bemistaken

Date: August 7, 2013
Method: WBTB & MILD (WILD)
Total hours of sleep time: 7 hours (WBTB 1 hour)

Well, I tried to repeat my success I had yesterday by doing a WBTB for 1 hour...no success. All I have to offer is bits and pieces of a dream.

At a hotel (again), some type of trip I was taking with a group of people. We all belonged to something (maybe a church group) and I wanted to leave, but I was not allowed. I noticed that my bed sheets were not changed by the maid when I got back from downstairs and this pissed me off.

(COPIED FROM WORKBOOK)
Date: August 6, 2013
Method: WBTB & MILD (WILD)
Total hours of sleep time: 6 hours (WBTB 1 hour)

Well, I have a lot to talk about so let's get to the good stuff!

I went to bed at my usual time of 12:00am and I have to get up to fix breakfast and wake the kids. After getting everything done and the last child out of the house, I looked at the clock frustrated because I just knew I couldn't count this as a good WBTB method. According to what I have read on DV, I should not do to much activity during WBTB and I should try to be silent and keep the lights dim. Well, with this being the first week of school, this morning my house was grand central station ! I was up cooking, waking up people, shouting that the bus was coming and every damn thing...sigh!


When everyone was out the door, I looked at the clock and realized a whole hour had passed. As I turned off the lights and got back in the bed, I said to myself, "You have done far to much to count this as a WBTB, no way are you going to become lucid now...chalk this up as another loss." However, my inner self told me to continue to say my mantra and just get a few minutes of sleep (It was 7:11am and I had to be up in an hour to get ready for work).

This is when the magic happened!

It seemed like mere seconds before I noticed that I was standing in front of my door screaming at my kids telling them the bus was coming. I had my hand on the couch which is in the living room by the front door, but I noticed that the couch was in a different position on the other side of the living room. Instinct (and I mean pure instinct) prompted me to do a RC. I told myself to levitate...AND I DID!!! That's when I felt the vibrations, and I knew I was lucid! I'm am not good at my dream control, so I told myself to calm down and the next thing I knew, I was back in my bed. I stayed still and played sleep and like magic again...I was back in the living room! "Oh GOD, please tell me what to do!" I thought as I just floated there. I remembered that I wanted to gain some dream control so I started to touch the living room wall by the front door. As I was looking at the wall and the front door, I thought it would be fun to see if I can go through the wall...AND I DID!!! As I was going through the wall, I'm not 100% sure, but I think I saw like lights? sparks? flashes? Hard to explain, but also, as I want through the wall, it felt gooey . I did come out on the other side of the wall to my front yard and then I faded to the dark again and was back in my bed.

Well, you know my method for this by now DV, I laid still in my bed and DEILD my way back out of myself. This time, I was in a different scenery, but it was still my house. Everything was not quite right, so I knew I had to do something, or I would be back in my physical body again. So I'm standing there and my husband is just looking at me. He says, "Aren't you suppose to do something?" I look at him strangely, but for the life of me I couldn't think of what I was suppose to do (once I woke up, I realized for the TOTM, I was suppose to ask a DC what is the meaning of life? )! I stood there wondering what my husband was talking about and I realized I was losing my lucidity by getting wrapped up in my husband, so immediately, I refocused my attention on getting out of there! For some strange reason, one thing I can always remember is trying to teleport to Egypt and that is exactly what I tried to do.

Canis Lucidis told me to close my eyes and imagine Egypt down to the very last detail. I closed my eyes (tight) and kept thinking about how Egypt looked with the pyramids and the sand (kinda how it looks when I watch the Discovery Channel or National Geographic). I kept repeating these images in my mind and then I began to hear music, or people singing (this isn't the first time I have heard beautiful music while lucid, but every time I wake up, I can't remember the music or the songs)? Slowly I open my eyes and the first thing I see (hard to explain) is like a wavy image (you know how you look in the distance and it is really hot and you can see the heat waves?). The image clears up and I hear people say that Pharoh is a crook. I look down and a child is telling me to follow him (he looks like my God son in RL, but now he is my God son in Ancient times, his clothes are rags also). So I follow him. He stops by men that are working and building something and they are wearing tattered clothes and they look like prisoners. One of them looks like he is eating something and he gives him some of his sandwich to eat and the child says thank you. When the child let go of my hand to get the sandwich (I saw bread and meat, so to me, it's a sandwich), a new scene in front of me appears. I look back at the child who is running toward me and I start to walk toward the new scene, but the closer I got to the scene the more the scene moved further away. I guess I began to get too tired of what I just went through, because I faded to the black and opened my eyes to see my clock on my nightstand...7:46am.

