Did I almost have an LD?

[mdspencer68]

I think I almost had an LD, but I'm not sure. This is going to take awhile to explain. I got up this morning around quarter to six. I usually get up at seven, but today was trash day in my neighborhood, so I had to put out the trash. I got back in bed and did a MILD, as I have been doing for the past couple of days. I don't remember how the dream started, but I found myself in the hallway of a hotel, and all of a sudden I had strong sense that I might be dreaming. It wasn't like I was mindlessly thinking this. I could actually feel it. Conveniently there was a piece of paper on one of the hotel doors with text on it. But I noticed, at the end of the hall near some elevators, there were to women arguing furiously about something. I felt that I needed pure concentration to do the RC with the paper so walked towards the to ladies and asked if they could take their argument somewhere else. i can't remember if they said anything back, but they got on the elevator and left. I walked back to the door and noticed that most of the paper was covered with some kind of mirror like surface. I looked into the reflection, but instead of my face I saw a woman's. When I looked at the text at the bottom of the paper it read, 'Be aware of." I took my eyes off it for a second and when I looked back the letters started morphing into these weird looking squares. Now, here'e the part where I'm a little confused about. At that moment I didn't feel a sudden sense of great awareness, although I felt it spike just a little for a second. I've read how people described their first LD, how they had a sudden rush of excitement. That didn't happen to me, but for some reason I said to myself out loud, "Oh my God, I'm dreaming." I wonder if this was my subconscious f'ing with me. I had a feeling of disappointment, but for some reason I tried to make it happen. And I know it doesn't work that way, but I still tried. Just as I'm doing this, the scene changes to me in bed having a FA. I was laying on my side, like I was when I fell asleep. Next to the bed was a long wooden pole that went up to the ceiling. There were two metal bars on the side of it. As I was continuing naively to force the LD, the pole became very vivid. Then, just as fast, faded back to looking vague. Now, here's where the really freaky shit happened. All of a sudden I was hit a barrage of what looked like micro dreams. It was as if my subconscious took three to five second samples of a few dreams and played them in rapid sequence. The only one I remember is the last one, which was a little longer. I was in an alley where I was having a knife fight with a life size Burt, from Sesame Street. Only he had a light purplish color. What struck me was how vivid he was. He was so vivid, I could make out the stitching in the cloth of his head. You know how if you look at a ragdoll real close you could see the threading of the cloth. Then suddenly it stopped and switched to another dream in an apartment room where I am on some kind of Real World type of reality show, which featured rapper LL Cool J. It was at this point where I lost all sense of awareness. So, the question is, did I almost have an LD. And could it have been the result of doing a MILD?

[fennecgirl]

I said to myself out loud, "Oh my God, I'm dreaming." Yeah, you had an LD.

[mdspencer68]

Really? Based on what I've read, it takes more than just saying that.

[gab]

Now, here'e the part where I'm a little confused about. At that moment I didn't feel a sudden sense of great awareness, although I felt it spike just a little for a second. I've read how people described their first LD, how they had a sudden rush of excitement. That didn't happen to me, but for some reason I said to myself out loud, "Oh my God, I'm dreaming." I wonder if this was my subconscious f'ing with me. I think you were lucid. Although I have always had the rush of excitement in my first LDs, maybe that's not the rule. Little later on, I remember not getting excited, but saying something like "finally". But this excitement at least for me, is only for DILDs. I have not felt it in WILDs, since you enter WILD without loss of awareness, so it's not much of a surprise for you to be in a lucid. All of a sudden I was hit a barrage of what looked like micro dreams. It was as if my subconscious took three to five second samples of a few dreams and played them in rapid sequence. Not sure what exactly that was, but this sounds like the little dreamlets you get just before you enter LD. I have had some of these and they were in HD, extremely vivid and detailed. When I see these, and they are big enough, so they cover my whole field of vision, I pick one of them and enter it as LD. So congrats! Happy dreams

[mdspencer68]

I think you were lucid. Although I have always had the rush of excitement in my first LDs, maybe that's not the rule. Little later on, I remember not getting excited, but saying something like "finally". But this excitement at least for me, is only for DILDs. I have not felt it in WILDs, since you enter WILD without loss of awareness, so it's not much of a surprise for you to be in a lucid. Really? Awesome! Not sure what exactly that was, but this sounds like the little dreamlets you get just before you enter LD. I have had some of these and they were in HD, extremely vivid and detailed. When I see these, and they are big enough, so they cover my whole field of vision, I pick one of them and enter it as LD. I'm not sure either, but it was freaky as hell. So congrats! Happy dreams Thanks.

[Komisoft]

The rush of excitement depends on your personality I think... In my 5 LD's I have never had that rush, I just simply say "Right, I'm dreaming..." then I go onto my thing. It actually reflects my personality in real life, I never get excited in real life. "We are going to florida! " I'd just reply "Yeah cool...". At christmas last year, I was not excited at all... I assume that my boring personality makes that rush just...go away? If you're not boring, then I guess it's just me But it did seem like a lucid, congratulations and happy dreams

[mdspencer68]

The rush of excitement depends on your personality I think... In my 5 LD's I have never had that rush, I just simply say "Right, I'm dreaming..." then I go onto my thing. It actually reflects my personality in real life, I never get excited in real life. "We are going to florida! " I'd just reply "Yeah cool...". At christmas last year, I was not excited at all... I assume that my boring personality makes that rush just...go away? If you're not boring, then I guess it's just me You know, for the past twenty minutes, I've been thinking that myself. Like you, I don't easily get excited. It's like how people would react to winning the mega millions. I've told people I know that I would never jump up and down and running around the house screaming, "I WON, I WON!" These same people thought I was crazy, but it's true, nothing in real life gets me really excited. So, I guess that transfers into dreams. Who knows? But it did seem like a lucid, congratulations and happy dreams Thanks

[faceonmars]

Semi-lucid... you were almost there. Keep up the MILD. When you have a vivid lucid dream you will not need to ask the question in this forum. You will just know!

[mdspencer68]

Semi-lucid... you were almost there. Keep up the MILD. When you have a vivid lucid dream you will not need to ask the question in this forum. You will just know! Actually, this is what it seemed more like, at least to me. Thanks.

[Robot_Butler]

That was a lucid dream. It sounds like it was brief, but you were in control of your actions, made a conscious decision to reality check, and then realized it was a dream. When you reality check during the day, try to hold onto the awareness. It might help you hold onto the lucidity when you become lucid.

[mdspencer68]

I'll do that. Thanks.