Thread: Do you have a fetish?

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Possession is a pretty nifty one. I don't remember if it's been discussed at length here, but one that's been getting me lately is sort of a demonic-type thing. The way it works is that there's one person who is inhabited by a demon/spirit/whatever (I like it better with demon ) and slowly has their mind decompiled in sort of an ego death kind of fashion until their identity is totally gone and they're just a field of perception, and then they're slowly rebuilt into reality with the mind of the demon instead. I prefer the submissive aspect of it, the idea is that you know what's happening (because the demon is taunting you or whatever) but there's nothing you can do but watch in fear as your reality is totally disassembled in front of you and your identity slips away forever and your body is stolen. And because it's still your body you still perceive everything that happens when you're the demon, you just have the demon's mind and memories instead. Sometimes I throw in sort of a mental assimilation so that all of your memories and everything are still in tact too, but it's still the demon in control.

For me, this has to be with me and another girl. If there's a guy involved (on either the demon or victim end), then it amounts to a different fetish. And, though I said that I like the submissive side of it, the way it usually works for me (not always, but usually) is that I start out imagining myself as the other girl, and then I'm the demon, so the end result is that I'm the one in control when I take over the body, but I still got to experience the fear and submission as the other, totally innocent perspective first. This is actually an old favorite of mine, but it's been bouncing back lately.

Lmfao, I've no idea what the hell you're referring to.... not specifically. And I think this is the oddest fetish posted so far. Nice one. How does this happen?

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

Lmfao, I've no idea what the hell you're referring to.... not specifically. And I think this is the oddest fetish posted so far. Nice one. How does this happen?

Exactly my thoughts haha. But it sounds somewhat interesting ;D Althrough i'm sure this is not something possible in reality..

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

Lmfao, I've no idea what the hell you're referring to.... not specifically. And I think this is the oddest fetish posted so far. Nice one. How does this happen?

Nah, I've posted weirder in here before. Though this one I'm proud because of the whole submissive and dominant thing I mentioned. And it happens in whatever way fits the situation best. XD You gotta change things up, you can't just use the exact same situation every time or it gets old!

Originally Posted by littlezoe

Exactly my thoughts haha. But it sounds somewhat interesting ;D Althrough i'm sure this is not something possible in reality..

Does it have to be?

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Does it have to be?

Good point ^^

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Nah, I've posted weirder in here before. Though this one I'm proud because of the whole submissive and dominant thing I mentioned. And it happens in whatever way fits the situation best. XD You gotta change things up, you can't just use the exact same situation every time or it gets old!



Does it have to be?

Really? Do share again... I wanna see weirder.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

My body is ready.

Jeeesus rofl

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

Really? Do share again... I wanna see weirder.

Too lazy to go searching back through the thread yourself, huh? Alright, well I'll do it then, because I'm not taking the time to type all this stuff up again lol. Here's a starter.

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Eep. That's quite a question. Are you sure you're prepared for the answer?

What gets me going is the thought of the breakdown of consensus reality from my point of view. This can be achieved in a few key ways, though other things occasionally come to mind. The easiest way is through thought of insanity. I mean just pure craziness, dysfunction of the mind to the point of transpersonal experience. The idea of pure sensory chaos is very appealing to me.

Another way I tend to focus on is the thought of fusing or uncontrollably being fused with another person to the point that our minds are forced to collide with each other and absorb all of each others' information simultaneously. In that way I mean sort of like you lived their life and they lived yours and all of your experiences and thought processes and emotions are combined into one sum consciousness and all of this is portrayed in real time as some kind of never-ending out-of-body experience, and that generally leads to the thought of our two minds working in unison at the deepest possible level of personal identity and creating spiritual ecstasy simply by being linked together. Also, that person's gender makes no difference to me, at these basic levels there is nothing but spirit and we can act on each others' pure emotional desires. I also sometimes (though not as much lately) use that scenario as an extension of vorarephilia, but it's not a requirement.

A third way is through the thought of my mind being split into multiple bodies at the same time, often to the point of my consciousness being spread so thin that I begin to perceive reality as some sort of hive mind. This is usually enough for me anyway, but sometimes it leads down the path of each of the bodies seeking out sexual pleasure at the same time so that all of the feelings converge at once. However, most of what does it for me is the idea of basically becoming this mechanical mind which must function in bizarre and ineffable ways to be able to control each persona simultaneously.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Too lazy to go searching back through the thread yourself, huh? Alright, well I'll do it then, because I'm not taking the time to type all this stuff up again lol. Here's a starter.

