Xanous' Dream Journal

#383 - DILD - 12:45AM

A large dose of Yohimbe Bark late in the morning, some melatonin to fight the lasting insomnia, and watching Lucy movie may have helped this LD along. It was a little after 11pm when I last looked at the clock and I had multiple awakenings all night. Most of my non lucids where boring and I found myself contemplating the movie in dream several times.

I was previously lucid from something about the movie. I ended up losing lucidity for awhile and I forgot all of the first part. I have been chasing after someone or something and I eventually stop becoming introspective once again.

I remember that I was lucid and come back to it once more. I look at my hands and the environment around me. My hands look pretty normal with a hint of dream quality. I realize I am on a hillside at night. I search my mind for a few of my goals. First I recall wanting to have an XCOM dream. I summon a rifle and hear distant marching as I move forward. I search for aliens to shoot but when I look down I see I have no rifle. Ugh. Try something else.

I recall wanting to try some of the things Lucy did in the movie but I am distracted by a super huge moon at the top of the hill. I run forward but have difficulty finding my footing. I look down and back up and see the moon is gone but there is a large dark sphere at the top of the hill now. I see a silhouette of a man in a cockpit at one part of the sphere. I remember to try CL's pinch zoom to get a better look but it doesn't work. I feel silly making motions in the air and give that one up too.

The I remember once again Lucy. I try to slap away the sphere and make time past to day time. Doesn't work. Then I try I teleport like she did an surge forward. The dream goes dark.

I wake up and look at the clock. The time is clear and says 11:30pm. I am really surprised at this and guess I must have fallen straight into a dream. The room lights up and I see all the sheets are gone. I look over and see the woman version of The Master wearing her stupid hat and in some kinky red lingerie. She's droning on something but all I can say is, "Wow the sheets are gone!" I wake up.

My she's ugly.

#373 - DILD - 12:11AM

I went to bed around 10pm after watching Grimm and Constantine so I was really prepared to enjoy some crazy dreams and hoped for a DILD ( I think this dream was more inspired by "The Last Airbender"). I was a little shocked how early this LD happened, though this seems to happen a lot, it's just a matter of recall. Unfortunately, my recall is full of holes and lucidity was low for the most part. Some possible chemical influences: I enjoyed a 40 oz of Mickey's stretched throughout the evening. I also took a Zyrtec and used some Veramyst nasal spray for my horrendous allergy problem that I currently experiencing. gahhhh!

Another thing to explain the content of the dream is that I have been doing some recreational reading on erowid.

I have taken an abusive but fairly low dose of Dextromethorphan Hbr (100mg). I see what I think of as tracers and some mild distortions of reality. The experience is fairly enjoyable but I have some nervous twitches and body jerks that I try to hide and only allow myself to experience when I am alone. I have some conversation with a dream character and wonder off.

I begin to feel really sleepy now and almost consider taking another dose of DXM but decide that would be really dangerous. I eventually lay down someplace and fall asleep.

I have a dream inside the dream. This is were my memory has gaps. I am involved in some story line about a young man that has ice powers. I see him and my son on a carpet gliding over a snowy landscape and seamlessly crossing over land water/ice. They seem to be in awe but this is nothing new to me.

I have a moment of lucidity here. I show some female DC how they are gliding over water and ice. I walk out into the ice but it breaks. It feel cold at first but I generate some heat in my body to feel warm. Then I use some ice power to re-freeze the water. I step on it but it breaks right away. The young man (who looks a lot like the helper in "Waterbending #2) comes to aid me. He freezes the water while I am in it and then pulls me out. I have ice encases on my legs and it looks like knee-high boots made of ice. I marvel at this for a moment and then feel the dream slipping away. I am not sure what to do other than look at the boy and focus on him visually. My concentration wavers.

Now I am talking to my wife like it was all a movie or TV series that we have been watching. I spoke as if it was my story but portrayed by actors. I mention something how they stuck really close to what actually happened. I told her that I might really be "The Drac", meaning the dragon. I talk about how ice doesn't bother me and I can generate high amounts of heat with Chi energy.

