Alysendra

I didn't make too much of an attempt to remember this dream when I woke up because I don't have any technology with which to log notes at the moment, so the more minor details have been lost to me now. However, I still remember the main plot.

I have a memory of how this dream started, but I honestly can't remember if it was something that I actually experienced or just a false memory that was added in at some point later on in the plot. Regardless, what I recall is being at some friend's sort of oddly designed house with a few other people, and I think at least one of those people was doing the same thing I was. The main thing I can remember is being given a dose of LSD to take, which I did.

After that point, the dream got very abstract for a while. It's hard to remember much of what happened, and I have to feel like my mind was simulating ego loss by just making the dream all hazy and third-person. What I do remember though is that at some point there was a flash of scenery that was natural and very beautiful but also physically impossible. I had stronger awareness for just a moment, with which I became lucid.

I found myself standing on the edge of a cliff overlooking a huge drop down into a valley overlooking a vast ocean under a sunset in full view. Floating above this valley was a large section of land with a forest on it, just hanging there in the distance. There was actually forest all around me on the cliffs too, it was all quite serene and aesthetically pleasing. I actually spent most of the lucid that I can recall simply enjoying the breeze at that altitude and taking in everything that I was seeing. I also flew around that area just a little bit and repeatedly used my new technique of taking off my glasses to increase the vividness of the scene, which worked every time.

At some point after that, things got very hazy and abstract again. There was more that was going on but it was again hard to recall, but the next thing that comes back to me is suddenly snapping into my dream body at the friend's house where I initially took the LSD. I was hit with the sudden realization that everything I had just experienced was a part of my trip, but I was perplexed because I thought it had felt so much lucid dreaming. I mainly spent the rest of the dream thinking back on the experience, until I woke up.

It was even more of a mindfuck when I actually got up. It was like a lucid dream inside of a trip inside of a non-lucid dream. o.O

I just remembered.... I had a lucid that I totally forgot about until now.

I recall becoming lucid. I turned to a group of nearby DCs and proclaimed to them (somehow, I don't remember the context but there was one) that this is all just a dream. Enraged that I had learned the truth, the nearest DC grabbed me and the others all swarmed around to murder me, which is the last thing I can remember.

I don't even know when that happened really, I just had a sudden deja vu moment where the memory came back vividly of me just feeling like oh shit.

Note that although this was my first time intentionally going to bed for the night, it sort of counts as a WBTB. I ended up falling asleep on the living room couch in the late afternoon since I never slept the night before and then woke up at night some five hours later. After that I ended up staying up for a few hours to do things online, and then went to bed for real.

I was back at a new college which in some small ways seemed to double as a mall, and I was just trying to get to all of my classes on time for the first day. I'm pretty sure I checked out at least one regular class before this, like an English or Math class or something, but the first thing that I can vividly recall is going to the first of my two classes that I had with D, my partner. I was just excited to be going to school with her, so I hurried up to meet her for that class.

Before we found the entrance, which was actually hidden pretty well and involved getting through a mild obstacle course, Godric from True Blood showed up to join us, claiming that he was in the same class as well. However, while D helped me up to the class entrance after she made it, neither of us thought to do the same for Godric until after we had already gone in and passed the point of no return (I guess). However, he did show up maybe a few minutes after that on his own.

When we first walked in, what we found was very odd for a classroom setup.... All we could see all around us were doors leading to what appeared to be bunks, just all rooms with two beds each and pictures in frames near each of them. There was also a bigger room with just one bed, but by the time I saw that one D had already claimed it and was setting up all of her belongings that she just suddenly had on her. I just continued to wander through all of the rooms until I noticed something: the pictures by the beds were actually of important people in the lives of people who were to be assigned to each room. After seeing the one clearly meant for D, I went back to tell her and saw that the ones in the big room were of people from my life instead. I don't recall who I saw in D's pictures, but upon waking up I realized that the people in mine were just a few lesser characters from Orange is the New Black.

