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Lucy, you did it again! I got another DILD this morning! I was dreaming that I was driving this car...it was such a beautiful scenery. Then, I approach this very steep hill and I thought to myself, "There is no way possible I will live if I go down that hill...this has got o be a dream!" For a split second, I thought about me driving down that hill, but I thought, "What if you go down that hill and die?" Don't try that as a reality check! I did my levitation RC instead and levitated and then like magic, everything stopped and I was lucid. I felt the vibrations and just laid there waiting to pop out but I never did. I could see my room through my closed eyelids so I concentrated on my third eye and the vibes came back, but I just couldn't wiggle out...sigh. Oh well, keep them coming Lucy!

NOTE TO SELF: What I should have realized was that I was already 'out' and just changed the dream scene

Ok guys I need your help...I don't know what I did or what this counts as...

Went to bed earlier than usual (before 12:00am) and I had intentions all day to make sure to keep the TOTM on my mind. After about 5 good hours of sleep, I did a WBTB. I keep up with my mantra (I lucid dream) then every now and then I would add (I walk and fly backwards). Somewhere within the nodding in and out of NL's, I recall being lucid and I told myself don't forget to walk backwards. I did walk backwards and then for a second I stopped and told myself, "Not like that!" BTW, I have no idea why I said that. Then I kinda 'skated' backwards (like on an escalator going backwards) when I was telling myself to fly. Then all of a sudden I lost Lucy and found some guy telling me he was going to marry me and I involuntarily went with the non-lucid

So...I have no idea what this counts for (if it counts at all ).

Just trying to be honest because being an honest person has always had a lot to do with me being lucid or not.

Even if this doesn't count, I am still willing to keep trying because my stability sucks lately. One Love.

He's My Husband.

Dream:
I was in a beauty pageant and police officers were the judges. The judges were doing the contestants interview sessions and while he was interviewing me he was eating dinner. He offered me dinner and I thought that if I did not take his offer, he would disqualify me. So I ate dinner with him while trying to answer his interview questions. When he finished eating I made sure to finish eating everything on my plate also (btw, we were eating cheeseburgers...which I have not had a cheeseburger in years...one of many missed dream signs). When the interview was over he was getting ready to leave and another contestant came in dressed in a bikini and gave the officer a long wet kissed and looked directly at me. I said, "What the hell?!" and she said, "It's ok, he's my husband." Then I woke up.

Hi Lucy,

It has been a busy week for me! Last week I was so busy with grading finals, inputing grades, graduation, etc. (I'm a teacher) that I could barely get any practice in. I still have good news because I have been keeping up with my dream journaling. Last night all I can remember was dreaming about sex. A type of sex dream so intense that I woke up 'throbbing, thumping and pumping.' I also woke up pissed because I was reaching for my husband and he was not there. Of all the Saturday mornings my husband had to work, this was the one!

By the way, this wasn't any old type of sex dream and I'm not talking about a scene of 'gentle' love-making...I'm talking about raw, primal, nasty, sloppy, acrobatic, stop what you are doing and stare SEX! It was the type of sex that started on the bed...then falling on the floor...forced up against a wall (upside down by the way)...then finally ended in a closet buried in clothes. Oh yeah . Welp, I have to go now...I have to have sex

Oh Lucy! Why, Why, Why?!

I have been questioning my surroundings with reality checks, looking at my hands, and counting my fingers over the last six or seven days. Would someone please tell me why did I freak out in my dream when I saw my fingers ???!!! In my dream, I just remember talking to someone and I looked down at my hands. You may ask, "What did she see?" CLAWS! Yes...claws folks. My fingers were red, fat, swollen, disfigured, pointy, creepy claws! In my dream I started freaking out so bad I started running to a fire station. Guess what Lucy, the creepy claws were not finished scaring the hell out of me yet. When I looked down at my hand again (yes, I looked at my hands twice and still didn't get lucid), my pinky finger had what looked like a big blister or boil 'hanging' from the tip of the claw (gross). A fireman laughed as he took my pinky in his hand (yes, this is another hand that I saw which now makes three), and 'popped' the boil/blister. It seems like every time I looked down at my hands, they grew even more creepier. I stood there so freaked out that I literally scared my ass awake ...Sigh. I still love you Lucy.

