Inner Sanctum

Out of all the dreams i remembered from this morning/last night, this one was the most memorable.

Me and my best friend were walking down the street in my home town. She was drunk, in a club outfit, and carrying her heels. Which was weird, because that's something she would do in the city our college is in because where the night scene is, you can only walk. But anyway..

We walked to this one neighborhood to buy some weed. As we were walking down the street, i saw three guys walking towards us. They were all wearing hoodies with the draw-strings pulled really tight and were wearing rain boots. She started walking towards some house, i figured she was just trying to avoid them. But that's where she was actually going to buy the weed..

She knocked on the door and some guy opened it. There were pit bulls and pit bull puppies in the door way. Some of the puppies ran out and were trying to bite and scratch me. I just stood there, swiping them away with my foot as i waited for her to come back out. She stormed out some time later and i could tell she was upset. I asked what happened, and she told me some guy called her a "sexy little bitch". She kept walking and explaining how he said it and how mad she was. I just walked with her and listened. But you know how drunk people can be, after the anger was gone, she got all emotional and shit. She even started talking about how society degrades women and said "That's so violent!". She was right.

She started crying and telling me how degraded she felt and everything. As she was saying all that, the sun came up. It was dark in the beginning of the dream, but now it was light outside. I kept trying to console her and calm her down as we walked down the street. Then some other girl appeared and was trying to help me calm her down. I couldn't see her face or remember what she looked like, but i could tell it was our friend Ryan.

We ended up walking by a cop and my best friend was so hysterical she fell down. The cop saw it and laughed because she knew she was drunk. I noticed, and tried to talk to him and explain she just went through some shit, etc, etc. He blew me off..fuckin' pig. He got out and started talking to us about a bunch of bullshit. Then he said something to me in Latin. But i don't remember what it was.

He got back in his car, blocked the road, then made her do a drunk test. I looked at Ryan and said..."and what's why i stick to weed"

I was at my university; as usual, but for some reason, my parents and sister were there. My parents kept wanting us to hang out around the school, go to the arcade and shit -_- . That was the only time i saw them in the dream. It faded into me going to the bathroom in one of the classroom buildings. My friend from back home: John, walked in. Then some girl came in right after him. They were talking about gaming and us linking up to hang out later or something. Then the dream faded again..

I was hanging out with my sister and our cousin at first in some house. Then us and the rest of our family went shopping. When we were done we got checked out...outside...at the exit of the parking lot. When we went to get in the car and drive away, my family disappeared and it was only me and some other guy in the car. He was driving. We ended up crashing in a bad accident.

I didn't realize it at first, but i was dead. I went into some afterlife or reincarnation. Me and some girl were running around the city looking for food and trying to figure out what was going on/where we were. I didn't know who she really was though.

The dream faded again and came back again, this time i was in bed with the girl i was with. We were just laying together. She did this thing where she grabbed my hand and put it on her belly as if she wanted me to rub it. That's when it clicked in my mind, "she" was my girlfriend. I knew it was her because my girl always does that, and her vibrations were just like hers.

Then i woke up..

The dream started inside a basketball gym. I quickly recognized i was at a high school drumline competition. I was with my old drum line that i was the captain of in high school. We were just there as alumni, spectating. For some reason i was off by myself at one time, and i was just standing against a wall. There was a girl sitting next to where i was standing. We made eye contact, but i didn't start flirting or anything, because i have a girlfriend anyway lol. She started to get up and as she did, she sounded like she was gonna ask me if i wanted to go get something to eat. But by the time she stood up, she realized how much taller than me she was. The girl was like 6'8 or something. She laughed and said some form of "never mind" in an awkward "i'm so embarrassed" kind of way. But we both just laughed it off because we knew why.

This girl at a table close to where we were sitting noticed what had happened. She gave me a dirty look and called me an asshole. I walked over and told her what happened and told her that she needed to mind her business. She had the look of defeat on her face, like she knew she was out of line. I guess she thought that i was laughing at the tall girl for whatever reason.

