A question of guilt?

**sicktorque** · 02-12-2011 11:14 AM

Im not going to go on with the regular 'HELP ME WHAT DOES THIS MEAN'.

But more of a question to be steered in the right direction for further research.

I have had (dreams? experiences? programming?) certain things happen to myself at different times and dates when I fall asleep. This has gone on for many years.

Basicly what happens is, I feel as though I am up and about( i.e walking ) but with no sort of control over my body ( No I am not saying I am possessed ). I have strange memories that I can not explain. During these experiences I have some sort of purpose, Im not sure on what this is ( its felt at different times I have had.... I dont know, different purposes if you will).

If this is confusing, just tell me. I am not exactlty the best at verbalising.

Regards

**Matte87** · 02-12-2011 11:45 AM

Sounds like what I experience when I am falling asleep on the way home from work. I can't really explain what it feels like and what I experience, but it's like words, pictures and other stuff gets a "purpose" and "meaning". It's probably just your mind messing with you as you're on the brink of falling asleep, hypnagogic imagery and dreams your mind is forming, just that you're conscious when it happens. Ever tried WILD'ing?

**sicktorque** · 02-12-2011 12:05 PM

I get what your saying, but this is completely different. I have had different OBE, RV experiences etc. But what I feel, to what I think is completely different. I am currently looking into Monarch and trauma based mind control. I am not certain if this website can help me, I am just getting my feelers out there. So I can establish what may be occuring.

By the way, these are not symbols, words or letters. This is like another part of myself (Im not crazy by the way haha), A part that is almost activated by some sort of trigger. As you can see, I am really in the deep end here.

To answer your question, yes I have had WILD and dids as well

Thanks for your reply