In my sleep, I was at my local supermarket--you know just walking--then suddenly I circle around an isle and I realize I'm dreaming. I don't know the details of how that came to pass; before that "movement" everything seems blurry. So I turn around and the day has turned to night and the place seems empty. And suddenly I realize I'm dreaming.
Oh shit, I tell myself, I'm finally astral projecting, and I quickly look at my hands. They seem fine to me. Then I remember I should stare around me in glimpses and that's what I do, constantly looking at my hands every now and then to remain lucid. Then I say, yeah, I always wanted to mess around in a supermarket when no one is there, so I start eating some pastrami or something. Then I tell myself, screw that let's fly and I plow my body right into the air, but I fall down, which perplexes me because the last time I had a lucid dream I had flown like it was nothing.
And suddenly I don't know if I'm astral projecting or lucid dreaming, then I look at my hands again and move to another isle where there are some weird things like a plate where cereals should be, then I find a wallet in a refrigerator with money, a credit card, and a lot of photos, and I can actually see a woman, a little girl, and her husband, all in separate photographs, except for the man, who looks like my dad. Then the dream gets weirder and I suddenly start looking for money inside the wallet, and I feel guilty about it and worried and I start planning if I should just max out the credit card or I should return it and then I remember I should look at my hands.
And my eyes open and I'm in my room. And I realize that every time I looked at my hands I didn't actually stare at them, didn't even count fingers. It was more like a glance.
This happened yesterday and I didn't actually intend to lucid dream or anything of that sort, so I don't know if I actually managed to be a little lucid or what. Can someone dream that he is lucid dreaming when he isn't actually lucid dreaming? I remember when I tried to fly and fell I sort of expected to fall, which indicates that I didn't really believe I could do it. But why not be able to do it if I was lucid dreaming?
I feel like I was half-asleep-half-awake in that dream and the notion of astral projection kinda confused my consciousness and lost the chance to fully lucid dream. What do you think?
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