dream fragment

i miss being lucid! brings back so many memories... i might start up again, but my schedule is really busy and i have no time to practice/meditate etc.

anyways, i remember the past 3 dreams i've had in the past 3 nights.

first dream: i was part of some kind of rich family of assassins, or something like that. the dream started off with me driving to a hotel and i was supposed to meet my brother and some other dude there. i got in, checked into the hotel. when i got in, i got this "aura" or feeling like someone was outside my door, and he was not friendly. i look at my door and sure enough there's these two feet that's trying to seep its way in from the top of the door (dream imagination ftw?). as soon as i notice, he barges in and trys to kill me. i react by throwing these weird sharp stick things, dodging his attacks at the same time. i end up killing him, and a lil later my brother shows up. dream switches to a really rich mansion. i'm inside, and there's this meeting thing going on about finding our "father". supposedly everybody there was my brother and sister or something. then i go outside to the backyard, and there's these giant pools, like 4 of them. it must have been like a park in our backyard, because it was huge. that's all i remember.

second dream: i'm "auditioning" to be a rapper for eminem or something? i have to go through these tests, some weird ass tests, like eating a container full of noodles in under 2 minutes or something. there's another test that has something to do with a dog or something. i pass, and i see dr. dre congratulating me or something. TIME-OUT.. sudden dream recall: i remember something about these tons of envelopes that belonged to my uncle tito darwin. inside these envelopes held tons of free stuff, some really really valuable, like gems and gold and such, others like casual items like clothes or money or something. i stole a whole box full of those envelopes... and i dont remember much after that. anyway, back to main dream story: suddenly im in the "house" of eminem lol. i don't really see eminem at all in my dream, but i know its "his" house. i see a bunch of people, including amelia which i wave to and she waves back. i go to her to hug her but she ignores me so i kinda play it off and act like i wasnt going to hug her LOL. then... i THINK someone trys to break in and steal something from the house, and he gets away. i turn to tryndamere and i whirl out of the wall to chase him down... and the dream ends from there.

third dream: i dont remember much from this night... but all i remember is dreaming about my ex nikki. this dream made me really sad for some reason lol, i guess i was just feeling lonely in that dream (if u can even feel emotions in a dream, which im pretty sure you can.) i ended up waking up and being somewhat sad that the dream wasnt real and that i just woke up to reality. that's not really me, although i have had a lot of dreams where i wake up sad because the dream is over. unconscious emotions?

Dream Journal #21, May 24th 2011

My dream recall is real shit right now.. I don’t know why. Maybe because I’m not trying as hard? Blah. Well I only remember dream fragments at the moment.

First fragment I remember was that I dreamt that hero had died already, and he was replaced by a bird. That bird lived in the same cage as hero. The bird loved alcoholic drinks and we would give him like whiskey to get him to go into the cage lol. There was this one part where I gave him alcohol but I forgot to tell him to go to the cage and he went outside. I was like ah shit, so I gave him more alcohol to go into the cage. I then woke up? It may have been an FA or a real awakening, I don’t remember, but I woke up and I was like… man, I miss Hero. Then I was like, wait, wtf? When did Hero die? I was very confused and I thought I was dreaming so I did a reality check (noseplug/clock) and it failed. I then concluded Hero was definitely still alive and that bird was a dream.

Second sort of fragment I remember, was me being on a fucking mission. Like CIA stuff lol, except it was with my family I believe. I’m still not sure what it was about… but I remember me and my dad flying in the air with parachutes trying to land at a “recovery” point. When we landed, it goes weird from there. There were “openable gates” and we opened them and there were like regular civilians there, and I think we were showing something off? (Maybe the bird… ) That’s all I rememeber. Oh and the weather was very stormy and windy. Oh.. and I also think I remember dreaming about spongebob squarepants? wtf. He was surfing like 50 ft tides and 200ft tides or something. Or maybe that was me. Anyways, I’m definitely not trying to remember my dreams.. I clearly could remember a whole plot if I wanted to (Look up). Time to WBTB

Third fragment was me watching a movie with some random friends? I went into some random house in my random neighborhood, I was waiting for someone for some reason. I forgot what I did, but I ended up on a couch watching a movie. I didn’t even pay attention to who sat next to me. Then, someone puts their arm over my shoulder, and he’s like “Oh, sorry my bad. What’s up?” I look over and it’s Frankie lol wtf? I’m not sure if Katrina was on the other side, but it was just odd that Frankie was next to me. We then talked about some stuff I don’t remember, and I think the dream ended there.

