lucid

Even though I am lazy as hell right now, lucids still need to be recorded.

I am in a dessert with 3 friends. I see a picture of us taken from a satellite, we are standing next to a really big drawn circle. Haruhi starts speaking to me with telepathy, and says something like "Nice work, don't you agree?" I say "I'll be right there" and start flying to her location. While flying, I pass a town, it looks very vivid. I embrace Haruhi from behind, and say something like this: "You can create worlds, right? Would you be able to create a world with a girl I would be able to love?" She nods. "Would you be able to create a world, where the girl would actually love me back?" She nods. "Would you be able to create a world, where the girl really would love me back, where it isn't just an illusion to me?" I don't get an answer.

I had a long dream tonight, and I was lucid in it too.

I am in a room in school, alone. It is a common room, with a television and lots of books on shelves in it. I take off my heavy clothes and sit down on the sofa, put a blanket on me and start watching TV. First there is a commercial about Karstadt and FR, he acts as if he was very famous. He has long, black hair. Then there is a program about wrestling, but the fighters are jumping around on a trampolin-like field, and trying to hit each other. I start wondering about my situation, and I decide to stop watching TV, put my clothes back on and tidy up the room, I would be in trouble if someone saw me like this. Inthe process of tiding up, a few of my old friends from school (I think it were JS and KD) came in and told me that the room is clean enough now. A bit later, PT comes in and starts to change his clothes. I see him naked, and notice that he has a second pair of genitals placed in the middle of his chest. First I am shocked by the weirdness of this. Then, I start thinking: "Well, he would be able to satisfy two women at the same time like this. But wait, it wouldn't be possible to shake his chest like a waist, so his ability is kinda limited. But what if he lies down on the ground?..." PT has finished changing clothes already, and settles down in the room. I go outside and meet my brother, I ask him about PT's situation. He tells me that it is a rare kind of cancer, but it isn't harmful. I walk back to the room, and ask PT about the disease. He says I should not worry about it.
I say he shoudn't worry about it either, because we are in a dream. He gets what I am saying, but cannot quite believe it. I try a Kamehameha, but it doesn't work. Then I try to demonstrate my Ganondorf-style hovering, but it doesn't work either. The dream is very vivid. I try to push my left index finder through my right palm, but feel like waking up in the process.
PT and my wake up in the common room. It has too beds now, but it is still the same room in school. I ask him if he was in the dream with me. He says yes, but adds that he cannot remember anything, he only has the general feeling that something happened. My excitementfalls a bit, because I was about to tell him that this proves shared dreaming. We decide to go back to sleep.
I feel that I am in the same dream again. PT is with me. We are still in the room, it is a bit brighter now because sunlight is entering through the windows. The dream is even more vivid, the books on the shelves all have diferent colors, most of them are blue, green or red. A big table is in the middle of the room, NG and JT are sitting on chairs beside it. But first I talk to PT: "We are back." He responds "Suddenly I remember everything." I take a seat at the table and start talking to the two girls. "This is a dream" I say, NG is shocked at first and starts wondering, JT is kinda indifferent to it. I try to prove it to them by pushing my left index finger through the table, but I fail at first. After pushing it succesfully through my palm, I try again and manage to do it with some effort. The area where my finger enters the table is now liquid, but the table manages to hold its shape. I can move my finger around and draw lines, and cause waves. JT snaps and yells "Wow, look what he's doing!" I draw a smile in front of NG, which throws her out of thoughts too. "Everyone knows now" is my thought, and I leave them alone. I am amazed by the vividness of the dream, and even more amazed by the length. I realize that the awakening with PT was a dream too. I wonder what time it is in real life, I remember when I woke up last. My mistake, I feel the sensation of being in bed and feel like waking up.
Me and PT wake up again in the room. Now PT is really uptight and takes out his laptop. He checks the internet connection, he has none. I get his flow of thoughts, he thinks that this shared dreaming needs a medium which is able to connect on long distances. "Shared dreaming doesn't work like that, don't bother investigating."

