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I was in the middle of a dream when I heard a loud BANG, literally next to my ear as if someone slammed a door. Which is odd, because my appartment only has 2 swinging doors: my front door into the corridor, and my bedroom door. The rest are sliding doors that don't go *bang*. I don't even have a wardrobe, just shelves where my clothes live.

I calmed myself down, and started hallucinating (I hallucinate outside of SP as well as in SP) and heard a little girl say "HEY!" in a cheerfully excited tone. I even smiled at this, it was so cute. I heard another little bang (from my boiler) and in a flash I saw a grey decayed wall, like a ruin.

I felt the pre-SP vibrations and started to hear stuff, so I thought "Nope, not going into HH." so I said NO out loud and rolled over to my left side.

Went into SP anyway, of course, lol, while lying on my side. 2 waves of vibrations later, I woke up in the dream Again, I didn't bother RCing. ..had I read Matte's new competition rules, I'd have done it, because it would have given me points XD

I'm going to keep a log of my Sleep Paralysis experiences, just for my own record, motivation and of course, for others to read

This morning I woke up at 2.30 am, remembered 3 dreams and wanted to write them down.. ..but my DJ was left on my computer desk and I didn't feel like getting up. I also totally forgot I can blog from my phone XD Hey, it was 2.30 am

So I just lay there, contemplating on the dreams in an attempt to remember them in the morning (which worked, btw!). Then I felt myself get heavy and thought I'd attempt a WILD.

I kept thinking of my favourite subject to be thinking about before bed: Dominiq (recurring DC, I've kinda fallen in love with him). I used him as my anchor of consciousness. Then I felt the familiar numbness and started to hear things (HH), but thought "NO, I don't want to hear shiz!" so I moved my elbow slightly. Then it kinda felt like my hand was upside down, but my arm was not like my wrist was twisted. It didn't hurt though. I could still move my arm and hand and they felt fine. Then the feeling returned and I just let it be, occasionally trying to move a limb until I couldn't anymore.

I was in SP. I didn't hear anything but noise (which I was fine with), and a total of three vibration waves washed over me. Then when none seemed to come anymore, I tried getting up. I felt really strange like my body didn't bend as it normally would when you sit up from lying-down position. I also had trouble opening my eyes fully, but it didn't matter. I noticed it was pitch black in my room, whereas it should be dimly lit by street lights..

I didn't even bother doing a reality check, lol.

Colour Legenda:
Setting| Technique used | Dream (lv1) | Dream (lv2) | Lucid Dream | Notes
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Dream 1: 1.18 AM
I'm at a bakery with Kelly, when she goes outside to wait for G. I go see what's up and by the time i go back in, there's a huuuge cueue. I get annoyed at her for wasting our place in the cueue, but she's pleading that G is worth it, so i just shrug and wait with her, forgetting the bakery altogether.

Dream 2: 1.18 AM
I'm working somewhere, i go to the canteen for lunch (the corridor leading to it has a slope, lol) but it's empty, with lots of ppl outside i don't know. Apparently there’s going to be a meeting in the canteen, so i go look for food elsewhere and get lost on my way back to the office.

Dream 3: 3.12 AM
I'm in Leuven (university city), going to the market, but half the city is destroyed. When I do reach the market, I see some friends of mine (S and a person I can't identify). S tells me about his latest Japan-related project, and then we go talk privately about what had only just happened to me. My hair is wet and sticking up Wolverine style.
That's the umpteenth time I dream of Leuven, so I guess it's a dream sign of mine!! Also, it's the second time I dream about the market in Leuven. There is one IRL that I used to go to before Friday class. It seems to be linked to my desire to get a hamser. The first time I dreamt of it was when I first started looking for a hamster IRL, and yesterday the pet store called me to say their couple had bred healthy cubs that could be separated from their mums on Saturday. And again, I dream of that market in Leuven. Weird!

Dream 4: 3.12 AM
I see a black woman bent over, while her husband (also black) is circling her, touching her with his penis. Eventually she screams "PIKACHUUUU" and he finally gets to actually fuck her. Apparently they're in a game show. Awards are being handed out. She's now wearing 150cm tall high heels & she's singing.
..this may have had to do with blues/jazz being on the radio. I sleep with music.

