magickalex

last night i dreamnt i had moved into a house out in the country. i was walking along a dirt road looking at cow fields. i started running down to the end of the dirt road and it veered off to the left into the woods behind a house. so i went into the woods and i saw big stone stairs. i walked up them and found giant windchimes up there. i looked over and there was a huge pink stucco house in the woods. i heard people there so i started to run off fearing that i was on private property. as i was running i realized i was dreaming. i started marvelling at the realistic beauty of the dream. all the beautiful vibrant flowers and then i saw a mountainscape ahead of me. the dream started fading out but my conscious awareness remained. i tried to stay in conscious awareness in the blackness of my mind. i then lost it and dont remember anything else.

last night all i remember was hearing that the man who bought my grandpas old farm house had been mauled and killed by pitbull that he had. he abused the dog and put weights on him but the dog broke free and killed him. people around where this was thought my grandpa still lived there and had been killed.

i also remember somthing about ma anand sheela and her followers going on a water fast to punish somebody?

last night i dreamnt a few dreams that i can now vaguely remember

-i was at my grandparents old farm house with my aunt for a few days i cant remember why. my dogs were running around and we kept trying to keep them on the property. some of my friends were there and at one point i had the chance to leave with them but i decided to stay.

-another part i remember having a hose that wa connected to nitrous oxide and i kept sucking it up and feeling weird like i was on laughing gas,, but a friend told me to quit bc it wasnt a clean source.

trying to get back into lucid dreaming, i havent recorded my dreams in a while...

last night i remember having a dream about seeing some show like on mtv that was like a reality show where this guy was talking about if smoking crack killed brain cells or not (lol)

then it showed how he started smoking crack for this documentary and he was documenting the effects. it showed him and some of his hipstery friends dressed up like hipster homeless people on crack throwing eggs around and trying to hit them with a bat.
the main guy was explaining how it felt to be on crack doing that.

then the intro to the show came on and it was like 5 kids walking down a road to a fence. then all the sudden i was in the scene with them walking recording this intro.

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then i remember having a dream where two of my friends, trevor and lacy were texting me telling me that they were at harvest moon (a local bar) and that i wouldnt believe who was there. they wouldnt tell me who it was but they kept referencing them as "the most terrible people i can imagine" lol

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then i remember dylan and his mom had moved in next door to me. me and zach rode our bikes from way across town over to his house where they were having a cookout. i remember a big steak being on the grill. we chained our bikes up at his house instead of mine.

i remember being at my friend shanes house. i had my dog and he had his dog, but there was a third dog, a large corgi. we couldnt take care of the corgi and were trying to find it a good home. i had to take it to the vet for some reason. when i got to the vet they were about to close (it was like 9:30 pm). i then realized i had forgotten the dog.

me and shane were in the vet parking lot with our dogs and the corgi. a black girl rode by on her bike and asked about the corgi. we asked her if she wanted him because he needed a good home. she declined and rode off.

i remember at one point i think i had done some ketamine in this dream and i was feeling dissociative effects from it as we were still around the vets office.

then there was this whole dream sequence about how shanes wife had gotten a job in japan, teaching english to kids or somthing.

i remember explaining that to my grandparents (even though my grandma is dead in 'real life' DREAM SIGN) as shane sat at the end of the table and kept saying that she was there to do therapy with them, she wasn't there to teach them english.

i then remember being at my grandparents farm house (DREAM SIGN, its not theirs anymore) even though it didnt look like their farm house. there was a wall of VHS tapes with a tv in the middle. me and my grandma sat on the bed and i put in a VHS tape that had writing on it that said "george jefferson (and somthing else scribbled)" it had a recorded episode of the Jeffersons and Dragon Ball on it lol. when i put the tape in it was on the part with dragon ball on it so i began to rewind it to find the episode of the jeffersons. all the sudden i was playing a dragon ball video game with n64 type graphics. the dream turned to me actually being in the video game. i was goku, and i was on a mountain with a little jungle on it. i startedto go towards the path going down the mountain but there was an explorer chobbing vines making his way up to the top. i turned around to hide from him. the objective in this part of the game was for me to catch a monkey? so i started wraping a vine around clusters of trees for some reason. i could see the monkey hopping around above me. at one point i climbed a tall tree.

then i remember some dream montage involving an avocado salad.

what a night.

the first dream i remember is one in which i became lucid. i dont remember how i became lucid and i dont remember the dream before i became lucid. i was wandering through a parking lot trying to figure out what i should do now that i was lucid.
i decided to try to meet the buddha Padmasambhava. i started chanting his mantra (om ah hum vajra guru padma siddhi hum) and asking for him to appear. a truck soon pulled up in front of me and stopped. an old man was driving the truck, he didnt look anything like depictions i had seen of padmasambhava but i asked if he was and he said yes. he let me in the truck and we started driving down a highway. we talked a lot. i cant remember a lot of what we talked about. i remember something about him saying that energy come up through the right nostril into the brain and down the spine, while energy comes in the left nostril and goes directly down before it come up to the brain or something. i asked him for a dzogchen empowerment and he put his hand on my head and i went into a state of nonconceptual bliss. he was saying stuff as this went on but i couldnt make out his words. when it was over i asked him what the empowerment granted me (as in what practices i could do now because of it) and he said it was a beginning dzogchen empowerment. after this i just remember getting of the highway and us driving around back alleys in neighborhoods. i remember waking up in the night and being excited about this dream.

