Thread: Such a weird feeling... Lucidity?

Last night i had many dreams, wbtb at 9am and fell asleep trying to fild. I failed and it was so hot, i decided to fall asleep. After that i had 3 very vivid dreams and i think one of them was lucid. The reason is because it felt totaly different from any other dream i ever had.

It was a bit more like a nightmare cause (don't know why) I first saw a little girl in the corner of the bathroom i was in. I came in through an open window. After that i was panicing a bit, but became more relaxed over time. I wanted to get away from that place and consciously decided to move, but couldn't see where i was going. It was like i couldn't focus on things, when i wanted to see them (like LD that isn't vivid and u have no control over it) so everytime i wanted to move somewhere, i did a step and waited 'till the dizziness stopped so the thing i was looking at formed and I could focus my next step. Finaly i came to a painting on a wall which i could barely see. At that point i told myself something like: "Ok you are dreaming" or "Do a RC, you are dreaming" etc..

After that i think i lost it, but i remember that after that feeling, i had a normal dream still looking at that painting, just that i could normaly see the whole thing, while before i only saw it briefly. Like i would be drunk and my point of view narrowed and it was all dizzy and spinning.

Notice, i never had a LD but did have many normal dreams recalled and this was nothing like the rest. So was this a lucid one?

Cheers

EDIT: When i woke up, i was so mad at myself for not remembering to look at my hands and rub them together

After some browsing through someones DJ i found out that he consciously knew that he was dreaming, but didn't feel the awake lucid feeling yet. After a while he did, but seems like i somehow lost it while attempting to RC. So theoreticly i wasn't lucid yet?
Still a good shot tho, i'm getting closer I did use a mantra before falling asleep, will try the same tonight. Hopefully i'll succeed. You could say that i can't wait to attain lucidity since i'm trying for a while now, but am afraid that getting too excited would ruin it. I did tell myself that night that i will 100% get lucid and got the closest so far.