Thread: I miss you already Rtex...

You guys I appreciate you're trying to help and concern but please don't jump to conclusions like you are irishcream. He is not a bad guy. He is just a bit messed up emotionally. He really truly believes that he is meant to go through this world alone...and if that is so...then I suppose I am as well...because I have never before met my equal. I knew it getting involved. And I did it anyway. And I still care so much about him.

And Nirvana, thank you so much for that PM it really meant alot to me.

Originally posted by OpheliaBlue
amen irish

and it better not be \"another girl\" or I'll break his knee-caps

I mean it's one thing to say from the start \"hey, this isn't serious\"...but to lie or conceal major information while leading someone on is cowardly and selfish

it's not only cowardly and selfish, it's down right sick!!
When it comes to relationships, i think you have to be very exact as to what's happening...
Complete and honest communication at all times...

Hey Nina, sent you a PM, hope you accet it and don't get angry at me

Sorry about Rtex anyway

~Haz

Look guys...it's not his fault. You can't MAKE someone love you...especially when they don't even love themselves.

Now I just want to forget all about this, it's just too painful.

That's exactly what I said o_O

Thanks Haz.

my lord did you know that 20 DG admins and mods posted in a row and 15 DGs posted strait in a row.....

being on top of the world one minute then being crashed down into the earth the next can be very shocking and devastating. im so sorry you are going through this nina. i think time can heal wounds, but for now, if you need to vent, don't hesitate, we will listen, and if you need some space, that's fine, we can still help you get through this

how do you teach someone to love

Originally posted by Aquanina
how do you teach someone to love

don't know if you can teach someone to love

inspire them perhaps

Hon, I've been watching this thread but I've been too shy to say anything. There's nothing worse than loving someone with all your heart (no matter your flaws or theirs) and them suddenly saying "Oh, woops, I guess I don't love you after all". I've been there and it's long, hard fall.

I wish you the best, sweetie, and if you ever want to chat or vent or anything I'm here. I think all of us are right beside you if you need us. Or if you don't. Either way, we're here.

Thanks Willow. I really love you guys you know.

"My dreams are a cruel joke. They taunt me. Even in my dreams I'm an idiot... who knows he's about to wake up to reality. If I could only avoid sleep. But I can't. I try to tell myself what to dream. I try to dream that I am flying. Something free. It never works... "
-David Aames

"I just don't want to hurt anybody else....I feel like a razorblade....*sigh* Damn...."
-rtex

I'm so so sorry Joel. You warned me...you said "everyone that gets close to me ends up getting hurt." I didn't listen. If only...
...I thought it would be different with us. I'm sorry you have to be where you are right now. I wish I could save you...from everything.

Nina, I know you are hurting right now. I know where you are, and have been there as well. The key thing you need to remember right now is not to let this consume you. You have everything you need within you to get through this. Trust in yourself and in your inner strengths, they will not fail you.

Originally posted by Seeker
Nina, I know you are hurting right now. I know where you are, and have been there as well. The key thing you need to remember right now is not to let this consume you. You have everything you need within you to get through this. Trust in yourself and in your inner strengths, they will not fail you.

Absolutely. It's why I'm still standing here. Hurt, mourn, and keep going, hon. These things take time. I can't say that it doesn't still hurt sometimes... (ok... I lie. It hurts a lot sometimes...) but it doesn't hurt so much that I can't keep walking forward. No matter how much it hurts or how confused we are, we need to keep going. You and the other ladies of this board are some of the strongest women I've ever met. You've been so inspiring and I wish I could do the same for you.

Goddamn it. We seriously need to have a DV Girls' Night. All the ladies of DV get together and party. Drinks are on Seeker-sensei.

no one knows where I am....so don't pretend you can relate. each person is different and handles things differently. So spare me your "cheer up" threads.

Originally posted by Aquanina
no one knows where I am....so don't pretend you can relate. each person is different and handles things differently. So spare me your \"cheer up\" threads.

As you wish Nina. SNAP OUT OF IT OR GET HELP!

