non-lucid

Date: 21/06/2012
Place: My holiday caravan
Time of getting into bed: 00.22am
I took 100mg B6 tablet before bed

My notes claim I woke up at 2.55am after a dream, but forgot the dream instantly.

Dream 1 - Non Lucid dream - 3.51am

Myself, my partner, and two of our closest friends are talking in a room. I am discussing dreaming with one of my friends, although I don't remember mentioning lucid dreaming, I do remember talking about dream signs. We decide to try and share a dream, and look out for each other in out dreams. I do remember talking about how dreams were another life while you slept.
Suddenly we are on the streets of Manchester, England. We are walking over a large, old stone bridge, very wide with old stone buildings up either side. It is a beautiful place, but very stone and grey. I am still talking about dreaming, and telling them what to expect. I do tell them a wave of water will crash over us, but not to worry because it cannot hurt us! Soon enough, a huge, crashing flood of water rushes onto the bridge, like a tsunami. I climb with ease up a telegraph pole, and the water just wets my feet. I am not scared, but the others are a little. They get washed away a bit by the water (so they are now behind me) but are not hurt. After I climb down, the water has passed and I now tell the others that what happens next is called Hypnogogia, and although it can be frightening, it will not hurt us and will pass. (How I did not get lucid I do not know) and then, a mist-like wind (like the spirit, or ghost of the water) rushes by, it makes a noise like screaming, tortured human voices shouting out. I am alarmed but know it is safe so I just watch. There appears to be neon, glowing, shadows of people (the people screaming) they are not real, just like holograms or visions. They soon pass and it is quiet again.
We are now back at the room (where we began) but now we all have beds and sleeping bags on the floor. We try to settle down for the night, but one of my friends has a young girl (8yrs?) at the bottom of his bed, sleeping. He cannot sleep because she is taking up room making him uncomfortable. Eventually I ask her politely to go on her own bed, which is empty. She agrees, but only if she can have a sleeping bag as she was cold (hence her being in said friends bed) we agree, and we all fall asleep.

Dream fragments - Non Lucid dreams - 5.08am

Here my notes are very sparse.

'I was eating something... and thinking that I wasn't eating when I was falling asleep, so where did I get this food from...?

Me and my partner are naked, in bed with someone else. Although there is no sex or sexual intentions, we do accidentally 'rub' bodies with this other person and make jokes about it.'

I feel relaxed and decide to try and WILD I seem to be trying for some time and decide I am too awake. At one point I enter SP, but fall asleep. I wake and try again a few times, hazily between sleeping. Perhaps I wasn't really sure what I was doing. At one point I enter SP and my partner moves around, waking me up. I am too annoyed to try again. I seem to not be able to fully relax inside my head, maybe the B6?


***NOTEWORTHY***
I believe I was being woken by my partner's movements, and the sounds of birdsong outside when trying to WILD, my mind wandered frequently, maybe the B6?
Dreaming about LUCID DREAMS didn't make me lucid!
I was reading about SP and Hypnogogia during the day
I was a little ill (eaten something bad) before bed

Date: 19/06/2012
Place: My holiday caravan
Time of getting into bed: 11.50pm
During the day I drank 1 x 500ml Monster energy drink

WILD attempt (first ever)

Strangely enough I decided to try it without prior sleep (don't ask me why) this took a good hour before I really felt the effects, but here is the results;

Went to bed, relaxed, tried to get sleepy and restful. Took some time but finally felt in the right place. Found sleeping on my side the most comfortable (my sleeping position of choice)
Was continually interupted by random banging noises - was sleeping in a caravan and sounded like the walls moving / creaking? Never noticed this before so really annoyed me!!
Each time I was awoken I ignored it, and relaxed again - partners loud breathing kept me awake but after using it as a beat to keep my own breathing slow, it became unnoticeable. I found this bit easy.
After some time I was clearly getting close, I could not feel my body, I kept experiencing swaying / floating sensations and my 'mind' was totally immersed. It felt a bit like I was mildly drugged up, I couldn't feel my hands or even the quilt around me. I didn't feel the need to swallow (which I have a bit of a habit of doing) I continued counting to ten, and saying ;I am dreaming' each time. I often lost my place and had to start over but remained calm.

After an unknown amount of time, my body lit up as if on fire, but not painful. I had vibrations running through my body, which I tried to feel and control (sort of worked) it was not a bad sensation, but so real and intense that it did 'light' my brain up. Almost like going from sleepy and hypnotized to being conscious and SWITCHED ON. My ears popped as if I was underwater, and I tried to enjoy this strange sensation, telling myself I was about to enter a lucid dream!

This sensation was exactly the same as the sensation I had when getting lucid a few nights ago. I feel like I know that I'm lucid, but I have to DO something to break through the barrier. Last time I raised my hand and pulled myself out from my 'body' so to speak. this time I didn't get a chance to. My initial idea was to 'roll over' into a dream. I didn't do this in time.
Unfortunately I must have gotten too excited as I 'woke up'. I did a quick RC to make sure it wasn't a FA, which it wasn't. I jotted in my journal and tried to re-enter, but by then my heart was racing so fast and I was wide awake.

It did give me incentive to try WILDing again though!

