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Took a little break from weed, so my dreams are much more clear. Woke up around 5 a.m. this morning and decided I would write this dream down because it felt very real.

First thing I remember was hanging out with Kenny a lot. We were almost like best friends I guess. My heart was kind of confused though, like it thought I was gay and I was starting to like him. I knew that wasn't right, so my unconscious mind set out to figure what was wrong as the dream kept going. I realized that it wasn't Kenny that I was crushing on (lol) but Trang! Suddenly I remembered and had made the connection, because Kenny and Trang were pretty close at one point (probably still are). I remember telling Steven in person I think, and he just laughs.

Dream switches into LoL mode. It's 5v5 and all I remember playing with was Trang lol. She's on the other team with a bunch of her friends (Shannon too I believe), vs. me and all my friends. Not really going into details of the game, but it was pretty fun and it was a good way to "bond," even though it's not realistic, it made me feel closer to her in the dream. I think I end up actually going AFK the last game because my dad needed me and I totally forgot I was playing.

Dream switches and suddenly I see this little kid (not me) opening a Christmas present that was wrapped in scotch tape lol. It turns out to be a paint ball handgun. Then, the little kid becomes me all of a sudden. I load the handgun and start shooting everywhere. There's paint all over the walls and I feel like my parents are going to kill me, but I'll just repaint it before they see. As weird as the dream already is (I've never touched a paintball gun or shot one), my parents see and they say nothing. I decide, eh, time to clean up, so I go into the garage to get the paint, but then I think to myself, "Dude... there's not really paint on the walls, your just in a dream." and decide to go shower. (No lucidity wtfff blah) I remember one tiny little detail where my mom gets mad at me for wiping paint off my face with a dirty cloth, and I respond saying "I'm gonna shower anyway."

Dream switches, and I'm now in bed naked because it was blazing ass hot. I remember feeling like I was Nam, and Dan saying like "Oh I respect that." Weird. All my friends were dressing up for Nikki's 2nd birthday party which was more formal. I wasn't going I think. I was chatting on wc3 it seemed like, and Michelle Han was talking to her friends in /all. I was confused and asked if she was talking to me, she said nah, and she said she was going to a kickback (she referred it to something else, but I forgot). Suddenly she's in my bed with her phone in her hand, on facetime, but on a blackberry. She's literally "showing off" me to her friends when she decided not to go to the kickback I guess lol. I catch a glimpse of what I'm seeing-- people partying, and her best friend Tracy on the other phone. Then I see us, and she's all up on me! Like straight up like she was my girlfriend. As soon as I saw that, she climbed up onto me, kind of stroked my penis up to my chest, and started to look at me. I grabbed her face and I kissed her, but I didn't do anything else because I felt like my friends were around me lol. This is where I woke up and was likeee "damn."

i miss being lucid! brings back so many memories... i might start up again, but my schedule is really busy and i have no time to practice/meditate etc.

anyways, i remember the past 3 dreams i've had in the past 3 nights.

first dream: i was part of some kind of rich family of assassins, or something like that. the dream started off with me driving to a hotel and i was supposed to meet my brother and some other dude there. i got in, checked into the hotel. when i got in, i got this "aura" or feeling like someone was outside my door, and he was not friendly. i look at my door and sure enough there's these two feet that's trying to seep its way in from the top of the door (dream imagination ftw?). as soon as i notice, he barges in and trys to kill me. i react by throwing these weird sharp stick things, dodging his attacks at the same time. i end up killing him, and a lil later my brother shows up. dream switches to a really rich mansion. i'm inside, and there's this meeting thing going on about finding our "father". supposedly everybody there was my brother and sister or something. then i go outside to the backyard, and there's these giant pools, like 4 of them. it must have been like a park in our backyard, because it was huge. that's all i remember.

second dream: i'm "auditioning" to be a rapper for eminem or something? i have to go through these tests, some weird ass tests, like eating a container full of noodles in under 2 minutes or something. there's another test that has something to do with a dog or something. i pass, and i see dr. dre congratulating me or something. TIME-OUT.. sudden dream recall: i remember something about these tons of envelopes that belonged to my uncle tito darwin. inside these envelopes held tons of free stuff, some really really valuable, like gems and gold and such, others like casual items like clothes or money or something. i stole a whole box full of those envelopes... and i dont remember much after that. anyway, back to main dream story: suddenly im in the "house" of eminem lol. i don't really see eminem at all in my dream, but i know its "his" house. i see a bunch of people, including amelia which i wave to and she waves back. i go to her to hug her but she ignores me so i kinda play it off and act like i wasnt going to hug her LOL. then... i THINK someone trys to break in and steal something from the house, and he gets away. i turn to tryndamere and i whirl out of the wall to chase him down... and the dream ends from there.