Once I figured out the room setup, for whatever reason I was suddenly struck with the feeling that I was supposed to be given the "master" room because they wanted me to lead some kind of project, and everyone else in these individual bunks were supposed to be my workers that were going to help me. I walked out of that room and back down the hall to a new area that I'm not entirely sure I had noticed before, or if it had even existed. There seemed to be some construction going on back there with employees from the college just tidying everything up to be ready for arrival. I didn't see what they were working on at first, until I turned back around to the entrance and saw what was just beside it behind me. Potted cannabis plants grew almost as tall as the ceiling, and that's when I knew... they wanted me to run a grow up. Figures they would do this, they don't really care about our educations.

I woke up briefly after this, and I'm not sure what time it was but it was dark outside so I just ended up falling back asleep. The same dream appeared to continue just shortly after it left off, so I'm including it in this same entry.

I want to say I went to another totally normal English or Math type class again after I left the grow op area (which seems to have resolved itself somehow), but again it is hard for me to say. The next thing that I can remember is going to my other class that I had with D, hoping that it was going to be a bit more normal. I found the right room and walked in, this time getting there alone and being the first one to arrive. It seemed to be just a regular classroom with one long table and a couple of desks, so I was confident that it would be more like a normal setup.

I vaguely recall that when I had first showed up there was some really annoying person following me, a girl I think. I was worried that when I came in she would follow me in here as well, so I had hurried to lock the door. The regular lock on the door didn't actually work no matter which way I turned it (of course), but luckily there was an extra latch above it that did the trick. When D showed up eventually I still saw this person waiting out in the hallway too, so I made sure she only opened the door slightly and hurried inside so that we could lock it fully again.

I was ready to spend some fun quality time alone with D for a little while and every day (considering that it's just a college class), but we were rudely interrupted by some group of students who just needed to come in for some reason. I don't really remember what their reason was anymore, but D was sympathetic to them. They came in to sit down and figure out whatever issue it was that they were working on, but at the same time I felt like their chat was very lighthearted and it seemed more like they came here just to not have to deal with that for a while, rather than to figure out a solution to it. Unfortunately, they never really showed any sign of leaving, so finally I regretfully just had to leave the class without getting to share much time with D.

I walked just a little bit further down the hall to my next and possibly last class, regularly checking my printed out schedule to make sure that I was heading to the right room. Now that I think about it, the room number probably kept changing as it was quite confusing.... If only I had been more observant. Anyway though, I was excited for it because this class was actually supposed to be a double-blocked class entirely about the band Weezer, who I really like. I ended up waiting outside the door with a crowd of people standing there only to see the door open and find out that the class was being taught by Weezer themselves. I was pumped, and they even made a comment about how part of teaching this class was related to promoting their new album, which one person interjected by saying it sucks (even though it's not out yet), making the whole thing super awkward for a moment.

They all continued to talk about the class and I continued to be really enthusiastic for it except for me now acute hatred of that one guy who had spoken out, but unfortunately I never got to see what the class was like as I woke up before that whole exchange had ended.

If only real school was as exciting as it is in my dreams....

This isn't actually an entry about a dream, but it falls within my definition of dream-like phenomena.

I was just sort of lost in my own mind when I swear I started just kind of creating a complete and kind of dark metal/rock cover of this song on the fly in my head.



It actually had a really awesome guitar solo too. >.>

I hear music in my imagination a lot but it's usually not like this, except for when I'm dreaming. In a dream I can hear the most amazing club music I've ever heard just generated effortlessly, so I know that the mind is capable of this.... I just thought it was worth noting because it happened to me this vividly while awake and it just happened to be kind of random.

That is all.

I just wanted to add this really quick, it's not much but it counts. I had this dream when I fell asleep in mid-afternoon while watching anime with a friend (who also fell asleep).

When my memory kicks in I was already lucid, and the dream was a little hazy. In my previous lucid I had successfully increased the vividness by repeatedly taking off my glasses without ever putting them back in, so I decided to try that again. It worked several times in a row, but I'm not really sure if the change stuck around for long as that's the last thing that I can recall.