I got up and lunged for my journal and wrote down all that I could remember. I have no idea why I am able to WILD in three's, but by the third one, my mental energy is shot!

A Special Thank you

To Canis Lucidis,
Thanks for sending me to Egypt, you (along with all the other facilitators, moderators, members, and friends) are appreciated.

Date: August 5, 2013
Method: WBTB & MILD (WILD attempt during WBTB)
Total Sleep Time: Don't ask

Dreamed I was with Beyonce at what seemed to be the circus. She was performing an act on the trapeze where she was suppose to sing at the same time she was doing these amazing flips, all while flying. My job was to toss her the microphone from the ground at the exact moment of a flip and she was to catch it with one hand while holding on with the other and start singing. Well, let's just say I got my part right by tossing the microphone at the correct moment. She did indeed catch it, but she fumbled with the mic and it fell in her lap and she missed her mark. I woke up soon after this, but I'm sure if this dream was to continue, I would have been fired for making the Queen B look bad!

Note: Well, it is no surprise that I am not being very successful with my attempts to become lucid during WBTB. I have never had success with WBTB & WILD, so I believe that I am not really sure what to do except try to stay awake while my body is asleep. I always end up falling asleep and wondering what the hell happened that morning. Lately, my total sleep time is just not enough and I know this is making my lucidity suffer.

Got to do better!

Date: August 4, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (fell asleep during WILD )
Total Sleep Time: Not enough!

Fragment

Eating breakfast with my niece at IHOP (piping hot pancakes with lots of butter and hot coffee...my favorite) and there was something about the breakfast special that I was very concerned about, but I believe my concern was that I didn't ask for the special and we were paying far too much for what we ordered.

Note: I woke up starving!

Date: July 27, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total Sleep Time: ???

Frag

I was in some type of department store and I think I was looking for a lamp (not sure though). I kept asking the workers where would I find this item and they would tell me where in the store it was located. As soon as I go to that particular aisle, the item would not be there. I would go back and ask the worker the same thing and she would tell me to go back to that same aisle to find the item. Just like in the movie 'Groundhog Day,' I would just do this same scenario over and over and over again...

Note: Too short and broken up to call this a dream. I should have become lucid just from the constant repetition .

Date: July 26, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total Sleep Time: 7-8 'broken hours'

Fragment

An elderly couple eating spaghetti.

That's it.

Note to self: Not a good night, couldn't focus on my WILD attempt due to being stressed out about my day today. Stress and lucid dreaming does not mix!

Date: July 23, 2013 (Late entry)
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total Sleep Time: Not much

Dreamed everyone had to find a partner to have sex with, but when it came to me finding a partner, it just didn't happen. People where taking their partners behind closed doors and getting busy! As I stood there in the room (and yes, I was making uncomfortable stranger eye contact), they would just walk right past me. Finally, someone was standing in front of me and there was no need for words. I walked in front of him to the first available private room that I saw and went in, but as I turned around to entice my partner, no one was there. I guess he changed his mind!

