In the right conditions, I can meditate and get lucid. This only works about ten percent of the time, since I find meditating very hard to do. Usually I can't find anything to focus on. When the conditions are right, and I know I am in the zone, I usually try to go AP, but can't seem to even lift my energy out of my finger, and end up just lifting my finger. Any who, I was wondering if this is normal.

When I meditate, after awhile, if done right, I will start to feel good in my body, could be described as mild euphoria. Secondly, I will start to feel my bed like.. shaking under me (I usually think of the exorcist movie when this happens ). Lastly, if I manage to stay awake, I will feel like my whole body is buzzing; I may also feel like my body is sinking, my insides are electric yellow, and some other subtle things but it is hard to remember. This is usually when I know I reached a different frequency.

Some other things I have experienced are, I hear a very high pitched buzzing/ring in my right ear, all the black gooey stuff will clear up*, Will see flashes of images of random people/things^1, hear random voices/shouting^2

Lastly, and by far THE most freaky indication I have experienced during meditation, I will be just chilling meditating, and out of nowhere I will hear this very loud "click"^3 that will sound like when you turn on a warehouse of lights (but instead of a sequence of them turning on since they are in rows, it was only one large click/bang as if only one row/set of lights was turned on).

After this click/mellow bang, a very bright light, a color of light like no other (almost heavenly) will "turn on". This light will start small, and begin to grow at a semi-rapid pace, eventually growing to the point of engulfing my entire mind space. Now this might not sound extreme, but to go from a very conscious meditative state, watching little purple blobs, to seeing nothing but a holy bright white light, was a very... exhilarating experience.

Any who, the point of this whole thing was to see if anyone could explain any this, if anyone has experienced any of this, or if any of this is normal or not normal.

P.S. Sorry for my lack of grammical skills.

P.S.S. Any help or questions are greatly appreciated




*When I close my eyes, I have two main colors, purple and black. They usually just like melt around and make different blobby shapes. This is kinda the same thing as all those little stars and fuzziness you see. Maybe you don't get this, but when I do close my eyes they don't go completely black, unless the purple or black clears up during meditation.

^1 will happen a lot more than ^2. ^2 scares the shit out of me.

^3 I say click for the lack of a better word, click sounds far to weak.