Xanous' Dream Journal

#235 - DEILD - 7:38AM

I woke from some dream and went to DEILD. As if almost by will I hit very strong vibes and began "movements" to transition. Part way into it my son yells out and my wife rolls over. I fell like I am free from SP but the vibes are still mildly there. I try to relax but feel way too awake now. The vibes stay with me until I get up to pee. I didn't check the time but it was still dark out. Now that I think about it, it must have been earlier than I first thought.

I lay back down to WILD and wake into that odd indescribable feeling. There were no vibes this time up the other signs were there. My memory is bad here but I think I was in some unfamiliar house. I look at my hands to increase vividness. Once satisfied, I step to the left and purposefully fall into the void. I wanted to perform one of the TOTM's (scare a kid) at the place I spent my day yesterday, Silver Dollar City. I reach out and feel the wooden fences and railing that are all over the park. I begin walking and feeling the impact of the hard asphalt on my feet. No for some reason I begin doubting myself and think that I can't hold this teleport together. It feels difficult to concentrate and I relax, letting awareness slip away.


I have a long a vivid non lucid where my girls where letting the sheep in the house. long story short, we lived out of town in what looked like a double wide. There were large windows, green carpet and a kitchen on the other side. I was on the couch watching TV when I feel one of the cats jump on my lap. I look and see that is it a gray baby sheep. I freak out and yell at the kids. There is pee and poo on the carpet. I step in wet carpet with my socks on and get even madder. I let the sheep in the back yard but notice they are getting out of the fence. I decide to go fix it. I wake up to WILD again or I just enter the next dream I am not sure.

I am someplace outside with people around. There is a rock wall (Silver Dollar City?) next to me. I don't think about where I am but I have to pee really bad and I don't want anyone to see me. I decide this is a dream and realize it doesn't matter. I go ahead a pee hoping that I am not really peeing the bed

Now I am sitting on the toilet at home. Not only am I going number one but I am doing number two as well. This may sound contradictory but I feel like I am fully self aware but I think that I woke up like this. I conclude that I must have sleep walked while lucid. (a fear of mine) and some how acted part of the dream out. I laugh when I remember what CL said in the last podcast. (my memory maybe wrong here CL if you read this let me know) "Some of us can just LD while sitting on the toilet but the rest of us have to really work at this." I decide that must have been what I did. I realize I still feel really odd and really sleepy like I do in SP. I think I must be half way there now. I close my eye for a bit and feel like I am floating then quickly reopen my eyes. I look down and see there is dirt on my toes. I think it was because I was wearing flip flops in my dream. I decide I better get up and go lay down. As I walk back to bed I get a super HD image of a man talking to a woman. Again I remember the podcast were CL talked about how dreams can be more vivid than waking life. The image vanishes.

As soon as I lay down I enter an in dream WILD. I get out of bed with difficulty and blindly walk back into the bathroom and then my sons room. I look at my hands for vividness and suddenly I can see fine. The room is lit up with sunshine but it is completely empty. I walk circles a few times waiting for vividness to increase. I am a little afraid to leave the room because I think the dream will fade if I do. But I realize the only way to get a TOTM is to just go for it. I think about how my house should look and open the door.

There is a bright light and with some concentration I find myself standing in the living room. I look around for a witch but only see my black cat lying under the dinning table. Realizing animals are DCs too, I decide that this is the witch in disguise. I dive head first toward her and end up gliding on my stomach a long way. When I get to my cat she is now on the mat in front of the kitchen sink. She is lying there like some cat goddess and somehow looking very regal and highly intelligent. I say, "Witch. Hey, witch. Cast a spell on me... please." I put left hand out to her. She replies by putting a paw on top of it. As soon as she touches me, I begin to convulse uncontrollably and my skin turns a multitude of colors and patterns. First it's black and gray stripes, then yellow and orange stripes with yellow polka dots on the orange, then yellow and red stripes, a paisley pattern and so on. I laugh out loud and let out a goofy sounding "wow". The colors and patterns become more and more complex and I become lost in it like I am on some sort of psychedelic high. I hear a sound like a vacuum cleaner in the next room. After a moment every thing around me fades away and I am consumed by the colors and patterns. I enjoy the show for a moment longer until I finally wake up.