third dream: i dont remember much from this night... but all i remember is dreaming about my ex nikki. this dream made me really sad for some reason lol, i guess i was just feeling lonely in that dream (if u can even feel emotions in a dream, which im pretty sure you can.) i ended up waking up and being somewhat sad that the dream wasnt real and that i just woke up to reality. that's not really me, although i have had a lot of dreams where i wake up sad because the dream is over. unconscious emotions?

had my first lucid in like almost 2 months, finally broke my dryspell lol. i overslept, and i was dreaming that i woke up and looked at the clock. the clock said "7:18" and i was like "WTF! 7:18 in the evening" but then i noticed there was no am or pm sign next to it, and automatically boom, i become lucid. for some reason the light also went on lol as soon as i hit lucid, kinda like a lightbulb over my head. i looked at my hands and they were fairly normal. i was about to "secure" the dream and make it more vivid, but i felt like that wouldnt work as well so i tried to fly out my window asap. that didn't work very well because the dream faded lol. i became lucid again in the next dream (i forgot how), and this time, i made sure the dream was stable. i started smelling the dust on my cabinets (eh) and sneezed, touched everything blah blah. then, as i was about to jump out my window to fly, i was like, "how do i know this isn't reality right now?" lol. the dream felt so real i had to make sure that it wasn't reality and it was really a dream, so what i did was i made the dream fade out on purpose, and then came back to my original position. crazy stuff. i then jumped out of my window, where i saw people on my front lawn, so i landed there. they started talking to me about stuff and i got lost into the dream and all the action, where i also lost my lucidity. oh well

been a loooong time since i last wrote in my dream journal, but i've been remembering my dreams a lot lately, so here it goes

first dream i remember was that i was still in school. kevin yun came over to my house with someone else and they were in my room. i remember kevin being super annoying, jumping on my bed and crap and blasting hella loud music, making me embarrassed to have them over. i then had to go to school but kevin was ditching and was staying at my house. i was just like ugh. then i remember facebooking it LOL saying "never letting kevin stay at my house again" and i got like thousands of likes and comments saying they never will either. i then woke up like it was a nightmare for some reason.

second dream, i was in bed with my supposed girlfriend. i went over to kiss her on the forehead, and then that turned into making out and foreplay. felt super real... lol. then all of a sudden i hear like police outside, and then im on the run trying to get away from the police as i take my girlfriend with me. we did twists and turns and went through secret doorways until we lost them. we eventually stopped at some crowd to blend in. i think we met some friends there. this felt like a recurring dream, because all of a sudden the police started lining up all the people they arrested and ordered them to go to this place to get shots. they said if you know your on the list you better go with them, so i went. but i never got the shot lol. i felt like i had had this dream before for some reason, but im not sure.

third dream i remember, was being in this weird enclosed hallway. whoah wait a sec, major dream recall just happened. there was this guy, who was very sad i think i remember.. he was at the cemetery. something like that, trying to solve the answer to how someone died. a girl sees him there and falls in love with him. then dream switches to me and him and alvin in the hallway. the guy accuses alvin of killing his friend. then as he's in the middle, and alvins at the end and im at the other end, i raise my gun at him and say "confess, you killed him." alvin raises his gun as well. he starts walking towards me and i shoot, he backs away, i say "don't move... CONFESS!" he starts moving towards me, i shoot again, he backs away. then, he starts moving again, i shoot, but he keeps walking like he doesnt die. eventually i run and he tries to stab me with a knife. i counter it and take the knife from him and stab him but he still doesnt die. the dream then switches from being dark and suspenseful to something like a video game. i then decide i just want to leave so i do. turns out we were in some park. i went inside their mall thing cause i was hungry, and then i remembered that i had a disneyland gift card for $20 that i left at home so i cursed myself. i was around looking for something to drink, but i realized i already had a jumbo dr.pepper in my hand. i met ian on the way. i remember seeing my brother complain to someone on the phone about what they wanted him to buy (strawberry pizza o_O). i passed chipotle and went into the tostito store or something like that, where they had a whole bunch of i forgot what it's called.. mexican eggroll things lol. all different kinds of flavors. i met ate there, and she said hans loved meatballs lol. then the dream switches to me back at home saying bye to alvin and shenel and kalvin.

