Krista's Dream Journal

Dream - Lucid

I know there was more to this dream than this, but this is all I can really recall right now.

I was in what looked like a bedroom. The carpets were dark red. I remembered something from my waking life (which happens quite a bit in my regular dreams as well as lucid), and that somehow got my brain to the conclusion that I was dreaming.

I started to walk through the room, and the right side of my vision went out. I started trying to get it back, but it felt like my eye was shut so tightly, that it would open my real eye if I tried too hard. I decided to wait it out.

I walked by a bed that was on my right. In front of me, was...me. I was there, sitting on the floor. My hair was pulled back into a ponytail, I was wearing a white shirt, and I was sitting Indian-style on the floor, looking at me and smiling. Curious, I approached myself, hoping to ask some questions.

By this point, my vision had fixed itself.

I came up to myself sitting on the floor. I looked, and where I had been sitting there was now some sort of kitchen appliance machine still in its box instead. The box was white and was in a shopping bag. Weird. I started trying to figure out what that could have meant.

I then was outside in the daytime. I saw a huge, clear, beautifully vivid rainbow. I was with someone, my dad I think. He was standing in front of and facing me. I told him to turn around and look, because I could see that the rainbow was about to fade. The sun started to set very quickly as the sky turned orange and red. The rainbow's colors darkened but were still vivid. My dad turned to look, and the rainbow started to morph. The top of the rainbow started to break up and turn until it was a bunch of vertically-facing dark-colored bands sitting on top of the rest of the rainbow. My dad pointed out what was going on extremely matter-of-factly, but I can't remember what he said.

Dream - Lucid

I was laying in my bed on my stomach. Paul was sleeping next to me. I hoped he didn't try anything.

Then, it was morning, and we were up and out of bed. Brittany, a girl I met in one of my classes, laughed and said Paul had stayed at my house every night. She was right. I thought about it, and he had. I didn't understand why though. I mean, nothing had ever really happened between us or anything.

We were then laying in bed again. I was laying on my stomach, and I felt Paul put his arm over me and kinda cuddle me. I was so tired I didn't fight it. Paul then said something about us partying all night and staying up till dawn. I told him I couldn't because I had a test in the morning. He kept on talking about it anyway.

Another morning came. We were both up and about again. I looked at Paul, and all he was wearing were these mustard yellow boxers. I didn't look at him for too long; I didn't want him to get the wrong idea. I quickly averted my eyes.

I then went to class. I was in this big auditorium that reminded me of my old middle school auditorium.

Then, I was in bed again, and figured out I was dreaming. I looked around, and the TV was in the wrong place. I then did I finger count: 5 on the right hand, 6 on the left. I got up out of bed and went to phase through a wall, hoping it would take me somewhere else.

I was too hasty and didn't think through were I wanted to go, however, and things went black. I was in bed again after a few seconds of darkness, but I was still aware that I was dreaming. I decided to go get my brother and show him around the world of lucid dreaming. I got up out of my bed and hovered a little. I then went to my door to exit the room. I decided to not phase through it this time since the last time ended in blackness. I turned the handle, first doing another finger count.

I then was in my brother's room, trying to get his dream body out of bed. I don't remember much else from this part of the dream.

The next thing I know, I'm standing in front of a mirror. I look at my reflection, bu I discover that I look totally different. My hair is much darker, straighter, and longer, and my face looked much different and a bit younger. I concentrated a little more on it, and I started to be able to recognize my eyes on the unknown face staring back at me in the mirror.

I then decided to try something I've always heard about, but have never had experience with. A lot of people have told me that when they see their reflection in their dreams, it's horrible, disgusting, and terrifying. I've never had that experience, so I decided to try something to see what would happen. I said, out loud to my reflection,
"I want to face my demons. Show me my demons."
My face started to morph and change, every so often stopping in a distorted position. It would enlongate, flatten, my eyes would shrink, my face at one point looked kind of like an ass, etc. It just kept doing that. I could even feel it happening physically.

However, it wasn't scary. Just kinda weird.

I was then in a room somewhere. I felt the dream losing stability, so I started to feel and concentrate on my surroundings. I ran my hand over a glass surface, focusing on how real the glass felt. Below the glass was a metal surface. I did the same for that. I felt the cold, shiny metal under my fingers. It made the dream feel more stable.

Dream - Lucid

I was with my friend Paul. It was somewhere that I was spending the night for some reason. We were upstairs in some kind of bonus room. The only light in the room was a desk lamp at a desk Paul was sitting at. I was really tired, and laying on the floor on some blankets. I had a pillow as well. Paul was sitting in a desk chair which was turned towards me. We had been talking, but I don't remember about what. At some point, he was even massaging my feet. I hoped that he didn't think they were gross.

Then, I was so tired, I just decided to close my eyes and go to sleep.

I was then...I'm not really sure. I was in some white room that looked futuristic. We may have even been in space. This is where I figured out that space velociraptors had taken over the Earth. It was sometime in the future. The world was also running out of its water supply.

Even though these space raptors had taken over the planet, there were plenty of humans left. The thing was, they were living in constant fear. If the humans went outside, they were fair game to be eaten. People were getting picked off one by one. It was a horrible state.

I was told by some guy that we had to go back and get some people. We were then on Earth (a couple of men and myself) in my backyard. It was quiet, and the sky was grey. I knew we didn't need to be outside, though there were no raptors in sight; being outside was risky business in these times. I saw my brother at some point; he was helping us out.

I was then in my house. I don't really know what we needed the people for, but I was in there to get them. I walked through my kitchen, and then into my living room. It was quiet; I didn't see anyone inside. I saw some of the people who came with me outside through the windows.

I then felt like I lived there. I felt scared for my life. I felt the fear of the people of Earth.

Suddenly, through one of the windows, I saw them. A pack of raptors was running through my backyard. They were red with black, stripe-like markings on their backs. My breath caught in my throat and I dropped to the floor on my hands and knees. I frantically tried to crawl away from the windows, and ended up seeing some more passing through the front yard through the windows in our piano room. I felt like their vision was based on movement, so I tried to be still as I laid low. One of the raptors looked around as it passed. I hoped it didn't see me.