Date: July 24, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB with WILD
Total Sleep Time: 8-9 hours

Dream #1

Well, I went to bed extremely sleepy, so sleepy, I broke a record by going to bed before midnight! I kept waking up in the middle of night, I guess because I went to bed so early, I kept thinking it was time to get up. I would use the bathroom and every time I would get back to bed, I would say my mantra and try my best to stay awake. Sometimes, I would go to sleep, but I would be back up in a couple of hours doing the same thing all over again. (that's just how my body works, I naturally wake up in the middle of night). Well, by the third time, in the middle of a dream, I felt my vibrations and I became lucid. I was in what looked like a hotel and I was talking to someone at the front desk. I couldn't get over how the person didn't really look like a human to me (and I can't explain what he looked like either). Somehow, my super lucid senses kicked in and I heard a voice in my head say, "Stop staring and hug the damn thing...NOW!" I flew over that counter and wrapped my arms around that 'thing' and held on for dear life! After what seemed a few minutes, I let go (I guess I thought if I didn't hold on long enough the thing would vanish or evaporate). I was so scared, but I had to wait for the reaction, so I just stood there ready to be vaporized or punched in the face by that thing, but instead, it just smiled at me. I lost lucidity soon after that, but when I woke up, I wrote down the little bit I retained and laid back down trying to see if I could continue, but I think the excitement messed that up for me. I was so excited! I don't know where that voice came from that told me to hug that thing, but THANK YOU!

Dream #2

I laid back down and repeated my mantra and went back to sleep and had a non-lucid, but it was very vivid. I was in an elevator and it kept going up and down without stopping. The other DC in the elevator told me that it must be broken and soon I began to freak out. I suffer from extreme motion sickness in WL, so I guess this followed me into my dream world, so I felt my stomach start to bubble and boil..I was getting ready to hurl. The DC started moving around trying to push the buttons on the elevator and calling for help and finally, the elevator stopped. When the doors of the elevator opened, I fell out the doors like a puddle of liquid and the other DCs just stepped over me to go on their merry way. I felt like I was still in a hotel because I went up to my room and I found several people sleeping as I tried to tell them what had just happened to me. They didn't want to hear it because they were asleep and one of them told me to shut up and go to sleep! So...that is exactly what I tried to do...until I saw a live turtle stuck to my shirt !

Date: July 8, 2013
Bedtime routine: MILD & WBTB (I keep falling asleep during my WILD attempts, so I decided to forgo it tonight)
Total sleep time: 6-7 broken hours of sleep, kept waking up and having a hard time going back to sleep (Damn you insomnia! )

Dream

Dreamed I was doing a research study on how children turn out as adults if they slept in their parents bed for most of their childhood. The results indicated that these children grew up to need much more attention than other children, these children may also be more susceptible to drug and alcohol usage from lack of coping skills, and their parent's marriages failed early due to the lack of sex (I have no idea where this dream came from ).

Frag

Dreamed I had several tattoos covering my entire body but I had no memory of how they got there .

Date: July 6, 2013
Bedtime routine: MILD & WBTB (WILD attempt, but kept falling asleep)
Total sleep time: 6-7 hours

Dream

I was this person's every meaning for existence. He held me close in his arms as if my life depended on his touch, he cradled my head and looked deeply into my eyes as he rocked me to sleep in his arms like a baby. My skin felt every bit of his exhalation on my face as he leaned in close to me to make sure I was resting. My eyes were close as I listened to his heartbeat as my head pressed against his strong, broad chest. Even though my eyes were closed, I still could feel his stare upon my body as he refused to take his eyes off of me. I squinted my eyes as my thoughts were confirmed as I could see him follow my breathing pattern with his gaze. He would watch my breast rise up and down with each breath, slowly moving my long straight hair off of my chest with his hand...his hands shaking slightly but ever so gently. He treated my body like I was fragile as glass as he carefully shifted positions to make sure I was comfortable. Being as quiet as a whisper, he cautiously rubbed my arms (still rocking me) and told me how special I was. Oh, how loved I felt by him! Never wanting that feeling to end, I cried for what seemed a lifetime, for I somehow knew that it had to end because he was not mine to love...he was someone else's husband.

Note: I woke up totally confused after this dream...but, I never felt so loved and cared for in my real waking life. No doubt.