Dream Journal #30, June 6th 2011

Wow, had my first WILD today. I’m not so sure that it was the traditional WILD though, but I was conscious through SP and through the dream transition, which were both seriously crazy.

I remember hearing footsteps while I was trying to fall asleep, I knew it was my mom. She went in my room, stepped in, stopped, went back down the stairs. I’m not sure if this was just a hallucination or if it was real, but I was conscious enough to hear it but not conscious enough to open my eyes and see. Next thing I know (I don’t know how much time passed between the gap), I’m conscious just a tiny tad bit and I feel like there’s someone in the room or something. I open my eyes just a little bit, I see like a shadowy black figure right above my head (I thought it was my moms head trying to listen to me at the time), and then BAM. Vibrations and sleep paralysis. This is my first SP experience, and it wasn’t even that scary. I saw the black shadowy figure and then my arms and neck felt like they were pushed down super hard so that I couldn’t move, and I really couldn’t. I also felt the vibrations and tingly feelings. I closed my eyes and was like, “oh.. sleep paralysis. let’s see what this dream transition feels like.” No excitement at all or anything I’m always relaxed when I’m in deep sleep. After a few moments of what seemed like 30 seconds to a minute of vibrations, I feel this sudden surge of my body moving forward and the blackness turning into some sort of scene. I surge and surge and then do a front flip, and then I’m sitting on my bed. I look at my hands and they’re all crooked, but I’m having a hard time trying to focus on them and stabilizing my dream. It’s night time and it’s dark in my room so I try to bring some light… but the damn light switch doesn’t work. I use my finger to drag the sun up (it’s sundown but its still super dark), and it works, but the light from the sun doesn’t get brighter. Frustrated, I turn around, imagine there being light behind me, and turn back around. No light. Arghh. I then start to think, “What if I wake up?” The dream scene just suddenly blurs and goes into chaos and I go into an FA which I don’t seem to catch. FA isn’t that important except that I was eating some french fries that tasted really real lol. Oh well, not a very vivid WILD, but the transition from SP to dream was really cool :p

Dream Journal #29, June 6th 2011

Well, took a break from lucid dreams/dream journaling for a while.. and just had the most vividest dream yet.

I remember chunks of parts but somehow they don’t connect, the dream scene just seems to change kind of and so does the plot, but this is all in one REM period.

It starts off with me tying my shoelaces to get ready for a basketball game, and it’s like a big game, not just a regular street game. Its in an indoor court. Then all of a sudden I’m in a car with ellean, with me driving like crazy to try to lose this guy who’s trying to chase me. I do twists and turns and eventually park in a store parking lot and go inside, thinking I lost this guy. I end up seeing his car right in the same parking lot, and the guy inside the store. We both freak out, but it turns out he doesn’t know who was driving the car, he just knows that he had to take that car down. So as soon as he isn’t looking, we get back into the car and take off. We lose him. Then, seeking shelter, we go to norm’s place, his old house in Garden Grove. We see a bunch of people there working like it’s a refuge place.. and we go inside his garage to see piles of marijuana everywhere. Turns out norm is a drug dealer lol. We just stare at amazement, and we talk about stuff, but I forgot what we talked about. I then see him run out of the backyard, and burn all his marijuana, we were like WTF and we run to the smoke to inhale it all lol. Then we realize that these cop-like people (similar to the one chasing us) had discovered the house and was arresting people. These cops are bad guys, as in dictator-controlled bad guys who were trying to take over the world. I believe ellean is caught. I walk casually away like I wasn’t hiding anything, seeing if they would just ignore me. As soon as I thought I got away, some girl grabs my arm and says something like, “Do you have anything to hide?” or something like that, I forgot. I look at her face, and it’s Lauren! I was so glad to see that it was her. We talk a bit and turns out she’s a rebel, so she gives me directions to some place or something. I then wake up in some weird room, and I see a ninja like figure in the corner trying to hide his presence. I immediately know he’s up to no good, and I slash him into pieces. He has my phone, and he was tethering information to some database lol. I cancel it, but some info has already gone through. Tito Darwin then comes in the door, sees what happens, and invites me to dinner. He complains to me about something like why did I have to attack that guy, he took your phone and relayed information, now were all doomed. I had no idea what he was talking about, but I told him that I canceled most of it. Dream haziness from there,

Sigh. I don’t remember any dreams. All i remember is that I was playing Annie in League of Legends. I think most of my dreams were in League of Legends lol.

