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IMPORTANT DATES
08/31/11 -- Started my Dream Journal!

CURRENT GOALS:
[ ] Find a lucid-inducing technique that works for me
[ ] Attain Lucidity


7th Entry:
Date: 09/07/11
Sleep Times: 11:00-UNKNOWN...6:00-6:30.
Lucid Technique: WBTB
Recall Technique: Subliminal Messaging / WBTB
Attain Ludcidity?: Possibly???

I'm not sure if the only drean U cab recall is really a dream at all....I was doing a small excercise I call 'Setting the Scene' where I pick a random 'cast' and let the scenario into play. Usually lately, my dreams have taken the form of my worries and inner-struggles both spiritually and in the waking, physical world. Tonight, this was no exception.
Though the night prior I dreamed of the perfect(ly odd) ending to the story that is a fight between friends, in the waking world we are still on the long road to love....But I'm nor here for therapy. I am here to journal down my dreams. This time, the cast taht decided to show to the party besides myself was my friend Colton who, previous to this stupid quarrel, used to protect me in every single one of my dreams! However, behind me and waiitng was Twisted!Colton, who seems to do the opposite of his original copy and want nothing more than to tear my mental sanity apart. Some close friends and I theorize it could be a manifestation in my subconcious of hurt feelings between the two of us from the last life and possibly this one. I implored with Colton to forgive me, that I truly was sorry and just didn't care about whether or not he and my beau ever got along- that I cared about getting back the only family I had ever truly known. However, he proceeded to tell me that our 'family' and 'friendship' wasn't worth any sort of dramatics or the effort. I tried telling him I never had started this drama, that he was lied to- I never said a bad word about my one and only brother...And that I spent my entire summer on this effort, so it was worth it to me if he would atleast see me to the other side of it. However, unlike yesterday's happy ending, this one ended badly....He merely said goodbye and walked away from me. I began to scream and try to give chase to my best friend, however this didn't result well. Instead, Twisted!Colton pulled me back against him and whispered in my ear, "You're mine, now....We can be together forever, Autumn...." (Autumn being my name from my previous life.) At this point, he held fast, practically dug his fingers into my skin, and pulled me into a coffin behind him with him while I scream after the real Colton to save me again like before.
But this time, he didn't come...
I fell into black sleep after this point.

IMPORTANT DATES:
08/31/11 -- Started my Dream Journal!

CURRENT GOALS:
[ ] Find a lucid-inducing technique that works for me
[ ] Attain Lucidity


6th Entry:
Date: 09/06/11
Sleep Times: 11:00-3:00, 3:00-6:00, 6:00-9:00
Lucid Technique: MILD WBTB
Recall Technique: MILD WBTB
Attain Ludcidity?: No

Another night of a stuffy head...Apparently at one point, a window was open while I was sleeping the other day and it is wreaking havoc on my nasal passages....Just when I got over the last stuffy nose, my father had to dish me out a new one.... HOWEVER, this time it DID NOT effect my recall.
I had a dream I went over to a cottage like home. I knocked on the window and my friends mom came out. She asked what I wanted and I told her I was there to face my demon- I was there to talk to Colton. So she went to get him, and his brother Tyler (also a friend of mine) came outside. We greeted each other and he figured out why I was there. He said to me, "You know, Colton is going to do everything in his power to stay away from you. He's still hurt."
I told him I knew now that I had hurt his brother and how badly, and that I was so sorry for it...I wanted to make up and make it up to him.
Colton came outside, and he saw it was me. I went to approach him and say I was sorry, but he merely stared. I tried speaking with him, but he would cover his ears. At one point, he spontaneously turned into a pair of coins that fell to the ground. I began crying. For some reason, Tyler hid away. I looked around to see a pony with a dark red coat and a white star on its forehead emerge from around the corner for no evident reason. It ran towards me and twisted around me. I merely petted it. Tyler freaked out about it, and I was slightly scared as it seemed so sparatic and wild, but I merely yelled to it to go home. It complied and ran back into the yard next door, and I joined Tyler in hiding in a small area next to him. He began to ask me how I did that, and I told him I had watched the horses for my friend Ashley before (true fact) and so I had a small experiance with them. I went on about how it didn't matter though... I still failed at the one thing I came to accomplish. I began to tear up again and talk about how much I missed Colton, and how terrible I felt and the whole sha-bang. It grew quieter as I began to sob and Tyler suddenly says to me, "He heard you. Look outside."
Outside of my hidey-hole was an orange octopus, apparently Colton in a random form. He asked me if I meant what I'd said and asked if I promised this would never happen again. I told him I never wantd this sort of thing to happen and I never wanted him hurt. That I was glad we got past the lies (turns out the reason we have been fighting this entire time because some of our 'friends' had been lieing to us all summer....) and could finally be together again. I hugged the small Coltopus, teary-eyed and smiling. He asked if I wanted a simple kiss or something I can't recall, and I gave him a big kiss on his Octopus cheek. He turned into a person again, helped me up, and we hugged.