Never was lucid this long, felt like 20 minutes. The whole dream felt like it was an hour, and I know there is more I don't remember before the TV part. I still cannot remember a single word that was said, only the general idea of the sentence. Also, it is really hard to ignore physical laws when the dream is too vivid and the setting is too normal.

I had a very good sleep today, and will try to write down everything I remember.

Somehow, I decided to ride a long way on my bike. My friends tell me that there is no way that I can manage such a long distance in 3 hours, but I try it anyway. But it is getting dark, and in a foredt I meet a guy with a flashlight. He offers me a deal, I would get the flashlight, and then I would be indebted to him in some way. I hesitated, but made the deal.

I am watching a video on youtube, apparently from Sunrise Avenue. At the middle of the video I somehow feel that at the same time I am lying in bed, and I feel something touching me. I can't make out the lyrics. Next thing I know is that I wake up beside a woman I barely know, I think we had sex. But I wake up with this empty feeling, as if we wouldn't even care for each other.

I wake up, and think about how I read a manga yesterday which involved cheating.

I am watching the same video on youtube again, and the same thing happens. At the same time I am lying in my bed, and something is touching me. But this time, I understand a small part of the lyrics, something like "grab hold of her fast" or "grab my hand". I instantly reach for the thing touching me, it is a hand, I pull it to me. I wake up beside another woman, in a big bed, and everything feels right. She seems to be my girlfriend, my destined person.

I wake up in a big bed beside my brother, we are in our old appartment. I tell my brother "I am dreaming", I try to make it clear to him. I fly to the window, like a ghost I get through the curtains, but I stop halfway. I get back, and want to show my brother how I am flying. At first, I try to hard, but then I begin to hover around the room, in a standing pose with my arms crossed. Yeah, exactly like Ganondorf does in Zelda-games. My brother and I are amazed, but we are too loud, my mother comes in, yelling at me. I drop to the ground.

I wake up in the same room again, and don't want to make too much noise, so I try to tiptoe to the door and close it, but fail. My mother comes in again.

I am in a school building, various people are beside me, and discuss something. They decide to discuss it in a big room nearby, and the floor gets empty.I try to concentrate on my hands, the texture, the feeling. I decide that I want to try some fire bending, but at first, only a teacup appears in my hands. I notice my brother sitting on a bench, and I try to shoot fire at him with my hands. Nothing of the sort happens, but I notice that a faint light is on my brother's face, when I aim at him with my palm. I think "Maybe fire doesn't suit me", so I try to shoot light at him with my palm. I raise my arm and form a claw with my hand, aiming at him. a white light appears on his face, the shape is blurry, and kinda like a square. Me brother says "W-What the...", I concentrate even more on my hand, suddenly the light gets very bright; the shape is now round, and covering his whole face. Now I annoyed him, he gets up and attacks me.

My father, brother and I are entering a bus. We arrive at our highschool, and enter a big room. Teachers and spectators are in the room, I think that my brother has an oral exam, and my father and me were invited to watch. I take a seat near the front, but I am blocking the view for others, so the seats are rearranged. MK, a girl from my former class, gets annoyed that I take a seat so close to her. So I get away, and she is complaining again. I get back to her, now we are arguing. But she always has a good and slightly annoying response, so I start giving her a long look in the eyes, with a smile on my face. She looks into my eyes too, I can see how lively her eyes are, and that she is confused by my action. I say "Du machst mich fertig, M" (Can't find a good english translation, sorry). She blushes and looks away. Later, I ask what subject my brother will be performing. MK says that it is Informatics, but also the game "Zelda - Majoras Mask". In front of the class, someone is playing this game now, link is in his goron form, and with a goron ally, he fights some monsters using fire. Link is close to dying, but he takes some potions and continues. I and some other spectators yell "Noob!" at the player. Time passes again, everyone took out their sleeping bags and prepares to sleep in the big classroom. MK and me are lying next to each other. I am having a dream in which I am Link, and try to mount my horse epona, but somehow it doesn't work. I wake up, still beside MK, and she says that I should stop. I don't know what is going on, but maybe I did some weird things while sleeping, so I leave it at that and try to sleep again. But this time, MK is the first one to sleep in, and starts to make weird movements. Suddenly, her feet land in my face, and try to open my mouth. But I am too sleepy to do anything, so I endure it. Other people are beginning to talk about something, MK wakes up and yells at them. Looks like she didn't notice what she was doing in her sleep. The people ask about a party. MK tells them that after the oral exams there will be a party with food, and karaoke, and some other fancy things.