After WBTB:

aw yeah baby… finally became lucid, and this time for a pretty good length. first, let’s talk about my unlucid dream.

my unlucid dream was like, me driving this giant giant giant giant ship, through this narrow narrow hallway. it was almost like a game.. one of those games where your trying not to hit anything while steering something. I managed to hit the boxes like 10 times lol and had to start over. Then it switched to like.. me at a party. and I was married lol. And my wife was complaining about a fake dress, and I told her she looked beautiful and that we just couldnt afford to buy her a brand new one. So she said okay, and then she’s like go pick flowers for our kids. lol wut. So I did. Then comes the infamous chain FA’s…

First FA. I knew I was dreaming, because my closet was open and I always close it before I go to sleep. but as soon as I found out I awoke.. into another FA.
Went unlucid, got up, and I was like wait… how do I know I’m not dreaming. I look at the clock and it’s some weird ass time. Like 41:.039. In my mind it looked like 04:39 pm. So I was like, hell no, it is not 4:39.. did I really sleep that long? I look away, and back at the clock, and it’s still the same time. But then, the clock and everything around the clock started moving in a wave like circle. I did not find any of this weird at all.. sigh. I was still having a hard time determining if I was dreaming or not.. but by the time I tried to do another reality check, I woke up, for reals this time. I was frusturated at myself for not going lucid from that FA and was wondering whether I should keep sleeping and trying or get up. I ended up sleeping, and had another FA. This time, I made sure I became lucid. I didn’t even check the clock or look at my fingers or plug my nose. I think I just knew, because it was dark in my room and I knew that it was sunny outside. So I was like OK, I’m dreaming. I open my door expecting to go somewhere magical, nope. Although my bathroom was on the opposite side of the wall this time… clear indicator that I am dreaming. So I was like, alright, for sure I know I’m dreaming now.. let’s not lose this. I go downstairs and I almost fall because my hand goes right through the wall when I try to use it as support lol. Keep in mind I’m only in my boxers for some reason. I get to the game room, and it’s pretty foggy/hazy dreamlike. The dream starts going black, but I don’t really panic. I try rubbing my hands and spinning… but it doesn’t work. It seems like I was still in the dream, but I was like blind. I could feel myself rubbing my hands still. Eventually the dream came back, and I shouted “INCREASE CLARITY! INCREASE LUCIDITY!” “MAKE IT BRIGHTER IN HERE!” and eventually, the sun came up in a matter of 2 seconds lol and the dream became VERY vivid. I say okay, let’s go outside. I go to open the door outside, when I see Ian and some other guy about to open it too (wall hacks ftw). I was like oh shit.. im naked, and I lock it. But then I’m like wait, I’m dreaming.. they don’t care. So they open it, and they look at me noticing I’m naked, and shrug it off. They go inside and I go outside. WOW, everything was so real and so vivid.. I touched the walls (which were a different texture than what I really have), everything felt so real. My dream goal was simply to have a long and vivid lucid dream, so that’s what I simply did. I stared at the wall, looking at every detail and texture, trying to make the dream more vivid and vivid.

After satisfying myself, this is where I start to become unlucid and kind of let the dream take over me. I think of MH (a person), and I expect her to be in my backyard. I’ve never met her in person yet, so.. lol. So as I head toward my backyard, of course, she’s there. But there’s this other random guy. He eventually disappears, and MH is like, “whoah? where’d he go” and I was like “Oh, he left.” I believe I forget anything about my lucidity here.. and I go unlucid unfortunately. :/ I think it was the loneliness inside of me lol. Even though she didn’t look anything like MH, she was supposedly my girlfriend. We were hugging and kissing, and we layed down on the grass in my backyard, and it became night. The moon was huge, and we were cuddling under the night sky, talking about random things to each other. I remember the cheesy lines we said, but eh. The dream fades from there. I go into another FA.

I know I’m dreaming, I forgot how though. I do the same exact thing. I open my door, I see that my bathroom is on the opposite wall again lol. I go downstairs.. but the dream fades. I wake into another FA. SIGH these are so annoying. I’m not going to explain this FA, basically I knew I was dreaming again, but I wanted to wake up. I eventually wake up, and the time is 11:30 am, so I know I’m not dreaming anymore. All in all, good day for dreaming

Dream Journal #22, May 26th, 2011.