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I've felt that unconditional attraction to male/female when on MDMA, but that's about it. You should see if this extends to animals. Are you talking sober this happens?

Edit: And yes, I am lazy.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

I've felt that unconditional attraction to male/female when on MDMA, but that's about it. You should see if this extends to animals. Are you talking sober this happens?

Edit: And yes, I am lazy.

Yep, I pretty much always feel that way. And believe me, I've experimented with it pretty far. X3

Next chunk~

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Some of you darker fetishists may like this. Back in the day, this laugh (very beginning of the video) used to be almost required for me to get anywhere. The anime in general drove most of my fantasies, and if not it then scenarios based off of it. You could say those were my darker days, I've moved on from that kind of thing generally, but that scene still send shivers down my spine, as does the following song. (In a very, very good way. ) I used to watch that scene on my iPod over and over again to pass the time in high school.

Caution: Not for the faint of heart!

There was a good amount of discussion following that one, go look it up if you're interested, I'm not gonna quote it all.

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I was going to put this in the original post but I was using my phone internet and I had low battery so I just sent what I had!

Hmmm.... My preferences are a little... abstract... but I think the fact that it normally is attached to a body could work for me. If I worked it in properly, anyway. I wouldn't just want a big pile of boobs, but I could go for boobs in ordered or geometric structures, like having the walls and floor and ceiling lined with boobs, or a bed made of boobs (soft! ), or alternatively things set in infinite recursion, like falling through a bottomless lattice tunnel of boobs. Kind of like this but with boobs instead of eyes:



That last one would be more transpersonal though. I haven't actually used this in a fantasy, but I have used a certain male equivalent. Interestingly... I think if I were to go with the bed one, I would actually want it to be for being in the bed with a guy. It seems to match up to me.

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Ah, makes sense! I also had a metamorphosis one for a while when I was younger (I think it was also because of some movies I saw while young, actually lol) involving turning into animals, especially a cat. :3 (And not in an anthropomorphic way!)

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Hmm.... I suppose it has been a while since I really contributed much to this thread. Let's see here.... I have been using a few new things lately that I have a hard time getting anywhere without.

The first one is the thought of becoming clothes being worn by people. I've used a few different things, but I have a preference for one-piece bathing suits. Not really sure why, I just do. There are a couple different extensions to this. One is me becoming the clothes and then sort of injecting myself into the body of the person wearing me, not so much as just becoming them but more like mind control. Though, sometimes I think of it as more along the lines of fusion like I mentioned before, but without so much of the transpersonal aspect. Or at least, we'd still be a functional being even if our mindset is a bit altered. One of things that really appeals to me about this is the thought of not having to do anything (not even breath) while still being able to do anything (through the person), if that makes sense. That one I pretty much always imagine with girls. A different way I take it is with me starting out luring people into sort of a trap, and I always imagine this one with guys. Basically once we're already getting intimate I turn into the clothes in a very stylistic way that has me forming around them (and it's still generally a girls' one-piece bathing suit) and then becoming fused to them so they can't take me off, and then as a result of wearing me they transform into a girl and end up in kind of a fantasy gender bender scenario. That one I really like lately. I think it may be at least partially linked to me liking seeing a feminine side in guys.

This one.... Well, first let me say that when I fantasize I tend to think about myself as lots of different people, I'm fairly dissociated with my identity and can picture myself in all kinds of different bodies and still feel personally connected to them. So when I say I'm thinking of myself here, it's not always actually me, but you get the picture. Anyway, bear with me for this one. In this one the way it works is I fantasize myself technically again as an inanimate object, but not exactly.... I think of myself as my body, but just my body as an object, not my mind which controls my body. Got that? So because for the sake of imagination I do have to have some "point of view" I feel my body as some kind of strange mechanical being, but I don't actually think of it from a person's point of view. But there's more, when I'm doing this I think about myself as the object oriented upside down from myself as the person, so my arms are my legs, my head is my crotch, and vice-versa. And then I imagine experiencing sex from that perspective. Now, some of you may think that the implications there are obvious, but that's really not what it's about. The main focus for me is the bizarre feeling of just being oriented that way and REALLY thinking about what that would feel like, having your arms extend straight up and then out into feet, and your legs twisting back around and up and becoming hands, and your face being nothing but your crotch and your crotch having eyes and ears and a nose and a mouth and a tongue... especially the tongue, that really stands out to me. And beyond that the mechanical side of feeling the euphoria of having sex, the release of chemicals flowing through you and the contractions of ecstasy and the like, and seeing all of this at once from just one big objective structure.

