I just joined these forums last night after watching the 'Butterfly Effect' and I thought I'd look for somewhere to post my mind. Well crazy as it sounds, I read the Lucid dreaming tutorial and found out that I am always close to Lucidity since I have been studying some crazy shit, mainly on existance, and time. So I went to sleep with an easy focus and reputation and woke up at 4am with full memory of my dream. It was tied to thoughts and stuff that happened that day, so I wrote down that links from the dream to reality and figured out I actually had fears, fears that I had blocked out for so long, stuff like being lost in insanity.

But I never walk away from fear, using logic aswell beliefs I wrote down some deep philosophies. Whether they are right, or even possible to prove I am not sure yet. I looked at the clock and it was now 6am, then it became 7am shortly after... My phsychic level was off the scale as I was beggining to make sense of a greater existance, another dimension that I called Blur. Am I insane? No, I have a grip on reality and am not stupid enough to get lost so I proceed with caution.

Now here's the really tripped out part, I finally fall asleep again at 7am. And within a few minutes I see my grandma looking at me with glowing purple eyes, so bright that it blurs her whole face, then she begins to say things, on a frequency I cannot understand. In fear of knowing it's a dream I attempt to forcefully wake up... I'm paralyzed at first, and my eyes are trying to open but it requires to much effort, I begin to muster up all I have and push my self up, my whole body is tingling and the force of gravity is pushing me down so hard that I start to feel pain just opening my mouth. As my eyes open, my top eyelid covers some of my view, each time I close my eyes I see my grandma. I concentrate on my breathing and slowly open my eyes being a bit more conscience, and notice the enviroment around me... Now the image of my grandma dissapears and I see a bucket and pinoclean in the bathroom, except my view of it seems wavy, like I have goggles on and they're filled with water. The last image I see I can't decribe, it rotates like a clock and it similar to a ride u would see at an amusement park, but it's different. Then I wake up completely, and look at the time, it's 7:20.

I'm beggining to think I'm reaching the limits of my sanity of logic. You guys think I've lost it? If not, I'll show you some more crazy stuff I wrote down on paper, almost incomprehencable to understand, yet somehow I still do.