Don’t remember much.. only remember fragments. I was.. trying not to dream inside a dream? I’m not even sure. It may of had something to do with lucid dreams, but I woke up at 2:30 am again, marking the end of my REM. I know Dan was definitely in my dream. I remembered the dream when I woke up at 2:30 but now I forgot it lol. It may have had something to do with cars also. I remember having an FA and trying to take all my blanket and push it into something near my desk right next to me.. I forgot why. It failed and I was like damn, so I put it back. I KNOW i was trying to sell something.. but I just forgot what it was.

edit: just remembered a dream! wow this was vivid, and it seemed like i was lucid but i don’t really think i was.

so.. it started out with me in like, this dancing place? kind of like the dancing place in sucker punch, with the same teacher. the teacher was surprised to see a guy wanting to learn to dance lol. she taught me some basic moves, blah blah. then some girl asks me if she wants to go get a banana with me, and i’m like sure. at this point im thinking, wait, am i allowed to do this? will i get in trouble? but i do it anyway. then these 2 guys come out during lunch break, kevin kim, and some random ass black guy. the black guy starts to give me and alvin shit. alvin just appeared out of nowhere.. lol. i then proceed to beat the living shit out of them. like, literally, the living shit. im pretty sure the black guy died, but kevin kim survived. he was unconscious however on the floor. they’re bodies looked really weird lol. they looked liked corpses except with spaghetti noodles coming out of thier body and instead of blood it was spaghetti sauce. so now i find myself in my house, with the 2 bodies on the floor and alvin next to me. then i’m like, alright alvin lets go back. but then i’m like wait, should we hide the bodies? and alvins like umm, idk. so i decide to hide the bodies using dream control (lol wut wasn’t even lucid). so i tell alvin, “hey dude, go in like another room or something! i’m gonna make the bodies disappear with dream control”, so alvin goes to another room. i close my eyes, focus on erasing the bodies from my mind, and when i open them, they’re gone! but the time significantly changed… like i forwarded 2 hours into the future lol. alvin comes out, and i tell him, “DUDE did you see that? I did it!” and he looks at me weird and he’s like “huh? did what?” I then concluded my dream control also erased his memory lol. So we go into the living room and play this wii game.

fragment: I remember going in front of my house, it’s somewhat sunny, and theirs piles and piles and piles of beer and other drinks. I remember thinking damn, this is gonna ruin my dream recall.

Second dream I remember is playing this wii game with my brother lol. It was very similar to marvel vs capcom 3, except the characters you could play also included people from my school and other hot girls rofl. i’m not sure how they played in the gamge, but i remember owning my brother the first 6 games and then he proceeded to own me after that. i also remember texting ralph “bring weed” lol. supposedly there was supposed to be a party at my house, because i also remember my brother asking me “do you want anything” and i’m like “uhh.. nah”. sarandy comes home and he brings my brother some weird recorder tape thing that you put in your shoebox… imking to be exact. lol idk. i don’t remember anything after that.

Dream Journal #19, May 21st 2011.

Well, slept like at 3 am last night so of course I don’t really remember any dreams. Just one dream fragment though. I remember dreaming about lucid dreaming lol I was at a party, steven was there. They were doing some other thing, and then they saw me looking at lucid dream stuff. That’s all I remember. Going to WBTB now, I shall become lucid

edit: after WBTB

had a lucid, but the dream was very unstable, because there was just too much external noise coming from outside my house and inside my house, sigh.

the lucid started out as me walking in my school towards my friends. the environment and surroundings were very vivid, and they were also very familiar. i dream about school often. it didn’t take anything for me to become lucid- i knew i was lucid as soon as i saw everything. the dream faded as i became lucid, i let it fade. the dreamscape changed, but i was still lucid. i started to see the ceiling of my room, with the fan. first thing i did was rub my hands to stabilize the dream. it didn’t work… the dream started to fade again. it’s like the more i rubbed the more it faded. i awoke to little girls screaming like hell outside playing and a lawn mower. ugh. i tried to deild but it didnt work, so i got up and closed the window.

what was odd however was that i remembered a nonlucid dream in a lucid dream! something i did in the lucid dream (i forgot) triggered a memory, from before the WBTB same night. here’s the nonlucid:

I was living in my current house and i took my bike. I rode and i rode until i got to my neighbors house (this neighbor should have lived right next to me… but for some reason he was a block away now). I see that they trust me and my family a lot, but I go into their garage and steal a bunch of drinks. I bring them back to my house and tell my parents I got free drinks lol. After a while of doing this (like 3 times), John, my neighbor, comes over. He knows about me stealing the drinks and he tells my dad, I hear all this from the backyard eavesdropping. I get nervous, but I eventually just go up to John and say I’m sorry… I’ve had a history of stealing things in my past and its hard to overcome. lol. The dream ends there I believe.