I think that my recall isn't that bad anymore, but I am frustrated by the lack of conversation in my dreams. But maybe I am not good at recalling conversations, I should work on this.

Right now, I am really being a lazy ass and not writing down my dreams. But today I had a lucid, so I make an exception.

I realize that I am dreaming, and I begin to fly upwards. I decide to fly so high, until I get behind the clouds and can see the sun. I get higher and higher, now piercing the clouds. Finally, I reach the blue sky, and the sun. The clouds vanished, I can see the ground too. A big forest, trees everywhere. I decide to fly into a direction, but start dropping, because flying vertically is quite hard to me. But I decided to see what it is like to drop from here. At the last moments I get scared and somehow try to lower my speed.

I wake up in a weird position, sitting and trying to push the bed away from me. Now that I about it, this was certainly a FA.

I had 5 dreams today I think, but I can only remember 4. After 5 days of sleep deprivation, the dreams were great.

I enter a flat with 3 people, I don't know them. We wake up two women, they are lying in bed, one on top of the other. They both have brown hair, the lower one long, the upper shorter hair. They look incredibely beautiful, and seem to are naked under the blanket. At first, everyone stares at them, then the other 3 people begin to discuss something. This annoys the women, nad they try to get the attention back. First, they are kissing. They got my attention now, but the others are not even noticing what is going on. The women are even more upset, then the one with long hair goes even further and drwas the blanket down, one breast is visible. Still no reaction from the others. The short-haired one starts to caress and lick the breast, nothing happens. They finally give up.
The longhaired girl is now showering, the other one is sitting with me on a coach and we have a conversation. She is wearing a white t-shirt and shorts, because she will take a shower soon too. We talk about trading card games. The longhaired one finished her shower, the other hops in. I need to go to the toilet, but the door is locked. The longhaired one shows me an alternative way to get in, there a hole in the wall, but I decide not to disturb the one showering.

My brother is trying to convince me in playing World of Warcraft again (as he always tries IRL), so I run around with a gnome and die. We look up what new features will be updated with the next addon, and see that there will be 2 new classes. Like any WoW-player would, my brother freaks out, and pushes me to look for more information. I find sketches of the talent trees available, and we look into it. The first class is specializing in Dagger-like weapons, and amplifies their damage by using some magic force related to animals. The second class is somewhat an assasin, but one talent tree stands out, because its sole purpose is to push the 2-hand-sword damage. I mention that this could mean insane crit-potential, then I look at the last talent. It is an attack where the user spins around, does damage to everyone near him and disarms them too. Quite powerful against melees.

Me and my brother are watching television, a series starts and I say: "Hey, it's invader Zim!", and our attention rises. The show starts, and I feel like I am really in the story. The first scene is in a dark room, a small fire is in there, and an old sorcerer is reading out loud from a book. He looks very sad to me. The rival to Zim appears, this kid from school with glasses and black hair. He threatens him to hand over the book, and tells him that he will come back to kill him, because he has too much knowledge. The sorcerer is rather oblivious to it, he is constantly worrying about something. The rival leaves with the book.
I am now part of the story, I gather a team of 5 people and try to get the book back from him. We follow him into a dark forest, mist is all around us. A woman of our team gets seperated from us (she reminds me of Kallen in Code Geass), and gets attacked by ghostlike beings. She gets bitten and becomes half monster. I run after her, but she yells that she is okay and will manage it somehow, and then vanishes with the ghosts into the mist. We locate the rival, and a few of my team start an attack, the rest waits. After a while, the woman comes back, she is human again. She is holding frogs in her hands, saying that the rivals magic power is too strong. The frogs are our teammates, they only turn back to human form very slowly, so we decide to regroup and leave.
We are in a room, and analyzing the rivals powers. The woman has taken sound recordings, so I go to the computer and look for a program on google. I try to type the right thing, but I fail 3 times."I know why it isn't working, this is a dream." I say to a teammate who was looking over my shoulder. I remember what I wanted to do, so I go to the computer again and try to play the song "Colony of birchmen" by Mastodon, but instead I hear something DaftPunk-like. Then I try to make the dream more vivd by clapping my hands, but the dream fades.