*huge memory gap*

I am somehow lucid again and talking to the DreamGuide/Avatar. I can't recall the actual conversation but I have a gist of what was said. I talked about our powers. I ask him something... I think I wanted his name. He says something and I respond, "This IS a dream but go on."
He says something really profound but in a confusing way. I sum up what he was trying to say in one sentence. He responded like he was impressed with me but also annoyed. I worry that I will forget what he said but I feel confident that I will remember my summary of it so I let it go. I am really excited about whatever he told me and anxious to write it all down.(I am so pissed I don't remember this! )

We enjoy some using some fire and ice magic together though I don't recall much of this. My fire magic never produced flame; just high amounts of heat that melted ice. I should explore this again.

*memory gap* (or just non lucid)

Lucid again. Trying to focus on the dream so I won't wake up. I wake up.

#368 - DILD - Time unknown

I didn't have my DJ handy and I was super lazy but I spent some time committing the dream to memory though I drifted off into a new dream a few times. I was pretty happy to make my first attempt at waterbending. It's not bad for a first try.

I am chasing someone on a dirt bike down a forest hill. I notice that we keep making huge leaps into the air but landing softly and passing through trees. I am reminded of jumping down hills in Elder Scrolls and I gain some awareness from it.

I am only partially lucid here and I don't recall much but I am in some version of the hotel room with my wife and son. We have some conversation and I find myself standing next to the bed looking at my wife. I was about to play some prank on her but I suddenly remember my goal (waterbending). This brings me to full lucidity and I turn away looking for water.

There is a desk next to a window. I go to it and try to summon a glass of water. It's not quite working but I pretend it's there and begin to focus on waterbending. Something like melted plastic comes up from the invisible glass. It's weird and not what I wanted at all. As a gesture of mild frustration, I roll my eyes and look out the window for a moment then go back to focusing on the water.

There is now a full glass of water sitting on the desk. Pleased, I go straight into bending. I cup my hands near the glass and focus energy pulling the water up. A nice streams slowly floats up but the quickly slashes back into the glass. I try again with much more effort. Small streams of water begin running up the sides of the glass and beyond. The effect looks pretty cool but I am suddenly awakened by something unknown.

#240 - DIELD - 3:40PM

I had two beers just before a big lunch and ended up feeling really tired. I only meant to lay down for just a few minutes but ended up taking a long nap. The kids in the next room were really noisy and I woke several times staying in what felt like light sleep. After about one hour and forty-five minutes I began noticing dreams.

I have an FA were the kids have came into the room and woke me. I tell to them stop coming in so much and wait at least 5 min. Then I hear an external sound.

I wake briefly and lay still. I feel really light and floaty and feel like I am twisting at the waist. There are no vibes this time but that doesn't really mean much. From past experience I know that I am not quite there yet so I wait a little more and then try moving my legs. I think I must have moved my real legs so I stop and focus more visually.

I find myself stepping off the porch in the front yard. There is a white diner plate on the ground. I pick it up and toss it up and watch it fall. I can still hear the kids in the next room and wonder if I am really awake but the scene is so vivid that just go with it.

I get the idea to blind-summon a pistol and shoot the plate like skeet. I toss the plate up and draw a gun but its just my hand. I make childish gun sound with my mouth hope the plate will burst apart in the air. It just falls back to the ground undamaged. I try several more times but all to the same effect.

Now, I hear the bedroom door open and the sound of an adult walking in. I assume it's my wife coming to wake me up, but I stay focused on the dream. I look at the plate on the ground and try shooting it again but nothing happens. Then, I focus on what it should look like when broken and the plate shatters apart on its own. Mildly surprised, I take a closer look. When I do, the plate mends itself almost instantly. I feel the bed shake. My wife touches my shoulder and the dream ends.

#240 - DEILD - approx. 5am

I had my usual Friday night drink which resulted in a nice REM rebound early this morning. There were a lot of FAs this time but I was eventually able to hit a nice visual DEILD. Unfortunately, I didn't hold it long before I was blind-sided by another FA. Though this lucid was on the short side, I included it to my count because my awareness was high and the vividness was amazing.BTW I know my typos will be horrible but I am short on time. Apologies.