I feel like there was more to that dream and I probably did some totally badass things just to make me feel about forgetting out now, as usual. Maybe more will come back over time but we'll see....

There was some dream before this, but I don't quite remember what it was anymore.

I was preparing to walk down a long beach path towards some building which I was registering as some sort of resort. I was following this guy, AB, who I knew back in high school. He was walking exactly where the land met the water and I was under the impression that that was the only way to get there, but after taking only a single step in the water I slipped and fell and almost got my phone wet. I was a little anxious, but then AB looked back at me and gestured over to the side, where it was clear that you could just walk along the rest of the beach to get there no problem. Oh, silly me.

There was a small balcony outside two different doors leading into the resort that I could see, and standing on it was this girl with pretty tan skin. She kind of caught me off guard because I could have sworn that upon first glance from the front she appeared to be wearing a green bathing suit with a bikini top, but from the back there was suddenly an extra design that covered the rest of her back from the bikini down, and it was mostly diamonds and ties an looked like a club or bar outfit of some kind. It actually kind of reminded me of the front of Shakira's outfit in the Dare music video, now that I think about it. Honestly I was mainly looking at her because I found her very attractive, but I did notice that she seemed to be shouting some kind of promotion for the resort. I figured they must have just hired her to stand out there and attract customers.

I decided to walk into the door on my left and ended up at some kind of Earthbound-like store, just lots of mostly female hippie outfits and jewelry and weird stones and the like. My friend N was there and was just kind of browsing, and I just watched him sift through the products for a minute until I saw that they were selling cards for some new trading card game. I don't really remember what the card game was about anymore, but the cards were pretty vividly detailed at the time as I recall. I ended up grabbing just a couple of cards to take with me (I honestly don't remember paying for them at all) and walked out of the store, to a pretty dull hallway with a staircase and some military guy in it. I decided to follow the stairs and see where they took me.

I end up in a small room with only one table to sit at, and my old friends D, C, and possibly O (most likely, but he never really said anything so it's kind of hard to remember now) were all just there eating some food that appeared to come from a cafeteria. There was another military guy just kind of standing their in the background, kind of watching them I think but just because they happened to be there. They were having a conversation that I could actually hear, but it escapes me now. I ended up chiming in about the trading cards I bought and showing them off because if I have any friends who would appreciate them it would be them, and then the military guy walks over to us. He basically just points to the cards and starts talking about how addictive the card game is, because apparently he's gotten into it (and I think he said it related to how he was really into sci-fi or something). He said he just couldn't stop collecting them. Once he walked away, C and I made a lame but simultaneous (and therefore awesome) "Gotta catch 'em all!" joke.

I ended up looking down at my cards again for a moment, and then when I looked back up the scene had changed slightly. We were now in what appeared to be a first floor room with a little bit of view outside to an open field, and I'm not sure if the military guy was there anymore. There was also a TV playing to the left of my in the corner of the room, and I was no longer sitting at the same table as the rest of the group, but instead was just one table back. D and C were now having a heated discussion about some faux pas that D had apparently made some time in the recent past that I believe was related to race, and then we all turned to the TV to see an episode of It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia playing. Dee happens to make an excuse which relates to the exact situation that D and C are discussion, and D says "There, you see!" as if to solve the argument. However, upon reflection, I think it's actually kind of sad if you have to use something that a character from that show said to justify your actions.

After that I woke up, at first remembering nothing, but then this all started coming back to me.

10:00 PM - 2 grams, smoked, Calea zacatechichi
10:40 PM - 8 mg, oral, Galantamine
10:40 PM - 100 mg, oral, Vitamin B5
10:40 PM - 200 mg, oral, Choline
11:00 PM - 4 seeds, oral, Datura inoxia
11:20 PM - 100 mg, oral, Vitamin B6

This night, I decided to start off my new phase of supplement experimentation with a bang. It may have been a little over eager using three different natural supplements at once, but I really just wanted to see what they would all do together. When I first woke up, I honestly thought that they didn't seem to have done much for me at all, which was weird because I knew they've worked separately for me before. However, when I just lied in bed trying to remember a little more, I started to realize that the situation was actually quite different.