I clearly remember the transmission from the dream to reality, I am lying in my bed on my left side. I think "this is exactly the right time to try DEILD", so I do not move and try to do the techniques described in a book. Observing images is not working, so I listen to the sound in my head. Then I decide to roll out of my body, but instead, my body moves.
Still, it was my dream body, I succesfully entered the phase. I roll out of bed, and drop to the ground. Everything feels real, I wonder if I am really dreaming. My room is dimly lit, I sit on the ground and wonder why my ghost has not left my body. I try to drag my soul; my left arm is drawing on my right fingertips. I am partly succesful, the spirit really seems to come out, but it is elastic, like a rubber glove. Then I think: "This is stupid, how a I supposed to draw out my soul with my body?" so I stop and leave my room, kinda still wondering if I am dreaming. I enter the room of my brother, he is sitting at his copmuter and his hands move as if he is playing a game, but instead of his monitor, he is looknig at a big black box, somehow looks like a big monitor from behind. I am amused by this and tell my brother that I am in the phase.

...yeah. It was awesome.

My dreams were all blurry today and yesterday, but one thing I remember clearly. I was lying in my bed, trying to sleep a little longer, when I noticed that I suddenly had real vivid imagination. I saw a concrete world, my mother was arguing over a balkony with someone. I thought then, maybe I should try to enter that image.
Me and my bed are now in the imagined scene. I can't move, I try to imagine a white "Ah" inside me. No difference to actual visualisation occurres. But then, I feel strong vibrations through my body, I am almost shaking.
I wake up, shaking in a bed, my mother and a doctor are looking after me. I think that I am experimenting on lucid dreams with special medication, that is supplements. I try to WILD again...

And then I really wake up. I don't know if this was WILD, because my WILDs usually only work when I try it in a dream...

I had a lucid dream again, I can't believe it.
My mother wakes me up by shifting the curtains, it is very bright outside. It is so bright I cannot keep my eyes closed. My brother has started his computer and is playing loud music now, I stand up and get angry. The house has features of my current and old home. I talk to my mother about something. Next thing I know is that we are at a night festival. There are men performing on a stage, they are naked but colored in paint. They do something like free dance. It is very interesting. After the show is over, three giants appear, and dance. Two of them are dancing together, the other one seems lonely, and dances alone. He soon leaves again. It is time for the final part now. Somehow I know what it is: A golden ring will appear on the field, and the crowd will look for it. The one who finds it is then chased by the others in a cheerful manner. Suddenly, a big frog is speaking: "It is the 25th of the month, full moon, and a meteor will appear at the sky tonight. Could it be...?" I see the full moon, there are no clouds at the sky. And then the meteor, crashes down before me, the golden ring lands before my feet. I know now that I am dreaming. I pick up the ring, and start to walk in the direction of the moon. OR is with me now, he notices that I have the ring, and asks me how I found it. I say "because it is a dream" I throw the ring to him, he fails to catch it, but reflects it back to me with some stupid movement. I kick the ring upwards so it won't reach the ground, and then catch it, thinking "things like this are possible in a dream, huh". Now the crowd approaches me, we sit on the ground. I explain to various people that we are in a dream, and demonstrate it by stretching the ring like a rubber strap. The ring has a weird consistence now, something like very viscuos liquid. I ask a person who looks like a politician what he would do if this would be a dream and he could do what he wants. He walks away, saying that he doesn't believe in things like that.