Seriously nina...you don't want criticisms, but you don't want cheering up either. You don't want to talk about it, but you keep posting about it. It's obvious you want attention, either from your friends on the forum or from rtex.....

Would you please get some help?

Originally posted by Aquanina
no one knows where I am....so don't pretend you can relate. each person is different and handles things differently. So spare me your \"cheer up\" threads.

damn right, I myself have never really been hurt by love of course I had those little breakdowns with my I broke up with my first girlfreind( just the sterotypical teenage moments ) but I couldnt fit what your feeling inside of me. Infact the only advice that I could give you is be happy it wasnt a very long relationship. Be glad it ended before to long.

Take your time to heal but never forget and just move forward slowly.


-Justin

Originally posted by Fetish
Take your time to heal but never forget and just move forward slowly.

What he said. Also, listening to music sometimes helps me -- sometimes listening to a lot of sad music helps me get over it (i.e. Evanescence, Tracks 18 and19 of the AIDA Soundtrack, etc.); mostly I listen to regular, upbeat music though. Just let it pervade your mind and wash away all the grimy unrest...

Originally posted by OpheliaBlue+--><div class='quotetop'>QUOTE(OpheliaBlue)</div>

Seriously nina...you don't want criticisms, but you don't want cheering up either. You don't want to talk about it, but you keep posting about it. It's obvious you want attention, either from your friends on the forum or from rtex.....

Would you please get some help?[/b]

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As you wish Nina. *SNAP OUT OF IT OR GET HELP!

Hmm nice to know who my real friends are. All I want is understanding, which I cannot give, because it is in itself a perplexing tthing that I have not mastered.

You either GET IT or YOU DON't.

\"Nina, there is always a risk when you share your personal life with a forum.. in that they know the joy of your finding a new love and then they know your pain at losing him.

It's common for people to want to know \"specifics\" and to want to \"blame\" someone for what happened.. but I'm not going to go there.

It would probably be so much easier for you if there was another girl or if he'd been a horrible jerk to you.. then you could work yourself up into an anger that could help you heal. But from what I read.. none of that happened He appears to be a nice guy with problems which only serves to make you want to \"fix\" him.. to make him \"whole\".. to hope one day he will realize that you are the perfect one and come back to you.

I've felt such heartache.. and it was such a sweet biting pain. You push it down just to have it surface again. You second-guess yourself.. you do the \"if only\" dance.. and then you finally let go, you grieve the loss and you look forward. \"

Originally posted by Aquanina
\"Whoa...you know I'm really crying (as if I haven't been constantly since he left), but you really hit the nail on the head. It just seems like no one else understands. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm in the blackest hole of hell...and I can't take this much longer. I want the pain to go away, and I'm afraid I'm going to do something stupid.

Thank you for caring.


Nina, there is nothing you can do.. and that's what's killing your heart. You don't know how to "fix" this.. and it's hard to accept that maybe it can't be fixed.

I once had a love so strong that when I was "with" him.. I would literally "forget how to breath".. and just seeing him walk into the room would make my heart pound (I was just so deeply involved).

Some might say that it was only infatuation and based on attraction.. and maybe they'd be right.. but it was so wonderful and perfect at the time. Letting go of someone who made you feel so much is beyond difficult.. but it's not impossible.

Right now you feel like there is a dark cloud in your soul and it's overshadowing any joy, any happiness that may occur.. but slowly.. with time, the cloud WILL dissipate and you'll find that you can go minutes without thinking of him, then hours, then days..

You are grieving right now.. it's almost like a death but the one you're mourning is still alive which makes it all the more painful.

Allow yourself to grieve.. allow yourself to be PISSED..

Spend time with your friends and family (but only if they will let you feel what you feel).

And you can always email me.."

- My Guarduan Angel for the time being

And I will get aroung to emailing you as soon as I can from coherent sentences, so thanks for trying to help all you other guys but it's just not what I need right now. I feel ike I'm looking for a used car.

Originally posted by Aquanina
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When are you and your brother going to get back with the rest of the Crowes and go on tour?

Even though a piece of us dies,
tiss better to have understanding
of what was,
then questions of might have been.