my father first so my mind was at ease again and i could truly relax and had a wonderful time and finally have nice memories with him now. During that time i had actually two lucid dreams but they aren't really worth to mention because i was only in my dream world which i've created decades ago and spent some time there with my dream friends hehe.

Now to the not nice experience i had a few weeks ago: I went with two of my friends on holiday too and there was a time where we were camping in the countryside. At that time i always went to bed very late like 4-5 am each day? Because somehow if i past 11 pm i'm not tired anymore and if i spent time with friends especially with those two i tend to talk nonsense all the time til morning or we discuss super personal things until we can watch the sunrise together. Nonetheless at some day we had a nonsense discussion and my mind was somehow a bit numb so i told those two i go in the tent to sleep first and i don't know what happened actually because i can't remember the scenario at all but after i came to my senses again my friends told me i was sleepwalking. They said after i said i 'i go to sleep first' it didn't take much time and i was suddenly awake and tried to fold the tent. My friends were kinda shocked because of my sudden actions and asked me what i was doing but i didn't react to them at all. Instead i was mumbling 'i go home now' and a name they never heard before. In that moment they also couldn't wake me up but the whole sleepwalking thing only lasted minutes and i said 'i was tired and just want be home ow by my mom' and somehow began to cry and went to sleep again. Not long after that i woke up and there was something odd with my body and i asked my friends who weren't asleep luckily if something happened they told me the whole thing. The day after that i was sleepwalking again and this time my friends told me i was very sentimental and just cried for a few minutes while mumbling again that i want to go home to see someone whose name they already forgot. And after telling me these stories i recalled the sleepwalking experience i had as a child. I did the same thing always wanting to go home although i was at home and always wanting to see my mom or that certain someone who is actually dead. Of course i didn't really know what happened but only what people told me but there was a time where i was sleepwalking and i slowly came to my senses but i didn't recognize my home at all and suddenly some sad emotions overwhelmed me and i thought my mom was dead so i was looking around my flat and especially in her bed room and she was actually laying there asleep but i couldn't recognize her at all so i was screaming and crying and running around the house and tried to unlock the door but because of my noise i woke everyone up and my mom came rushing towards me to calm me down but it didn't work because i couldn't recognize my mom although i was wide awake but in the end she could convince me that she was alive and everything was okay. Looking back i had quite a few problems with figuring out things but i thought as i grew up i could handle everything much better.. But i still question the fact why i was sleepwalking these 2 nights and was looking for my home and that dead person again. After that i was scared to go to sleep and doing some autosuggestion didn't help me either. But our short trip to the countryside went to the end and i was finally at home. Apart from that sleepwalking things that holiday was quite nice and funny with them and i also had very vivid dreams as well where i got the chance to see some of the people i adore like gerad way, frank iero and hayley williams.

In the meantime i actually go to sleep as late as before like 3-4 am and i'm not proud at all but i somehow do it anyway every single time and the best thing is after i fall asleep i woke up after an hour or so. But my dream recall has improved since i go to sleep this late and i don't know why. Always when i've fallen asleep and woke up right after ca an hour i always dream about the things i thought before i go to sleep. And since my thoughts are positive or about the things i like the most i had such intense and gorgeous dreams. :heart: So lately i don't even need lding to see the people i want for example i was seeing hayley williams performing on APAMS although she weren't performing there with her band but who cares or seeing my chemical romance unite as a band again and won the award of best artist of the year and the award song of the year as well with their song 'sing' made me so perfectly happy.

Now to a funny story i experienced only a few days ago. I was by my friend's house again and before we went to bed we had a discussion about marriage and then i said without thinking 'yeah if i'm going to marry someone it should be my best friend' and he said me? And my reaction 'of course not. Definitely not you!' What a mean answer actually although he is my best friend but i was thinking about my other best friend who i would prefer to marry if i would do it at all. And then we talked about shitty things until we were tired enough to fall asleep. Then my dream began: I was somehow in a church full of people and very confused but in a happy mood and i stood there at the altar in front of one of my best friends who wore a fancy suit. After eyeing him up i looked at me and guess what i wore a fancy dress as well and then i knew what was going to happen. I thought 'am i really going to marry my best friend?! What the hell is going on? I was just discussing about marriage a while ago and now i'm really marry him? NOOOO i'm not ready for that... I didn't even start with my career or achieved some of my life goals yet and marriage is definitely not one of them and now i'm going to be tied down with my best friend without even have ever truly enjoyed my youth? That's not possible and i'm also too young to get married and then i knew everything was a dream and in that moment i was looking around for another dream sign and saw some of my dream friends. That moment was so divine where you realize you are actually dreaming hahaha but thinking about it now it was funny to be able to become lucid because of a wrong fact because was i'm already old enough to get married. Lol even in my dreams i forgot how old i really am. However i decided to go on with the ceremony but of course in my desired way so i chose a new husband randomly out of the bunch of crushes i have. So christrofer drew became my husband~
It was so funny and i changed the whole list of guests who came to my wedding and invited my favorite bands instead. It was so good to almost see everyone like pierce the veil, of course the other band members of never shout never, not to forget 30 seconds to mars, bmth, of of mice&men or mcr. Everyone was there and i was crying out of joy and happiness. And my whole wedding turned into a music festival in the end which was definitely incredibly amazing and thinking about it now still makes me speechless. My imagination has indeed improved. I don't know what could ever beat that lucid dream maybe the one (i forget to mention that ld before) where i decided to be a serial killer. I was perhaps inspired by alan ahsby because i'm not a musician like him who could express his emotions through music.