Lastly (for now), I've been using something which I like to call the "tunnel of faces". This one will probably be a little harder to describe in a way that'll really get it across well, so just try to be imaginative. Again, the same applies as the last one where 'myself' can be pretty much anyone I picture myself as. First, try to think of your vision as a flat screen 3D TV. Like, the image and use of two different cameras (eyes) creates the illusion of a third dimension, but the image itself is just a big flat picture. And that's what it really is, but I mean really picture it that way. Now, put everything in your vision as an actual 2D image that's just a backdrop on the screen. Now imagine a 3D space extending in the space between your consciousness and the backdrop, a space that now seems more 3D than any normal perception you've had, something TRULY 3D created by your mind that is not bound to the flat surface that your eyes create. Good so far? Alright, now at this point I imagine my face as a part of this 3D space, making a face I would when sexually pleased, and I don't just mean like a stationary face, I mean like moving like I would if I was that excited, in one quick whispy movement. Then, I imagine another of my face doing a similar but different whispy movement in another area of my vision, not totally separate from the first face but not covering it. This continues until the faces begin to cover up my entire line of sight and there's nothing but a growing tunnel of faces before me. As the faces continue to spawn, they become more solidified in reality, and I actually feel them as my own. What I mean by that is, try to imagine that you actually feel something in your line of sight as if it was a part of your body. Some people can probably do this more easily than others. I mean really feel it as if it was truly an extension of you. That's how it goes with the faces, every movement they make in total or just with eyes or mouth or whatever I feel within that 3D space as a part of my expanded self, and with each face the feelings of sexual euphoria that the faces feel (and as such, I do too) become stronger and stronger until they've not only blocked out my sight but my perception of my normal body and sense of what feelings are normal and what aren't as well, and I'm nothing but this endlessly growing entity of pure pleasure separate from all concepts of reality. That's my newest one, and I'm really enjoying it.

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

That's because evil is sexy. When I was younger and had my death fetishes, I used to fantasize about being both the victim of murder and the murderer at the same time. (It seemed pretty normal too - goes back to my split personality kinda thing going on.) The combined thought of experiencing death and total submission to someone's will and asserting total dominance over someone else simultaneously (even if they were both me, but I was thinking of myself as... different people? but still experiencing the same thing) and also feeling both extremes of the emotional spectrum at once was... very pleasurable.

I don't use that one anymore.

Pretty sure this isn't the end, gotta keep looking. >w<

^ Ok now you scare me xD

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I wish I could like that multiple times. Vore was one of my earliest fetishes, and one of the only ones from back then that really still sticks with me.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

It differs from person to person, but for me it's generally being eaten alive all in one piece (head first, pretty much always) by another normal human (although maybe possessed, or actually a demon in disguise, or something like that). Very, very rarely, it would be an alien or monster or something, but it's almost always human. Also rarely, I'll think about it the other way, with me eating someone else in the same way, but that doesn't do it for me as much. It's more like a curiosity since I like it the original way so much. I do know that there are people who prefer thinking of giant people and the like, though.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

You work around it, it's not like it needs to be perfect, it's a fantasy. I usually just don't really think about it, but I guess if I had to put a description to it I'd say it seems like my imagination will expand the size of their mouth and shrink the size of me a little and have them meet half way, and then just takes my focus away from that part to focus on the feeling of it so that it doesn't really have to make a whole lot of sense.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

That's interesting. I can see part of that, my fantasies do have to have a story. Sometimes they're less creative than others but usually that's when I'm just overusing the same general ones. Mine don't really make too much logical sense because so many of mine revolve around things that just aren't possible, like the vore, but they do have to make some kind of sense in the context of the story, in their own illogical way. That's where things like having people be possessed when they eat me come in, it generally has to have me being a victim so in a way it relates to some other, more plausible fetishes.

Though, sometimes all my mind needs to justify a story is the thought that I can bend reality, which is probably why my fantasies are so varied and often bizarre. I usually don't leave out any angles if I keep with something long enough. Like vore, like I said I have fantasies from both perspectives, though it's always a girl doing the eating (so me eating or being eaten by them), and if I'm doing the eating I'm usually eating a guy. But I've also expanded on it in other ways, like thinking of it as consensual and non-consensual, having it lead to different fantasies based on story like ones about death or possession (both sides of that, too), and even through... other orifices.