I started to panic, and immediately became lucid. I tried to think myself awake, but that wasn't enough. I started to say it out loud.
"Wake up, Krista. Wake up. Wake up!"
At first it didn't work. I closed my eyes and opened them in the exact same scene I had been in before.

Then, I closed my eyes and opened them again, finding myself back in the room with Paul. I was so relieved, but extremely sleepy. I looked next to me and noticed that Paul was laying on his stomach reading next to me on the blanket that I was also laying on. On the other side of Paul was a small child, a little boy. I think it was his nephew. I thought Paul was probably trying to make a move on me or something, but I didn't really care at that point. I was so tired that all I wanted to do was sleep. I turned to lay on my stomach as I cuddled my pillow a little. I moved a little closer to Paul, in a way hoping that he would cuddle with me.

I then fell asleep again.

I was back where I had been, but I didn't feel as scared because I knew I was dreaming. Part of me just wanted to let the dream play out a little more, so I didn't really do anything to control it.

I was then on the Earth mission again, but I was at a different house this time. I knew I was dreaming, so I knew no one was in any real danger. I quickly decided to try to transform myself. I'd never done that before. For some reason, I decided to try to transform myself into Pikachu. Why I decided on Pikachu is absolutely beyond me. I concentrated for awhile, but it wouldn't work. I stood in front of a mirror to try to guide the transformation by watching myself. The best I got was one of my legs started to turn yellow at the thigh. I tried for my other leg, but no dice.

I then went away from the mirror and tried to shrink myself, seeing if I could do it that way. I shrank a little, but just ended up squatting on the floor. I then laid on my back to try to watch my legs shrink. Nope, no dice. Grr.

I was then in the white futuristic room again. I was told that the raptors had not originally come to kill, but when they got to Earth, they saw us and felt sorry for our species because we were so stupid and blind, and decided to take over the world and kill us. I also figured out that the world's water supply was pretty much out; someone said they didn't know for sure, but had heard someone on Earth, referring to the water, say
"Oh shit."

I then was at my college, about to play a woodwind concert for band. I was holding my clarinet. I was walking down a bright hallway, when I saw the trombone players start to walk towards me, going on to play the brass portion of the concert. I then saw Austin (my ex in waking life who really does play trombone). His hair was shorter and he looked a lot younger. He wasn't wearing glasses either, as he usually is in waking life. I walked right by him, and he looked right at me. I then noticed that he had gotten shorter....waaaay shorter. In fact, as he walked by me, I turned around and he had shrunken a TON. I figured it was an illusion and he did it to himself. On top he was wearing a suit jacket, white shirt and tie, but on the bottom, he was wearing these baggy black pants with tons of ropes or belts that went from one leg to the other. I figured he had used those to make it look like he was way shorter.

Embarrassed, I turned to a friend and said
"I can't believe I'm dating him."

Dream - Lucid

I remember I was going to give my friend who just got married, Christina, a wedding present. I was going to the coffee shop where I work to give it to her, but then figured out I left the gift at my house. Kacey gave me a card that she was going to give to her. I didn't want to give it to her, because I wanted to give her my gift.

I remember being in the coffee shop and telling Christina congratulations. I did end up giving her Kacey's card. The card had a very complicated wrapping process. It was strange. I remember Christina opening it at my house. I then gave her a CD, and told her I had another one that I thought she'd like. The second CD was actually a video game.

I then remember doing these weird chemical tests. They had something to do with the way toilets flushed. I had to take samples of the water, and put them into a small test tube of dye. If the toilets flushed down, then the dye would turn green. If they flushed up, the dye would turn blue. Most of my tests in flushing the toilet resulted in the water going down resulting in green results, but I did get some blue results. I remember also being outside in a field with another scientist performing tests on the solutions we had gotten.

We were then driving around town, listening to music on the radio. The station we were listening to was only playing a minute or so of each song. We were in some parking garage, and I gave 2 of my test samples to some guy, whose name was Simon, as we drove by. The scientist I was with asked me what I did. I told him I gave them to Simon. He said that I'd need to get them back. I told him I would.

I remember seeing the samples labeled "Tornado #_ _ _ _" (each had a 4 digit number after the word 'tornado').

I then remember being in my house in the very middle of the staircase. I floated upwards, but could not go through the ceiling. I thought that was weird, I should be able to do that! I then tried to go down through the floor. That I could do. I went through the stairs into a small, dark area. It almost felt a little warmer down there. I contemplated going lower. I then floated back up, and tried again to go through the ceiling. The ceiling moved a little under the pressure I put on it. It cracked a little bit and seemed to glow green.

I also remember Christina getting annoyed with me for some reason.

I wonder why floating didn't induce lucidity? Meh. I haven't been lucid in a few weeks now. I think I've just had too much on my mind. -_-

Dream - Lucid

I was in a room with some other people. I think Austin was there. I remember hearing something on a radio about a car accident, a really bad one about a lady losing her arm. The radio was live, playing what the police and paramedics were saying. I remember hearing them saying
"Pick it up!"
They were talking about her arm.

While listening to this, I was watching my cat, Belle. There was an open hole in the middle of the room that resembled our tornado shelter in waking life, except for it was a bottomless pit. It did have a cover like our shelter, however, but the cover wasn't on it. Belle was playing around the hole. I watched her try to jump, lose her footing, then fall down the hole. I started crying.
"Belle! She's gone forever!"
I was very upset. I then turned back to the hole, and Belle was sitting beside it. I guess she didn't fall down the hole after all. She then did the same thing again, jumping around the hole then falling down, me crying, and her reappearing. I then slid the cover over the pit.

I then remember seeing the lady who had been in the accident. They had sewed her arm back on. She had a band wrapped around the crook of her arm where it had previously been severed. Her arms looked toned and muscular.

Dream - Lucid

I was in my porch. For some reason, I needed to make a dress...out of wood? I didn't fully understand it in the dream either, but I guess that's dreams for ya.

Anyway, I went outside into the backyard to see if I could find a tree I could use. My mom was there too. We were discussing which one my dad wouldn't mind us cutting down. There's one that we were thinking would be perfect, it's in the right corner of the yard. It had a name, but I don't remember what it was.

