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i somehow got a hold of some kind of necklace with a rectangle jewel/gem which matches with heart earings also of the same jewel/gem kinda like dark purple color..anyways these jewelry granted me the power to wish anything, close my eyes and it wud appear in front of me..i lost it..someone or monster i felt was looking for it so i quickly ran into some kind of house to get it where i somehow left it so i cud take advantage of it wen i found out its true power of course..wen i got it i closed my eyes and imagined a type of strawberry cake i liked..but each time i wished it a strawberry cake would appear but not like the one i imagined when i closed my eyes..i tried a couple times still the same strawberry cake apeared and it was piling up..i wake up..lol..

Okay..I haven't had an LD for about a month..but last last night, the night of 11/26/10 i finally did..The things i remember were more detailed and vivid than any other LD i ever had.. I remember more things and I remember more how things looked like which was good! At first I remember I was in a scenario where I wasn't lucid yet. The night before I slept my bf dropped me off home after a date wen i was dreaming it incorporated a lot from that night. I dreamt that I was in my school in the Philippines, my old high school. That I was trying to find a ride to get home (Hawaii). It was night time. In my dream it seemed like I was still in Hawaii even though wen I awoke the setting where I was in seemed to be in Philippines. Any way I was trying to find a way home. So I looked around, I was in some kind of Philippine province but it became daytime. I walk around see a group of nosy girls they say something, then I say something back. I don't remember what they or I said. Anyways I see Beth (a lady who I knew back in my elementary school in the Philippines from wayy back when) for some reason in that dream I remember I looked up to her as someone who always gave me rides when in reality I hardly ever talked to her. Anyway I asked her if she cud giv me a ride home while she was swimming in a lake with her usual red shirt on but she said she was busy. So then I called my bf VJ, it didn't ring it seemed to go on voicemail right away. But in the dream it wasn't his usual vocemail. It was something different. Something kinda silly but I don't remember what it said. I said in the voicemail "Pls answer" Then he spoke..he said hahahahaha..this is really me..i was just goofing around with you on the whole fake vocemail thing..Anyways I tell him and ask him if he could pick me up (agen) and give me a ride..Then last night before I slept I remember VJ got stranded somewhere coz his car battery died..so in the dream he said "no..sorry..both my vans are broken." So then I saw my 2 cousins which live in the Philippines, I talk to them on some stuff for a while. I don't remember wat we talked about but then all of a sudden a van or big van taxi pulled up. My little cousin AJ said "Oh look itz grandpa Undo!" Then his mom, Tina said "Son, shhh!don't say that!" Coz my grandpa Undo died 8 months ago. In reality my lil cousin AJ always says things he's not supposed to say and his mother Tina would always scold him lyk that. I don't remember seeing much of them though, just heard their voices in the background as I seemed to get in the van/taxi. My grandma was inside with my sisters and cousins. It was night agen. In the Philippines my grandma always went around in a taxi or van. She asked me if she cud drop me off to my house. But i didn't say yes yet. I was thinking of wat to say to my mom wen i got home. wat fake excuse would I come up with this time? (Coz I always made up excuses wen I got home wen weird things happen) how cud I explain going out with my bf and coming home w/ my grandma? In that moment I was trying to make up a lie. I didn't know I was dreaming so my subconscious was trying to create some kind of explanation of how I ended up in that setting in the 1st place. It was funny now that I remember coz I was trying to think of a lie in a dream, where any lie cud be a kind of reality..i was trying to differentiate wat happened and wat lie i wud make up..but i think the dream made up how i got there and wat happened as i was thinking too.hahaha..So then I don't remember wat happened next. My dreams are like that. I remember bits and pieces, but miss some stuff in between. Like an incomplete sandwich. But anyways next thing I remember I was walking towards my college KCC..It didn't look like KCC. but i felt it was KCC. don't know if that makes any sense. Anyways, I walked towards it. And I saw some snow around..Little piles of snow around. I thought 'woah!snow in hawaii??how??'