lucid

I just took a 3 hrs nap. I had dreams but I don't remember anything about them. I had a lucid, but it was short and plain like all the others. In the dream, I realized that I could be dreaming so I did some RCs. I pushed my finger through, and it went through. I pushed it further to see if my finger would go through my hand but it didn't. I pinched my nose and took a breath. I wanted to say "stabilize lucidity" but I couldn't speak. I noticed today that I couldn't even speak or open my mouth in my lucids. My eyes were fine but then I started to have to blink. I blinked once or twice and it ended. I didn't even remember having a lucid till I do RCs in real life.

I woke up trying to remember anything at all. It hit me that I had lucids, but I wasn't really sure about them. I became lucid by performing RCs. I tried to make p.w. appear by waving my arm in front of me starting from left to right. She did appear, and I kissed her. This lucid was much more stable and lasted a bit longer than previous ones. I slipped back in to the dream, then lucid, then slip back, for at least 3 times. I remember trying to fly once, but I ended up just floating after jumping. After remembering the lucids, I wasn't really sure if I dreamed of being lucid or if I was actually lucid cause I was really surprised of what I did. I didn't think I would "want" to see her after not dreaming of her for so long and that's why I think I was dreaming of being lucid...

I was in my bed and became lucid. I pinched my nose and knew immediately that it was a dream. I spent the whole dream laying there trying not to let my eyes close.

It was night time and I was coming out of my house to go to a bedroom outside. I got in to the room and didn't turn on the light. I could see that my blanket was missing from the bed. I remembered that it was in the house, on the sofa. I went back outside and saw my neighbor in her sleeping gown at my front door. I looked away and see the sun rising already. She came in with me and flipped these two switches. I was alone in the house again and didn't know if I should go to sleep or not since it was almost 8.

*Non-Lucid*Lucid*

I was mining in dirt, Minecraft style. -- I was in a building then I became lucid. I tried to remain lucid by not blinking (how I usually wake up) but I still blinked once. I lost the lucid moment after a while forgetting what to do.

I was making 2 sandwiches with toasted breads. My mom asked if she the bread will taste better if she turn the dial of the toaster to the right. I told her that it will burn instead. I put hams on each sandwich. I prepared some avocado, I sliced some in to my brother's sandwich. I forgot if I put some in mine yet. I tried to remember if prepared an avocado or a half for each of us. Surprised that I couldn't remember at all.

09/30/2012
10PM-10AM

*Lucid*

I got at least 3 lucid moments last night but lost it before I could do anything. The first one that I was in, it was really blurry and fading away so I tried to say "Stabilize lucidity" but I couldn't even move my mouth without trying really hard. I woke up but I was only then slowly fading back to reality, I think I could've go back if I focused.

09/23/2012
10PM-1AM
3AM-10AM

*Non-Lucid*Lucid*

I was in another dream when I became lucid and when I open my eyes again, I was in my bed looking at the ceiling. I know that I'm still lucid so I tried getting up. It took a lot of effort to simply sit up because my limbs were really heavy. I also had another problem, I keep on wanting to close my eyes. (In past lucid dreams, whenever I close my eyes, it means I will wake up so I didn't want that.) I was laying in bed again and since I couldn't move, I tried to summon PW here. It didn't work but I was out of my bed. I walked to the door and imagined Tokyo to be on the other side, but it was just the familiar hallway when I opened the door. Maybe it didn't work cause I didn't completely imagine the scene? I imagined PW's house, when I opened the door it's like her house but not really... This whole dream, I tried to keep my eyes open and I'm surprised that I didn't wake up earlier on.

09/14/2012
12AM-7AM, 8:30AM-11:30AM

*Non-Lucid*Lucid*

I was in a school for my first day of class. I realized I was lucid, pinched my nose and watched my hand as I poke my finger through palm. I observed a brick wall. I woke up.

