J.D.

07.12.2010

WILDing to Snooker (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I got in from class and flopped down on the sofa, still wearing shoes and a coat. Somebody else was watching snooker, and after a while I lay back and closed my eyes. After that it gets a bit hard to tell what was real and what wasn't.

I felt a light sensation in the middle-front of my head, which I can only describe as "a bit like falling". Kind of a tingle. It came in tiny, split-second bursts, and went away immidiately after I noticed it. It startled me slightly each time it happened- having the effect of making me a tiny bit more alert for a few seconds. I felt like I needed to let it happen uninterrupted to fall properly asleep. I was very careful the next time it happened, and it went on for a couple of seconds, bringing sleep paralysis with it. It felt like my whole body suddenly lost any muscle tension, and my head drooped forward- even though I was sure it was completely supported already.

I had a visualisation then of the crane outside. I looked at it intently, trying to keep focused on what I was doing. I could hear the sound of snooker on TV still, it never seemed to have gotten blocked out. But then it got a whole lot louder. I suspected this was purely my mind playing tricks, as I doubted whoever was watching it has maxxed out the volume while I was sleeping there. It got louder, and combined with a high-pitched whine. My jaw then seemed to clench of its own accord. But it felt like the teeth of my lower jaw were in front of my top front teeth. It was a bit uncomfortable, and I wondered if I could fix it without ruining the WILD. Turns out not. They weren't even stuck in that position anyway.



It struck me then that I had actually been pretty far away from awake. The difference I felt when waking up was like resurfacing after being underwater. During the transition to sleep I thought I had been basically aware and connected to the outside world thoughout, but it certainly didn't feel that way now!