Sweedeh

Again, I've been too stressed to dream for quite some time. School and other things have occupied my mind, but a lot of it is gone now, so I'm going to start rebuilding the recall.

I'm aware of two dreams tonight, but I only remember one.

I dreamed I was back in England, and I had decided to go to my old girlfriends house. I went there, and snuck in. I started looking around, and saw my girlfriend walk past a doorway up ahead. I immediately ran out of the house just in time. She didn't see me. I then started walking around in the town, and found a moped that was seemingly thrown away. I picked it up, and guided it back to Staceys house (apparently, we had met now and were on speaking terms) to show her. It was black, and looked like something taken out of a one of those motorcycle shows where a guy jumps over 30 trucks. I left the bike outside the house and went in to talk to her. We went back out, and found someone pushing the bike away. We stopped her, and she told us it actually belonged to some guy named Alexander, and that he was on his way here to pick the bike up. Stacey quickly hid the bike inside the house, and went back out just in time for Alexander to arrive. She then lied to him about having the bike. After this, I woke up.

Had my first lucid experience tonight! fuckyeah! It only lasted for a split second, but I'm 100% sure I was momentarily lucid. I got so excited that I woke myself up, unfortunately. It started as a me waking up, but when I moved it felt like I was dragging my spirit out of my body, like I was splitting myself. So I did a breathing RC, and it worked! So I went from a dream into a false awakening into lucidity. Awesome. It felt like an out-of-body experience.

I also had two dreams exciting, vivid dreams tonight. The first was inspired by Amnesia: The Dark Descent. I was trapped in a room filled with water together with someone. Don't know who it was. We had to defend again oncoming waves of small black creatures that tried to get into the room and kill us. This was done by either barring up the entrances to delay them, or kill them. I remember barricading two of the pipes leading into the room, and that I had a handgun. None of the creatures actually got into the room, but I remember that if I killed them and survived the waves, I got cash that I could use to buy weapons and gear from a CS-styled menu.

The other dream was awesome. I was in an old friend of mines place, Anjelina, with a friend of mine and two friends of hers. We were talking and annoying eachother mildly, when one of her friends got bored and went over to me and my friends and took off her top. Her breasts were a bit malformed, like the nipples were flat, and she said that it was due to some disease. The dream then fastforwarded to me getting a haircut, and anjelina coming with me. She let me drive, for some reason. My friend disappeared from the dream at this point. Once I arrived at the salon, which was located near a soccerfield, Anjelina was gone, and I met a friend of hers there that asked if I was attending the lulapalooza tonight. I said that I'd be at Anjelinas place, yeah, and then kept moving. There were a lot of people there. Once I got into the saloon, I got in there at the same time as a crowd of people. We all raced towards the sole stylist, and I got there first. He sighed, and asked me what I wanted. I apparently had to go do something in the basement here in order to get my haircut, but I don't remember much of it.
I then drove back to Anjelina's place, and hung out there for a while. I got a new phone while I was there, and I remember having trouble moving the SIM-card. I then suddenly became aware that something had been stolen from them. I got in a car with anjelina, and a carchase ensued. We eventually recovered the stolen thing (which I THINK was a genetically manipulated child that was explosive, but I'm not sure) and as I was about to get in the car to drive back, they told me to take another car instead. I opened the door to that car, and saw that it had 3 seats in the front. I somehow knew that Anjelina's two friends would ride with me, and that they wouldn't leave me alone during the drive at all, and I sighed heavily about it.

I dreamed three dreams tonight, two of which I remember.

The first started with me and a friend on a bus. Infront of us was a glass window though, and on the other side were seats angled towards us. There were two girls sitting there. As I was talking with my friend, they started sexually taunting and teasing us. After a while, one of the girls got off the bus and another took her place. She had jet black hair and black colour all over her face. My friend said he knew her. Jessica was her name, I believe. They kept taunting and teasing for a while, and then I was transported a bit further in time with another friend, when we saw what I think was her dead body. I don't relaly remember, but I know that we encountered her again, and he said that he knew her aswell, that he used to eat dinner at her place sometimes, but never really liked her that much. The dream ends after that.