I don't remember how this happened, but we had a lot of boards of wood. I remember seeing it in neat piles. The wood was then somehow carved into the shape of a giant person. I feel like my mom did this. It was almost mannequin-like, but with a little more detail. It was somehow alive, and I had to fight it. It was really bizarre. I was in the porch again, and the wood-person was in the kitchen (attached to the porch). My mom was there, not sure if she was fighting it or not, but she was in the kitchen with it. I suddenly had a sword, and when I hit the giant wood-person with the sword, it bounced off. Duh, it's wood. But it was supposed to work, at least that's what I understood. The wood-person had a knife and was trying to fight me with the knife.

I then remember the sword getting hit out of my hand, or I dropped it. Either way, I didn't have it anymore. I remember the wood-person talking to me about the sword and how it was trying to decide which knife to use. It pulled out a variety of knives as I looked for my sword. I picked up what looked like a very short sword, but I didn't think it was mine. I remembered mine being longer.

~

I was waking up in a hospital bed. Next to me, in another bed, was my coworker, Shelly. I remember feeling my chest hurt. I then figured out that we had heart surgery. I don't remember why, but we did. The doctor, who was a girl my age, I think she was someone I know but I can't remember who, told me she put Shelly and I "in sync" with each other, meaning that we would think the same way for awhile. It was interesting.

I remember us getting up out of our beds, and leaving the hospital. We were on the exact same wavelength! It was so awesome, we were laughing and carrying on and having a good time. I could feel our hearts beating together at the exact same pace at the exact same time. We were basically finishing each other's sentences. I remember us walking inside some school that looked like my old middle school. We were so happy! We kept telling everyone that we were "in sync". I remember something about a video game system and its games...I think it was the SNES.

Then, I remember the "in sync"-ness starting to wear off. We were still getting along, but it wasn't nearly as well and we weren't as joyful anymore. I remember wanting that "in sync"-ness back. I thought maybe the doctor could reset it.

Throughout the dream, I kept feeling random pains in my chest. I had kept forgetting that I had had heart surgery. The pain reminded me, though.

Dream - Lucid

I remember being outside at night with my friend Dakota. Someone else was there too, but I can't remember who. We were having to fight zombies. It was like a video game, where we had to kill these different types of zombies in one level to get to the next one. In this level, one of the first levels (there were 1 or 2 before this one), there were 3 different types of zombies to kill, each type deadlier and harder to kill than the last, and we only had a limited amount of ammo.

I remember before we went out into the level (we were just hanging out behind something so the zombies wouldn't see us), I was telling Dakota about what I did in the previous level (Dakota had gone through it already; he was at this level way before me). It had a beach on it, and I told him that after killing a few zombies, I laid down on the beach. If zombies came up after that, I'd just take them out. That level really wasn't that hard compared to the one we were in now.

I remember seeing, at some point, Dakota or the other person that was with us, fighting with someone's mom, I don't remember if it was Dakota's mom or the other guy's mom. But they were arguing about when they had to be home by.

Alright, back to the zombies. First, I remember talking to Dakota about what would happen if we lost all our lives. I asked him something about if we'd just come back or if we'd really die. He said if we lost all of our lives, we'd really die. It was real life, after all.

We decided to go out and kill some zombies. We went out from behind our little area. The zombies started to come out. We were shooting down the easier ones to kill. Not too bad, but then we got to the last ones. They didn't look like zombies, but more like almost invisible aliens with this big blue light streak going horizontally through their mid-sections. Dakota was telling me to shoot them, trying to instruct me what to do. I was trying to take one down, but he kept hitting me. I finally ran out of ammo and then energy, and died. I thought I was dying for real, because I thought it was my last life. But then, I was back where we started, sitting behind something with Dakota. We had been so close to completing the level!

I remember coming out from behind our little area a few times and killing off the easier zombies. Those crazy alien-like ones were really difficult to kill, and were very aggressive. We were trying to prepare ourselves for that.

Dream - Lucid

I remember being with a friend I met last semester, Windy. We were outside taking a Data Analysis test. The only way I knew it was Data Analysis was because my teacher from that class was giving the test. It was a strange test; we had to go to different "stations" and answer questions about the stations. It was a lot of fill-in-the-blank. I remember feeling pretty good about most of the test.

Then, Windy and I got to a station where I remember there being a GIANT pair of scissors, and a measuring tape that was outstretched a few feet. Windy was trying to get the scissors to cut, but it was proving to be very difficult, seeing as they were so huge. She finally, slowly got them to cut. They severed the measuring tape. She had to go tell the teacher what she had accidentally done.

At some point during all this, I remember seeing my face in the mirror, and seeing that the right half of it looked weird and saggy. My eye looked really messed up. I started to freak out, thinking my Bell's Palsy had come back. I remember asking my mom if my eye looked weird. I don't remember what she said. I do remember trying to move my face a few times though, and the right side would barely move.

~

I then woke up, and decided as I was drifting back off that I was going to become lucid. I felt my body fall asleep, and I entered another dream.

Windy was there again. It took me a minute to get my bearings, but I remembered I needed to reality check. I did my finger count, and ended up with 8 or 9 fingers. I was dreaming! I said to Windy
"Windy...look at your hands!"
She did indeed look at them, and a look of wonder came over her face.
"I have 6 fingers!", she said.
"It's because you're dreaming!", I replied.
She laughed and said something else, though I can't remember exactly what it was.

I then remember us having to rescue all these people who were in prison who were innocent. We started the mission, but I woke up.

Or at least I thought I did. I was still dreaming as I woke up standing in some room. Some guy was in there with me. He was talking, though I can't remember what he was saying. I closed my eyes and "fell back asleep" into the dream I had been in before and was immediately lucid.

I was outside somewhere. I kept examining my hands and rubbing them together to ensure that I stayed lucid and aware. Sometimes, though, I counted 5 fingers and would have to redo my check.

Anyway, I wanted to walk on some clouds. I saw some light blue and purple-tinted clouds spilling over the ground, and started to approach them. I climbed up the low, spilling clouds as if they were solid. I remember wanting some special boots to walk on them with, and I remember then having them.

I then "woke up" in the other dream again. I "fell back asleep" and continued my lucid dream.