At first I felt like I had barely dreamed, but then I realized that I had actually felt like I was dreaming seemingly non-stop all night, and there were just so many random things going on with so much detail that it was difficult for me to recall it all now without having trained my memory much for this lately. The more I thought about it, the more it was clear that they did have an effect in me. The amount of time I can remember being in a dream is much greater even if much of that is hard to bring back now; the scenery I was seeing was significantly more detailed and involved a lot of natural areas like forests and jungles as opposed to my usual modernized settings; and there were often enormous crowds of people, which for me is a surefire sign of very high amounts of dream detail compared to how I normally get mostly just the key players of people who I don't even really see moving around in the background.

If I had been working on my recall lately I bet I would've been able to bring back something truly ridiculous from all of this, but there will still be plenty of time for nights like that in the future. For now, I'll just give what I can about how this night went. It's going to be described like a series of fragments, as that's the only way I can really remember it, but there was definitely a grand scheme going on that connected all of these events, even if it might've been nonsense.

I find myself walking through a jungle area, down a path which leads somewhere that I cannot see, not unlike an out-of-body experience I have had in the past. Similarly to that time as well, I can tell that something is different about my awareness; I knew that I should be feeling "something", which I can tell now was understanding that their should be some kind of dream enhancement going on from all the supplements, but I wasn't awake enough to put words to it at the time. Perhaps this is when I was first falling asleep? It felt as though the boundary between dream and waking sensations and understandings was a bit less defined during the course of the night whenever I was sleeping a little more lightly.

I was with a dream character who was apparent to me at the time, but I have no idea who it might have been now. What I do know is that we came across a house or building of some kind in the middle of all the jungle or forest area, and for some reason we knew we had to go inside of it. The inside of the building actually appeared to be much larger than the outside had made it look, showing halls that seemed like they could lead down to some kind of school or mall area. I have what feels like a brief flash of seeing where it leads, but I don't recall if I actually traversed any of that area or not. It's quite possible that I did because I know this part lasted a little while, but I just couldn't say. What I do know is that when this mysterious dream character and I finally left, we had armed ourselves with machine guns as soon as we got back outside just in case we needed to defend ourselves, as we had accidentally spooked someone inside the building.

Somehow out of the jungle we had emerged into what appeared to me an enormous stadium similar to a gladiators' colosseum. There were crowds of people sitting all throughout the structure who were cheering on whatever was going on in the middle of all of this chaos. I'm not sure if I ever actually took a good look at what that might be exactly.... I know I was a little more concerned with scanning over all of the people in the crowd, but I'm not sure why exactly. I still had a sense of needing to get something done or avoid someone, possibly carrying on from the machine gun thing before? I started moving through the seats and somehow found the exit to the stadium, though I don't recall quite what it looked like. I know that it took me out to a more foresty area again though with a hill that I walked up, which led me to what seemed sort of like a trailer yard. I was still with some mysterious dream character at this time.

I wandered around this area some more until it opened up more to reveal what appeared to be something like a small town. There were a lot of people walking around, and as I glanced at them something became very obvious to me. I had seen all of these people before, in my own town (a possibly fictitious one). I continued to observe them and noticed that despite this they all seemed to be living lives unlike the ones I had seem them living before, and then I started to connect this to (again, very probably false) memories I had of traveling through other random small towns around here, and then a big picture started coming together that just seemed to make everything fall into place. I turned to my companion, who I then realized was also someone I had met before but who didn't seem to recognize me. I began explaining to him very matter-of-factly that the reason for this must be because all of these towns exist in some kind of magical homeostasis which keeps them running by being inhabited by exact copies of all of the same people over and over, but each of those copies live completely different and independent lives from one another, possibly never even becoming aware of one another's existence. This was also the reason, I continued, that I could recognize my companion but he couldn't recognize me.