Side Note:
Lucy = Lucidity

Date: 12/23/2013
Method: MILD & WILD (Failed)
Total sleep time: 7 1/2 hours

Dream 1

I was with my God son’s mother (I don’t get along with her in RL ) and we were taking my Godson Christmas shopping. We got into a terrible argument in front of my God son and she threatened to keep him away from me for the holidays. I wanted to fight her in the store but my God son was watching my every move and I woke up.

Dream 2

I was driving and I was not quite sure of the location to where I was heading, but I felt the urge to immediately turn around and I did a ‘ doughnut’ in the middle of a busy intersection.

Dream 3

I was on the computer on Dreamviews and I was reading a forum that told me to do a WBTB .

Dream 4

My son was telling me that he was leaving (he graduates from high school in 2014) and I was crying. He said that it was time for him to leave and he got his suitcase and walked out the front door .

Dream 5

I was running down the stairs because of a fire…but I kept running down the same flight of stairs.

Date: 12/20/13
Method: MILD & WBTB (fail)

Dream 1
I had ‘taboo’ sex with my ex and I will not go into details on why I call it ‘taboo.’ You get the picture…

Dream 2
I was at a concert with my favorite singers and band…I even saw Whitney Houston (missed becoming lucid on this one). They kept stopping the concert because someone kept losing something.

Dream 3
I was cleaning up this man’s home and he wanted to have sex with me before my husband came home. After we finished, we had to hurry up and clean up everything we had broke while having sex.

Fragment
I had a gay lover.

Date: 12/18/13
Method: MILD & WBTB (Failed)
Total sleep time: Around 7 hours.

I was working with my husband in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU) and we were about to receive twin babies born premature at twenty three weeks gestation (I use to work in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit as a Therapist) and we were needed immediately to put the babies on breathing machines (ventilator). Both babies weighed less than a pound so their survival was going depend on a lot of drugs and machines. We were working very hard and blood was everywhere, but after hours of intense labor…the babies survived .

Note: Why am I dreaming so much about babies??? Am I pregnant ???

Date: 12/17/2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (Fail )
Total Sleep Time: 8 (ish) hours

Welp...I tried to duplicate my success from yesterday by planning all day with intent to WILD and doing my WBTB for at least 45 minutes. So would someone please tell me why the hell my job called telling me they needed something emailed to them within the hour (and the job would take me 2 hours to do) ???!!! By the time I got finish with the work there was no way in hell that I was able to go back to sleep. Oh well, there is always tomorrow...

Dream 1

I was surrounded by alligators and I decided that I would eat them so I started skinning their hide and removing their guts to make a soup. There were all sizes and shapes of alligators, but I wasn't afraid. I told myself the more the merrier for my alligator soup .

Dream 2

I saw a baby in a woman's uterus and I was able to see this with my naked eye. It was so vivid...his facial features were so clear to me. I saw that the baby was holding a miniature sword in his hand and smiling...like he was going to be a knight. Even though this was a very short dream I must admit, I believe this one was one of my favorites because the baby looked so confident and brave .

Date: 12/16/2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (Successful WILD!)
Total Sleep Time: Almost 7 hours

I did a WBTB around 7:30am because I had an appointment with the exterminator coming at 8:00am. It only took the exterminator around 15minutes for him to do what he needed to do and I was back in my bed around 8:25am. I had been telling myself since yesterday that I was going to WILD AND be successful at it. Before my WBTB, I had actually gotten close to 7 hours of sleep. I realize the more I sleep, the more successful I am at WILDing. In my mind while I lay there I told myself to stay AWARE and not AWAKE. It may have taken me thirty minutes for my body to get relaxed, but soon after that I felt my body kind of ‘drop’ and the vibrations soon followed.

I felt myself holding on for dear life as the vibrations where stronger than ever and soon…I was ‘out.’ I did a quick RC of levitation and it worked. I recalled going through my bedroom wall (which is not too hard because my bed is right next to it) and I ended up ‘somewhere’ (very dark place and I don’t really know where I was). I then recalled I had a few task to do and for the life of me…I couldn’t remember the TOTM. I decided to concentrate by looking at my hands and things became clear. I was in some type of room that had a tree growing in the middle of it. The tree was strange…it was a tree that bore fruit AND vegetables (???). I distinctly recall me saying that the tree had watermelons, cantaloupes, and cucumbers growing from it. I looked up to the highest limbs on the tree and sure enough…there was all the fruit and veggies growing. I decided that since I can clearly see to fly at super speed and I raised my arm up like superman and took off! Everything was going past me a warped speed and I saw the brightest stars in the universe flash past me. I felt almost nauseated from the speed (in real life, I suffer from extreme motion sickness) and I guess that is what made me feel my real body and before I knew it…I was back in my body breathing heavy like I just ran a race.