Dream 5: 6.28
I'm checking something out, about two guys. One of them (the one I find most attractive of the two) is suddenly behind me. He's tall and has long blonde hair. After we talk for a bit, a girl shows up and gets all flirty with him, so I kinda back off a bit to give them some privacy, assuming she's his girlfriend. Suddenly she gets all cold on him, and I feel sorry so I give him a warm hug. As I squeeze him, his hand lowers down my back, he gropes my bum and we kiss..
OMG DOMINIQ!!!!!!!!! Where've you BEEN all this time!?
Ahem. Dominiq is a sporadically recurring Dream Character, first appeared about 5 years ago as my lover. This is my 4th dream about him! FINALLY OMG I MISSED YOU!! (TwT)

Dream 6: 6.28
I'm with Gwen and Vicky, hiding from a Geisha. They hide under the stairs, but I don't fit so I run up the stairs and hide inside the Geisha's bedroom, in some storage room. It feels like I'm in a film, acting. The Geisha comes into the room, looks at the storage room (as scripted), and goes away again. I escape and rejoin my classmates in the balcony of a theater. It hadn't occurred to me how quiet it was, until everyone suddenly turns round and laughs at me, talking about something I did where I got caught. I just laugh with them.
..this is just weird shiz XD I reckong it may, again, have to do with the radio. Applause being translated into the dream as "people suddenly talking loudly".

After writing that down, I had 2 more minutes before my alarm went off, and guess what. I go into SP >_<. No. Time. Left. For. LD!!

..ok, so tonight, I'm not going to say it, I'm going to actually DO it, and just let SP happen when it does.

I'm SO sick and tired of losing all those chances for a LD just out of fear for Hypnagogia. It's MY dreamworld, and in there, I AM GOD!

I get into SP spontaneously pretty much every night, but the prospect of perceiving things that aren't really there is SO disturbing to me that I avoid it like the plague.

I've let it happen once, and had a full LD, so I seriously don't get where my fear still comes from today. It was totally fine, not scary and the dream was awesome.

So I'm just going to let it happen tonight. Period. End of story.

Colour Legenda:
Setting| Technique used | Dream (lv1) | Dream (lv2) | Lucid Dream | Notes
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First dream:
I'm at work and they're passing my job on to my coworker. I can see his desk with my stuff on it, including my clothes XD

Second dream:
2 Robots are interrogating a third robot, at my aunt and uncle's place (we talked about them at dinner IRL), taking the poor thing apart and reassembling just for torture purposes. I'm just watching this dream. The robot being tortured has red, muscle-like looking parts and limbs, connected by wires representing veins, i guess?

I told someone on dreamviews.com yesterday, that robots are nightmare creatures for me. ..apparently not.

And i *know* i had a third dream between these two but i can't remember it. Serves me right for being too lazy to blog it immediately >_<

Colour Legenda:
Setting| Technique used | Dream (lv1) | Dream (lv2) | Lucid Dream | Notes
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1st dream, 03.49 am.

I was dreaming so i figured i'd just see where the dream would take me. It took me into the 1986 my little pony film!! I watched as mama licketisplit saved baby sweetie belle from the smooze. And i figured this had to be a cut scene as i didn't remember ever seeing it. Lost lucidity at this point and mama licketisplit was a unicorn and saved baby sweetize belle from falling over the smooze waterfall.

2nd dream and 3rd dream, 06.13 am.

I'm not 100% sure i had 2 seperate dreams, or if i sreamed about a WILD or if I had a real One. Point is, i went lucid.

I'm in a computer room with Agnes and her (ex IRL) boyfriend. He's gaming, playing zelda on pc. Something about the creatures being real.

I'm in my bed again, i can see the color swirls that usually precede hypnogogic hallucinations and unlike usually, i'm apparently far gone already, as i can feel my body being paralized. I panic, try to call for help but nothing happens. I calm down. Apparently there's nothing i can do, so I just brace myself for the ride. Apparently I'm having a WILD.

Let the hallucinations come over me, now recognising them for what they are and knowing what they lead to, check my hand when i woke up and my right hand has toes for fingers. 6 of them XD so i clap to myself a few times to channel the initial excitement.

I walk out my bedroom door where my friend Nicole is, and apparently we have a dog too. And we're on ground level rather than first, where my appartment is IRL. ..i was actually wishing for someone else but he, again, did not appear.

I tell them i'm dreaming, but they just ignore me. I touch the window and it just gives way, as if it was ice rather than glass. I call for their attention and push my whole finger through. They're still ignoring it, so I pull a trail down with my finger through the glass.

We go outside outside with another friend (pedro) and Pablo, bartender at my favourite pub and apparently Nicole's boyfriend. As we're walking, i tell Pablo to remind me that I'm actually dreaming so I don't lose my lucidity. We walk past a dog that's barking violently, i tell myself that this is a dream and i can do anything. So I look intensely at the dog and say "sit" calmly but firmly. It sits down, looking up at me in confusion.

Now, things from the previous dream seep in and Nicole turns out to be an animal morph, needing to be rescued from one of the Zelda creatures and there's a lamb and the whole dream gets unstable and i try to teleport Nicole out of there to save her, but I wake up.

Finally I did a WILD, although not intentionally. I enter the hallucinations phase fairly often, but as they're so terrifying I usually do everything I can to wake up from them. Of course, that was before I learned they're the road to a lucid dream! So now, I don't TRY to do a WILD but when it just sort of happens, I'll just let it happen, it wasn't so bad this time.