All I can recall in the first one is that I am trying to get to sleep but can't

I have an FA then I watch a scene unfold. I am in a western and hold someone at gun point wanting a refund for something a friend purchased. He has to leave to get it and we wait around becoming chummy with the other people around. I become worried that he will bring the police back so I tell someone to hide the gun. A friend tries to load a track on the trailer and leave with the gun but he can't drive and embarrasses himself horribly. Another guy says he has a cabin in the woods not far away and takes the gun. The guy I held at gun point comes back with the cash and we act like we are friends. As the dream fades away I realize I was dreaming and become annoyed that I missed that one.

I lay still and keep awareness as I DEILD.

I watch a scene form and find myself travelling in the back seat of some car. I begin to have emotions with the dream but know it is all fake. I feel that I am a child on a road trip with my parents. I "know" my mom is driving but I don't look. I feel confided and think this has been such a long drive. All I want to do is get outside and stretch out.

I look out the window and see some desert like terrain blur past. I accidentally phase out the window hold on to the car. With my body stretched out horizontally, I hover along side the car and feel like I am flying at an incredible speed. It seems the car is going impossibly fast and pulling me a long with it. There is a deafening roar of wind in my ears and the feel air resistance my body along with the feeling of acceleration. I am overcome with a glorious feeling of euphoria as I enjoy the feeling of effortless low flight.

Suddenly everything collapses into darkness and void. I mistakenly assume that I am waking up.

I have another FA where I slept too late. I step out of a room and find myself in a school. Some girl looks a me with disdain. I feel embarrassed about my "morning appearance" and I start to think about getting a shower and doing a my morning thing. I have a small container on the wall with a tooth brush and I reach for it. I hear my wife remark how small it my container is. I see her next to me getting something out of a locker. She says something about leaving with "Darren". I jealously ask who the hell he is and she explains. I falsely remember something about him and decide its nothing to worry about. He was a teacher or something and it was all business.

Then, some friends, a young man and woman, walk up both in some odd looking dark green scrubs. The guy says something about wearing a lab coat later and the woman talks about how she just hears "this" when they go out to eat at "..." restaurant. I notice the woman more than I should. She is short with blonde hair and her scrubs is more like a short dress. She wears tights underneath. I find her attractive. I wake up.

I have another FA where my daughters wake me up. We are saying at someone's house and I get up to go to the bathroom. I assume my wife woke up with my son already. I use the toliet and have issues wiping. Then then the toilet turns into a training potty and the lights flicker on and off. I wake up.

I have another dream about a red solo cup flying low just about my head on the beach. I am taking part in some ritual and standing in a circle with other people. There is an odd looking person in the middle officiating. We assume the cup is a spy drone. I see a blimp flying close in the distance but ignore it. The cup seems to be full of hair and I can her some sort of motor coming from it. I wonder how it is flying. Then, I think we should set it on fire and it suddenly burst into flames. Everyone becomes excited about that. The hair burns out and the cup turns black before crashing into the sand. My son picks up the cup and plays with it. I wake up.

We partied last night and I did some late night drinking which led to another short DILD around 5am this morning. Nothing worth counting but still it was cool. I've got to start increasing and prolonging my lucids again. Perhaps the excitement level isn't where it used to be.

I recall something about fighting some zombies. Then my cat attacks me.

Next I lay down in bed and realize I am at the old house in Luling. I wonder why I am living here now and think about how this house was actually haunted. I think maybe now that I am older it wont be so scared. Then I realize this is a common dream so I do a nose plug and blow through cleanly.

I get up and make my way out of the house but I am hindered by something attached to me. I realize that is feels like my wife is actually stuck to my left side. I try shaking her off but the feeling wont go away. I decide this is just something like when the sheets stick to me. I stop for a second, relax and decide to ignore the feeling. I briefly look around the living room and notice the old cabinet TV. I appreciate the vivid memory of the couches and decor of the time.

Now I run outside trying to think of a goal. I wasn't prepared for this one so I decide to just fly. I float up past the old birch tree and land on the roof. This is where I promptly lose lucidity.

There is a second house much bigger than the one I came out of just behind it. They are so close they are almost connected. I jump to the second story and see some damage in the roof. I enter the opening and discover some teenagers living a dirty house in need of repair. In fact the house is so bad that the entire building sways back and forth as I walk around.