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IMPORTANT DATES:
08/31/11 -- Started my Dream Journal!

CURRENT GOALS:
[ ] Find a lucid-inducing technique that works for me
[ ] Attain Lucidity

4th Entry:
Date: 09/03/11
Sleep Times: Approx. 12:30/1:00-9?. 9?-11:43(?).

I can't remember for the life of me the memory I had just had before! I had recalled my dream from the second sleep-cycle, figured out the details in my head, repeated it so it would stick, but ONE PHONE CALL took it all away from me! This is very depressing for me, indeed. However, from what I do know it was a mockery of my daily life- it wasn't that exciting. I remember it taking place in my current house. However, past that I can't remember a single detail besides multiple scene-settings that could've given birth to it. HOWEVER, I have also gained the memory of a DIFFERENT dream from the FIRST sleep cycle that because of its content I see as more valuable. I woke up smelling lavender (I was suffereing a runny/congested nose last night and I was drinking lavender tea to feel better. Great home cure, btw. To fix those nasal symptoms, a strong-smelling herbal tea mixed with honey to keep a soothed throat, sugar for taste, and another strong smelling herb- for me personally, cinnamon, is an amazing tasting cure!) and this triggered a different dream memory for me. For those of you who read my DJ, you may recall my first posted entry (for those who don't read my DJ, see "LudoSiren's Adventure Time") which involved a man in a black suit. Let's call him Twisted!Colton. I remember waking up in a field wearing a white dress. I can, at this point, tell you the design and the feel of the dress in detail, essentially. As I do not want to take the time to draw, scan, and upload it, I will merely supply a google-searched pictue of it at the end of this entry. In the field, I could smell lavender and a few other herbs. The sky and everything were beautiful and I felt at peace. However, I looked up to see just beyond that Twisted!Colton was nearby. Above him, there seemed to be a darkening sky and a sort of sadness about him. I have come to realize now something about him- he has been creeping in every one of my dreams! I missed that he could've been my dream sign!! (If, albeit, this wasn't a false implanted memory.) I had the pleasure of seeing his beetle-juice like tongue, in the sense that it was very long and resembled a worm. Upon seeing his face, I got up and ran as fast as I could. I can't remember much interaction going on between us, but I remember him trying to act gentle and calm, regardless of a violent and insane nature and the way he was crawling on the ground and even on the sky like a man possessed. I fell, and remember him creeping up to me and looking in my eyes. I think he may have licked the side of my face, and I can't remember if he had succeeded, but tried to put something either in my hand of tuck it behind my ear.
All I remember hearing is him say something trying to get me into submission. Thinking about it, it reminds me of the line from the movie Labyrinth, where at the end the Goblin King Jareth (played by David Bowie says to the heroine, Sarah, the following lines:
"Everything that you wanted I have done. You asked that child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me and I was frightening. I have reordered time, I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?...
I ask for so little. Just let me rule you, and you can have everything that you want....
Just fear me, love me, do as I say, and I will be your slave."
I think it was something along the lines of a menancing, "Stay...." all I can hear clearly in my mind is him saying "Forever..." at one point. But I don't think the message was supposed to carry to waking life. As I recall the dream it seems to become fake in a way....But at the same time, I know it was real. The one picture that never gets touched by this sense is the picture of him standing in the field and him in my face. Is it a subconcious thought that maybe my subconcious feels I can't handle in waking life? I'm not sure. If anyone is better at dream understanding and the possible cross-link it carries with spiritual/paranormal/psychological matters that I feel it may undertone, PM me and I am more than willing to answer any questions.

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(PS: The promised dress-picture: Yep folks, it was almost an exact copy of the classic Marilyn Monroe dress. The only differences were that the skirt was a bit shorter- probably about a knee length (above or below, give or take), and it was more like a V-neck as it did better cover my cleavage.)