Date: June 24, 2013
Bedtime routine: MILD & WBTB (No WILD attempts tonight, just MILD)
Total sleep time: 8-9 hours

Dream

I was back in the city I was born in and I was showing my current family where I grew up and how beautiful it was. The quality of life was much different back then...very relaxing. I was showing them the ocean as the sea gulls flew over, the old buildings still standing built hundreds of years ago, and explaining to them the meaning of happiness. As I was talking to my family (in the car) one of the sea gulls flew in the car and out of the back window. This happened several times, so many times, that we became use to the sea gull flying in the car as we would dunk our heads down in an attempt not to get hit .

Dream Frag:

Saw a boy put a gun to his little sister's head and pulled the trigger (Note: I saw a picture of this in real life this week on facebook, so it must have followed me into my dreams as it was terribly disturbing).


Dream Frag:

Someone singing "I remember mama," so intently, so focused, and so emotional.

June 23, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (too exhausted to stay awake for my WILD attempt )

Dream Frag:

I was in a car with someone and I told him that I wanted to go home, but we kept driving around in circles. I would look down at my clothes and they would change everytime I looked down (do you think this was my dream sign??? Uh...yeah!). It didn't seem to concern me that my clothes kept changing, I just wanted to go home...never did make it home .


Note: One of my famous recurring dreams about being lost and not being able to find home.

Date: June 19, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (attempted WILD, but fell asleep twice)
Sleep Time: bedtime @ 12:30am WBTB @ 5:45 am for 5-10 minutes, then back to sleep Awake @ 10:30am

Dreamed I was playing with my little baby niece and all of a sudden the house was surrounded by a SWAT team and helicopters outside (police dogs and guns drawn by officers and all). They came in and bullied me and pushed me to the ground while they search the house. I continued to ask them what where they looking for. I was more mad than scared because at first they were just ignoring me. When they finally got through searching the house (inside and outside) they came over to me and jerked me off of the ground and told me to 'hand it over.' I said, "Hand what over??!!" They said to hand of the gene. "We know you have it, hand over the GENE." Then I woke up...

Question: Not sure if 'the gene' was my baby niece or what...

Date: June 11, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (hoping to WILD, but fell asleep)
Total hours: 6-7 hours

Dream Frag:
Somebody I knew had just won the lottery and she was telling everyone how rich she was and that she had just got off the plane from traveling from London (No, I didn't get the lottery numbers! )

Dream#1:
A male friend of mine had been in an argument with another male friend of mine and I was a witness to him being shot several times in the butt and in his right leg. I helped him hide from the shooter and from the police in a small house owned by another friend of mine...then I woke up.

Dream #2:
About 2-3 three people were in this bathroom sounding like they were having sex with each other. Another person thought they knew who it was, but I told them that they were wrong, that it was not the person he thought it was, but an alien...yes, an alien was having sex in the bathroom . They told me to prove it by catching the alien, so I waited for the alien to come out of the bathroom. When the alien did come out, I grabbed him with my both my hands. He was no bigger than a baseball. He started to scream and wiggle, but I kept a tight grip on him so he could not escape.

The alien started to change shape in my hands by getting smaller or becoming a liquid as an attempt to slip out of my hands. All I could think about was if the alien escaped, I could not prove I had seen one, so my main goal was to hold onto the alien for proof (why can't I remember my main goal is to pay attention to a dream sign...like an alien having sex? ). Then, the alien became extremely sticky in my hands and the colorful pattern on the alien's skin stuck (or merged?) onto my skin and then my skin began to resemble the alien's skin . I started to freak out thinking I was going to turn into an alien and everyone was going to think I was the one having sex in the bathroom so, I let him go...and woke up pissed.

Late Journal Entry: June 6, 2013
No Method (long day at work, just went to bed)

Piece's of a dream #1:
Living in Columbus Ohio for a short while with my sister then it was time to go back to my life in another state. I have to make a decision on if I was ready to move to my state, or stay in Columbus and live closer to my family.

#2:
Inside a school cafeteria eating lunch and my son was singing and I told him to be quiet because he could not sing.

Napping:
I was baby sitting and showing new mothers how to bath their newborn babies. They were very nervous and I could hear their heart beating so loud and fast. Many of them could not be in the same room and had to step out for several parts of the demonstration.