the other dreams i remember were not lucid.

i remember i went to my local library where there was an old refurbished subway car on display from an old subway system my city tried to start years ago (which was all made up my city never tried to do that). i was looking at the subway car and i went inside. a security guard came up and i asked him where in the city the subway had intended to go to and from, but he said he didnt know. there were little holes in the front that said somthing about north korea on them? i remember telling the security gaurd that years ago my friends brother discovered an abandoned subay station under our city. ( i think this was a rumor i actually heard when i was a little kid) i went to the second level of the library and there was a display of a bunch of canoes of all different colors set up on a fake grass stage thing. a little black dog was running around in them so i got the dogs attention and petted him and looked at his collar. it had a name and phone number on it. i saw a girl walking around the display so i went up to her to ask to use her phone to call the owner but it tunrs out she was the owner. she told me her name was ashlyd or somthing weird like that, and she worked at honda. i went back downstairs and it was a grocery store. me and my wife were now shopping for groceries. i remember looking for coffee, and seeing it one minute but upon closer inspection i could never find bags of coffee. end of dream

the next dream i remember me, my wife and some other friends were pulling up to a house in one of my friends van. we went inside and i saw a cool painting of a palm tree, but it had a psychedelic style to it with little dots in the background. i said it was cool and one friend goes, yea paige painted that. theres more in heree we can see if she will show them to us.
all i rmember next was my wife playing with the little kid in the house and me and my friend shane lounging on the couch. and one of my friends forgot ther jacket in the van so she went out to get it.

The dreams I remember from last night...

I remember seeing some old friends from highschool that i haven't seen or talked to in about 12 years. Mark, Will, Lindsay, and Sonya. I can't really remember much, but I remember that Lindsay and Sonya were glad to see me and being nice, but Mark and Will were acting like they didn't like me and that i was just being bothersome. This made me feel awkward and I remember excusing myself from whatever the situation was. As I did I did some weird little movement or stance, like I didn't really know what to do because the situation was so awkward. Thats all I remember of this scenario.

The next dream sequence I remember involved me walking around a neighborhood i used to live in called Rawson Circle. There is a big lime sink that i used to live in a little duplex across from. This is a place I come to a lot in my dreams, but it is quite different in my dreams than it is in real life. I saw my old house, but it didnt look anything like what it really does. it was 2 stories on a hill with a deck on the second story and a carport that the drive way looped in and out of in the front. i saw an old buddha statue i used to have that got stolen out from the front of that house on the deck. i went closer thinking "are the people living here now the ones that stole my statue?". but i decided it probably was just a coincidence. i walked up the hill on the side and saw another buddha-esque statue in a little muddy ditch. it was covered in dirt and mud and looked ancient. it looked really cool the way they had it positioned in the center of this ditch but standing taller than the ditch. and i sat and admired it for a moment. as i made my way back down the hill i noticed that there was a tiger laying asleep in the grass. (me and my wife had been watching a video about pet tigers 2 nights before and i was talking about how cool it would actually be if you could get a tiger to be a good pet and how pretty they were). i went up to the tiger to pet it and it acted very sweet like a cat. i pulled out my phone to take a picture of me and the tiger to send to my wife since we had just been talking about them, but the battery on my phone was too low. so i pulled out my laptop to try and get a picture with him on there. thats all i remember of that sequence...

The next dream i had i was much younger. like in middle school. and i was hanging out with a friend i had when i was about 12-13 named zac. his dad was taking us somewhere, but i dont remember where exactly. it was out of state, far away. i remember at certain points wanting to go home so bad that i started trying to figure out how long it would take me to walk home. zacs dad was being really mean to us for some reason. end of vague sequence.

I have this really vague sequence of being a teenager and i was with some friends. there was this building, it seemed like a day care because there was a fence outside with a slide in it. we were trying to hop this fence but it was trespassing and a cop had just come nearby. i hopped the fence first and saw the cop around the bushes, so i hopped back and told my friends we needed to run the other way so he wouldnt see us there. when we ran out the cop was walking away from us. end of vague sequence.

last dream i remember before i woke up...my 7th grade teahcer had given me and other people a writing assignment. but we werent in a school. i remember being like on a street and then going under a covering with maybe a soda machin in it to sit down and write. i wrote a story, i can remember what it was about but it involved some cartoon character. maybe it was bart simpson? and a king that was a lion. i dont remember as much of the story as much as ia rmember the beautiful cover and back cover i was drawing for the story. the back cover featured the king lion on top like in a balcony of a castle and further down it had a close up of his face. on top of the lion i wrote K I N G D E A S i think it was.

Then i woke up.