Well, I used to be a very simple guy. I slept when I was tired, I ate when I was hungry and did what I was told (mostly). Over the last few years My way of thought and view of the world around me has changed significantly. I no longer do things just to do them. I always find meaning behind what is done and what needs to be done. I see how complex the world is. I can spend an entire day sitting on the ground staring at my hand examining my fingers as they move and flex. I can see everything in a new light. I have random fits of pure euphoria and joy. Like it doesn't get any better. I am now taking time to experience the nicer things. As well I have found myself giving into certain things like lust and want, even though I know better. The greatest thing is I love it all. I want to just leave where I am for new better places. I want to run away and lose control. No need to "go with the flow" I want to just run to the wilderness and make my own flow. The greatest thing is that I will have no problem with loneliness. Because nobody knows me better than I do. When I'm among "friends" I have to change myself to suit their needs, and they the same for me. But when I'm with myself there is no work to be done. Just me and myself. It's like a new sun has risen in my head. And I want this for everyone but it's so hard to explain. I just find myself rambling on about the greatness of my new paradigm. Without being able to share it with anyone else. I do not intend to keep it to myself. Can any of you try to help me help you? Wow... that was a long post...sorry bout that but I just couldn't hold it in anyore. I hope someone here has had the same happen to them so that I can get help in sharing my wonderful new outlook!