Dream Journal #14 May 16th, 2011

blah i fell asleep after my wbtb… sigh

anyways first dream i remember was my brother coming back home and like he came home rich or something from the cruise. basically my room was renovated like crazy lol. then he asked me to sell marvel vs capcom and everything. i can remember elleean my dad and alvin with me. we went to some place right near knotts to sell them. i got mad at alvin for not listening to me. ellean and alvin had weird personalities… they weren't acting “themselves” in my dream. weird. I also remember looking at some WII games, and the store only had like 2 games, and me and ellean were like, wtf? so we sold marvel vs capcom and left to go to a new store. also... the place that was right by knotts for some reason is very familiar, like i've been there before. i KNOW i was there at some point, either in one of my old dreams or in real life. that’s all i remember.

next dream was that i was in ms. Kitts class lol. she became much stricter… as soon as i went into the room with my hat she told me that i would get suspended if i went in with it again. then, i started listening to my beats in class (sigh i should have went lucid from this). it eventually started to make a lot of noise because the class was quiet. Also, quick detail... the song was sleep all day (party all night) by sean kingston, as I actually heard the lyrics coming from the headphones. She then confiscated my items,and I asked if I could take it after class ended and she said yeah. Lol.

I had several false awakenings where i was already writing in my dream journal! i think im just way too tired to even try to lucid right now, but for some reason im remembering a lot of my dreams.

third dream i remember was ellean jumping through my window with heros leash and he jumped off the roof. my impression was that he was going to hang himself but was joking about it. i took heros leash which was actually right next to me (should have became lucid..) and went downstairs to bike hero. i eventually concluded that biking was not necessary, ill just drive him around the neighborhood to practice my driving. so i did lol, and i kinda “stole” my moms car to drive hero around. when i got back i was surprised nobody even cared.

fourth dream i remember was kind of a fragment. i was in physics class with lukas and mckenna. i remember having the biggest headache of my life. mckenna kept asking me for jesus’ number lol. and i saw lukas phone on the chair next to me for some reason with his older brother on the front screen. that’s when i woke up.

well, i didn’t get lucid, but i remembered four dreams tonight. proud

Only remember 1 dream, and they’re mostly fragments, I didn’t really understand the plot lol.

First, it was me in the computer room and it was like really dark, and I was playing on my computer. Ian comes over to pick up something and then leaves. Idk lol.

Second it was me in the APUSH room.. thats all i remember

I also remember that I was looking into my bathroom mirror to see how I looked like. I then noticed that I had a red g-shock which was my brothers. I inspected it, and I think I may have questioned it because my brother took this watch with him to the cruise. But I think I let it pass... lol. SIGH.

edit: About 3 hours after I wake up, I suddenly remember the biggest dream plot I had last night.. lol i went on an adventure

