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I don't remember a thing from last night. I wasn't really trying to though. Maybe tomorrow.

Hey guys, I thought I was going to be able to keep up with this while pregnant, but it just didn't turn out that way. I now have 2 little girls to love and hold, and my husband travels for work so I am home alone with the kids 24/7.

Interestingly enough, I have had a few dreams about having two girls...they are in this journal, too...I believe they are sometime in 2011, maybe in the spring. I am about to go back and check. That was way before I was even married, or even dating my husband. Very interesting.

Anyway, I need to make the most of my freetime right now. I may or may not be updating, it really just depends on if I can even recall much; my recall isn't great as I haven't been focused on dreaming in so long. Parenting is a full-time job! Maybe when they get a little older and more independent, I'll try to start getting back into dreaming/LDing, but right now it's very difficult. If I do remember anything vivid or crazy, I'll update if I can get the time.

Lots of Love,
Krista

I remember very little about last night, something about being in a grocery store and that's it. My brain was going a million miles an hour yesterday as we ran around all day and I was exhausted so I didn't think to take any notes during my normal 4am waking.

Hey loves. If any of you are still here anyway, ha.

I do apologize for a long, long absence. When I left last time, I had just found out that I was pregnant, and I was over-analyzing my dreams, so I had to stop recording them. It was stressing me out. I was picking them apart trying to figure out if they were trying to tell me my baby was dead (anxiety!). The baby ended up being fine and I gave birth to a baby girl by emergency c-section on July 7 of last year. She is happy and healthy...such a joy. <3

I am now pregnant again, but going through some really tough issues in my life. We don't have a place to go when our lease ends on the 31st. We were going to move to Oregon, but with the pregnancy catching us by surprise, we decided to wait since the move itself could be stressful enough to harm the pregnancy. We are very poor, barely making ends meet (my parents were going to help us move out there). Things are not going well. And I honestly wasn't even thinking about DV, but I had a friend request in my email, so I came back.

I would like to start journaling again, but my recall is suffering pretty badly right now, though my dreams are very, very vivid. I'd like to find some insight into all the craziness happening in my life lately. It's been a long time since I had a LD that I can remember, but hopefully this will fix it.

On a similar note, some of the pregnancy/post-partum dreams I had I wish I would have written down. The hormones REALLY drive up the vividness. But I had other things to tend to at the time, severe post-partum depression being one, something that I am still struggling with, especially now that I am off my antidepressants.

So anyway, KittenSquirrel (I think that's your name), thanks for friend requesting me. Maybe dream journaling again is going to help me find some insight into the craziness in my life/the world.

-Krista

Dream - Lucid

I was at some kind of family/friend get-together at I believe the house I grew up in. We were all getting gifts. I got some clothes and lingerie. Going back through my gifts, I thought I had gotten more clothing than lingerie, but it mostly seemed to be lingerie. There was another woman there, an Asian woman, who had lots of lingerie as well. I think she had some cute clothes too that I wanted.

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That's all I remember due to insomnia/having to get up waaaay too early. Tomorrow is an even earlier day, and Sunday is the same as today. Then, I get two days off. Looking forward to that!

Well, I was just typing up an entry and accidentally hit a key on the keyboard that effed up the webpage, so I refreshed, and nothing was autosaved. I don't have time to retype it all now because I have to get ready for work. -_-; Might try to update it later if I remember.

Hey guys! It's been forever since I've been on here, but I feel like it's time to get back into dream journaling.

Lots of things have changed in my life since I was last on here. I am now married, I have a new job, and I have a fairly popular poetry blog on Tumblr (message me if you are interested in reading ).

Since being on here last, I have still had lucid dreams, but not as many, though the ones I have had have actually been quite meaningful. I am delving quite far into spiritual teachings these days, not seemingly able to get enough, and it has shown in my dreams. In a recent lucid, I discovered a woman I met at work has been in all of my past lives, and various other things. Crazy stuff!! Can't wait to start writing it down again! I love going back and reading my journals. It is very interesting to piece together the events of the dreams, the recurring themes and such, with the events that were unfolding in my life at that time. Try it sometime with your own! So fascinating.

Well, tomorrow I will start journaling again. See you all then! Happy dreaming!

For the past few nights, my insomnia has been terrible. I know I dreamed a bit last night, but I can't recall any details. Just been under way too much stress lately; so much so, that it's making my body sick. I'm having a lovely outbreak of cold sores/fever blisters right now, and a few are having trouble healing because my body isn't resting. ;oq923u0r9wje;foiawjefoji anxiety and insomnia fucking suck. I'm sore and tired from running around Nashville yesterday looking for my testing site for the GRE, which was a 4 hour test o_o, and I start my new job today, which will (ideally) exhaust me enough to where I'll wanna pass out when I get home at 5 (early I know, but if you knew how tired I was, you'd want to do the same). I'll have the same shift tomorrow as well. I should be off on weekends though, so this weekend should be an excellent time for me to catch up on some much-needed R&R, and hopefully, my dreams will be extra vivid due to REM rebound.

Ever had a word you were trying to think of that was on the "tip of your tongue", so to speak? Well, that's how trying to remember my dreams this morning feels. I know I dreamed, it's like I can almost retrieve the memory, but it's just out of my reach. Grr...so frustrating.

Insomnia sucks.

Sorry for the lack of posts lately, guys...juts been super busy as of late. Hopefully can start writing in here more again once things calm down a bit.

Just a random update, I did a guided relaxation about an hour and a half or so ago, and towards the end of it, I was very close to projecting, I could feel it, it felt just like the other night when I did project. However, my heart started to beat very rapidly and my breathing became very erratic, which brought me out of the meditative state I was in.

After that, I decided to try to sleep, and all that kept happening is I kept falling into a meditative state, and I kept feeling my body start to fall asleep. I kept entering sleep paralysis, I got the crazy hypnogogia and the tingly feeling, but it only lasted a few seconds each time until I became fully awake again. This has happened like...4 times tonight already. o_o