Hello everyone.
I don't know how to address my situation with you all in a subtle manner so I'll just put it out there and hope for the best. I lost my sweet daughter to suicide in October 2012. I'm sure I don't need to explain the unbearable grief. Before this happened in our family, I found it hard to even imagine what parents went through when their child made this choice. She was 27 and absolutely the center of our entire family's attention. My question has to do with the bizarre dreams I've had, one in particular, that have occurred since she left. I pulled up out of sleep the other morning, half awake but still within my dream. I felt as though I was sitting in a chair facing a wall a
though the dream was just blackness. There was a male voice talking to me in a non-stop, monotone kind of voice. He just kept talking without stopping to take a breath or between sentences and during the dream, I remember thinking 'he's explaining everything in existence' but when I woke up, I only had the memory of his voice and the sense of the profoundness of what he was telling me...not the actual memory of what he said.
I've never had a dream like this in my life. It was totally auditory and no visuals were involved at all. It was the strangest feeling to awaken from this dream and I can still remember his voice, speaking so rapidly with no breaks and the feeling of awe I had at what he was revealing...yet I don't remember what it was he said.
If anyone can help with some interpretation of this, I would appreciate it so much. The last three months have been a hell of sorts and for some reason, I feel like this dream was intended to MEAN something to me, to give me a measure of peace.

Thank you all very much,
carrie