(That last part is on page 12, but it's all the same thing.)

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I've honestly never seen MLP, but this is starting to make me think I should check it out. I used to use a fantasy fairly often about turning into a pony, and another about being being eaten by one.

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I wish I was two people. I know I've talked about the hive mind fantasy somewhere in this thread before, but that's a bit different. That one is based on becoming as many people as possible and is focused on the mental aspect. This is a different one as it really only involves being two (I've experimented with three, but usually two) and is focused on the physical aspect and involves my two minds being totally normal aside from the fact that I have to control two different bodies, rather than being some kind of mechanical control mind. Also, whereas the other one can involve being all kinds of people, this one I only ever use with female bodies. The principle is still pretty animalistic though, it would mainly be so that my two bodies can sexually excite each other so it's kind of like a form of masturbation. I used to use that one a lot but then it died down for a long time, but now I'm kind of getting back into it. I wonder if I could try pulling that off in a lucid dream....

(Is it odd that when I see two attractive girls making out I'll sometimes think to myself "I wish they were both me"? )

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Honestly, I'm kind of turned on by this whole hacked forum situation. >___>

I think that's it, Wolfwood. The next one of mine I found was already liked by you, so I assume I don't need to re-post it.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Yep, I pretty much always feel that way. And believe me, I've experimented with it pretty far. X3

Next chunk~

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There was a good amount of discussion following that one, go look it up if you're interested, I'm not gonna quote it all.

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Pretty sure this isn't the end, gotta keep looking. >w<

You're full of surprises. Very interesting. The last, evil is sexy. I get that.

Alyzarin, i think you could easily win this thread with these fetishes

But that video just made me shocked, i'll have nightmares

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

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(That last part is on page 12, but it's all the same thing.)

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I think that's it, Wolfwood. The next one of mine I found was already liked by you, so I assume I don't need to re-post it.

And yeah, though you may not conceptualise it exactly the same, I've come across giantess fetish, and the woman eating a man/woman thing. All signs of dominance. ^_^ In their 'normal' conceptualisation, I like giantess.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

You're full of surprises. Very interesting. The last, evil is sexy. I get that.

Thank you. And yes... yes it is.

Originally Posted by littlezoe

Alyzarin, i think you could easily win this thread with these fetishes

But that video just made me shocked, i'll have nightmares

Sorry, it does say not for the faint of heart! It's from a horror anime.

Just don't think about it anymore.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

And yeah, though you may not conceptualise it exactly the same, I've come across giantess fetish, and the woman eating a man/woman thing. All signs of dominance. ^_^ In their normal conceptualisation, I like giantess.

Ah, so you think about it with the eater gigantic and the eatee tiny? That's cool, most people I know who are into vore have liked either that or being cut up. I don't go with either, personally, it's just two people the same size and it's eaten in one piece. (I think I said that in there somewhere, but I just skimmed over them when I re-posted them just now.)

Yeah, once you get to know Alyzarin a little better, she's the type of woman that you don't care what she'll do to you, just know she'll do it with love.

*twitch*

I'm sorry alyzarin. I said too much.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Thank you. And yes... yes it is.





Sorry, it does say not for the faint of heart! It's from a horror anime.

Just don't think about it anymore.



Ah, so you think about it with the eater gigantic and the eatee tiny? That's cool, most people I know who are into vore have liked either that or being cut up. I don't go with either, personally, it's just two people the same size and it's eaten in one piece. (I think I said that in there somewhere, but I just skimmed over them when I re-posted them just now.)

It's partly why I have Alucard as my avatar...

Yeah for me, it's just a massive woman thing. Not obese, just... proportionately massive. And then you can see how this links into asphyxiation.

lol.... I used to sexually wrestle my ex-gf... liked that too. I let her win though, convincingly.




Edit: Admittedly, getting out of a school girl pin is....well...you don't feel like trying. Insta-win for her.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

Yeah, once you get to know Alyzarin a little better, she's the type of woman that you don't care what she'll do to you, just know she'll do it with love.

*twitch*

I'm sorry alyzarin. I said too much.

That's okay, I can accept that as a compliment. >w<

You should really get those twitches checked out, they seem to be increasing in frequency lately.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

It's partly why I have Alucard as my avatar...

