I've had my first four lucids during the last two months. The first one came spontaneously after a dramatic change in sleeping schedule led to a spike in my (previously nil) dream recall. When I did start remembering them, I was able to have some pretty vivid non-lucids. In fact, part of my decision to pursue this and keep a DJ is that I found the non-lucids can actually be fun to recall, even if they aren't lucid...
Anyway, my first three lucids were very low quality, compared to some of the non-lucids. On my first one, I could actually feel my body in bed, and even move a finger. It felt almost like I was just visualizing it in my mind's eye, and it didn't last very long. If I hadn't remembered part of the dream before I became lucid, I'm not sure I would have realized it was a dream. The second lucid I really concentrated on trying to stabilize the dream, but I'm not sure it was all that much better -- I still felt like I was mostly visualizing things (although again, I could remember an earlier part of the dream where that wasn't the case). The third I think was better still, but still somewhat short.
Last night was my fourth, and it was very different. Where before I felt very much in charge of everything I was visualizing, in this dream, I kinda just followed the "plot" and observed things as I went along. It was fairly long, and I actually don't remember the point at which I became lucid, or most of the early part of the dream. But I do remember from later in the dream it was realistic enough that I was amazed to see buttons on an elevator panel change sizes, layout, numbering, and font when I looked away and looked back -- it was kinda freaky. Then, just before waking, I thought about jumping off a balcony to try flying, but the grass below looked too real, and my rational brain chickened out. I even decided to try another RC, just to really make sure I was dreaming. I pinched my nose, and the feeling of breathing through a plugged nose for the first time was so bizarre that I just kept holding my nose and breathing for a few seconds until I became aware my real body lying in bed, and I woke up.
So I would say that your first couple of LDs might be low quality (although others have reported differently so YMMV). But keep at it, because mine have only gotten progressively better.
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