I was then on the ground again, and I think Windy was there. I remember wanting her to fly with me, but I never asked her to. I remember her laughing as I took off. I started to climb higher and higher into the air. I started to feel like I was going too high and the dream would get lost, so I lowered myself a bit and watched the ground below me. I remember seeing lots of clouds covering a pale blue and pale purple-lit land.

The land then started to disappear until there were only clouds. It was then a cloud world-type place. As I flew, I spotted little islands in the clouds. It was a very beautiful sight. I remember trying to land on an island, but I was flying too fast or something and couldn't get my timing right to land.

Another "wake up" in the other dream. "Fell back asleep".

I was then on the ground. I tried to remember some of my lucid goals, but they were so hard to access. I remembered then that I wanted to try to get to Teraluna with my new portal system. I couldn't find a wall anywhere, so decided to try to draw one in midair.

*Sigh*...another "wake up" and "falling back to sleep" episode.

The next thing I remember is we had rescued all of the innocent prisoners from before. I can't really remember how we did it, I just knew that we had done it. I remember seeing some in a cave with some water running through it. Their prison cell was behind them.

~

I was going to have to go to trial...about my mom's oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. I was appealing a decision that had already been made against my mom. Something about the cookies being misleadingly unhealthy or something to that effect. The person filing against my mom? My first real boyfriend's mom, R.

I remember preparing for the case, which was going to take place in my old high school's auditorium on the stage. I remember not understanding wtf was going on, and why R would do this. It was extremely stupid.

I then remember being on the stage, sitting in a chair. I had a lawyer behind me, and R, also sitting in a chair, had a Lawyer behind her as well. There was no judge or jury present, it was just us 4. I remember R presenting her case. She had a tray full of different kinds of cookies. There were a few that looked old and dark brown. I thought those must be my mom's. I thought "Wait...mom hadn't baked cookies for her in months...those must be from the last trial!". I interrupted R and said
"Aren't those cookies from the last time?", to which she replied
"Yes..."
I then yelled
"Then that evidence doesn't count! That doesn't count!"
I remember her trying to go on about how my mom bakes cookies for her every week and a half. I yelled
"Well, if you don't like them or whatever, why do you keep taking them from my mom? Why don't you just ask her to stop baking for you?"
She just looked at me with this sad, pitiful look on her face. She said something about needing the money. I started going into a rage and started throwing things at her while screaming at her at the same time. I remember some small, chubby child with glasses being there too. I threw stuff at her as well. I was fucking pissed.

I then remember being on some ride. I was sitting in a chair as it went through this flooded hallway. It was about to go down one passage, but a voice said that it couldn't, because it was a dead end. It had to go down some stairs instead. It was supposed to pretend to kill you. I remember someone else being there, I'm pretty sure it was Ryan. I had ridden it before, and knew it was all a part of the ride, but he didn't. He thought I was really going to die. I didn't tell him otherwise, I just decided to let him find out.

The chair took my down the flooded stairs. I ended up at the bottom, and pretended to be dead. Something then happened, something involving an airplane, someone trying to act like this puppet thing was real (it wasn't very convincing). I don't remember details of this part. It was really weird. It was kind of like a video game boss in a way.

Dream - Lucid

I was with a couple of other people in some store, I think it was called American Outfitters. I was shopping for blue jeans. I found a pair I liked; they were a size 23. The saleswoman handed them to me, and I started to head towards the dressing room with the people I was with.

When I entered the dressing room, I saw it was HUGE with a ton of elegant-looking beds of all sizes. There was a stall, one of 2 stalls in the whole dressing room, that I tried to enter, but someone wouldn't let me. So I kept walking, seeing all the beds around me. We stopped at a big, queen-sized bed. I started to change, and someone pointed out that people were staring at me, watching me change. I looked around, and there were indeed lots of older men watching me change. I felt extremely uncomfortable, and tried to tell them to go away and stop watching. I tried to get some of the people I was with to stand in front of me as I tried the pants on. They tried, but there were still all these men staring at me. I remember an overweight black man being one of the men. I eventually just gave up and tried to ignore them as I tried the pants on. They fit perfectly, and I wanted to buy them.

Then, I remember walking off to the side, and seeing this small, light orange ball covered in pink dots. I knew I was supposed to be collecting those. I picked it up, and then saw myself in 3rd person. It was floating above my hands, and phased through my chest. I went back to 1st person as it did that, and I felt it phase through. I was with someone else as I took off to fly over a city. I was laughing as I flew, turning upside down and then back to normal. I think I was supposed to be some kind of superhero.

I then remember feeling myself float back to Earth. I didn't want it to end; I wanted to keep flying! I inevitably landed, however. I went around and did some things, though I can't remember exactly what.

Then, I remember being in a grocery store by the refrigerated section. I looked at my hand to do a relaity check. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 fingers. I'm dreaming! I redid the check. Still too many fingers. I rubbed my hands together.

~

I was in my kitchen with my mom and brother. My brother asked my mom to get some "Skinny Fruit Loops" from the store. Huh? Skinny Fruit Loops? Wtf. Then, there were a ton of "Skinny Fruit Loops" boxes arranged neatly on the floor. I asked my brother
"What are Skinny Fruit Loops?"
He said
"They don't have like 1,000 calories like regular Fruit Loops do." He picked up a box.
I said
"Regular Fruit Loops don't have 1,000 calories..."
"Oh, they don't?", my brother replied.
I remember thinking that the Skinny Fruit Loops probably weren't as good or filling as regular Fruit Loops.

Dream - Lucid

I was at my wedding...I was going to marry Ryan. It was outside in a green field. There were tons of chairs set up. We had never had a rehearsal dinner, so I was kind of worried about how things would go, but I hoped it would work out fine. I thought about being up at the alter, saying my vows. The wedding was to be at noon.

Then, I remember seeing a soccer field that kind of looked like a volleyball court behind where we were supposed to have the ceremony. I remember seeing Kim, a girl I work with, playing soccer with a group of people. My boss told her she wouldn't get credit for something because she wasn't going to be at my wedding. She said she knew. I wasn't really too concerned about it. The only thing was, I thought the game may interfere with the ceremony. Someone kicked a soccerball and it went out of bounds towards me. I took it and threw it back to them.

People started to fill up the empty seats that were set up. I was laying on my stomach to the right of the alter. I was wearing a strapless wedding dress. I noticed that my bridesmaids were all late; I didn't see any of them. The seats were full now...there were tons of people on both sides.

