i had a dream that i was at my boyfriend's house - but this was no boy i had ever met, nor seen before. i got a vibe from him that reminded me of my first boyfriend, and despite feeling that he might hit me and hurt me if i said the wrong thing, i stayed in his house. his sister came for a visit, but she suspected nothing, though i longed to tell her about him. we went for a drive in his car, me in the back seat, his sister in the passenger seat. he introduced me as his soulmate. i thought it was sweet but i longed to run away...

and then i had another dream. i was in the middle of town, running, no jacket on, in the freezing cold - covered in bruises ans scratches, inflicted by him. my mind was in tatters. a hand grabbed my shoulder, hard enough to badly bruise me, but i ran even faster. when i looked back, no one was there - but the bruise was. when i reached the store at the bottom of the hill, my cousin and my parents both saw me. i couldn't trust them then, i simply told them i fell down, that i was okay. (i can tell my cousin ANYTHING, and i would tell my dad of any injuries because he's a paramedic..)

ive been frightened all day, because my dreams tend to lean towards showing me the future, or a message of the future.

i think im going to end up in a bad relationship, end up attacked or beaten down, or im going to see my first boyfriend again, and HATE IT.. but he's one of my best friends.

im very confused, and afraid.