This has been going on for about 2 or 3 years now. At first i would just be about ready to go to sleep when all i feel is pressure going down on my body and i end up paralyzed. for the longest time i didn't know what was happening and i didnt understand, i would get freaked out. I would try to scream but i couldn't open my mouth, make a noise, or open my eyes to even look. But for some reason, even though my eyes are closed i know where i am and i see a vague picture of the room. but when i see it, i see a figure. and it stares at me, walks over me, and i freak out. every time it does something different. It "pulls" me from my bed (ALL WHILE I CANT MOVE), feels like it takes the covers, pushes me forward, slides me to a different spot, etc. you get the idea. this happens even after coming out of a dream.

I just feel helpless when this happens and all i want to do is scream. This is a nightly occurrence.

Lately, it's gotten more real than that. I actually start DREAMING when i realize im alseep, and i dont want to realize it. it just happens. its not sometime i try or want to do, i just Accidentally lucid dream and i DONT know how to stop. Its to the point i dont know whats real and what isnt.

Last night i was dreaming, it took place in my house and i saw my mom. she was at the bottom of the stairs. i was just outside my room and looking over the balcony over the stairs onto her, and we were talking, i realized IM DREAMING. fuck. soon as that happened, the chandalier falls, the lights go out, and im paralyzed again..but i was paralyzed in my dream but still being somewhat able to move, but it was very hard. i tryed CRAWLing to the stairs when i was dreaming about being completely paralyzed. the thing is..it was so real i thought it was evem though i knew i was dreaming. my alarm clock woke me and i knew i was back to reality.



Moral, IM aFRAID TO SLEEP NOW. someone help me NOT lucid dream.