..As I was walking next to a big building..there was a sign with mixed numbers and letters on it..like a car liscense plate..in reality wen i see signs i always look at it, look away, then look back..that kind of reality check is 2nd nature to me.This time wen i looked back, the numbers were different..I did it agen..The numbers changed agen.. and agen..then it changed agen..then i decalared "THIS IS A DREAM" everything went black for a second. as my physical body was half awake..but i closed my eyes and said "stay in the dream.." "im lucid"..itz always like this..i fight evry now and then to stay in..and on most times i win the fight to stay in it. I get inside the building..I look around..and im amazed..i say to myself "wow..this dream looks so real!" "everything looks so real and vivid for once!" coz for once im looking around.i was 100% lucid..wen i got in the building, it looked like mcdonald's and i saw VJ sitting at a table. I don't remember how he looked like, but im pretty sure how he looked in that dream was not how he looked in reality, but I knew it was him..kinda like KCC, it didn't look like KCC but it was. Funny thing before I go on is, sometimes wen I see VJ in a dream we would be in an eating place..coz in reality we always ate out. Lyk one night ago I dreamt we were at subway since that day we ate at subway..while I was eating the sandwich i said "subway agen?" lol..but the place was not subway.Just last last night wen he took me to a Chijli's place for the 1st time in reality I said "woah deja vu!" this was the subway place wen I saw u..exactly lyk this.. ok going back, I saw VJ at a table..I go up to him hug him and say "do u know ur dreaming?this is a dream..im completely lucid and i know im dreaming..are u lucid?" (i did this coz in reality i told him, if ever im lucid im gonna go up 2 u hug u and tell u, U R DREAMING) he said "yeah..im lucid" in that moment i took him to a spot..we both wanted to go to tantalus (coz tantalus is a special place for me and him, wenever we talk in reality we always said we wud meet there or chill there in a dream) i closed my eyes took his both hands and we both spun around (dream spinning, this worked for me in 1 dream) but evry time i opened my eyes we were still at the same place no matter how hard i tried to imagine tantalus..so then i just stood still..i still held his both hands and i told him "ok VJ watever u do, don't let go of my hand..and wen u close ur eyes think of tantalus with me..and stay LUCID dont forget that this is a dream!keep repeating to urself that 'this is a dream' so that you'll stay lucid ok?" and he replied "ok".we tried but no matter wat we were still at the same place..Suddenly things got a bit of action.a black african american guy started chasing me..weird thing about me is in any dream i hav..most of the time there's always a part wer something's chasing me and im running..idk y..but itz in most dreams.this tym it was a bunch of gangster black ppl for some odd reason..me and VJ were near the top of a basement stairwell.I ran down..but wen I got to the middle of the stairwell..I thought "this is a dream. i can do anything ryt?" so i said let me try teleporting!idk y that came to my mind but it did..in dreams i wanna do anything and evrything..thatz just how my dream self is.so it took that opportunity..closed my eyes and thought of outside..and boom!i teleported..somehow i do things that i didnt even know i cud do..??but funny thing was..it was lyk i was watching a movie..coz even though i teleported i still saw and remember their reactions..they were lyk "oh no!she's gone..she teleported," a second i was gone i still saw their reactions in the stairwell weird..even though i wasnt there alredy. so then i was outside in the snow.me and VJ were running..we were at one point tryna get a taxi to get 2 tantalus and to run away..i think I remember VJ being in one..i try and get in..One foot is in but then i fall out.then i remember being out in the snow running from a bunch of black people..for some reason they were chasing me..dont know y..but here's the WEIRD thing about me..this wud always happen..wenever my dream self is being chased..there comes a point wer the ppl chasing me tries to rape me and my dream self goes slow on purpose..for some reason my dream self lyks the feeling of being trapped and helpless..dont get me wrong i lyk the fantasy in reality..but i wouldn't want it to happen in reality..so then my dream self suddenly went slow on purpose..i got caught..a black dude rubbed his finger on my private spot..dont know how i got out of there..but i did i guess..coz the only thing i remembered next was i was in some kind of house with VJ. The house didnt look familiar at all..VJ pushed me to a corner and I said. since tantalus is not working let's try the japanese place we always go to in Don Quijote(coz in reality that was our 2nd option meeting point). i opened my eyes and we were still in that house place..i was frustrated i thought.. 'y isnt this working??y did it work b4?is something stopping me?y?y cant i control this dream?' suddenly an old lady popped up..she grabbed me by the hand and led me to the next room..VJ followed..for some reason i thought 'is she my dream guide?' so i asked her..and she said 'yes.' then i thought she cud be lying..so i said "prove it" she said some weird advice..i couldn't remember all she said but i remember this she said "u try to give people advocacies (advice) all the time about things u don't even 100% understand" i dont specifically know wat she meant by this..im, guessing dream wise??idk..but then in my mind i though 'i gotta test this out..i gotta ignore her..make sure its not a DC' so then she leaves the room for a bit..me and VJ lay in the bed waiting for her to come back..to teach us how to transport to tantalus..but b4 she cud come back..the whole setting..just zooms out real fast..zooms out of the house..out of the city..out of the state..out of the country..and out of Earth..it goes up to outerspace..and the heavens scream/say "SHE'S NOT YOUR DREAM GUIDE." turns out that was wakingnomad..no wonder it sounded familiar!lol..anyways from there..i remember floating in space and floating down a planet or moon..all i know is it wasnt Earth anymore..it looked kinda small..like a small rock floating in space..seemed lyk the moon..but as i floated down i saw a pink pony..