I am at a beach with my brother and a man. We are disguised as apes( or are apes), and my brother is carrying a big piece of meat, or adead animal. As we wander across the beach, we see other apes in our way, they are far more. I am concerned about our meat, so I advice my brother and the man to be careful. We try to avoid the other apes, and soon decide to travel along the dike on the right. It is more a wall than a dike. I look at the other side, there are men with their pets, apparently only big cats like tigers, pumas, and so on. Later on, there is a way connecting the beach and the field, and we get scared of the big cats. I wonder what to do (meanwhile, we aren't apes anymore). After a while thinking how to aproach a curious tiger, I see that my brother wlked ahead carelessly, but I think that this is the right way, so I follow him.
I am alone now, on my way to town. I get to an area left to the way, and wonder what is here. I look back and get a grasp of how I got here, and then think I should get away fast. Too late, in the trees above me appears a woman in a weird device, she looks (or feels) asian, and says: "run away". I do so, but men notice me and run after me. I get to town, and think that they won't get me here because I know the shortcuts. I run to my house (not IRL), go to my room, and settle on my loft bed. Soon the men with their boss arrive in my room, and try to intimidate me. The boss asks me where the codes are. I suddenly get angry and shout that I don't have any codes. I go further and acuse them of breaking in my house, nad ask them to leave immediately, and on top of that, they have to buy me corn flakes for apology. The boss seems surprised by my ability to grasp the situation, and leaves grinding his teeth "Cornflakes...". Our house seems like a kindergarden, I join a few kids playing a boardgame with characters from sesam street. Later, I go around town, and notice the boss having a conversation with some nobelman. They make a plan to lure in my mother (not IRL, she looks like my old polish teacher). The boss leaves, the nobleman starts an evil laugh. I pack his throat with my left arm interrupting him, and threathen him to never again even think about something like that. I run back to my house, and see how the boss is leaving with my mother. I grasp the situation, it looks like he told her that I am in danger and she has to come with him. I run to them and push him away, saying to my mother that I am okay. She is reluctant, but I tell her she should consider how I would feel if she offers herself to save me.

I have nice recall lately, maybe it is because I started the practice of natural light.

I remember 4 dreams tonight, in the right order.

In the first one, I was lucid. I was in a room with SI and my brother, I remember thinking that everything was really vivid. I told SI : "Remember the number 1!" He nodded, then I asked my brother "remember the number 26,5!" He said "no way, that's too hard." Now I notice a blue fluid on the ground, it was completely blue. But it behaved like water at the beach, it had waves and so on. I decided to get down and feel it, it felt wet on my hand, and as I laid down in it, I felt the waves caress me. I got up again, and looked at my right hand. I saw 7 fingers, then I wondered how many fingers I could have on one hand. I got up to 12, with 2 thumbs on it. Sadly, I didn't try to move them individually, that would be a crazy feeling. Then I got back to SI and asked him "Do you remember?" He thought a bit, and said "Yes, one!" The dream faded after this.

Now I know for sure that DCs have a short-term memory. I have to look for SI in another dream again.

At night, I was standing in front of a big building, together with Mr. Smith from Matrix. The building was about to blow up, but the only thing that happened was a big lightflash coming out the windows. Mr. Smith says that's weird, takes his gun and goes in. I follow him, taking my own gun. We tiptoe through the corridors, giving each other cover. I woke up, my family was getting ready for school/work.

At night, I was one of two bodyguards of misaki (I think the show is called railgun or something). We are invited at a village, and misaki decides to take a walk around the village. After a while, we notice that men are following us. So we decide to run, in a formation. Misaki say something like "where are the other two when I need them!?" The followers get near us, they have horses. We run very fast, but the horses are a bit faster. Our formation can't be maintained at this speed anymore, me and the other bodyguard decide to face the followers, giving misaki a chance to flee. We can stop 2 horsemen, but one got through. I wake up.