After WBTB:

Nothing -.-

Dream Journal #20, May 23rd, 2011

I don’t remember much of my dreams.. all I know is that they were very vivid. Also took 100mg of Vitamin B6. I remember me and alvin playing some type of weird game… don’t remember what. My brother also had kdd’s phone for some reason. I come outside and I hear kdd say “make some ribs!” to my mom, and ask if it’s her birthday. She says no it already passed and kdd says “oh happy belated birthday!” I go into the bathroom and I pee, then i wake up (thank God i didn’t pee my bed).

After WBTB:

don’t remember any dreams it was a long weekend, so i’m not that disappointed.

Dream Journal #19, May 21st 2011.

Well, slept like at 3 am last night so of course I don’t really remember any dreams. Just one dream fragment though. I remember dreaming about lucid dreaming lol I was at a party, steven was there. They were doing some other thing, and then they saw me looking at lucid dream stuff. That’s all I remember. Going to WBTB now, I shall become lucid

edit: after WBTB

had a lucid, but the dream was very unstable, because there was just too much external noise coming from outside my house and inside my house, sigh.

the lucid started out as me walking in my school towards my friends. the environment and surroundings were very vivid, and they were also very familiar. i dream about school often. it didn’t take anything for me to become lucid- i knew i was lucid as soon as i saw everything. the dream faded as i became lucid, i let it fade. the dreamscape changed, but i was still lucid. i started to see the ceiling of my room, with the fan. first thing i did was rub my hands to stabilize the dream. it didn’t work… the dream started to fade again. it’s like the more i rubbed the more it faded. i awoke to little girls screaming like hell outside playing and a lawn mower. ugh. i tried to deild but it didnt work, so i got up and closed the window.

what was odd however was that i remembered a nonlucid dream in a lucid dream! something i did in the lucid dream (i forgot) triggered a memory, from before the WBTB same night. here’s the nonlucid:

I was living in my current house and i took my bike. I rode and i rode until i got to my neighbors house (this neighbor should have lived right next to me… but for some reason he was a block away now). I see that they trust me and my family a lot, but I go into their garage and steal a bunch of drinks. I bring them back to my house and tell my parents I got free drinks lol. After a while of doing this (like 3 times), John, my neighbor, comes over. He knows about me stealing the drinks and he tells my dad, I hear all this from the backyard eavesdropping. I get nervous, but I eventually just go up to John and say I’m sorry… I’ve had a history of stealing things in my past and its hard to overcome. lol. The dream ends there I believe.

Going to sleep now, it's 10:35 am. I will become lucid.

First dream I remember was having Sherry come to me and be like, "i think Dan might ask me to prom because vlahblahblah" and she asked me if I knew anything, I said no. So she asked me to tell her if anything came up cause she wants to know beforehand. Soo then it goes to just me alvin and ian playing basketball. I do remember we find out that Ian has a crush, and kuya don don was like dude she's in the philippines? forget about it! but Ian was like no and he said he's waiting till he's 18. So were like whatever lol. Then we go play basketball.

edit: remembered a couple more things (2 things that i had to stop and think about because of it's weirdness.. almost became lucid i think)

first thing was me seeing katrina in 5th period with a motorcycle. i was like, hmm.. that's weird.. she got a motorcycle instead of a car? then my mind goes.. OK, THAT SOUNDS TOTALLY FINE. NOTHING WEIRD ABOUT THAT. then i continue whatever i was doing.. which i forgot.

second was in a FA. I woke up, and I still had my boxers on (i put back my shorts after WBTB cause it was cold, but i didn't question that). Then I look at my thighs and I see cuts, almost like I cut myself on purpose. There were quite a few, and I think I remember seeing cuts on my arm too. I was just like.. WTF? when did I get these cuts?? then again, my mind goes, HMM WHATEVER I JUST DONT REMEMBER. IT'S FINE. and I go into the bathroom and wash my face and everything, and I wake up for real and I'm late to school

It seems like I'm getting closer to become more aware in my dreams, as I'm actually questioning these weird things that are happening in my dreams. I've never done that before, so hopefully my awareness will boost up over time and I can finally have a DILD in fantasy land.

Dream Journal #16 May 18th, 2011.

Wow.. i slept right through my alarm, that or it didnt go off. my dreams aren’t really that memorable. i only remember some fragments, although i did remember me suddenly thinking about lucid dreaming in the middle of my dream. most of the dreams were about school. they somewhat relate to league of legends because we had mana and stuff… but that’s all i remember lol. Not a good night for dreaming Tonight for sure.

edit: Weird, I remember this dream like 30 minutes after I woke up.

