A little over 8 years ago I received my first kiss from a girl. I'm sure for some people this would be a happy and unforgettable moment. Mine was certainly unforgettable... the circumstances of it though, were very awkward. I'm not comfortable going into a lot of details about it on a public forum, as much as I know those details would probably help. Although I've tried not to dwell on it, ever since then I've had vivid dreams of her, usually once every few weeks or a month or so.

For awhile I thought the dreams had stopped until I had another one about her this morning. I briefly realized I was dreaming and struggled to wake up... the alarm had buzzed 10 minutes ago and I was already going to be late for work... but another part of me couldn't stand to be away from her and refused to wake.

As much as I try to tell myself it doesn't bother me from an emotional standpoint, I'm guessing the fact that I am now at work and half asleep writing about this probably shows that it concerns me.