All I have are my dreams, besides the conversations I have with far-away people online. I have a terrible mentality that I cannot change. I have so many obsessions and fears and very extreme emotions. In other words, for me, reality is the real nightmare. My dreams feel so natural, like the way things are supposed to be, and then I wake up into the same nightmare everyday.

That's why I wanna learn how to control my dreams. I rarely have lucid dreams, and I wanna change that.