Horrible HORRIBLE experience with a Lucid Dream binaural beat~

**SzuruDusk** · 09-24-2012 07:23 AM

So I've been pretty "obsessed" lately with lucid dreaming. I've done my reading up on every possible way to induce and I know exactly the methods to getting lucid and staying there. I've read into all of the spiritual aspects of Lucid Dreaming and read a lot of Stephen LaBerge's and Edgar Cayce's books. I draw on my hands every day to remind me to RC and stay aware. But... I got a little impatient-

I listened to a random "Lucid Dream" binaural beat that I found doing a quick search... just before falling asleep.

That morning, I had a nightmare. I haven't had a "true" nightmare in years. Yet, this was a semi-lucid hellish nightmare that made me fear sleep. The worst I've Ever had.

My entry is here: [All Alone]

I woke up crying for 10 minutes- I performed reality checks while praying that I was out of my dream and called my girlfriend, Alex, immediately.

Now I'm even more pressured to lucid dream- not only for personal development... or for spiritual, creative, and fun reasons... but to avoid me being stuck in this zombie-like, catatonic state, unAWARE, ever again. Not even in waking life. I mean for GOD'S SAKE- I didn't even realize there was anything menacing around me until that FREAK took a knife to my throat.

I've been practicing full-time awareness- where I would always be AWARE of my awareness. Fully conscious- 24/7. None of those moments of "What have I been doing for 20 minutes!?" and no more zoning out. I slip up constantly... most of the time even. But I feel I've improved a bit. I have a marking of an L and a D on each hand... and a spiral to make it more noticeable. Every time I see my hand, I think, "BECOME CONSCIOUS. STAY AWARE OF MY AWARENESS. IS THIS A DREAM?"

It so far has NOT carried over into any lucid dreams... but this doubled with the binaural beat again- I think I might stand a chance. In about an hour, I'll go to sleep listening to the SAME beat as before, while trying to maintain that constant awareness. Wish me luck. I'll post again as soon as I have the chance.

**HeyImJack** · 09-24-2012 11:11 AM

Okay that is quite a terrifying story.

**Chimpertainment** · 09-24-2012 07:35 PM

Sounds like you went pretty far down the rabbit hole there.

The only advice I could give you is this: Remember that whatever you encounter in the dream world is subject to your own interpretation. While this character might have seemed evil, there are ways to make it harmless.

The line that really jumped out to me was when he said he could come out and play when Alex was not around. If Alex is your emotional "safe place", this nightmare seems to be exposing your weak spots. It is something to be afraid of but make sure it is a healthy fear.

All you need to overcome fear is within yourself. As much as it might suck to admit you dont need Alex to feel safe, its the truth. Once you can feel this, try to transfer it to your dream reality and I think you will be surprised at the result...

I am assuming your lucid practice is relatively new, and with this in mind, you are really in uncharted waters here. The imagery of going into the dark side of the house is exactly the kind of metaphor for going into the dark side of your mind or "the shadow" as it is called by Carl Jung.

When you first started going into the dark side you mentioned accepting this unusual experience. Then things took a turn for the worse and it felt like hell. The key here is to accept the hell as well.

Good luck!