I don't know if I can describle this clearly, but I'll

try..
I was dreaming about all my friends at a party, it seemed

real.
All of a sudden I was standing outside, the sun wasn't

out but, it wasn't dark. It was just yellow and the

trees were so green. Then I realized that I was

consciously thinking. I felt like my eyes could move in

any direction and I wouldn't wake up. I had a although of

how beautiful it was and realized I could do anything I

wanted except move my head, so I didn't lose it. I kept

myself there for as long as I could. Then it turned dark

almost purple night and then yellow, very yellow with

orange leaves falling. it was like space and time and

season didn't exist they just were and blended so I

continued to try to go with it even though I was scared

of what i was seeing. Mind you I was thoroughly conscious

and didn't understand how I had been seeing this with my

eyes closed. When it turned what seemed to be autumn my

ears were ringing and in felt like wind was going through

them fast. My body was in a state of falling and my mind

was terrified. So I started breathing really hard to get

out of it, I was so afraid. I felt I was going somewhere

and I didn't know where and if I didn't get out I would

know how to later. My body was paralized and I couldn't

move it at all. I tried and tried. then when my minded

turned black, my body felt like it had slammed back down

on my bed. My brain was tingling on both sides. left and

right. I had used both sides of my brain at the same time

for a moment and as I write this I truly regret getting

frightened and wish I had gone with it. It was the most

intense experience I have ever encountered. I remember

getting scared while it was happening, because it

reminded me of the butterfly effect. And in this state of

enlightenment I was thinking of that superficial movie

and wondering if I was going to end up some place else

and not be able to return. So I let go of this wonderful,

intense, beautiful, scary feeling all because I was

terrified and was conscious through all the most intense

emotions and colors and mind boggling movements and gazes

all because I was too afraid to continue. it was

something I hope will happen again and hope that I will

have enough courage to stay through. I don't know where

my mind was going and wish I did.