I must say that i know exactly how you feel, but at the end of the day its not as if its never going to happen, if you stay calm and collective about the whole situation you will get far with lucid dreaming, giving up will only make you feel worse about it, keep at it, the reward you get from the experience makes you stronger an more able to deal with it in future! Best of luck to you though, and keep on trying, stick with one thing and keep at what your best at