Dream 1 - Non Lucid dream

I am at a festival, trying to get back to my tent. There are lots of people walking around, and a large queue of traffic blocking the way. It is also very dark and very muddy, however I am not worried, I just keep walking.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid dream

I am somewhere, and trying to get home with my partner. We have no money to get home, but a limo pulls up looking for some famous people. We get in, pretending it is for us so we can a free lift home. It takes us to the home of the famous film stars who own the limo. We get out the limo and go in their house. Their house is big, spacious and obviously they are rich. We help ourselves to their stuff but we are not trashing the place as that would be rude. Someone knocks on the door and we panic, and hide. They soon go away and we decide it is best to disguise ourselves as the film stars so that no body suspects us. We put on their clothes, for me this consists of a dirty, white string vest and some large boots. I then have a string necklace around my neck, with beads and random bits hanging from it, a bit broken and messy. I also wear a long, dirty, thick trenchcoat. We then put egg yolk all over ourselves. No idea why. I believe we got these from the fridge.

Dream 3- Non Lucid dream

I am going through a drive through, although the actual company is not one that I know of (made up?) the men who work there are nice, but incompetent. They wear police helmets, and apologize for the delay. I finally get the food and drink but after drinking the fanta, it is warm. I hand it back and complain and they are nice, and agree to replace. However it takes so long to get a replacement that we decide to go for a short walk. We step out the car and see a strange gift shop. It is clear we are in a place I am unfamiliar with in my dream as I sort of explore, like a tourist. The gift shop is brown and had a big skeleton outside, it appears to sell strange and bizarre gifts. I don't go in, however, I turn left towards the main shopping area, across a square where people walk / talk / go about their lives. Here I see someone watching me / staring. I try to ignore them but I have a feeling they are going to talk to me and I really don't want them to. I am not scared, but don't like them so I try to mingle with the crowd and hide. It works. Next thing I know I am in a pub garden, playing pool (or snooker) with a friend. I notice my partner isn't here and ring them, trying to get them to join us. He will not join us because he cannot bring his own beer into the pub. I tell him we have water and this sort of changes his mind.

Dream 4 - Non Lucid dream

I have got some baby rats as pets. They are in a cage but I take one out to hold, it is fast and I drop it on the floor. I then try to pick it up but it is so small I lose it in the fibres of the carpet, I then search for it and find it - it is now an insect but I do not seem to be bothered by this transformation in the dream. I follow it a while then carefully pick it up, putting it back in the cage.

***NOTEWORTHY***
FIRST WILD ATTEMPT!
The sensation I describe as 'lighting up my body' was present again
Ears popped during WILD
I love rats and had many pet rats in the past
I recently attended a music festival
A festival and a drive through have been been in my DJ recently
I recently played pool with a friend

Date: 17/06/2012
Place: Spare Bed in family member's house (a familiar bed I often sleep in)
Time of getting into bed: 12.25am

Dream 1 - Collection of a few dreams, 1 x Semi Lucid rest are non lucid.

As I fall to sleep, I instantly start dreaming. Possibly REM rebound? The dreams are nothing special, I am watching friends talking in their living room, it lasts a few seconds and then I wake. This happens perhaps 4 or 5 times. The 5th time I do remember thinking 'I'm already dreaming but I just fell to sleep? Is that possible?' Hence a semi lucid dream. However I woke up instantly after thinking this.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid

I am in an old fashioned orphanage, which is an all boys orphanage. The boys are young and scruffy, looking like something from Oliver twist. One of the bigger boys tells us to leave as we are going to be chased by some other boys. We don't leave as we are eating. Our plates are filled with glitter of all different mixed up colours, I watch another boy as he is eating the glitter.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid

I am in an old fashioned orphanage, which is an all boys orphanage. The boys are young and scruffy, looking like something from Oliver twist. One of the bigger boys tells us to leave as we are going to be chased by some other boys. We don't leave as we are eating. Our plates are filled with glitter of all different mixed up colours, I watch another boy as he is eating the glitter.

Dream 3 - Non Lucid

I struggled to remember this dream.
I am in a big market stall, farmers market type place. It is big and people are walking around. I have been told to work on a stall, cutting up meat. This disgusts me and I am very unhappy and complain about it. Some friends are with me, maybe they also cut up meat but they try to support me. I do it anyway, but cutting up the meat is so traumatizing I try to put my Ipod on to take my mind off it. I never press play. The meat is large, circular and has arseholes in it.


***NOTEWORTHY***
REM rebound
Semi lucid dream
I am vegetarian

Date: 14/06/2012
Place: Friend's bed
Time of getting into bed: 00.00

Dream 1 - Non lucid
We (me and partner) are going through a McDonalds drive through over and over again. Under our car seats are small kittens that are very cute.

Dream 2 - Non lucid
My sister is modeling dresses on a cruise ship. I am joining in but only because I know she will be angry if I don't, and I really don't want to do it. The dresses are bad taste and there are people watching. There are piles of clothing everywhere, my back is very sweaty I notice. A plastic pirate ship style toy boat is large enough for me to climb in, which makes it move in a very trippy way. I am then in the toilets squeezing into a dress way too small for me, there are people waiting to use the toilet but I am holding them all up. An old school friend passes by and says hi, I say hi back and they leave. Someone gives me some cheap, hotel style conditioner for my hair.

Dream 3 - Non lucid
There is a small, dead scorpion on my pillow. I am saving it to put in my ear later. I change my mind and decide to throw it away, in case it stings me.

Dream 4 - Non lucid
I am throwing plastic arrows, but I have no bow.

Dream 5 - Non lucid
I am in a beach style place, and smoking. I throw my cigarette butts on the floor into the sand so someone provides a very tall, green plastic cocktail glass to use as an ashtray. There are no more seats for me to sit on so I sit on a plastic, kids toy car. I am now crying (not sure why) but the car is comfortable.

***NOTEWORTHY***
I do not smoke anymore (quit sometime ago)
I have not seen the visiting school friend for around 10 years.
My star sign is Scorpio.