09/10/2012
12AM-10AM

*Non-Lucid*Lucid*

I was in Trader Joe's with my mom, apparently I could get whatever I want for my birthday. I couldn't decide and she was patiently walking around with me, which was strange because she's usually impatient. I ended up wondering what I should get for my friend PW (it's not even her birthday for a while). I see a pile of Spongebob color book, and special crayons. I looked through some of them thinking that they are different each. I flipped to the first page on one, and it was Spongebob without his ties, collar, and belt. I wanted to color a book and give it to PW as a gift. I then remembered that she's in NY so I will have to mail it to her. I wondered if I could get it to her on time if I finish coloring it today. I see my school's Chamber group from last year, they were in the art supply section. I walked the aisles trying to find a gift. I ended up in the art supply section, I see drawing papers but I couldn't draw that much. I decided that I could draw in my sketchbook and just take the page out. I started walking, and I was behind this girl I see in school. She was wearing red jeans/tights, a red top, a reddish brown cardigan, and brown boots. I thought that she was wearing a lot of reds. I passed the Chamber group again and they were watching a person tattoo a tiny black dog. I see my dad, he was just getting his tattoo finished on his left forearm. I got next to him and the tattoo artist punctured the tips of my middle and ring fingers. It was done as an extension to my tattoo, they were piercings that look like snake fangs. I didn't think my tattoo would expand out to my hand, I didn't know I was getting a tattoo! It's as if my dad's tattoo transferred on to my arm. The tattoo artist punctured my index finger, the piercing was an ancient Chinese coin, it sits on top of my finger. I was going to comment that he poked my fingers so fast that I didn't even feel much pain. My dad got a helix piercing on his right ear. I asked that artist how much the total was twice because I couldn't hear him clearly. My dad asked him if he counted the helix piercing. The guy instantly gave him a helix... again. It was rubic cube pieces forming a ring around his ear. I turned around and my dad showed me the total on a piece of paper, it was a thousand something. He showed it to me quickly cause he's afraid my mom would see it. I woke up still feeling the pain of my index.

I was at the mall, walking with PW. We went in to a store cause it looked pretty interesting from the outside. We got in and it transformed in to a tea store. We walked back out and continued. I wondered why can't I just make this lucid, and the lucid "feeling" rushed over me. I pinched my nose and floated upward and I got back down. We walked and we stood next to a stall. She was bending and looking at the items. I wanted to kiss her but I'll have to bend down too. I pulled her to the side and kissed her. We continued walking and I walked up to the roof of the building.

09/09/2012
1AM-9AM

*Non-Lucid*Lucid*

I was in a night club with my mom and brother. I saw a guy at the entrance and I circled back to him after ditching my family near the bathroom.

A cat jumped up to me and I became lucid. I watched my hands as I do RC (cause I never really look before), I could feel my finger going through my palm. A cat was playing with my hands. I was at a modern house, I was going to pick up the stones on the ground to observe it but I woke up.

Every time I go back to sleep, a thought will trigger me to become lucid but I don't remember what it was.

08/30/2012
12AM-9AM

*Non-Lucid*Lucid*

(I woke up at 8, couldn't remember if I had any dreams so I went back to sleep.) I was at the mall with AA and met up with PW. Somehow AA disappeared and AT joined us. PW talked about getting face cleanser while we were walking and I ignored her the whole way. AT disappeared and it was just me and PW, we were silent and it was awkward. Music started playing somehow, to lessen the awkwardness? We waited at an elevator, the floor was shaking due to it. I decided to just stop being silly and told her that I hate it when some elevators do that, shaking the whole floor. I said it like it's normal for elevators to do that. The door open, the elevator was tiny and there were two man inside filming. PW hesitated to get in so I dragged her in with me. We squeezed to the left of the elevator. The camera guy was filming the man on his left with a video camera. The man had his palm pushed against my face. PW and I giggled at first but I tried my best to act normal, she continued so I elbowed her. She started talking to me so I shushed her. We got off the elevator and walked out to the parking lot. People were running to the right or back inside the building. I was going to run away with PW but instead I jumped up to the roof of a car, all the while wondering what the hell am I doing. I was then blown away pretty high and far by an explosion. I was falling now and thought about the pain of landing. I was falling really slowly and my body was light. I hanged on to the edge of a roof, and realized things were surreal starting from the parking lot. There's a bring yellow sign on the building across from me, I keep on looking back to it. I pinched my nose and took a really deep breath. I proceeded to feel the cement roof, I smelled my hand (dusty from roof, flowery from lotion store) and I tried to take in the details of the roof but it was too fuzzy. I blinked and wanted to say "stabilize lucidity", I woke up opening my eyes.

