First off, I'm sorry for my stupid questions but if I didn't have a burning desire to know more and to improve I wouldn't ask them and this desire is really strong

I have been trying to WILD for a while and what I have got is feeling feeling numb and it kind of feels like I wouldn't be able to move my muscles but I can quite easily (this is not SP)

I also have spontaneous twitches.

I can seemingly flying downwards and in other directions but mostly downwards while in my bed. These instances appear to be mostly from my own willpower/imagination but it doesn't always come when I want it to.

I have pretty much no HI except from an image after about 450 -- I'm dreaming things which seem to take roughly 5 seconds each but once I get a couple of these (which are widely spaced out) it just disappears and I seem to be right where I started again.

I don't even give up 5 minutes after I started, I do swallow every now and then but I don't think it would completely destroy the time that I spent on it and I can swallow while having the flying feeling and it continues. I also have a positive mind and actually think/know that I will be able to get a WILD that night. I have lay there for nearly 2 hours and nothing happens except from said things. The closest I have got to a WILD is actually falling asleep by accident while doing it and having a DILD instead

Are there other people who just seem to get stuck like me and if there is, is there any way to get past this or something? I would try DILDS but they don't seem to be quite what I want.