Then, a director by the alter started to direct the organ. The Wedding March started to play. I thought it was just a rehearsal of the music, so I just stayed where I was and watched. But then, I saw Ryan and his groomsmen walking to the alter. I thought about how it was said to be bad luck for the groom to see the bride in her wedding dress before the wedding. I also thought that Ryan must be confused, because this is just a rehearsal...right?

I remember seeing the director quietly counting the beats off to himself as he directed. He then looked at me as if to say "We're waiting for you, get up here!". I started to mouth to him whether or not I needed to be up there or not. Ryan and his groomsmen were standing at the alter. I then remember seeing 3 of my bridesmaids in long, black dresses covered in sequens standing at the alter. They had HUGE tags that the bridesmaids hadn't taken off of them yet. I guessed they were going to return them. I remember Rachel being one of the bridesmaids, and then a girl I barely know in waking life that I went to high school with, Lindsey, being one. I can't remember who the 3rd one was. They still weren't all there though. Upon closer examination of the bridesmaids' dresses, I noticed that they had some crazy, huge headpiece attatched to them. Wtf?

~

I was in a house. I was laying down to go to sleep. My bed was in the kitchen. I remember hearing music play. A woman was cleaning the kitchen, which was only lit by the light above the stove. She laid down next to me and tried to cuddle me. She whispered something in my ear. I said "no" to whatever it is that she said.

Then, I remember seeing Nick. He told me it was a shame that I was getting married, since so many guys liked me.

I then remember being by the kitchen sink. A lizard was swimming in a large glass of dirty water, which was sitting in the sink. The lizard was Kacey's, and I was watching him for her. I dumped out the dirty water in the glass, and filled in with clean water from the tap. The lizard then proceeded to use the bathroom, dirtying the water again. The glass was warm. Gross.

I was then going to fill the sink up with water and let him swim in there, but decided I first needed to put Belle, my cat, away first so she didn't eat him. I asked someone if the "Spanish room" was being used. I then saw my old high school Spanish teacher, Mrs. K. She said no, the room wasn't being used. I thought this was odd for a second, but didn't look too far into it.

I took Belle into the "Spanish room", which was located in the back of the house. It was a beautiful, old-timey-looking bedroom. I remember seeing big, billowy off-white curtains. It was very cute. I put Belle down in the room.

Dream - Lucid

I was in the car at night. I was riding with Rachel, who was driving. Apparently, we were going to get married. I wanted to marry her AND Ryan. We found someone who would do it, but instead of Ryan, Rachel's friend Christina was there. Weird. I remember being in front of the person marrying us.

I didn't have a wedding band, but an engagement ring. The ring was super cheap. The band was gold and it had a small diamond set in it, though I don't think it was a real diamond. I remember it being a little too big as well, and it kept sliding around on my finger. It also kept bending; it was extremely malleable.

I remember also skipping data analysis, even though I'm out of absenses in that class. I did approach Rachel in a classroom, and asked her if we could at least have a wedding ceremony. She seemed bothered by my asking, and pretty much told me she couldn't afford it. I knew that I had rushed into things by marrying her; I felt like I should have been more patient. I didn't want to even be with her, I wanted to be with Ryan. I was dissappointed in myself for rushing.

I remember then, at some point, asking Rachel if she believed in coincidence. She told me yes, and started to explain why. I told her I didn't, and that I thought everything happened for a reason. She countered me by saying that only some things happen for a reason. I didn't understand a lot of what she was saying.

Then, I remember being outside in a huge pool of very clear water. I remember flashing my ring at a guy who had asked me out. The ring now didn't have a stone, but had a black oval in its place.

I then remember going underwater, and seeing a group of guys standing under there. It was like there was a small town under the water that had been flooded (I have been playing too much Zelda in waking life, haha). I swam to the bottom, and let my breath out so I would sink and be able to stand on the bottom. I talked to the guys. I then went up for air.

When I got to the top, my old friend Josh was there. I was talking to him about how upset I was about the whole marriage situation, and he said, after some talking,
"I won't be home from 2-8, but why don't you come over at 8 to keep me company?"
I knew what he meant by that...I would be cheating. I saw the seductive look in his eye. As he was leaving, I nodded and said yes, I would be there. I didn't feel super bad about it, but I did feel a little bad.

Then, I remember being in a huge, open stone field that was surrounded by some small buildings and trees. I thought I was under the water again, but upon further examination, I figured out I wasn't. I was talking to a lesbian, and I was telling her about the situation. I then concluded as I was talking
"You can't marry more than one person. I'm not even gay!" Big duh moment.
I then remember pulling out the marriage certificate. It looked very unofficial, and looked like a photo copy. It had Rachel's, Christina's, and my signatures on it. I ripped it up.

~

I was in some apartment/school. It was kind of like dorm rooms. People were stealing all of these things out of the rooms, things that were "bad", or something. I went into someone's room and took a poster off the door. I remember hearing the crumbling of paper as I took it with me. I went outside to put it in a car, but felt so bad about stealing, that I went back into the room and laid the poster down on the bed.

Then, I remember walking in a hallway that looked like a middle or high school lobby. I was with someone else, a guy, and we were walking towards the front door to leave. We were stopped by an old acquaintance of mine, Sean. He told us to stop, and then said that we had to go through a certain door because it had The Lord's Prayer posted on it. I said to whoever I was with as we passed Sean
"I've known The Lord's Prayer since I was little..." I didn't think it was neccessary for us to stop and read it.
We approached the door, and saw the prayer posted on it. I don't remember if we used that door or not.

Then, I remember watching a war. An ex, Jake, was fighting in it. He had a hand-held cannon that he was using to fight with. I was watching him fight while sitting at a table. He was in a field. I remember watching him use the cannon, and every time he would, some of his hair would fall out.

After awhile, he approached me, and said
"Every time I use this, some of my hair falls out!" He pointed to his head.
I remember he was wearing a brown hoodie with the hood up.

Then, Jake told me the war had been a stalemate. I then asked him
"How can you tell who wins and who loses?"
He replied, very smartass-like
"Well, the team who celebrates is the winner...and..."
I cut him off and said
"I know that. But how do you know who wins and who loses?"
He started to answer, but I woke up.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I remember having 3 dreams about Katherine last night, but I can only remember a bit of one.