I remember being in Terreri’s class, and it wasn’t actually terreri but he was a sub. But he looked EXACTLY like terreri and had the same voice, but for some reason I knew he was a sub. I forgot what I did in there, but as I left class I forgot my shorts lol so I was walking around the hallways with only my boxers on. Sean and Andrew saw me and they were like wtf? And I was like.. damn, needa go get my shorts. So I get them and I see Anthony there still sitting in class like he had detention. Then I remember Terreri saying something about demons to him or whatever. I leave. As I walk the hallways, it’s like some kind of holiday similar to Halloween. People are behind the glass displays and they’re invisible, but theirs signs saying to come close to the glass display. As soon as people get close, students suddenly appear and scare the shit out of them. Me, on the other hand, I was able to see through their invisibility. I kicked one of my classmates who was invisible, and he was just like WTF.. how do you see me? I just laughed and walked away.

Dream Journal #14 May 16th, 2011

blah i fell asleep after my wbtb… sigh

anyways first dream i remember was my brother coming back home and like he came home rich or something from the cruise. basically my room was renovated like crazy lol. then he asked me to sell marvel vs capcom and everything. i can remember elleean my dad and alvin with me. we went to some place right near knotts to sell them. i got mad at alvin for not listening to me. ellean and alvin had weird personalities… they weren't acting “themselves” in my dream. weird. I also remember looking at some WII games, and the store only had like 2 games, and me and ellean were like, wtf? so we sold marvel vs capcom and left to go to a new store. also... the place that was right by knotts for some reason is very familiar, like i've been there before. i KNOW i was there at some point, either in one of my old dreams or in real life. that’s all i remember.

next dream was that i was in ms. Kitts class lol. she became much stricter… as soon as i went into the room with my hat she told me that i would get suspended if i went in with it again. then, i started listening to my beats in class (sigh i should have went lucid from this). it eventually started to make a lot of noise because the class was quiet. Also, quick detail... the song was sleep all day (party all night) by sean kingston, as I actually heard the lyrics coming from the headphones. She then confiscated my items,and I asked if I could take it after class ended and she said yeah. Lol.

I had several false awakenings where i was already writing in my dream journal! i think im just way too tired to even try to lucid right now, but for some reason im remembering a lot of my dreams.

third dream i remember was ellean jumping through my window with heros leash and he jumped off the roof. my impression was that he was going to hang himself but was joking about it. i took heros leash which was actually right next to me (should have became lucid..) and went downstairs to bike hero. i eventually concluded that biking was not necessary, ill just drive him around the neighborhood to practice my driving. so i did lol, and i kinda “stole” my moms car to drive hero around. when i got back i was surprised nobody even cared.

fourth dream i remember was kind of a fragment. i was in physics class with lukas and mckenna. i remember having the biggest headache of my life. mckenna kept asking me for jesus’ number lol. and i saw lukas phone on the chair next to me for some reason with his older brother on the front screen. that’s when i woke up.

well, i didn’t get lucid, but i remembered four dreams tonight. proud

I FINALLY GOT LUCID!!!

hahaha. Alright. So I used the WBTB method, didn’t think it would work, but it did! And wow it is like an experience of no other. I also think I had an OBE because I felt as if I was trying to escape my realistic body.

So here’s how it started. Woke up around 5 am, peed. Went to dreamviews.com, browsed a little bit for 20 minutes and went back to bed. I tried to WILD, but at that point I was already too awake because I had splashed my face with cold water, so I just told myself “I’m going to lucid tonight” and let my concious fade away so that I could fall asleep.

I had mini-dreams, ALL about lucid dreaming. The most vivid one I remember was me being at school in the quad, and ALL my friends were talking about lucid dreaming. What technique they were using, how they did it, if they ever had a lucid, etc. Then one of my friends comes to me and tells me, “Did you know you’re dreaming right now?” And as soon as he said that, I tried to recollect my thoughts. How did I get to school? That was all it took for me to become lucid. As soon as I became lucid though, I had a false awakening! I went non-lucid.

Although I had a false awakening, I didn’t open my eyes. I just knew that the dream had ended. Actually, now that I think about it- I don’t think this is where the FA started. I might have DEILD’ed accidentally, but as soon as the dream ended it went black. After a while of blackness (I was very unconcious, I think SP was happening here), I felt as if I was trying to rip myself off my body. Makes no sense, but that’s what it felt like. I was trying to tear away from my sleeping body. And as soon I was doing this, I immediately knew I was dreaming. No RC, nothing. I sat up on my bed, and I was like… holy shit, I’m dreaming. I look at the clock, 3:!5 am? HELL YES, I am truly dreaming. The time switched before my eyes also. I went from 3:15 am to 2:00 am to 4:00 am all in like 10 seconds. I woke up in the dark so I found the dream to be a little unclear and unvivid- but my senses were 100% REAL. At the back of my head I was like, if I move, I know that I’ll feel my real body moving too- but that wasn’t the case. I decided to move my hand, and I didn’t wake up! It was if I had 10 senses, 2 of each. I felt my real hand staying still and not moving, and I felt my dream hand moving around. At this point I wanted to clear the dream up and stabilize it, and maybe change the dreamscape. I tried rubbing my hands together, and focused on the feeling. Rubbing my hands definitely felt as real as waking life- although I couldn’t really even see my hands clearly. It was like a motion blur as I was doing it. It didn’t work though, because I was closing my eyes trying really hard to stabilize the dream lol, which was a big mistake. I have no idea why I even tried to close my eyes because I knew that if I did I might wake up.

