So I had my first Lucid Dream last night, at least, I think I did. Prior to it, all that I had done was wake up at around 5 in the morning and gone back to sleep, thinking about using FILD but I don't think I ever got around to it.

Then I found myself doing a nose RC, standing in my room. I could breath through my nose, so i was like, 'Hey, this is a dream!'. I walked around my room for a while and made the dream more realistic, yelling "CLARITY NOW!" and rubbing my hands together. I can only assume this worked, as my room looked as realistic as ever. I then tried to make a sword appear. Nothing happened. So I decided I'd start simple and looked at my hand, telling myself I could see through it. Well, I couldn't, and then I came to the sudden conclusion that I'm too used to pretending, rather than actually knowing it's there. I walked around the room for a while longer before waking up. I sort of deduced that my experience was sort of boring.

As with most first timers, I have a few questions. First of all, is it possible to dream you're LDing, but not actually be Lucid Dreaming? It makes little sense, I know, but that's what the dream felt like when I woke up. Also, is it possible for your subconcious to tell you what you're doing wrong? Like when the sword didn't appear, I felt this little voice in the back of my mind (well, it was more large voice in the front) tell me that I didn't believe enough for it to work. Same thing with the pretending.