365 days w/o Jerking Off: A self control challenge

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NJOC: 263 NPOP: 46-27 Easy going.

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NJOC: 264 NPOP: 47-48 Not a lot to say. I was watching a music video about Cricket (the sport) and then there was a seductive female in it to the cricket players which I didn't expect but I wasn't going to J.O. - it's more of a "Yeah, I see that and that's a temptation but I'm still refusing" thing. I've refused cam girls and/or bots on Skype before I started this challenge too.

[OvertheMoon888]

Honestly, I'm a woman and I don't think I can complete this challenge. Yikes!

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Honestly, I'm a woman and I don't think I can complete this challenge. Yikes! It was the most difficult for me in the first three to four months. After six months it just felt more like life without as much effort to continue. At that point I had already traveled lots of bridges past where I once was and I was just plain better at saying no to it. It's like learning how to walk, read or play a musical instrument. I used to be like a baby with a guitar but that was a while ago now. One other thing that I'm not sure pertains is that I eat a lot of organic food, I never go to McDonald's and whatnot to eat so it's not like I have an unhealthy junk food addiction. Oh and since I'm here, current readings are a bit greater than 264.5 and 47.5-48.5. *EDIT* Post- 9 P.M.: NJOC: 265 NPOP: 48-49 (maybe?) Does my second challenge still count now that I viewed a comic which had implied sex in it while not showing any? There wasn't even nudity. I think so?

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Njoc: 266 Npop: 49-50 I'm under 100 days from the end of phase 1.

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Njoc: 267 npop: 50-51

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NJOC: 268 NPOP: 51-52 At one point I thought I was looking at something in Google Images which was pornographic but it wasn't.

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NJOC: 269 NPOP: ??? (would be or would have been 52-53, read on) That comic I was reading (see #1829, a few replies above this one) which I mentioned had an update and now it's gone NSFW again but maybe not quite explicit? I was aware the comic might show this again and it's at least borderline pornographic without quite crossing the line even though it's no mystery of what's going on in the comic. I'm not sure if I can count any more of the secondary challenge in the same run since I did continue to read the comic after realizing it might do this again but was hoping it wouldn't even though the artist said something reflecting its nature though I wasn't sure if he was being sarcastic or not.

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NJOC: 270 Not sure if I can count the other challenge now but I got to 51 at least.

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NJOC: 271.5 I'm still not sure I can count the comic I was looking at as R34. It's borderline but doesn't leave any question. Still, I am avoiding porn as much as possible. I wonder what effects it'll have to not view it in my life?

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NJOC: 269 NPOP: ??? (would be or would have been 52-53, read on) That comic I was reading (see #1829, a few replies above this one) which I mentioned had an update and now it's gone NSFW again but maybe not quite explicit? I was aware the comic might show this again and it's at least borderline pornographic without quite crossing the line even though it's no mystery of what's going on in the comic. I'm not sure if I can count any more of the secondary challenge in the same run since I did continue to read the comic after realizing it might do this again but was hoping it wouldn't even though the artist said something reflecting its nature though I wasn't sure if he was being sarcastic or not. OK, NPOP still counts sort of? The comic turned out to be a bait and switch section and the character was only getting a massage. In short I was dumb. NJOC: 273 NPOP: 56-57

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NJOC: 275 NPOP: 58-59 I can literally say it's nine months since. I'm 75% done with round 1.

[Sozu]

I've had this thread in subscription for years, sometimes looked into it. But now it's time for me to join in - with inspiration from a guy I mirin, who made videos before about NO PORN, now he yet again makes video with some advices on quitting. Due his words of wisdom and joocey gains - I join him and all of you in this thread as a true friend. From now on - no jerking off. Here's video for all of you for some advice he have on it.

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I watched the video, I'm thinking now suppose "Wizard casts PORN" well then, "I BLOCK it 100% with my EVERY DIRECTION SHIELD" (imagine it like the shield in Psychonauts if you know that game.) Some days ago I dreamed I was Boomhauer from King of the Hill. I've noticed girls looking more attractive lately but at the same time I think I overshot which is why I dreamed of being Boomhauer who was being chased by some entity that was moving scrap cars around, scaring me. With that said, NJOC: 282 NPOP: 65-66 I wonder how it might be after another two months without porn. in another dream after the Boomhauer one I literally resisted looking at porn in a dream, remembering my devotion. Just a hair under 18 more days until I hit the 300 days mark on challenge one, whee.

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I stopped replying as frequently. I felt I didn't really have to, that it was OK to not do so. NJOC: 289 NPOP: 72-73

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NJOC: 294 NPOP: 77-78 I'm just checking in. Maybe the next time I do will be Monday (the 31st) or even Wednesday (November 2nd) the latter which would be ten months/over 300 days. Either way, I'm near 300 days without J.O. so it's a significant change to life. I feel like a completely different person without as much depression, without as many suicidal feelings (they didn't leave completely though the're greatly reduced) and I can say not even thoughts of J.O. have tempted me lately. Now if only I'd stop taking the vulgarity in RegularCarReviews' videos so seriously. I think I will, yep. I was watching that channel's videos out of interest for cars in a sometimes satirical manner but it's also set my mind to thoughts I don't want to have sometimes akin to as if I were viewing porn again. It doesn't help that I dreamed sometime after post #1849 of looking at porn - though I was wondering "Why am I here?" at the same time. Going on and out to those "neighborhoods" is like abandonment of self-control I believe. I think I'll take a break from RCR videos.

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NJOC: 304 NPOP: 87-88 It's pretty nice here and I've been working on things (cars, mostly) lately. It's been over ten months for challenge 1 now.

[Saizaphod]

day 263

[Therome]

Starting day 1, wish me luck guys!

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Starting day 1, wish me luck guys! Yes, I do wish you complete luck in this endeavor!

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NJOC: 304 NPOP: 87-88 It's pretty nice here and I've been working on things (cars, mostly) lately. It's been over ten months for challenge 1 now. NJOC: 313 NPOP: 96-97 Yes.

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NJOC: 313 NPOP: 96-97 Yes. NJOC: 319 NPOP: 102-103 Another yes!

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NJOC: 319 NPOP: 102-103 Another yes! NJOC: 320 NPOP: 103-104 OK, Here I hit a temptation. I planted it in my own mind though, it's not as if I was looking up R34 but was thinking of it from the "archives" of having previously seen it. Here comes the same answer as it was months ago; if I think of it then it may multiply. I also felt depressed again because of my own actions which I wholeheartedly admit. Ancient wisdom; "Why did you go after something which only brings ruin?" Proverbs 11:3; "The integrity of the upright guides them, but the unfaithful are destroyed by their duplicity." Proverbs 11:6; "The righteousness of the upright delivers them, but the unfaithful are trapped by evil desires." (maybe the latter part of that proverb would be better said as "comparably, those unfaithful are trapped by deadly desires" like a drug addiction.) There's also the whole chapter of Proverbs 7 as warning against... Something similar: https://www.biblegateway.com/passage...+7&version=NIV

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Oh, I didn't post the reply I had yesterday. NJOC: 330 NPOP: 113-114 The latter challenge I took on, I'm finding, still counts as I intended it to be not physically looking at porn on purpose but if I thought of porn on purpose the effects are still just the same; I then find my own behavior in public is different. Well then. ... I'm not going to mock the idea of not thinking of it but to put it in a calm 1950s summer day movie way (what am I even saying here?) I can still find a way through without killing myself physically, mentally or in heart so I will it.

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NJOC: 334 NPOP: 117-118 Eleven months completed and over 90%.