I was with Katherine outside of this movie theater. It was kind of run down. I also remember being inside one of the theaters. Throughout the dream, Katherine was carrying a laptop with her. I also remember a man being with her. He looked older and kind of messy, with messy, shoulder-length dark brown hair and some facial hair.

I remember being in the bathroom with her. She was talking to me as I looked for a stall. I found one, and noticed that there were only 3 walls of the stall, and two toilets in it. I sat down on the toilet. I peed for a long time, still talking to Katherine through the door.

Then, a black girl about my age who was with a white girl walked up. The black girl walked into the stall, which wasn't hard, since there were only 3 walls. This made me think about a comment Rman made on one of my dreams, one I had about being walked in on in a stall. I quickly forgot, however. The black girl looked at me for a minute, and I looked back. I felt kind of intruded upon, but dismissed it since there were only 3 walls, afterall. She started to change her pad while talking to the white girl that was with her.

I then remember talking to Katherine as she was sitting down inside the bathroom. She was on her laptop. I remember wanting to get out of there; wanting to leave, but I tried to be patient. I remember Katherine saying something about someone "stealing something right in front of her face." I started to think about our falling out, and hoped she didn't bring that up, because I was in no mood to argue or fight.

I then remember seeing some theme park behind a building that we were at. The sky looked cloudy, like it might rain. I was surprised that there was a theme park there, and commented on it to Katherine. I also said something about me going to Universal Studios over spring break. She said "Yeah, there's a theme park here!", and then all the sudden we were going down this green water slide with her in front of me.

~

I woke up in my bed, and had to use the bathroom. I was thinking about my dreams. I felt very awake, and I stretched as I entered the bathroom. I tried to turn on the light in the part of the bathroom where the toilet and shower are, and it wouldn't come on. "I bet the other one's out too...", I thought. Then, I tried the main light, where the sinks are. It wasn't working either. "Really?", I said. I still had to use the bathroom, so whatever.

I then tried turning on the light in my room so I could at least have a little light in the bathroom. Only one lightbulb flickered. It was very dim. I then turned on a second light in my room of a second fan that was there. The same thing happened as did with the first fan light. I remember thinking that this would be a good opportunity to try a WBTB, since I felt more awake, and I had been up longer than originally planned.

~

I was at my old apartment. I was in Caitlin's room. She was with our other friend Katie. They were getting ready to go to a party. They asked me to go, and I told them no, I didn't want to. They left.

Then, I was with my friend, Leigh. I was at her house. She told me Caitlin was getting too crazy and drunk at these parties, saying that she was pulling "carnival tricks" or something, trying to pull her eyes out of socket and stuff like that, and going way too far with it; it was becoming very dangerous. I thought about seeing her do that in the past. She also said that it was mostly Caitlin, and Katie was actually not as bad about it.

Then, I asked Leigh if she had any weed. She pointed out a white and grey marbled stone-made pipe that was sitting on a dresser beside a picture frame. She said there was a little left in there. She mentioned something about our friend, Bret. I started to smoke the pipe.

Then, I was riding in the car with Leigh, smoking the pipe still. I looked down into it and noticed it was out; nothing but ashes left, though some looked like they were still burning slightly. I started to feel a little high. I thought about people possibly seeing me smoking in the car, but I didn't seem to care too much, though I tried to stay alert. I was talking to Leigh.

~

I was on stage at my high school's auditorium. I was holding sheet music. I was a first act for some program we were performing. I was singing; rehearsing. The song started with F quarter notes and the words were "Teenie, Teenie" at the beginning. My choir teacher said something about me being intimidated or scared about going first. I honestly thought I would be too, but I didn't feel that bad. I was singing the music, and I sounded pretty good. "Teenie" sounded like a different word as I sang it though, because I was pronouncing it weird. I thought about performing for a crowd as opposed to an empty auditorium. I didn't feel very nervous about it, surprisingly (I get VERY nervous about this kind of thing in waking life).

Then, I remember sitting out in the auditorium, watching a group of 3 sing the next song.

Then, I remember being back up there again, and this time, we were singing to die. It was strange, it was like we were all sick, and we were going to end our lives. There was one alternative that she mentioned that I didn't like (can't remember what), so my teacher suggested another, and gave me a screwdriver I was supposed to sing into and it would rip my skin off as I sang, leaving nothing but bones. I wasn't ready to die yet! I didn't want to do this. I started singing into the weird screwdriver and reading my music. Nothing really happened. I remember seeing some eighth notes on the page.

Instead of killing myself, I decided I just needed to take my dirty clothes off. I started to walk away, taking off my dirty clothes until I was down to my underwear, which I also took off. I threw it all in my hamper.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was with a couple of other people. I'm not sure exactly where we were, but we were watching a strange movie. It started out with a guy laying in a canyon in a desert, who had no arms or legs. He was bleeding out his stumps, and moaning for help. He had been attacked by a dinosaur. I commented at this point:
"This is really gross.", I said.

Then, a girl came up to him. Apparently, she was known for seducing guys who were in a vulnerable place. She tried to help him. Now, I was seeing from her POV. I laid down with my legs by his so they looked like they were his legs. He hallucinated and thought they were, and put his stumps down on her legs, and screamed in agony as more blood seeped out of them. I had to look away at this point.

Apparently, she wasn't trying to seduce him. I then remember the end, with them walking together, and him having his arms and legs sewed back on. I had thought they were gone, and I asked someone if the girl had saved his limbs. I don't remember the answer I got.

Then, I remember something about it being a Christian movie.

~

I was in the parking lot outside the auditorium at my college. It was daytime, and I was walking to my class, but I needed to change clothes first for some reason. I started to do so in the parking lot, but then noticed that everyone driving by could see. I moved more inside the parking lot, behind some cars. I then saw a girl, Abby, that I used to work with a long time ago. She was changing clothes as well. She said hello to me, then we got in my car. She sat in the driver's seat, and I was in the back. She asked if she could drive to my house for some reason. I said yes, but we needed to be quick, because I had to get to class. She said ok, and drove to my house.