Yeah for me, it's just a massive woman thing. Not obese, just... proportionately massive. And then you can see how this links into asphyxiation.

Gotcha, gotcha. Honestly, I can't lol. *probably missing something obvious*

Getting eaten by a massive woman -> choking to death? Were you too big to swallow in one bite?

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

lol.... I used to sexually wrestle my ex-gf... liked that too. I let her win though, convincingly.

Edit: Admittedly, getting out of a school girl pin is....well...you don't feel like trying. Insta-win for her.

I don't blame you.

Alucard is insane and evil, but I love it. If it were a woman.... more so.

lmao, I didn't mean to implicate the being eaten by massive women. Just the idea of massive women is a fetish. Not into the eating thing myself. I like both submission and dominance, but a puny, short, skinny woman ain't gonna cut it in a dominant role.

Though if you consider a woman drinking my blood....eating, then yeah. I like.

You watch, I'll wake up tomorrow and be like... wtf have I said now. The fact I know this now is quite a feat in this state.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

Alucard is insane and evil, but I love it. If it were a woman.... more so.

lmao, I didn't mean to implicate the being eaten by massive women. Just the idea of massive women is a fetish. Not into the eating thing myself. I like both submission and dominance, but a puny, short, skinny woman ain't gonna cut it in a dominant role.

Though if you consider a woman drinking my blood....eating, then yeah. I like.

Have you ever watched Higurashi no Naku Koro ni? Though there's not as much evil as there is insanity.

Ah, I see. I think someone mentioned that one before, but I don't particularly get it myself. Though, actually... well... maybe? Not exactly, though lol.

I prefer submission to dominance, though I do like it when I can pull of both in the same fantasy.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

You watch, I'll wake up tomorrow and be like... wtf have I said now. The fact I know this now is quite a feat in this state.

Hehe, you wouldn't be the first. How drunk are you?

(Gulp)

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Have you ever watched Higurashi no Naku Koro ni? Though there's not as much evil as there is insanity.

Ah, I see. I think someone mentioned that one before, but I don't particularly get it myself. Though, actually... well... maybe? Not exactly, though lol.

I prefer submission to dominance, though I do like it when I can pull of both in the same fantasy.



Hehe, you wouldn't be the first. How drunk are you?

Nope, I've heard of it and always assumed it was some kid's anime. I guess I'm wrong, right? I'll check it out... I always judged it by the name 'Higurashi'. >_> Have you heard of Serial Experiments Lain? Still can't really get that...messed up. Maybe you can make sense of it. ^_^

*ponders how to answer how drunk am i*

Enough to jump out my second floor window for a laugh if I wasn't so controlled. I wish, sometimes, I could relinquish control, let my 'ego/self' just disperse..... but I can't. I see a lot of people like this all the time when drunk, but I always stay conscious, aware and in control... to some degree. >.< Not that I see jumping out the window as rational and wishful lol.

Edit: oh bloody 'ell here we go. I'm at it. You know what's odd? That when I'm intoxicated, I feel like two people. One is drunk and the other can oversee the silly things I'm doing or saying. The ID and Ego/SuperEgo clearly distinguished.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

Nope, I've heard of it and always assumed it was some kid's anime. I guess I'm wrong, right? I'll check it out... I always judged it by the name 'Higurashi'. >_> Have you heard of Serial Experiments Lain? Still can't really get that...messed up. Maybe you can make sense of it. ^_^

*ponders how to answer how drunk am i*

Enough to jump out my second floor window for a laugh if I wasn't so controlled. I wish, sometimes, I could relinquish control, let my 'ego/self' just disperse..... but I can't. I see a lot of people like this all the time when drunk, but I always stay conscious, aware and in control... to some degree. >.< Not that I see jumping out the window as rational and wishful lol.

Kid anime? Yeah, definitely not. That video I posted is from it. I've heard the name Serial Experiments Lain before, but that's about it. What's it about?

I have a strong desire to lose control on many drugs, but alcohol isn't one of them. As far as I can tell, losing control from being drunk basically means you're not going to remember any of it anyway. Where's the fun in that? I'd rather bask in the drunkenness. Though, if you want to lose yourself just a little bit more, you could always try what I do and just drink faster. XP Alcohol is fairly good at fragmenting my awareness if I get in my system fast enough, like coasting on the edge of blacking out.