i was marveled at the sight..it was beautiful..the most vivid thing i have ever seen in a dream..it drew my attention..i suddenly floated down to the ground of that moon or planet..i remember that my perspective changed..i cud no longer see my body..but evryone cud see me..lyk watching someone holding a vid camera documentary kinda thing.3rd perspective..i was still lucid..i remember the crowd as i walked past half human half mutant animal-like figures looked at me like i was weird..was i human?was i one of them?i couldn't see myself..i walked past the crowd and saw the pink pony agen..VJ was there among the crowd..suddenly i see a few humans and they greet me..i dont remember wat we talked about..but it was me VJ and a couple of other humans on that moon..we were in the middle of outer space.i just remember one person.

she's an actress..weird..but i was testing out if she was my dream guide too..idk y but i was..so i tried ignoring her..and she went to work as a waitress or cashier or something in the middle of a weird moon or planet..weird..so then i remembered wat wakingnomad did..he tried flying in his dreams..so i stood on some sort of rock tablet thing jumped up and tried flying..the feeling was great kinda hard at first to control..like the 1st time i drove..but it felt soo good..i still remember the feel it gave me..it was soo real..i felt completely free..for some reason..i felt myself flap..like i had brown feathery wings..i felt i was a bird??i didnt see myself..but then wen i got down i tried flying vertical..with my fist pumped up at the sky/stars around and flew up vertically..then switched to horizontally..it felt good..i was still in 3rd perspective..but i got used to the view point..it felt lyk though at one point i was a bird with brown feathery wings then i went human..idk..i could not c myself..then i remember flying across the horizon..as VJ and the other frends i made were eating on a big wooden bench or table..so then i flew across that table..they were eating and in each of their plates i took some food as i flew and ate..but i didn't take from VJ's plate coz he was eating a bacon burger from Chijli's and i din't like bacon but for some reason wen i took a bite from my hand the bacon was in my hand so i put it back in his plate..i must've been flying so fast dat i didnt notice i took the bacon from his plate too..yuck..lol..the others were eating Chijli's food too..the cajun pasta i ordered that night in reality someone was eating. I then stopped flying..VJ took me to a spot and we tried for tantalus agen..we closed both our eyes..and in that moment it worked..we were at tantalus..but it was nightfall..that's wen i went half awake agen..i told VJ "oh no, im waking up" he said something..i dont remember wat but he said something lyk he needs to go pee..or maybe i do..idk something lyk that..evrything went black and i woke up to reality. 20 min later as im writing my dream VJ txts "good morning"..wen i call him earlier in the day he doesnt remember anything but as i went on explaining he started to remember some things..he remembers trying to get to tantalus the whole time..he remembers being in that weird house and he said "no wonder last nyt i remember a lot of it being dark..u kept telling me to close my eyes." he also remembers thinking to go to the moon for some reason..datz VJ he lucid dreams a lot but he doesnt like to take control..he wants to go w/the flow..maybe thatz y i went to the moon all of a sudden i told him.he were holding me and at one point in his dream he was looking up and thought to go to the moon..VJ is an excellent lucid dreamer but he doesnt know that the moon was a meeting place or anything he's just an avid lucid dreamer who doesnt know the knowledge behind it but just does it and goes with the flow..maybe thatz y i was rushed to the moon..and i didnt do it on purpose to get there..he remembers being on the moon and seeing animal-like things too..and he remembers being on tantalus at the very end and waking upto go pee in reality.wen he texted me that was a couple of min after he woke up from the dream..same w/ me..a lot of things went on in this LD..

I meet this guy recently who does not have any knowledge about dreams but deff has a deep connection with them all his life..his name is vj..he met me in a dream evn before waking life..it explains a LOT since wen i first met him i felt at ease with him automatically like something inside me knew him..and wen we met it was a deja vu moment for him.he remembers his dreams vividly all the time..and has no doubt that it was me..the thing is he has had a couple of dreams with me in the past b4 he evn evn met me..i told him my dream the other nyt..i dreamt i saw aaron and he tried to kiss me..but my heart beated in the dream and i said "stop..dis is wrong..ur not him" meaning i refused psyfr..i guess i really do care very deeply about vj..coz in my dreams i have 100% honesty..the thing is wen i told him this he cried for long ago he dreamt i left and said goodbye to him and went for aaron..this was b4 he evn met me or aaron..but he remembers evrything so vividly in that dream..i told him time is not linear in that plane that maybe that was the time wen i still was w/ aaron.i can't explain the type of connection me and vj have..but there's something between us.we both feel it..we both feel exactly the same things at the exact same times..i wish i had an explanation..he evn met me as a child he couldn't see my face but he was chasing a girl..and wen he saw my pics from elementary school the form of my body was that girl he was chasing..have i bonded w/ him in dreams which explains the feeling of knowing him wen we first met??i dont know..but all i know is all of this seems soo set up..in his dream i would always say goodbye..but in reality that's something i could nvr do..maybe i always said goodbye in dreams coz i was heading back to reality wer i was truly waiting for him..coz yrs of my lyf i dont remember those dreams he had of me..but i always described my dream man and all the characteristics evn the most specific ones are in vj..so i have no doubt i met him in dreams long ago but i do not recall..