I achieved some of my ld goals now and i'm actually done with the things i want to do in my lds. Just saying but i don't have any problem with doing these things over and over again. It's so much fun and i don't think i will ever get bored of it at all One of the things i really want to do the next time is be in an action film or something like that or a better idea: be a part of the avengers next to black widow and captain america. Whoaaa this will definitely be my next goal!


Wishing everyone who reads my entry til the end a nice holiday/nice day and or a nice dream
Take care everyone ( gonna be off soon again because i'm gonna spend some time in california at the end of august for a couple of weeks ; hope i still find some time to be here more active anyway)

Hey Lihn! You had quite of a ride since your last post here. Happy to hear you've overcome the problems you were having.

The sleepwalking story was very interesting even though it can be a bit scary for us dreamers (I think we all are afraid of that to some extent). It's intriguing how it helped you recall your experiences as a child.

I liked how you realized you were dreaming at the wedding and then proceeded to make things your way.

Have a great time in California and see you soon!

Right now i just found some time to note down my process i made so far if i can actually call it like that because since my last post i didn't really improved some of my 'skills' or achieved some goals i set... somehow i fell down into a 'dark' hole and i'm at my beginning again. What a pity! It makes me really sad. My consciousness which i tried to raise since the beginning don't even exist anymore in my opinion hahaha sounds like shit but it's just how i fell these months now. It's like my awareness takes a breaks and here feeling empty and confused. I daydream and i'm so off the whole day and at night while i dream i get the feeling that i'm even more aware of everything than in RL... i don't know i always do many many RC's but it leads to nowhere every single time. To cope with my daydreaming problems and get back to reality to have the chance to raise my awareness i tried some grounding techniques but i didn't have some success so far which upset me very much TvT

Another problem i have to deal with at the moment is that my insomnia is back. I don't get enough sleep because i always go to bed at 3 am and need at least 1~2 more hours to fall asleep (Has anyone some advice for this please? :c - the one to go to bed earlier isn't helpful) and then i must wake up very early for university.... Everything is very shitty right now with my 'sleep/ dream life' haha

Another proof: i also had such a strange dream recently... i dreamt of my father and that is so unusual like the last time was a decade ago?! and after waking up from this dream i was still in shock. Some details: He didn't just occur in my dream but actually interacted with me and even comforted me which was so touchy and depressive at the same time ( plot twist: his behavior in my dream is an absurd thing in RL) but how must my dream state be that of all things HE must appear?! Currently i must be in such a desperate state

But i have hope my dear friends in about a week i take some time off from everything and going to visit a very very magical place where santa clause suppose to live hehe or rather the cool snow queen which is more accurate in my opinion! (-> the so called magical place is LAPPLAND)

Afterwards i truly hope to post less negative things and try to have more good experiences

I wish everyone nice holiday and a happy new year where all your resolutions as well as your dream and goals hopefully gonna come true!

Hey Lihn! A Happy New Year to you too!

I hope that the beginning of the new year will bring you a fresh start and give you the opportunity to reorganize your sleep schedule and dreaming activities.

Enjoy your holidays! Looking forward to hearing from you soon!

Hi Linh! It's good to hear from you!

Originally Posted by linh

Right now i just found some time to note down my process i made so far if i can actually call it like that because since my last post i didn't really improved some of my 'skills' or achieved some goals i set... somehow i fell down into a 'dark' hole and i'm at my beginning again. What a pity! It makes me really sad.

Oh, I know just the feeling! I've been quite off my game for a bit and I'm kind of in the midst of this as well. It can feel like we're starting from scratch.

But fortunately, that's just not true! Our minds are still trained to lucid dream but there are times when we all lose our groove. The groove is still there, though, and once we find it again, we'll wonder how we ever forgot what it was like.

I wish everyone nice holiday and a happy new year where all your resolutions as well as your dream and goals hopefully gonna come true!

Thanks! I wish the same to you. I hope that life and lucid dreaming is going well for you. Like Nyx said, the New Year brings us all the opportunity for a fresh start, new beginnings, and the revival of our good habits. Also, the positive mindset we need and deserve for ourselves; we're lucid dreamers after all!