To my higher power and Lucy…thanks.

Date: December 13, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total Sleep Time: 81/2 hours

Fragments

1. I was filling out an application for something...
2. I saw the letters UAE...
3. I was putting grades into my grade-book for my students...

Let's see if I can improve on this tonight.

Copied from Workbook
Date: 12/07/2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (anticipating a WILD)
Total sleep time: 6-7

So close...

I was dreaming that I was sitting in my front yard...it was snowing (should have become lucid because if it snows where I live...the world must be coming to an end). I look up in the sky and i thought I saw a reindeer . Turns out it was not a reindeer but a camel and I thought to myself, "Whew, for a minute there I thought I was going crazy." I know...Stupidest ways I missed becoming lucid...again. To add insult to injury, then airplanes and helicopters started falling out of the sky and crashing in my front yard .

COPY FROM WORKBOOK Date: 11/30/2013 (Afternoon Nap)
Method: WILD & DEILD

I recall I was watching TV and I was so sleepy I couldn't hold my eyes open...I have been on a 'marathon eating fest' and I needed a nap something terrible. I closed my eyes for a few seconds and I started seeing HI. I recall right before my nap I was watching the movie "The Jungle Book" and the HI I was watching were of some animals playing in the jungle...wolves to be exact.

I said to myself, "Is it possible for me to be so close to sleep already ?" I decided to do a reality check of levitation and sure enough...I levitated and I knew I was dreaming. For some reason, my control was really weak and I just kinda flopped around like a wet dish rag. I ended up in my physical body and I DEILD my way back out again. I decided to go on an adventure to my son's room to see what he was doing (he is home from college and he was the only other person home with me when I decided to take a nap). I recall seeing 'someone' laying in the bed watching TV, but the room really looked different. The bed was in the wrong location and instead of being a queen size bed, it looked like a big recliner. This freaked me out and I ended up back in my physical body again. I waited to DEILD and I was back out. I decided this time to practice my summoning technique (which I suck at). I thought of the person I wanted to see and to my surprise I couldn't think of that person's name..sigh . In RL, I know this person like I know my own child, so why can't I think of that person's name? Because of this, I became frustrated . I do recall when I was thinking about that person, an invisible wind tossed me around the room and I woke up.

Note to self: Every lucid exercise is an opportunity to learn whether it is a success or not. Also, STOP GETTING FRUSTRATED!

Last night I ask my DC what was his name. He stated, "My name is Brandon...Brandon Boss...and yours?" I thought to myself, "Boss? Who the hell do he think he is? What an arrogant asshole! He doesn't deserve to know my damn name!" Then I sashayed my fine ass away from him so he could see what he was going to miss by trying to get smart with me...I'll show him damn it!

WTF!!!!!

Date: 10/22/2013
Technique: MILD & WBTB (failed WILD)
Total Sleep Time: 8 1/2 (ish) hours
MILD Mantra: "I lucid dream tonight" & "I recognize I'm dreaming"

Dream 1
I was with my ex-boss and we were shopping for vintage designer handbags. I saw what looked like a black hefty bag on the floor filled with vintage Gucci bags. I crawled on the floor and retrieved a beautiful blue vintage Gucci shoulder bag. I ran to show my ex-boss who turned around and told me that she was wearing that exact bag at this very moment except her handbag was 'authentic' and mine was a fake. Sure enough, she had the authentic Gucci handbag on her shoulder (she has always been jealous of me ).

Dream 2
I was fishing with my husband and the rest of our family and I was doing very well catching several fish. I remember how real it felt with the fish nibbling on the bait and me yanking the fishing pole to hook the fish and reel it in. Soon, we ran out of bait and started using anything available and the fish were still biting. We were still catching a lot of fish and I told my husband that the next time we go fishing I would like us to go by ourselves and spend the entire weekend with just us fishing (I have always loved to fish ).