I walked away and stood back where i was before, but right before i got comfortable, some guy comes walkin' up to me. I knew he was mad just by his body language. The first thing i thought was: "that was his girlfriend, he saw me tell her to mind her business. He probably wants to fight me.". But instead, this asshole says i don't look like a high school student and that he needs to see I.D. That's when it clicked in my head who he was. He was this guy i went to high school with for about a year. He was in the percussion ensemble in class, but he wasn't good enough to be on the drum line. And as i remember, he was pretty immature. I told him i wasn't in high school, that i was in college and i was just here watching. But at this point he already pissed me off with his tone of voice. He was acting like he was a cop or something, when in reality, he was just some high school kid with a few weight lifting classes. We argued back and forth for a while, then i finally showed him my ID so he'd shut the fuck up. He gave some smart remark and then walked off yelling that he was "THE PROBLEM AROUND HERE!" as if he'd just won a fist fight in the cafeteria in front of his crush.

I went outside to cool off because i was pretty mad. My homie came outside to see what had happened, and by that time i was just laughing it off. Then the dream faded.

OBE.

The song we were listening to was saying something about "going high", or "go high", something like that. I was dancing to it, and as i was dancing to it, i imagined myself going "higher". The image i visualized was myself upright floating and rising. The weird part was the fact that there was nothing else i saw except myself. Everything else that was around me was just blackness, as if i was in a black hole. If that makes sense.

After a while, i couldn't really see my physical body. The "higher" i went, the more my body started to fade into this glowing white/blueish light of energy. My body was in the shape of a Y, with my arms outstretched.

Similar to this, except everything around my body was black instead of illuminated.


When the song was ending and i tried to "come down", i had trouble remembering who i was. All i could see was my body of energy(which i assumed was my non physical body, my soul) levitating. I literally had trouble remembering who i was and what my physical body looked like. That triggered in my mind, and i felt like i was experiencing something more than just a day dream. It was almost like i was having an OBE, or i had seen my astral body..

Eventually i "remembered" who i was and i snapped out of the vision. When i realized what i saw i was kind of tripped out, and i just sat and thought about it..

I remember two dreams from last night. They both were pretty short and fragmented.

In the first one, i pulled up in my drive way at home. As i was getting out of my car, my parents were going in the house too. My parents told me not to go to this park that she knows i like to chill at. They said that some people had recently got arrested out there and they were caught with guns and drugs. It threw me off, but not enough to become lucid. Unfortunately -_-.

Then there was another one where i was driving down the busiest street in my home town. I stopped at McDonalds to eat and when i came in i saw my homies cousins eating there. I sat down and started to eat with them, and the dream started to fade..

This is my first dream journal in a while. I remembered two dreams from last night, but both of them were pretty vague. At first i was with two of my friends from back home. The crazy part is, we were hanging out in my next door neighbors house from my OLD neighborhood. Even weirder, was the fact that my neighbors weren't there at all. It was just us. I don't remember what we were doing, but i remember asking if i could stay the night because i didn't feel like going back home. My friend went to ask his mom, but hesitated. After that, the dream faded..

Then there was one where i was with these two girls that i kinda' grew up with. We were all hanging out in some house, for some reason, i feel like it was my grandma's house. One of them was laying on a bed on her stomach, and the other was walking around. I was talking on the phone, and i saw her walking around. She had some tight shorts on lol, and i noticed how good her ass looked in them. Like any guy, i stared for a second lol. My other friend noticed me checking her out, and she made some smirk/tongue face at me. I started laughing and walked away for a second, and as i was walking away she went to tell our friend that i was checking her out. That's when i noticed how childish that scene was, and the odd combination of location/people. Normally i would've became lucid, but i haven't been DJ'ing and meditating like i used to. So i ended up just fading out of the dream..

I keep falling off of doing my dreams journals and working on lucid dreaming. I'm about to get back on it though. Hopefully, i will stay on it this time.

This dream was really vague. I actually didn't even remember it until i was walking to class and all of a sudden it kind of came to me..weird, i know.

The dream started with me sitting on some bed, with my friends little sister and one of our friends. My friend(the first girls brother) died, and one of our other friends that was with him also died. I'm not sure why, or what happened. I just remember consoling her about it. And when i stood up and hugged her it was one of those tight hugs...and when i got ready to let go, she didn't. And from experience i know that's when a girl is really upset. For some reason that triggered my lucidity. That's when i really realized how weird the dream was.