We got there, and after a few minutes of me being in my room and Abby doing who knows what, I noticed the clock. I was late for class already, and I got upset. I knew I needed a shower anyway, because I apparently hadn't had time to get one before I left.

I remember then having a huge wad of money hidden somewhere, I think in my old jewelry box, and I had to find a different place to hide it. I decided on hiding it in my bottom dresser drawer, under some towels and stuff. My mom was helping me put stuff away in the drawer, and I had to ask her to move some things around so the money would be concealed.

Then, I remember waking up on the floor in my bonus room. I had slept in there overnight for some reason. Shelly, a girl I work with, was in there doing something. Cleaning, I think. She went up to this stereo, and turned it on. I told her to turn it off, because I was going back to sleep. She turned it off.

I woke up in this situation a couple more times, then wondered if I was dreaming. I tried to read some text, I don't remember what or where, but it looked relatively similar both times I looked at it. I still felt like I was dreaming, so I got up. I saw myself in the reflection of the TV getting up. I walked past Shelly, and she didn't notice that I was up. I then went to the door, and tried to phase through it. I pushed myself through it into the hallway, confirming my suspicions that I was dreaming. I walked to the stairs, and remembered one of my goals: To share a dream with Hyu. I pushed my hand out in front of me, as if to create a portal, but I said "I want to meet Hyu!" And a strange portal started to appear. I jumped through it, and everything went black for a minute, but then I was just tumbling through the air in the hallway. I landed on my back.

I woke up for real for a minute, turned over, and went back to sleep.

~

I was in high school, doing the musical Cats. I didn't remember rehearsing it much, but we were performing. We had on these weird white costumes. They were baggy, and not very Cats-like at all. I had a part as a "Dream Girl", or something.

As soon as the play started, I was laying down on the ground, peeking out of the curtain, watching the play. I thought someone may be able to see me in the audience, but I paid no mind. I was watching a dance routine. I remember two little black girls dressed in tutus were doing ballet, and the high schoolers were dancing around and singing. It was a slow song.

I got up, and walked towards my friends, the other "Dream Girls" in the play, and asked them when our cue to go on was. They told me, and we were going on very shortly.

~

I woke up again in the bonus room. I suspected I was dreaming, so I did a reality check and counted my fingers. My right index finger looked funny, so I knew that I was dreaming, and left through the door.

I was then outside, in the cul de sac behind my house. It was dusk. I was riding on a rolling desk chair. I saw my old friend, someone I briefly dated, Alan, playing basketball, shirtless. I was behind him, watching him for awhile. He didn't seem to notice me. I decided to leave before he saw me watching him; I didn't know if he'd like the idea of someone spying on him playing basketball.

As I started to roll away, though, he got my attention. I did a reality check when he started talking to me by trying to poke my fingers through my hands. My finger trying to go through made my hands look like rubber, then one finally went through. We started to talk, and I asked him why he had wanted to date me before. He smiled and started mumbling some answer, it didn't make sense, so I asked him again. We were now standing in the street, with him leaning against the bed of a truck, and me standing in front of him. He smiled, and started to mumble a little again. I tried to understand what he was saying so I would remember upon waking, but I couldn't. He then said that he had been "unrealistic". Hmm. Interesting.

While I was talking to Alan, I noticed more and more people were around. It almost seemed as if we were in the middle of a crowd. I then saw, to my right, a young man about my age, leaning up against another truck bed. He was Asian, tall, skinny, and was wearing a tight grey shirt, a leather jacket, and forest green dress pants. I had a thought that it was Hyu, but I started talking to Alan again.

Then, the man got my attention. I went over to him. He had taken me by complete surprise. I then knew it was Hyu.
"Hyu? Is it really you? How did you find me?", I managed to get out.
"I had to.", he replied, as he grabbed me, and started walking. He seemed like he was on a mission of some sort.

We were then in a small room with a table. I don't know how we got there. There was a girl sitting in a chair to my left; she had wavy, dark hair pulled back into a ponytail. Her eyes were very big; her irises were heart-shaped. They were changing colors as I stared at them.
"You have beautiful eyes.", I said to her.
"It's because of you.", she said with a smile. At that moment, her eyes were cheetah-print with red patterns moving through them. They were gorgeous. I understood her to mean when she said "It's because of you" that whomever looked into her eyes affected their appearance. For some reason, this girl's eyes seemed very familiar to me.

I sat down in between Hyu and the girl. There were all these black papers all over the table. They were laminated with magazine cut-outs of letters all over them, scrambled up. Hyu told me I needed to decode them.
"Anagrams.", I thought to myself.
I had a pencil, but no paper to start trying to decode them with. I asked Hyu for some paper. He gave me a dark blue piece, but that wouldn't work. So then he gave me a brown piece. I told him that should be fine. I started to look at the anagrams, wondering where to even begin. There were so many, I didn't know where to start.

I then started to see a a glare on the page I was looking at. I looked up at Hyu, because I knew I was about to wake up. He looked back at me, and then, I lost the dream and woke up.

~

I woke up in my room, and I knew I was dreaming, but everything was all blurry and it was hard for me to keep my eyes open. The top half of my vision went black. I woke up.

~

I woke up in my room. I knew I was dreaming immediately. I had felt myself enter the dream. I got up out of bed, and walked into the hallway. The house seemed big and empty; all the furniture was gone. I then remembered my previous dream, and started yelling for Hyu.
"Hyu! Hyu! I'm back, where are you?", I yelled.
I then tried to draw a portal on the wall. I drew it with my finger, though the edges were not straight at all. As I completed it, I touched it. It rippled, and as it did so, it looked like oil with all the rainbow colors it reflected. I tried to enter it, but I don't remember what happened after I entered it. I think I just woke up again.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was at work, but we had changed locations. Instead of being in the coffee shop, we had moved into a huge house ("coffee house", ha). It was on the square. It had many, many rooms and levels. It was easy to get lost in it. I was scheduled 2-close, and my friend, Rachel, had just been hired on. She stuck by me the whole time. My boss and our consultant were there. The consultant was dictating all the changes we needed to make and all the cleaning and moving that had to be done (very true to waking life events as of late). Rachel and I were just walking around while all the employees worked. I couldn't find anything to do, nor did I really know what they needed help with.

