Only my second post - I'm a serious lurker with massive forum shyness! However, I had an experience last night that I just wanted to get some thoughts on.
I've been doing reality checks steadily for a few weeks now, along with dream journalling and meditation. I accepted that perhaps I wouldn't be likely to attain lucid dreaming while I'm on medication (I'm tapering off diazepam) but I thought it would be good grounding to 'prep' myself as it were - I dream every night without fail, and I always remember my dreams.
Then last night, I did a reality check in my dream. I don't know what made me do it, but I pushed my fingers against my palm. While they didn't 'go through' as such, it felt wrong, and not the sensation I've been used to. I *think* this is the point where I became semi lucid.
I was at a party, with nobody I knew. The first thing I wanted to do was 'test' this lucidity and went to a closed door and told myself that my Dad would be on the other side of it (he passed away very suddenly at Christmas). I opened the door and he was sat at a kitchen table, smoking a cigar. I was so overwhelmed with emotion that I forgot all the things I wanted to say and the rest of the dream played out randomly but I was 'searching' for ways to prove I was lucid.
Has anyone had this kind of experience? A moment of lucidity, followed by the feeling that you're TRYING to be lucid?
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