+ / - The Courtney/Tsen Emo/Brag Thread

[Burns]

-I don't like my dad -argued with dad[/b] aw, sorry, NeAvO

[Courtney Mae]

+ Rain - Spent too much time in it, now I'm cold and soaking wet + Still rain - Kirby still hasn't called me back. + He's probably busy - Or he just doesn't want to talk to me. + Either way, I'm not too worried about it. I'm not going to be one of those girls that over-analyze and make a big deal of everything - (although there's still that chance I'm totally screwed) - PSAT's on Wednesday + I'm only a sophmore, so they don't count toward National Merit Scholorship Qualifications. So I can bomb them, and it's no big deal. - Chemistry test on Friday - Can't sleep lately

[MSG]

+ My mom is insane&#33; - In a bad way - Grounded for a week - Reason: For going on the computer when I was grounded - Reason for that one: Staying up past my bedtime Who all here has a bedtime? >.<

[Courtney Mae]

I don't really have a bedtime... I mean, my parents try and all.... but whatever.

[NeAvO]

aw, sorry, NeAvO [/b] +some one cares +need a job +got loads of free time.

[Tornado Joe]

My favorite time of year is upon us! Got a costume idea in mind haven't started it yet Job interview Thursday for a potential really cool job. Not sure if I'm ready to up and move two hours away for it I was late to work again today so I'm gonna stay an extra 15 minutes 15 minutes is up!! ----------------------------

[docKnubis]

- im dying. and not the normal every day i live i die type - just walking around i get sick and dizzy - i am always gaging - THIS IS NOT LIKE ME I NEED HELP - i feel lifeless, empty, i cant see the path ahead of me im freaking out. - help

[FreshBrains]

- FucKnubis is going emo! - Not good! - 'Presidential Fitness Test' in Gym... + I ran a mile in about 8 minutes... - Still, it could be better.

[Courtney Mae]

aljeklrer ily gavan. you have my aim & msn (and possibly phone number? I don't remember) if you want to talk or something.

[docKnubis]

- no no more talking -no more anything - the world hates me - i hate the world - crush just killed my heart - dont even think we can be friends any more cus i still love her to much - i hate this - i am going crazy - im self destructive - i dont give a fuck about my life any more

[Courtney Mae]

Gavan. Try to imagine your life 6 months from now. Or even a year. Will the same problems that are affecting you now still be making you feel this badly? My guess is no. It'll get better, I promise. Once you've hit "rock bottom" there's nowhere to go but up.

[docKnubis]

well let me say this 6 months ago i was feeling just a little better not much but a little then about 3 months ago i was fine and now i back down again it has been this way for a few years now. havent really noticed it till nowand each time i go down it gets worse. if it gets any worse i dont know what i will do. i dont like this. this is not me i could do as i usually do and act nice like every thing is fine but its getting to hard to do now.

[FreshBrains]

Knubis, IT CAN NOT BE THAT BAD. We've all been turned down before! (Or will be) There will be other women! - Doc still hasn't dropped the depression. + PIE! + Pumpkin pie!

[MSG]

I've never been turned down before :D Then again, I've never been turned up before either D: I've never had a girlfriend. Ever. 2nd grade doesn't count.

[Courtney Mae]

Gavan I want to hug you. but you're really far away

[docKnubis]