(I tried getting back in to the dream) Fragments: sitting on the street with a bunch of people, lady started talking to me, authorities asked it were alright from the earthquake, whatever happen was not like it. -- I was driving and I pulled up to the curb cause there was an incoming firetruck. -- I got a missed call from my mom, I probably didn't call back.

08/17/2012
1AM-9AM

I didn't do MILD last night, I went straight to sleep. I woke up 5 hrs later and I was gonna get out of bed but didn't want to miss my REM sleep. I didn't use any induction technique. I was in a dream and got lucid, I don't remember the dream, I just remember doing RCs. I couldn't push my finger through my palm so I pinched my nose, I had to take a really deep breath to confirm that I'm lucid. I kinda had a plan of what I want to do when I'm lucid but I didn't think of it at all in the dream. I thought I could try the TOTM but I couldn't remember what it was. I did RCs again with the same results. I didn't do anything cause I don't know what to do. I did RCs again but they didn't work this time. I don't know if I woke up or continued dreaming.

08/07/2012
3AM-11AM

* Non-Lucid * Lucid *

I was with A.A., her sister and mother in a car going to A.A.'s college meeting. On the way, I saw a road sign that said "Colombia". During the ride, her sister got a call from her boyfriend and they chatted really briefly. We started going upward on a mountain, we kept circling on the same spot really fast. (Imagine the teacups from Merry Go Rounds). --- We got to the place, it was really plain and tiny, it was more like a store. On the window was a sign that said the meeting was over in red. The family went in anyway, while I waited outside. --- I was hanging out with the Avengers, Loki with ill fitting BBC Sherlock clothes, and the 3 from Supernatural outside. Castiel had his back to me, I think I went up and poked him or something. We all laughed and had fun. I couldn't stop laughing, someone told me to defend him and I said "I shouldn't come in" as in I shouldn't get involved. Someone mentioned banana and some other danced around.

I was with an acquaintance, A.B. We were at an outdoor shooting game. We were both under an open shelter with other people as a team. I moved to the opposite side of the shelter so that I could see the front better. As soon as I got to the other side, the leader announced that he's splitting the opposite sides as enemies. --- I followed A.B. toward a glass door that leads us outside. He went out but I stayed in. He came back after a moment wearing a red t-shirt and cap. I followed him outside in to the forest. I continued walking and became lucid. I didn't do RCs but I had a strong feeling that it is a dream. I did the 5 senses activity to stabilize myself, I remembered licking my thumb because I didn't want to taste anything there. I told myself to feel his arm but I don't remember if I acted on it. (A.B. was no longer there.) I was still on the pathway but I was surrounded by brick buildings that looked very familiar to my middle school. I saw a creature in front of me, it was like a llama with giraffe patterns. I followed it cause why the hell not. I saw another creature and it was a lion with really blonde highlight in its mane. I walked back out to the pathway. I observed my left hand and while I did that, I thought to myself that I shouldn't do that yet since nothing's fuzzy or fading. It went black and I woke up.

I was at a gathering with my friends. I walked away and went to a corner near the pool. It was busy, there were people everywhere. I sat there by myself and took small bites of my PB&J sandwich. A few of my friends came to check on me and I ignored them. H.W. told P.W. that I like her. P.W. got really excited and asked "really!?" and said that we should talk. I got really angry at H.W. inside cause how did she know and why would she say it out like that. Everyone looked like they already knew I like P.W.

I stepped on my break cause it was red light, it took a lot of effort then I realized that I was driving really fast locally. When my car came to a stop, I was right next to a police car. It seemed like he didn't notice how fast I was going. --- I went on the freeway with a lot of confidence and I didn't even care if anyone's behind me. I was reckless.

07/27/2012
1AM - 11AM