Rachel said she was going to leave early; she said Chad, her husband, was going to come pick her up. I wanted to leave early, too, but I didn't think I could get away with it without getting fired. I knew Rachel could because she was new. We went into a bathroom with many stalls, and the first stall was trashed; there was toilet paper everywhere. I said
"That's really gross." Rachel agreed. I wasn't happy about us having bathrooms with stalls as opposed to the small single-person bathrooms we had at the other shop.

At some point, I saw a flash of people trying to enter our old location, and seeing that it was closed.

I wandered off alone into an empty part of the house on an upper level. I ended up walking outside and down the street. As I was walking, I decided I needed to go back before I got lost or they noticed my absense. I turned around, and the coffee house was on top of a hill up a long driveway. I tried to run up the driveway, but my legs felt stiff, heavy, and tired. I was wearing rain boots, so I took them off, and carried them as I ran up the driveway and back to the coffee house.

Then, I walked into the room where everyone had been previously, and everything was quiet. I didn't know where everyone was. I walked into a living room-type area, and everyone was sitting down on and around a couch. They were celebrating someone's birthday. They didn't notice I had come in at first, and when they did, they didn't acknowlege the fact that I had been gone. I think someone invited me to have some birthday cake.

Then, I was outside, and I think Rachel was with me again. A girl asked me to come smoke some weed in the car with her. I had some with me, and I told her I would. I wasn't sure how Rachel felt about it. We got in the car. I don't remember ever smoking the weed.

~

I was watching some people walk down the street. I noticed that one, who was acting particularly silly, looked like Katherine. I commented on it, and Jarrod, and ex, who was apparently sitting next to me, said "Yeah, she does." I turned to my right, and he was there. We were sitting outside, and had been for a long time.

Then, we were inside his house, which was huge; it looked like my best friend MK's family's house. We were in the bonus room, sitting on a bed and watching TV. We saw this show that was showing cheerleading bloopers, but they weren't really that funny. It was middle and high school cheerleaders doing stunts, and they were falling and messing up. I didn't think it was funny because they were getting hurt. Jarrod and I were flirting with each other. He was being much more respectful towards me than when we previously dated; I noticed he didn't call me "girl" as much anymore, which I was happy about. We watched TV for awhile, when some people came in to clean the house. Jarrod said I had to go, but he'd see me the next day. Then, he said
"Oh, when they finish cleaning the 475 bathrooms, we should go get a cookie."
I pondered this large number for a minute, but didn't think much of it. I agreed that that was a good idea. We hugged. He then started to talk to me about the girl he's currently dating, who wasn't me (he got together with her in waking life after we broke up), saying he didn't know if he wanted to marry her. I don't remember what I said, or if I said anything. I knew I was thinking about the "honeymoon phase" of a relationship, and that he had passed it and didn't know what to do anymore. I think I commented on this. He kept saying, in reference to his relationship
"I don't know, I don't know..."

I left the room, and Katherine was there. She was talking about what we were going to do when we got back to their house (she was dating his roommate, who was bald with glasses). Then, I figured out I left my golden stiletto high heels (lolwut? I hate high heels in waking life) in the bonus room with Jarrod. I went in there to get them, and we ended up talking some more. I thought to myself something along the lines of
"He may be fine with us today, but tomorrow he may not be. I need to be on my guard." I was remembering the last time we were together, and the sudden change that I had noticed in his attitude before we broke up.

I looked at Jarrod, who didn't have a shirt on. I saw a tattoo of a purple and maybe green diamond on his chest. I figured it was a new tattoo, and looked down at his stomach to try to find the tattoo that I knew he had; one he has of a skull in waking life. I didn't see it, but I thought maybe it was lower than I had remembered and his pants were covering it. I also remember looking down at my legs and seeing how tan they were from sitting in the sun all day. Jarrod was very tan as well. I looked in my purse, and my wallet was very faded from the sun, but my purse was fine.

Then, I went up a small set of stairs leading down the hallway. I went into another bonus room, and Jarrod's roommate was in there sitting on the couch with a lot of small children. He was holding a little boy in his lap. He said if I was going to get a cookie, I wouldn't be able to experience "this", and when he said "this", he started to ruffle the little boy's hair very quickly. I laughed and said
"My hair would be a static mess!"
Then, one of the little boys said that if we all went out to get cookies, we'd have to come right back so he wouldn't miss some TV program.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I know I had some long dreams last night, but I can only recall a fragment of one. Stress is killing my recall.

EDIT: I remembered part of another one! Yay!

I was on some rocky mountainside with tons of other people. It almost felt like we were all Native American. I remember there were lots of men with dark skin and no shirts wearing nothing but loincloths. There were women there too. There was a king at the top of the mountain.

There were levels of the mountain too, and depending on where you were sitting on the mountain had to do with how close you were with the king. I was located in the middle on the right side.

Every so often, we'd all have to duck and get under these pillows, blankets, and big wooden shields, because herds of buffalo would stampede over us. It was a fatal experience for many. I remember ducking under my assortment of shielding objects a few times in the dream, because the buffalo were stampeding over us. I was always worried about dying. A lot of the times when they'd come though, they would avoid me. Sometimes though, I'd feel them trample me, but it felt like nothing more than someone dropping a small rock on my back.

Then, I was located far up the mountain on the left side, very close to the king. In fact, I was pretty much right next to him. I was under the assumption that this meant no buffalo would trample me. I was with very few people on the top of the mountain. Then, the buffalo came again, and I had to duck. Again, I was not killed or hurt.

~

I was getting ready for some marching band thing. I was putting the under part of my uniform on. I was going to wear this one summery tank top I had under it (the one I'm wearing in my profile pic). It was folded up in a pile of folded clothes. I picked it up and decided to wear something else under it, since the tank top was something I always wore under it and it probably didn't smell very good because I hadn't washed it between wears. I picked up another shirt, similar to one I just bought in waking life. It's off-white with flowy short sleeves. I put it on, and noticed it was a little too big. Someone commented on the shirt.

Then, I was going to play in a clarinet trio, I think for school (similar to a waking life event from high school). My friends Leigh and Rachel were playing in it with me. I thought that the people listening would assume we were all great, star players since we were performing in a recital setting.