Knubis, IT CAN NOT BE THAT BAD. We've all been turned down before! (Or will be) There will be other women! [/b] if it was just the girl problem apon me i wouldnt be this bad its just a nother thing ontop of everything that has been building up over the last 16 years yes 16 years i lost my father 16 years ago and that is when every thing started it was good for a long time then it crashed down again then it sort of got better then my mom remaried and we moved and lost all but one of my friends. then a 8th grade i got sick ... real sick they took me out of school for the rest of the year. i came close to dying. that same time my parents got devorced and a my mom and siblings moved back to our old house i thought that i would beable to see my one good friend again ... no i couldnt he was killed in a car incident. a was in a nother depression point i had to remake all new friends again. then half way through the school year my parents got back to gether and we moved back to my dads once again everything was going good till i found out another one of my best friends had been killed in a car inicident . this to brought me down to a deppression .. eventually i did get back up and i got a job and a car then every time i would get some money saved ukp for college or just savings the car would break down. i never was going to beable to buy a new car now befor college. not to mention geting my first traffic ticket and having to go to court for it. lower depression yet. ther has been many other thing but these have been the a few of the major things and now that i am in college my parents have split up again. making me beleive that i was the only thing holding my family together. and then i finaly ask out the girl which i have had a crush on for 4 years and we go on 2 dates then a week goes by and she starts dating a nother guy. we are still friends but i dont know i love her so much still. and college and work arnt helping at all. so much stress. now i am debating hitting the delete button or the reply button i hate my life

[Courtney Mae]

Gavan. I know where you're coming from. This summer 3 of my mine and Kirby's friends crashed a BMW into a river. All three died. And since he's a fireman, if Kirby's shift was 5 minutes longer he'd be called to help pull their bodies out of the river. My Uncle is in ICU, and my other Aunt is dying of liver disease. My 12 year old brother says he'd like to kill me, and I think my father is drinking again. That's nowhere near what it sounds like you're going through. But alot of people have problems. Alot of people have horrible days, weeks, years. I know that doesn't make it any better. But you should just know that you're not alone. As much as it seems like it. You're not. I mean, hey, I haven't even met you in person, or talked to you outside the internet, but I'm worried and I care about you. I can't imagine how many people you know in real life feel the same way. There's nothing I can really say to make you feel any better. But I just want you to know you're not alone. People care about you, and they're looking out for you.

[docKnubis]

_ i just hurt so much right now emotionally and physically

[Tsen]

You know what you need, Doc? Ska music and a wide variety of lime-flavored beverages. That'll make ANYBODY happy. Unless they're a zombie. Or an alien.

[italianmonkey]

+ i COULD destroy you all. COMPLETELY - it would need me to completely consacrate my life to it, and then also probably sacrify it, or fredom at least. (not you on the forum, i mean some particular yous not here)

[italianmonkey]

knubis: at least yours is still your friend. the one i am condamned to love betrayed me, with all the people i used to call friends together. i say "betrayed" because they accused me of horrilble un-realistic things and now he hates me, after being my best friends for years. he is lobotomyzed by his 7 years older girlfirend, and is going down the hill to be stuck in a sort of sect. Nothing not legal, nothing violent, but still not sane. he lost almost all his hair, and he looks like he's 60 years old, not 20. i am worried for him, but he'll never listen to me again because he says i'm evil, not wanting it, but having it on me. they say this. like fanatics. the night are the worst thing. after the classes we follow togheter. the rest of the day is not a lot better. i sort of could destroy them, ruin their lives. But the price is too high. probably i'll do it if the pain makes me ill and lead me to death. I'ts sort of rare but happens. the possibility of revenge is the only thing that keeps me alive. and this will be forever.

[Tsen]

...O_o.... The thread's been hijacked by emos! Run away! RUN AWAY! Wait! I've got it! The perfect anti-emo weapon! A PURPLE PENGUIN! Take that, emo's! (PS--sorry for the crappy images. I might clean them up sometime, but right now I'm running out the door and don't have time) BTW, comic courtesy of Commissioned Comic

[docKnubis]

i did somthing... good? bad? i dont know i cant remember doing any thing different but i dont feel bad any more im still upset a bit but not as much i dont know if its that energy drink i drank or if its actually me we will see we will see

[Courtney Mae]

[docKnubis]

-the pain is back again. - i dont know why - i think of her and i get pain - i think of things that have happend in the past and it comes back - it hurts again. im trying to work it out .. my god i havent ate for the past 2 days.. whats happening to me