Well wakingnomad told me it was time for me to find my dream guide..
I was lucid last nyt w/ one of the most weirdest and most confusing dream i had..
It was my 2nd time being fully lucid. I didn't do reality checks but I just knew I was dreaming and managed to stray in that dream state..
A lot of events occurred I don't know the exact order..
But I'll tell the important ones first..
I kept calling out for my dream guide to appear..but it didn't work for some reason..
In my dream I was with wakingnomad..I didn't question why or when he was there but I just went along with it..
I didn't check if he was a DC which I should have..
but it felt like it was him..not sure though??
anyway we went around that dream plane..
we passed a guy i don't really remember..
but then moments later wakingnomad was doing something..
he was focusing on he guy we saw from earlier..
he said he was fousing on him, imagining him to come near us and sure enough it happened..
this guy was weird andwen we saw him he as carrying a plate of food.
He had a flirty vibe to him too..
In that instant for some reason wakingnomad just went all out and fought him 4 some reason..
but the guy was kinda invincible..
wakingnomad told me "c he's not human"
since that guy was like invincible..and he just ate the food evn though i knw it didnt satrisfy him since he was not human
anyway wakingnomad and i continued to walk around..
then i remember walking with him through a place that was like limbo or weird
like clouds all around
andd as people passed by..
people i didnt know..
waking nomad woul say ignbore them they're just DC's..
and sure enough i would ignore them as they walked past me in that cloud-like world or something..
one thing that was weird is y didn't my dream guide come wen i called??
was d person i was w/ my dream guide??and i just assumed it was wakingnomad?? idk??i need answers..
den some other confusion happened too..waking nomad just suddenly disappeared..
i didnt really question the chang of events but
all of a sudden i remember that a kid w/ glasses went up 2 me claiming to be my drea guide and he was like touching through things..
like through my head and stuff..
but that's all i remembered..
im still unsure about that kid though..it cud be just a DC??ryt??
and then another claimed to be my dream guide, it was a person i knew in waking life
i know her by her pictures in real life..
she's the current GF of my ex BF..
and she said she was my dream guide..but i know tis is not true,,
since aren't dream guides supposed to know evrything about u??
well when i mentioned in that dream i was the ex of her current bf she seemed shocked..
wasn't she supposed to know evrything about me f she really is my dream guide??
things get weirder..psYfr (aaron) was there by me when i was talking to my so-called dream guide..
i remembered wen wakingnomad was doing that whole focus thing for that creepy guy to come near us..
i thought of going into psYfr's dream..but then i stopped myself remembering psYfr's warnings not to do that in waking lyf..
so instead of going into his dreams for some reason i imagined him coming near me and wakingnomad just as wakingnomad did w/ the creepy guy..
but he didn't come in that instant..
but i think since i imagined him coming near me, eventually throughought the dream he did..
wen i was talking to my "so-called" dream guide.psYfr was by me..and wen i mentioned to that dream guide that her bf now was my ex she was shocked but i told her she had nothing 2 worry about and i kissed psYfr..he knew what i was doing..I was pretending that me and him were together evn if we wern't anymore..and he just went along w/ it knowing wat i was doing..pretty soon..the fke dream guide disappeared and me and psYfr were cuddling and a sexy lady passed by while we were cuddling or something lyk dat..but before that happened my "so-called" dream guide said she was my dream guide coz her last name was "six" for sixth sense..but thatr's not her last name..it's psYfr's best frend that has the last name "six"..weird!!
den part of my dream was a singing contest too..
two of my younger sisters were there..
and they were arguing which they do in waking life so often..
and some filipino singers were there too in that portion..
datz all i can remember and wat i wrote down..
why didn't my dream guide come wen i calld out many tyms??
was i with my dreamguide all along and just assumed it was wakingnomad??
coz he did show me a lot and isn't that wat dream guides do??
or was it that little boy touching through stuff??
if it was wakingnomad, was it really him or a dc??
and watz up w/that weird dream guide faker??