Hello. I have not LD'd deliberately, although I have them naturally about once every 2 months. (Usually, I enter the dream and know that I am dreaming.) I have no problem with controlling dreams. I just had some important questions that I need answered.
Note: LD is "fun," but I am going to be responsible and careful with it. I am not one who does it because it is "cool." In undertaking this I fully appreciate that I am dealing with my subconscoius and sleep, two very important things.
On that note...
1.Is there any risk of SP with FILD? When my WBTB sounded, I was pondering the risk. I simply can't believe how it is so different from WILD. The whole point is retaining consciousness. (If you haven't inferred, SP is not something I would mentally recover from. Seeing dark shapes, glowing eyes and feeling strangled, then being sucked through the floor at 9 G's is not something I am ready to deal with, or even risk, especially at night.)
2.Probably the most important one. I just need reassurance more than answers. It is very hard not to Ld without freaking out before sleep. It's different during nighttime, I feel more, "cautious" I suppose. FILD seemed like a great idea until I was about to do it, and I freaked. When I feel the heaviness of sleep and the twitching of winding down, my heart beats wildly, and I lose my sleep. This has come to the point that I can't even sleep regularly without staying up for 3 hours listening to Podcasts. I need help on remaining calm.
3.This is probably the reason for the above, (Out of my dream diary, 1st night trying to LD)
In real life: I practiced incubating my dream until I was tired. I was focused on my dream, but I was excited. I was about to fall asleep when I thought I heard my own nasal breathing, and thought I was having a sleep-consciousness experience. Since I was about to fall asleep my vision was “tingling” and my limbs were heavy. I also heard my tinnitus ringing loudly. I was afraid to move, and my heart beat wildly. I tried in vain to walk out of my body briefly before I shakily began to move fingers, arms, and legs. Finally, I turned around and realized the sharp nasal breathing was in fact my neighbor shoveling his driveway. I was greatly relieved, but the experience was etched in my mind.
While this may seem like a trifle, but my mind will not let go of it, I am more than ready to.
3.While I have not intentionally LD'ed, I exert too much power over my lucidity. Simpling thinking about something causes it to happen. Scenes change on the merest whim. I lose characters just thinking about things. Objects switch around, and I may look twice at something and find it completely different. Also, I dont have Real Life vision. While I am seeing first-person, I don't have a frame of vision. I am always looking straight ahead, and It feels slightly 3'rd person. It is hard to think in my dreams. Faces are blurred, but only because I can't look directly at them. I can "feel" their face, though. I cannot look at objects in detail.
NOTE: THIS HAS ONLY HAPPENED IN NATURAL LD's, and I have not tried the "more clarity option" or rubbing my hands together, or visualizing, etc.
Any help, would be greatly, greatly appreciated, and I am more than ready to tackle this. Once i get past a mental barrier, I can handle anything from there. Please be helpful and not corrosive, and I will sleep much easier. Thank you so much!
|
|
Bookmarks