If there was any more of the dream after that point, I have failed to remember it. I woke up at that point with some dry mouth and really needing to run to the bathroom, both of which I blame particularly on the datura seeds. It was during this time that I first started to recall the things that I had dreamed after thinking at first that I had basically slept like a log all night. After this short WBTB, I went back to lie down and noticed something peculiar. My imagination was drastically enhanced, to the point that letting visualizations play out actually felt almost like a complete dream, even though I was still aware of myself in the bed. This relates to what I mentioned before about the barrier between awake and asleep being loosened, but somewhere during all of this I fully passed out again.

I am what appears to be just about the same location as where my dream left off before, the trailer park outside of the town. This area actually contained many large trucks as well, and I know that there was some plot that led up to this that I can no longer bring back, but one of the trucks actually started driving off down a nearby road. The first thing I can recall is knowing that I need to destroy that truck before it can follow this large tunnel all the way down to the nature preserve which contained much of the forest that I was walking around in before. I pulled out my still handy machine gun and started unloading into it as much as possible, which actually was slowing it down to a degree, but it was still pulling pretty far ahead of me. There was a sense of urgency, combined with the feeling that someone was trying to distract me from completing this goal. I ran down the tunnel to keep up with the truck and managed to do a considerable (for what I was using) amount of damage to it before it could cross the threshold into the preserve, but unfortunately I could not destroy it in time, and simply stopped driving after it drove through the checkpoint.

The dream suddenly shifted, and I was now at home. The only reason I even particularly remember this part is because after I woke up and saw my cats just staring at me in the hallway it came rushing back. We are unable to take our cats outside at the moment, but in the dream I opened the front door for some reason and the male cat managed to run outside for the first time. I started panicking to catch him and bring him back in since he wasn't even used to being in the outside world, but he understandably kept running away from me so that he could explore. I don't remember how this turned out, but I don't think it was ever resolved, simply transitioning into this next part.

I was back in a place of high awareness of both the waking and dream worlds, but I wasn't fully in either anymore. I could feel myself lying in bed and knew somewhere in the back of my mind that what was happening wasn't real, but it never really occurred to me to think of it as a dream as I also wasn't even participating in that. I had taken on a third-person perspective of the scenario playing out, which was still at my house. It was a short animated clip, and I'm fairly certain that Stan from American Dad! was the main character in what I was seeing. He was talking about something for most of the time (though I felt the emotion of it as if I was experiencing it myself), but what I really just remember is that there was a baby swaddled up in a yellow blanket just lying on the living room couch. It was crying constantly, until he finally picked it up and it stopped immediately, just lying there peacefully. He felt relieved that it had gotten quite, and just held it for a moment to think.

I'm pretty sure that I woke up after that point, which that dream perception just fading and allowing my body awareness to push through to the surface. This was definitely an interesting combination of supplements.... Probably not something I'd try again until I've gotten my vividness and recall back up to where they have been in the past, but it did certainly provide some unique results. I'd say it was a good start to this next run of my lucid dreaming experiments.

~7:15 PM - 750 mL, oral, Cabernet Sauvignon red wine
~9:00 PM? - 2 shots, oral, whipped cream-flavored vodka

These drinks were not intended to be taken as supplements, I was just drinking with friends.... However, I figured I'd mention them as they actually had an effect on my dreams, albeit not a positive one. This is just a fragment in any case.

I was at an apartment with my friend M, which makes sense because I fell asleep in that particular setting after a night of drinking. I remember seeing her in her kitchen and asking her if she had any Tums to help settle my stomach, which was feeling a little distressed after my night of drinking and not being able to get dinner. There was more to the dream than that, but that's where my memory cuts off.

The only reason I even remember this fragment is because when I woke up this morning my stomach was still aching, and I though to myself that I really wish M had had some Tums, not that they would have helped. (Maybe dream placebo?) This is the second time a hangover has seeped into my dreams.... The last time I just had a headache and felt really weak, which made me sit out on a forest adventure.

My thought for the future: probably better not to drink and dream.