I'm sure there was a beginning to this dream.. but I don't remember the beginning. My memory starts off with me in a moonwell-like place, it was a giant lake that was glowing and the surroundings were beautiful, there were clouds and blue skies. I was with 2 other people, I think my friends and some cousins but I don't remember who. The first thing I remember doing was putting my feet into the pond/lake whatever. And then I was like, hey guys... let's go inside! So we all went inside, and then the details go vague from there. I may have been sucked in, or some river monster may have sucked me in.. but the point was, I was sucked in. I then found myself in a different point of time! We all ended up in my garage.. but everything seemed so different. Either we were in the future or the past, or we may have been in the same time period but things were different. Immediately everybody in my group knew there was something wrong. Then one of my friends finds this thing behind the wall... a recorder type thing, that you talk into and it records your voice. For some reason, we all knew whatever was in this tape had something to do with how we got here and why. We started listening to the tape- I don't remember anything it said but it was very quiet and it contained all kinds of secrets. My mom then came into the garage and we hid it, and she told me to go do something. So we all went inside. When I went into my room, everything was completely different and weird. It was like, future-like lol. But at the same time it also seemed medieval-like. When I went to go to the bathroom, it ended up being outside. Like an outdoor bathroom. Just like a regular bathroom except theirs no walls lol. And all the bathrooms in the house were interconnected. Weird. So I go back into my room and I sit on my bed I think. And I start listening to the tape... but as soon as I press the play button (these parts are vague, i may be wrong) nothing came out. I then found out that there was no tape in the recorder. Someone stole it. And they were in some weird ass room that I didn't even know I had in my house. So I wanted to get this tape back because i felt it was important to finding out how I got here and what the hell happened, what that pool of water was all about, etc. I secretly watch the guy who has my tape, and so do 2 of my other friends. He then gets into some kind of argument with some other guys... who were probably like security guards lol. I then hear gunshots, and all of a sudden all I see are dead bodies on the ground in that weird room. So me and my friends were like wow, WTF is going on. I then see my parents running towards me, and they give me a polearm (LOL) and they tell me to run 20 miles from here or something like that. So without even thinking, me and my 2 friends run as fast as we can away from the house without the tape sadly. We pass by this huge castle, very beautiful. I then suggest we go hide in there, but my friends were skeptical and were like, "your parents gave us specific instructions... we should follow them" We ended up resting in some grass-like area or something. Then I think the dream skipped forward, because we were in a town. Like an old town, medieval-like. I then find a pair of rock and republic shorts on the ground, and I was like hey... these are nice. I take them. I think my alarm woke me up at this time.. and when I woke up, I did not remember a single thing that just happened in my dream. I found that reallllly weird. I wished I had remembered this dream so I could somewhat DEILD back into it, but whatever.

Non-Dreaming:

After about 3 hours of not remembering shit, I get home and I put on shorts! They weren't rock and republic shorts, but for some reason... I felt like there was something memorable about me putting these shorts on. And then it hit me... everything about the dream came back to me. I suddenly remembered everything that happened

Dream Journal #12 May 13th, 2011

First dream I remember was being in a car with my mom and we were taking Ian home. We took a shortcut and she did not trust me with the way to go, and we were going like 1 mph so that made me really frusturated and angry lol.

edit: afterWBTB

Had my 2nd lucid yet! Followed by another FA lol.

this one was awesome, and I had a LOTTT more dream control and stabability this time!!! omg lucid dreaming is fucking great. hahaha.

so it started off with me looking at the clock once again. This was a DILD- I’m sure of it. I was in a FA, and I looked at the clock. There was NO time whatsoever, it was just blank. At first, I was going to let this slide.. I was about to say, oh shit my clock died. But then it hit me- I realized I was dreaming. All of a sudden I felt this rush all over my body! The same feeling from my first lucid dream. Everything became way more clear this time, and vivid. I tried to put my “dream glasses” on but nothing really ever came out when i pretended to put glasses on lol. It started out dark in my room again. I went to the bathroom and I almost lost lucidity… but I tried to turn on the switch for the light. No light. Gained my lucidity again. Went back into my room and for some reason the light was on this time lol. My mind was just blown at how everything seemed so real. I looked at the mirror and my face was all weiird and out of proportion lol. Normally this would scare me but I knew I was dreaming so it really didn’t scare me at all. I looked at my hands too! My hands like fucking 10,000 fingers LOL. I was absolutely sure I was dreaming this time. At this point the dream started to fade.. I saw it fading right before my eyes. I rubbed my hands. Wasn’t working. So I found the new solution to stabilizing my dream: Rub my hands AND spin at the same time. I found that this worked absolutely well, the dreamscape did not change and I was back in the dream.

My phone was on my bed, and someone was calling me. It was some weird contact… the words didnt make sense and there was no number. I answered it. All I heard was static I think- again, this sounds scary, but I knew I was dreaming, so none of it frightened me at all. I was like “whatever” and hung up lol. I then tried to summon a pretty girl in my room. That failed. So I was like whatever again.

Then, I wanted to fly. So i opened my window, and I thought “man.. what if this doesnt work, I start to fall, and I wake up?” But again, my mentality was like “whatever” (thats just the kind of person i am). So I stepped on my window frame, jumped like super high rofl, grabbed the roof of my house, and jumped off of it. I started to fall a little bit- but then I remembered I have to believe. So I started to flap my arms, and I started flying! Fucking best feeling of my life lol. The view was so awesome outside my house as well. I was mountains from the far distance and the moon and stars were shining. It was kind of hard to control though, because I would flap my arms once and sometimes I would go a bit too far up or forward really fast. I fixed this somewhat. I then realized that my neighbor was a hot lesbian. I flew on their roof (actually they had no roof, I flew right through it). She was making out with this other hot lesbian, and they took their clothes off. My dream started to fade again LOL so I started spinning and rubbing my hands at the same time. It stabilized again. The two girls started to go outside to their backyard, where there was snow… somehow it became winter and there was snow everywhere now. They started to begin making out there again fully naked. This is where I eventually woke up into my false awakening.