It is summertime in the morning, our family is doing vacation somewhere near the baltic sea. I get on my bike and ride to the city. On my way, I meet MZ, he has long hair now. I shake his hand while driving, he hits my back friendly with his other hand. He had tools with him, looked like he was working there. I think about how many people from my highschool do live here now. I meet some people playing outside, incuding MM and 13 (Yes, Dr. House). I don't know why, but I strip my clothes off, I only had two boxers and a t-shirt on. Then I enter a shop nearby, I am looking for food. I notice the shopkeeper, he was old and only staring in one direction, he kinda looked dead already. I found the food, but lost interest in it, and got out again. Suddenly, I feel ashamed for being naked, so I walk back to my clothes and dress one of my boxers. In the process, MM snatches away my t-shirt, and 13 makes a weird comment about me. Then MM throws my t-shirt against the wall,and in fell down into some bushes. We both arrive at them at the same time, But we only find money and parts of what I think would be inside a gun, including munition. MM says " you can't touch it!" I think that I am still a soldier, so I would be suited best to take it. Then I said: "You get the money, and I get the gunparts, ok?" She agrees, but I also trick her, not giving her all the money lying on the ground. The dream ends.

First part of my sleep I had 2 dreams, one about a videogame which looked like Lara Croft in a Zelda game. It had cool animations concerning the world map. The other dream was about me looking OnePiece with my brother, but can't remember well anymore. Then I had a FA in which I managed to separate my astral arm from the real one, light and sound was coming from the cut of surface. But my body drew the soul back in.

Then I woke up, drank a little water and gone back to sleep, and then it happened.

I had like 15 FAs in a row, don't even know if it was a DEILD chain or only FAs.
The first three FAs were very similar, I was in my bed and trying to get up, but somehow couldn't. My roommate was doing something in our room.
The next one was in my old house, I am with my family. I wander around, talk with my brother, and get lucid. My brother yells out to my Mother in joy "He got lucid, and we didn't even do a thing!" (I am very happy about this, because I am thinking about asking DCs to make me lucid next time). I push my brother away and ask my mother "Do you know where my Traumguide is?" My brother laughs at me because I mixed up german und english here, I correct myself, saying it again with the english term in a german sentence. But I can't get an answer. I wake up in my room again, it was an FA like the first three ones. Then I woke up again in my room, but in another bed. Not my roommate, but DS and FH are in my room on the other beds, and talking about New York again. I look out the window, there is a carussel, rotating really fast, and an old auiantance of mine is in there. I wonder what's going on, then I wake up in my room again. Can't move, but notice that I somehow get hard. Wake up again, my superior is with me, wants to do some manual labor in my room. I get up and think that I don't want this right now, I try to make him disappear and switch him with a beautiful girl, remembering the task of the month. But somehow I can't decide or visualize one. Next I wake up at the beach, in an anime-world, and there's a wet t-shirt contest in the middle of the night.

I suceeded at a long-term goal, 2 LDs in a month!

I had many dreams tonight, but don't remember them very well, so I'll only write down the lucid one.

I am in a classroom in my old school, with one of my former teachers and a girl. After a conversation, I want to leave the room, but I can find no door. I say to the teacher: "Why there is no door?" He answers "Strange, there was one in here I guess." I looked around again and then found the door, and say "now there is a door, wtf." I turn to my teacher and ask him grinning "This is a dream, right?". He said "Correct!", it remembers me of the way he was acting when I still was in school. So I asked him and the girl "You are both dream characters, right?" They nodded, so I asked where to find my dream guide. The teacher said: "I don't know where he is, but why don't you try to teleport to him?" I never did teleporting before, not mentioning even to a place I don't know. But I tried, so I moved to the door, and said to me that behind this door there would be the place where my dream guide is. I open the door, just to see I am still in school, but outside there was a bay, and palm trees, reminds me how I think it looks like on Hawaii. I said "D'oh, almost did it!", walked outside and turned the rest of the surroundings matching to the bay. Wanderring around a bit, I saw a path going up a mountain, it looked important, but I first decided to go into the water and sense it. Then I tried to follow the path, but I woke up before reaching it.

Don't know where I got this from, but somehow I have the name of my dream guide on my mind, something like "Kumba-malaya-Sha".