Thread: So, what happened here?

Okay, I know people always make threads asking about whether they were lucid in their dream or not..

Well, I have a question about this. Bear with me through wall-of-text :<

Last night, I tried WBTB and WILD together. I got up at 4:45, went to the bathroom, got some water, and sat down and wrote about the dreams i remembered. that took about 30 minutes. I know for WBTB an hour is recommended but i read somewhere half an hour is okay because WILD should take up the remainder of time.
Anyway, as I was wilding, i got to HI with a bright white light flashing in my eyes and what sounded like two trashcan lids being banged together. I knew what they were, but they still came as a shock because they were loud, so i think every time they came i woke up just a little bit (Im guessing i'll get better at that? :S) anyway, i was becoming REALLY tired (I dont think I stayed up long enough in retrospect) and I hadnt entered SP yet. Also, I was reading WILD techniques, and one said that once your throat becomes relaxed it wants to swallow. I had experienced this twice and the guide said put a pillow under your back to fix that. So i tired that but it was really uncomfortable and i realy just wasnt feelin' it last night. So i rolled over and gave up wilding and just chanted "I will know when Im dreaming, I will do RCs, I will become lucid" and fell asleep.

So, now im dreaming. Ive had a full dream already when suddenly I look at the clock and its 2:22. Then I looked back and it was 1:11. So i was like.. WAIT! So i did the hand-over-mouth thing and i could breathe. This part is blurry but somehow it became dark. It was confusing so I was thinking maybe i need to just open my eyes to get back to the dream? So I did, and thats what happened. Then as a final test I went to my living room and jumped and sort of floated across it.

I know this all sounds right but for some reason it still didnt FEEL like i was "aware." During the rest of the dream I couldnt do anything I wanted to. I couldnt jump high, fly or even float. I was lacking control. Then I become kristen steward.. (which is weird because i dont like her, think shes a terrible actress.. but I was watching a movie with her last night on tv, maybe thats why?) but it was still me inside trying to do all the cool stuff. Then a dream character suggested I summon someone. but i didnt.

ANYWAYYYY.. Even though it sounds like a LD without control.. Im not really convinced for some reason. I think it was more of me dreaming about being lucid, rather than actually being lucid. Is that common? what just happened?? @_@



EDIT: I also have another question.
About SP, Im unsure if i ever reach it fully sometimes.. because my body goes numb and feels heavy, all that stuff, to the point where it feels i dont have limbs. however, if i wanted to move, I could. So idk if im doing it right. Is there something else that comes after all that? Am i just not waiting long enough? I like the wild attempt better than DILD which i hear is easiest.. because during dreams I dont really think i would remember to do RC's. In all my dream journal entries, there are plenty of places i should have recognized as places to do an RC and realize im dreaming but dont. and i do RCs at least 15 times a day in real life.. so thats why Im really interested in WILDing.

Thank you for reading all of this D:!