My false awakening wasnt as bad. I was not lucid however. I was typing out my dream on my dream journal and talking to my cousin that I just had a lucid dream. That’s all I really remember. Oh, and my dad walked in the door to wake me up to go to school. Then I really woke up- kind of confused. I almost forgot that I had a lucid dream when I woke up from my FA lol. Turns out I was only asleep for around 40 minutes- I’m not sure when the dream started though.

Yay for 2nd lucid

I FINALLY GOT LUCID!!!

hahaha. Alright. So I used the WBTB method, didn’t think it would work, but it did! And wow it is like an experience of no other. I also think I had an OBE because I felt as if I was trying to escape my realistic body.

So here’s how it started. Woke up around 5 am, peed. Went to dreamviews.com, browsed a little bit for 20 minutes and went back to bed. I tried to WILD, but at that point I was already too awake because I had splashed my face with cold water, so I just told myself “I’m going to lucid tonight” and let my concious fade away so that I could fall asleep.

I had mini-dreams, ALL about lucid dreaming. The most vivid one I remember was me being at school in the quad, and ALL my friends were talking about lucid dreaming. What technique they were using, how they did it, if they ever had a lucid, etc. Then one of my friends comes to me and tells me, “Did you know you’re dreaming right now?” And as soon as he said that, I tried to recollect my thoughts. How did I get to school? That was all it took for me to become lucid. As soon as I became lucid though, I had a false awakening! I went non-lucid.

Although I had a false awakening, I didn’t open my eyes. I just knew that the dream had ended. Actually, now that I think about it- I don’t think this is where the FA started. I might have DEILD’ed accidentally, but as soon as the dream ended it went black. After a while of blackness (I was very unconcious, I think SP was happening here), I felt as if I was trying to rip myself off my body. Makes no sense, but that’s what it felt like. I was trying to tear away from my sleeping body. And as soon I was doing this, I immediately knew I was dreaming. No RC, nothing. I sat up on my bed, and I was like… holy shit, I’m dreaming. I look at the clock, 3:!5 am? HELL YES, I am truly dreaming. The time switched before my eyes also. I went from 3:15 am to 2:00 am to 4:00 am all in like 10 seconds. I woke up in the dark so I found the dream to be a little unclear and unvivid- but my senses were 100% REAL. At the back of my head I was like, if I move, I know that I’ll feel my real body moving too- but that wasn’t the case. I decided to move my hand, and I didn’t wake up! It was if I had 10 senses, 2 of each. I felt my real hand staying still and not moving, and I felt my dream hand moving around. At this point I wanted to clear the dream up and stabilize it, and maybe change the dreamscape. I tried rubbing my hands together, and focused on the feeling. Rubbing my hands definitely felt as real as waking life- although I couldn’t really even see my hands clearly. It was like a motion blur as I was doing it. It didn’t work though, because I was closing my eyes trying really hard to stabilize the dream lol, which was a big mistake. I have no idea why I even tried to close my eyes because I knew that if I did I might wake up.

I woke up twice, both into the false awakenings. I remember music playing and my laptop wide open right next to me (the laptop was actually the sun shining down on me and the music.. i have no idea.) I barely opened my eyes and tried to go back lucid. It worked. I had gone back to the same exact dreamscape as before, except this time, it was a nightmare. I felt as if there were going to be demons spawned around me and I’d die. As soon as I felt this, however, I was like “Oh this is just a dream” and it stopped. Again, I tried to stabilize the dream but I failed. This was my biggest failure- I was like, I wonder how real it would feel if I took off all my clothes and touched my penis. Dumb, I know, but hey, I was dreaming. The dream soon faded as soon as I took my clothes off, and I awoke in my real body because this bright light was just annoying the hell out of me, which I thought was coming from my laptop. As I opened my eyes, I realized it was the sun, which made me conclude that I was also in a FA (I had seen the laptop with my FA eyes).

All in all, I’m proud of myself for becoming lucid. The next step is dream control baby