Dream 1
My friend K and her boyfriend had recorded voice acting for an animated film and i was at the première with them. There were comics about the animation as well (i think. They might have been about something totally different.) ..It was recorded in a trailer, and that's also where the reception was.

Dream 2
I wanted to go swimming at the pool in my old uni city, but a group had booked it. I was suddenly surrounded by the (naked!) group and realised i wasn't gonna get in, not having booked. I was stupid enough to ask the manager if i could join the group but she apologised and said no. So i jumped the story down to the dressing room (which was like a big marble empty oval roomm about 2 storeys high) and made my way back up to the exit.. ..which was a single-person shower.

I started walking all the way back to the train station, but ran into a market with an animal stall which sold rabbits. They did not look happy.

Dream 3
I'm eating out with my parents, but the place is also a hotel and has a tiny gym. So i go to that gym and lie down to do some sit-ups. Turns out there's sheets and blankets and stuff i have to get rid of so i do but i get bored and just walk out again.

I call my friend J, who has recently rzturned from Greece after his gf broke up with him (this is IRL memory), to make sure he's ok. He gets all emotional and touched by my call, and we hang up again.

I take a bus/taxi and thzre's this kid, trying to get rid of his ex. When getting off the bus, i almost forget my spare shoes. The kid tells his ex they'll be fine in time and she runs off with the biggest smile on her face. He walks with me and starts reciting this reeeaally corny poem and even verbally confirms this to me and giggles. It's at this point that i realise he's actually rather cute, for a 15-year-old.

I kinda think this kid represented Dominiq, a sort of recurring character in my dreams over the years. He always has a different exterior but I usually know it's him, either in the dream or after waking up. I love Dominiq.

I'm going to sleep with music on all night (classical channel), to see if it will wake me up whenever I happen to complete a REM cycle. ..thus, helping me remember my dream(s), and possibly allow me to WBTB..

..I haven't been registered for 7 days yet (only 6, boo) so I can't actually have a siggie, apparently. Fair enough, I'll just put it here so I can copy/paste it later

Goals: Fly [] - See Soulmate [] - Talk to DC [] - Find Library of All Knowledge [] - Do a Healing through LD []
LD Count: 0 since joining
"No walls, embrace a world as one, where music will guide us, guitars instead of guns" -HYDE

Colour Code: What? When? How?


1) Breathe through pinched nose. Every time I open my eyes after even dozing off for juuuust a moment.

2) My 4-sided die. At Random moments throughout the day. I'll study it, look at it, feel it, test it by dropping it from one hand to the other. If it's logical and it does not float up or fall through my hand, I know I'm not dreaming.

3) Clock. Whenever I happen to be checking the time, I'll question its reality, look away and check it again to see if it's changed or become illogical.

Ok.. so I'm going to try this "All Day Awareness" technique, as described [here].

..on second thought.. ..SAT (Sporadic Awareness Technique, as described [here]) is probably better, since I work in an office and have to concentrate on my job, rather than wondering whether or not I'm dreaming. It's kinda hard to explain my looking around while gazy-eyed, while I should be working on invoices etc..

I'll just randomly start paying attention to my surroundings, and specifically whether or not there is something unusual about them.

I'm scared of WILDing, so this seems perfect for me ^^ I'm going to try it, starting NOW.

I have this 4-sided die (it looks like a pyramid) that I always carry with me. Dunno why, I just do. So now I'll take it out randomly during the day and really study it, feeling its edges, feeling its pointy ends, appreciating its colour..

It also serves as a reality check. I simply wonder "hey I wonder if I'm dreaming!?" and then drop the die from my one hand into my other. If it does not float up or fall through, I'm not dreaming. Also, it has numbers written on it, rather than dots to count, so if the numbers don't make sense, I'll know I'm dreaming, too.

Soooo I do awareness exercises and reality checks randomly throughout the day ^^

Let's see how that works ^^

Ok so my goals for my next LD (hopefully tonight, using the Finger Induced LD technique)

1) Find my soulmate and tell them I love them and generally have a lovely time together in the dream.
2) Find my Dream Guide.

I know, I know, 1) seems cheesy, silly and downright impossible, right? Wrong. "Impossible" is not a word, it's a challenge. And I leave no challenge unaxepted. Besides, I already know who it is (or rather, who I'd LIKE it to be. ..hehehe. Ahem.) so all I have to do is summon them and tell them

More on this tomorrow morning or right after the dream, wichever comes first

I realised just now that i've actually gone to the hypnogogic hallucinations a lot before, without any intention to do so. They scared the flip out of me because i didn't know what they were, let alone that I was soooooo close to a WILD..

So next time I'll just try and remember what they are and to just let them be

But this lead me to wonder: if I'd just let let them flow without freaking out, would I have gone into a WILD every time? Because I get to that point pretty much every single night. ......