I woke up twice, both into the false awakenings. I remember music playing and my laptop wide open right next to me (the laptop was actually the sun shining down on me and the music.. i have no idea.) I barely opened my eyes and tried to go back lucid. It worked. I had gone back to the same exact dreamscape as before, except this time, it was a nightmare. I felt as if there were going to be demons spawned around me and I’d die. As soon as I felt this, however, I was like “Oh this is just a dream” and it stopped. Again, I tried to stabilize the dream but I failed. This was my biggest failure- I was like, I wonder how real it would feel if I took off all my clothes and touched my penis. Dumb, I know, but hey, I was dreaming. The dream soon faded as soon as I took my clothes off, and I awoke in my real body because this bright light was just annoying the hell out of me, which I thought was coming from my laptop. As I opened my eyes, I realized it was the sun, which made me conclude that I was also in a FA (I had seen the laptop with my FA eyes).

All in all, I’m proud of myself for becoming lucid. The next step is dream control baby

Dream Journal #1 May 4th, 2011

didn’t remember much of my dreams last night… they were very vague. i still haven’t managed to go lucid, i think i fell asleep. one of the very first dreams i remember last night was seeing people from my school such as danette hampton and tyler. tyler was wearing dillans jacket? and im pretty sure tyler was in at least 2 of my 3 dreams. craazy. he could be a dream sign, especially if he was wearing dillans jacket. i was in physics class, and tyler was in my seat with dillans jacket. i seemed to get pissed at him for being there, so me and lukas forced him out of my seat and i think? i karate chopped him in the stomach and he was like oww or something. lol. my mind went blank from there, i dont really remember what happened after that. i woke up, it was around 1:00 am, did a reality check. phone was working, clock was right, drank some water and went back to bed to try to WILD.

2nd dream i was having flashes of this one girl cynthia mendez, and i was making out with her. i tried to feel her body and everything and i told myself, “this is a dream” and everything went black and i woke up. i don’t know if i went lucid or not because that dream wasn’t very vivid… it was just images in my head. there was no setting or anything, just her face. there might have been other girls faces popping up in my head… but i don’t remember. woke up again, was 3:00 am. did another reality check. i tried to turn off the fan that was in front of my face and the switch broke, and i was like “…” but i realized i was still in reality. so i just turned the fan away and went back to sleep

3rd and final dream i remember (i think), wasnt that vivid either. i dont remember much of it.. all i remember was asking jae (another person from my school) if he had any superpowers??? im not sure if i asked him if it was about superpowers… my mind is fading on this dream, i thought i remembered it quite well before i started writing this lol. anyways, he said yes, and all his friends turned into autobots and they combined together to form this giant transformer. in the back of my head i was like “im dreaming” again, and everything went black and my concious woke up even though my eyes were still closed. blah this is so frusturating, my dreams don’t seem vivid enough to be lucid. i don’t know if i’m not doing it at the right time, like if i’m missing my REM cycle and im trying to be lucid during nREM.

i remember black gaps in between my dreams, and im not sure if i was dreaming during those black gaps. oh well, im constantly doing reality checks even though i know im in reality, just to practice lol.

edit: Just remembered @ around 9:55 am today that I had another dream. this one, i believe, happened during my REM, probably because i remember it as being more vivid than the others. it still wasn’t THAT vivid, but just a tad more. i was in someones house, it looked like my uncles house. in what was supposed to be the kitchen, there was a computer, and there was another computer in the living room. my friend from school (again) named steven was here with me, and we were playing some sort of game. i dont remember the game exactly, but i know it was either this or that. my cousin alvin might have been in the dream too.. im not exactly sure. then i think the dream switched. i was in front of the house now on the lawn. and for some odd reason, i had to move a white car out of the way. i don’t know why i had to move it or for what reason, but i eventually moved it onto the grass of the front lawn. i hit a brick where it seperated the flowers from the grass, and i tried to turn away from it and keep moving forward, but i ended up making a loud noise (i believe). then i saw my dad look out the front window (it was late at night) and i could tell he was like “wtf?”. so i went inside the house and my mom and dad were there questioning me about idk what. from there, the dream went blank. at no time at all during this dream had i ever wondered if i was dreaming. i didn’t even remember this dream at all until i started driving to school, then it hit me, and i was like whoah. haha.