She just kept crying on my chest, which made me cry...

Then i woke up..

When i first woke up, i remembered this dream very clearly. But i was late for class and couldn't write it down. So now it's more like a dream fragment.

Me, and some DC were talking with this guy who had on a leather jacket, and this yellow shirt under it. The yellow shirt had a red design of the baphomet on it. . .So immediately i was a little thrown off by that, but in the dream world everything is "normal".

The three of us just talked for a while, and i asked him about his shirt, and he admitted to being a satanist. But he seemed really cool in the dream....

Weird...

The dream started with me at some festival at a water park or something. At first, me and all my "friends", who were really just DC's, were watching these models do their thing on the runway. They were all in bathing suits. Then afterwards they all ran into this weird contraption and were gone. Then we walked over to this car show, and looked at all the muscle cars. After a while i got bored, so i told my friends i was leaving and i might be back later. When i walked away from the festival it was like i teleported to this shopping center in my hometown where there's a clothing store i shop at a lot. I walked out of one store, and into the clothing store as if the festival was inside a department store

When i went into the store, i saw one of my friends that lives in a different state there, which was weird. Then i saw a few more people, and for some reason we started to talking about playing basketball. One of the DC's asked me if i was good, and i told them i used to be. Before i got so deep into making music and lost interest in it. But they didn't care and we just played anyway. It was me on a team by myself against these 2 guys and 2 girls....yes, in the store, we played basketball lol.

I scored on them a few times, and they were impressed. I was surprised with myself because i haven't played in so long.
Then i woke up..

I don't remember any of my dreams last night. It's weird though, because ever since i had my first lucid dream (since last year) i haven't been able to have another one, and my dream recall is getting worse, instead of better. Maybe i'm just over-thinking it, *shrugs*.

This dream was very vague, it was dark around me the whole time. All i really remember was waking up to this radio that we used to have at my house. It's not a radio for music and radio stations, it only turns on when there is a big storm coming, tornado warning, etc. When it came on, i immediately knew that sound because we've had it since i was a little kid. Why it was in my dorm, and not my house? I have no idea. I grabbed it and tried to listen very closely to it, and then all of the sudden i got annoyed and just kept trying to shut it off. But when i did and layed back down, i kind of felt dumb because i then thought: "What if a big storm really is coming?..."

Then the dream faded...


It was kind of ironic that i had this dream this morning though, because when i went to my Weather and Climate class we had a guest speaker. He was a meteorologist at the local TV station. And the only time i really watch those weather channels is if there is severe weather. And the only time that radio goes off is in severe weather...

So, a few nights ago, i had my first lucid dream (Lucid Assassin) since i lost interest in LD. Which was about a year ago. But last night, i tossed and turned because i was stressed over a few things. So i didn't remember any of those dreams. Consequently making me sleepy all day today, so i took a nap after class...

The dream started with me and a few people i didn't recognize hanging out on our college campus. In the dream, i knew that i was on "campus", but after i woke up i realized that where ever i was it wasn't my university. But anyway, we were all hanging out and then all of a sudden we saw these guys huddled up on this hill far away from us. They were far enough to where we couldn't make out faces, but close enough to see skin color, clothes, and hear them yelling. It sounded like they were fighting about something, and then it looked like they got into an actual fistfight. We all kept watching and we were speculating on what was going on. Then i got this feeling, or thought that one of them was going to pull out a gun. And the thought felt more like a vision, like i was 100% sure that it was going to happen. As it soon as i had that thought, one of them stepped back, pulled out a gun, and shot one of the other guys about 3 times or so.

As soon as we witnessed it, one of the guys i was hanging out with jumped up and pulled out a gun, but he didn't shoot at anyone...he was just pacing back and forth and waving it around angrily, like it was his friend that got shot and he was trying to stop himself from going out there and returning fire. I started walking away, because i figured the cops were gonna come, and i try my best to avoid pigs.

