I've had two dreams that scare me very much because I don't know what they are saying about who I am. You see I am a very sexually docile person, in fact I've had a few past girlfrieds break up with me becasue I wouldnt kiss them, an odd trait for a 17 year old boy to possess. But see I used to have this girlfriend (2 year relationship) and we did a lot of physical things up to and including sex, but only twice. Now there's the backstory, here's the dreams.

They both involve me raping someone, but it isnt just raping them, I normally do something very very violent to them while I'm doing it, such as cutting them open isome fashion and tehn theres blood and stuff. I really don't want to go into any detail because I am very very ashamed of these dreams, I feel like there's somethign terribly terribly wrong with me, people shouldnt dream like this. I don't know what to do I know I should get a hold of a real octor but I thought maybe someone here could help to to get idea of whats wrong or where I could find some more help online.

oh and in no way were these dreams lucid, they just happened and i thought you guys would know a lot of stuff about dreams.