Haha, I've been crazy before, right now it's residual (not active), I haven't became lucid yet, but I'm quite paranoid it could push me off the mental edge again.. IMJ what you explained is scarily like how I was when I had my mental break, you kind of do life second, but think first.
I don't really believe in schizophrenia, I believe in Carl Jung's theory of The Soul In Crisis
What is Schizophrenia (According to Jung) : A good question, with no simple, short, or straightforward answer, since each sufferer is unique and schizophrenia is a complex phenomenon. In general, schizophrenia is an extremely introverted, psychospiritual mode of perception, or way of relating to the world; or state of consciousness involving (what I have called) 'extreme empathy'. This simultaneous blessing and curse is due to a fragile, fragmented, dead, or lost ego, or conscious personality structure. The normal, ego-enforced boundaries between the self and the world have broken down, such that schizophrenia sufferers - for better and worse - find themselves identifying with everything within their scope of perception. It is because of this ego loss, or 'dis-integration' that psychosis, shamanic initiation and mystical experience are so inextricably bound. The schizophrenic person may appear to family, friends and doctors to be lacking in emotion, but in reality is in a state of intense empathy, such that extreme sensations of joy and fear are usual. Because of their fragile personal boundaries, schizophrenic folk typically see, hear, sense, perceive and understand things that others are unaware of. Secret, or symbolic meanings are seen and heard in everything, and the schizophrenia sufferer typically feels responsible for the fate of the world.
That sounds extremely accurate to how I was feeling, I'm not sure if any other residual "schizophrenics" are here, but this seems to be in dispute, is there anyone here who might've gone off the deep end before and still LD's? I'm very scared of WILD's because of the HH, my mind can't really control 100% of it's visualizations, and I believe that it's because my conscious mind wants it to be stable, and so I wrestle it for control, and it ends up in fear, which ends up in dark images, scary things.
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