No, not the guy from the projects who's climbin' in your windows...
I am posting this here because it doesn't belong in the Lucid Dream category nor the General Dream category, yet is a phenomena I've experienced up to five times now while sleeping. It's not a dream, yet it isn't real, because when it's over, I wake up in bed in the position I had gone to sleep in. I believe this is occurring on what WakingNomad calls the astral plane, the half-dream-half-real plane.
Basically, I've been attacked multiple times in bed by a "person" I've decided to call the Bed Assailant. I just had two attacks while trying to LD this afternoon. I've never seen her (after today, I've somehow decided that it's a woman). She doesn't seem to have a physical body. It's all a feeling. Yet her assaults feel extremely real. The first time it happened, I thought an actual person had climbed through the window and gotten on top of me under the sheets. Then I woke up and saw nothing.
It basically feels like attempted rape. She feels me up and sexually harasses me, and as I'm sleep-paralyzed, I can't fight back. It's not a dream, as it feels like it's actually happening on my real bed. But this afternoon I fought back by jumping at her from behind. (I still didn't see her.) And when I woke up, I wasn't prone but supine, in the exact same position I had gone to sleep in. Thus it's not real either.
I just have no idea how to explain this. I've done searches on Google, and there are no similar experiences. From what I've seen, I don't think there are any similar experiences documented on this site either. My parents think I'm too tired. But I think it's not that simple. Maybe one of you has felt something in a similar state, however.
What further leads me to think this is an occurrence in the astral plane is that I had been on the verge of an OBE this afternoon. I saw that my hand had an ethereal hand on top of it, meaning my dream body was almost out, and I tried to roll the dream body out of the real body, to no success. Then the assailant attacked.
Another possibility, however, is that this attack is part of my hypnagogic hallucinations (although I've never read anything like it). After I woke up from that attack, I went back to sleep again and I started to hear a huge static/dentist drill sound that hurt my head. I tried to make myself enter a dream scene, but it never came. Instead the assailant returned. I decided to let her have her way, but she didn't want to do me. She was feeling me but then poked two sharp fingers into my left arm, which hurt. So I fought back and then woke up, as I had said above.
I used to fear attacks from this assailant, but now I just don't know what to think of her and what I should do. I'm just totally confused. And well... it still is rather scary when it happens.
I need help here.
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