Finally took the time (/cough 30 seconds) to register :-)

I've only recently (last 4 months) taken Lucid Dreaming seriously. One of my very spiritual coworkers told me about it, and naturally my first reaction was 'Cool like the movie Dreamscape ?'

But for some reason the thought of Lucid dreaming stuck with me, and I started reading some books about it. Then I started reading about dreaming and dreams. Then books about consciousness and all of a sudden, the thought of this weird matrix-like world inside your own head didn't sound weird to me anymore.

So for the past couple of months I've been trying, on and off, to get into LD.
I've started and stopped keeping a dream journal, started again, and stopped again. I've written down some absolutely crazy and insane dreams, actually the majority of them (dreams from waking at 4 am) are downright batsh*t crazy. As in, I will never ever let anyone read my dream journal.

And I've come to terms with a couple of things:

- I lack dedication
- I lack determination
- I'm a slacker
- I know that if I really put my mind to it I could do this (*).
- My family (wife and 2 kids) make a lot of noise in their sleep, jesus christ, a lot.
- I have terrible sleeping patterns

(*) How do I know this?
Because the actual times I have tried to LD (using WILD and WBTB) I can rather easy get to the body falling asleep part and staying consious. The thing is, I actually like drifting in this twilight zone weirdness. The weird sensations, the incredible loud vibrations in my ears... And I always seem to forget to move forward from there :-)

Anyway, by registering here I'm hoping to jolt my commitment and determination a bit. Because that is what is keeping me from attaining my first real LD I believe. Well , that and real life stressy things I guess. So if you happen to see me here, don't be shy and give me a good kick in the nose while shouting 'FOCUS you slacker!'.

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