As i began to walk away, the dream became more third person, i noticed what i was wearing as if i was watching a video of myself. Then i looked back and i saw the guy with the gun, and his friend walking away from where we were hanging out. He was still flailing the gun around. I also noticed that the guy with the gun had on a grey denim jacket, and had really long dreads. He looked familiar, but i couldn't put a finger on it.

I started walking towards this neighborhood, i don't why. But in the dream there was this force that kept telling me to walk over there. I could see it clearly but the more i walked towards it the darker it got outside. When i got into the neighborhood i walked in between these two houses that had Rottweilers and Pitbulls chained up in the backyard. That kind of deterred me for a minute, but then i kept walking. As i got closer to the place i was trying to go, something told me to turn around and head back. So i did...and as i was walking back, one of the guys i was hanging out with from before yelled something to me as he was running in the direction i just left. I yelled something back to him, but i don't remember what it was. Then someone on a porch of one of the houses i was walking by told me to leave the neighborhood. I was already doing that, so i just ignored them...

I just kept walking until i woke up...


After i woke up, i couldn't help but try and make sense of that dream. I'm a very analytical person, and the first thing that came to mind when trying to break this dream down was my relationship with my father. He's always "been there" in my life, but we don't really get along. And recently i've been going through a lot of things. Mainly just dealing with some inner battles, like anyone would be at this time in their life. But because we don't really get along, we've never talked about it and he doesn't understand me. So, the only link i could make with my subconscious, conscious, and this dream is that the fight ("battle") i witnessed was really my own inner battle. The guy who pulled out the gun next to me and was waving it around angrily symbolizes my dad. Because he wanted to help the guy in the "battle" but he was too far away...

Then me walking off to that neighborhood, is me handling the situation how i handle most situations. And that's to handle it by myself, and just think it through in isolation.....

I don't know though, just a thought. Leave some comments if this was interesting to you, or if you have some other analysis.

The dream started in some weird looking area in the woods, and there were a few stone houses around me. So already i kind of felt weird because if something was built from stone, that meant the dream was set in the past, or i was in some historical place.


At first i was just observing the area in 3rd person. It took me a while to realize that the person i was observing in the dream was Elzio; the main character from Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood. (This is probably due to the fact that i was playing that game last night.)

Once i realized that, i started to notice a lot more. And many DC's started to appear. I saw a bunch of female assassin's who were apart of my Brotherhood, then it was like i had a vision of more assassin's who were our enemies coming towards us. When i turned around, my enemies were fighting all of my assassin's. For a while i just watched, until our enemies started losing and they began to flee. I walked over to one of the female assassin's and told her to kill their leader, because my gun was out of bullets. She did, and i just continued to tell my guild who to kill and how. (Just like in the game lol)

After that i just started looking around, and after all that, it finally hit me that this was like a scene straight out of Assassin's Creed.

I did two RC's. I plugged my nose, and i did the "see if you can hover" RC. Both of them worked and i shouted out...

"Oh shit....i'm dreaming!"

But i quickly remembered some of the things that i had read about lucid dreaming mistakes, and one of the biggest ones is to get too excited. Because you'll wake yourself up. Which is what i did the other two times i became lucid -_-.

So i calmed myself down, and just tried to think of things to do that wouldn't be too crazy. I couldn't really think of anything at the moment, it may have just been because the dream wasn't very meaningful. So i just kept doing the hover thing over and over. I was trying to restrain myself from flying, because i figured i wasn't lucid enough and it'd just wake me up. But i said fuck it, and did it anyway.

I began to fly over the woods, and the dreamscape began to change. The woods started to fade away, and i started trying to create the clouds around me, mountains under me, etc.

After a while i landed. Somehow i was right back in the woods in the same area. One of the female assassin's came up to me, and began talking to me. I don't remember what she said, i just remember she was sexy as hell.

I wanted to have sex with her in the dream, but i figured i wasn't lucid enough for that, and it'd wake me up....well, just like flying i said fuck it. I took her into the stone house and we had sex. You don't need all the details lol.

Then i went back outside, and as crazy as this sounds...i was kind of bored. So the dream started to fade and i woke up.