The next dream I find myself walking on the road to a house I used to live in 5 or 6 years ago. To my left were a bunch of houses, but in the field to my right was a bunch of circus people practising their performance. I kept walking by and looking at them, when I siddenly starter percieving them as a threat. I walked home, and met up with some friends. We had apparently decided that it was time we gained some powers, and there were runes that you could somehow inscribe onto your hands or head that gave these powers. I remember wanting the air rune, but someone else had already taken it, so I asked if the holy or darkness runes were taken. Turns out they were free, so I chose the darkness rune. I then decided to use it, even though my friends told me not to. When I used it, a black guitar appeared in my hand. I somehow knew this was a weapon, and as I swung it, a pair of black cylinders folded themselves out from the top of the guitar. After this, the dream ended.

I know there was a third dream, but I don't recall it at the moment.

Last few days I've had a beer or two before bed, so my recall has been poor and as such I've held off on writing journals. But I figured I'd write down the dreams I remember anyway.

I remember one per night, but I'm aware of 2-3 per night.

First is a dream I had where I was hanging out with a friend from old times. We were walking through a forest and talking. It was winter outside. We came upon a machine of sorts, commented on it, and then kept walking. We came upon an old-styled house. A farm of sorts with large fields around it. I remember being about to walk to it, but then I suddenly started flying. I remember it very vividly, the whole feel of it. I see the forest from up above, and the sensation of flying was great. I remember I justified being able to fly due to holding two wings of sorts, one in each hand. It was thanks to these that I was able to fly at all. I then flew over to a more urban area, where I met up with a lot of people from my early years of grade school. People I've not thought about for years and years. It was pretty interesting, they all greeted me as old friends. I spent some time with them, then decided to fly away again to pick some berries of sorts, but changed my mind midway and flew over to some large apartment buildings. After this, I woke up.

Next night I vaguely remember dreaming that I was a guest at some dudes house. I mildly accociated his appearnce with Doctor Stetman from Starcraft 2. I asked him if he had played duke nukem forever yet, and we talked a bit about that for a while. Then I remember the dream transitioning into me being Duke Nukem and shooting at stuff with various weapons and jumping off high buildings without getting hurt.

Tonight I dreamed about coming to a dark hotel with a friend. I remember that we came there for a purpose, but that we had to wait. I figured that while I was waiting, I may aswell earn some money, so I went upstairs to see if there was anyone needing any help. I stumbled upon a guy needing help cashing in debt, so I helped him smash down a door. Once inside, I gathered something up while the dude kept the resident busy. Once done, I was given a 10000 dollar monopoly bill. I went back downstairs and handed it to the bartender, telling him that an old man with a strange velvet hat had given this to me, and told me to talk to him. The bartender got an understanding look on his face and mentioned that the old man was part of some high-society family. He mentioned the name of the family aswell, but I don't remember it. He then gave me 1400 crowns, which had me a bit puzzled. I had figured that 10000 in the old mans currency would've been worth more. I didn't think much more of it at the time, and ordered a drink. The bartender then told me that they were about to host a huge party, and that I should stick around. Everything around me was dimly lit, and there were a lot of tables around. Suddenly, the party started and the place flooded with people. I remember seeing a lot of people from school, and they all urged me to tag along with them. I politely declined, and walked up a few flights of stairs to find a friend of mine. He was sitting with some other people playing some strange game involving pokémon cards. I sat and watched them for a while, but the game itself never made any sense to me. One of the cards was a Charizard. The area around them was concrete grey, and they were sitting on the floor. There were 4 of them, but only 2 i recognized. The whole dream had a bit of an intregue feel to it, as if I was waiting for something specific to happen. After this I woke up.

While waking up in my bed trying to keep the memories of my dream in my head, I dreamed something else, but I never managed to commit the images to my memory and forgot all about it.

Had a dream that I was taking a bus somewhere, and I had some friends taking another bus just infront of me. Then the bus I was on slid off the road and onto a nearby field. It didn't roll or anything, it just slid off. I remember feeling paniced at the time, but it wore off when I realize we were alright. After we arrived at the station and reunited, we went to a library. There we found a piano, and my friend turned out to be a really good piano player (something he's not in real life). We looked through some books, and we discovered they also had games you could lend. I found a stash of old nintendo 64 games, and found an expansion to a zelda game that I had never played. I remember the cover was blue, and that it specifically was an expansion, not a stand alone game. Next thing I remember is being inside the game. There were some puzzles I had to solve, and there was a lot of water. I also met a girl there that I hung out with. I don't know who she was. Most of the women in my dreams tend to be non-specific. Then all of a sudden I wasn't in the game anymore, and I was apparently at this girls house. I remember being outside it first, watching something, but then going inside. She had to go somewhere for a while, and I spent some time with her younger sister. I think we... either looked at different colours on the wall, or painted colours on a wall while waiting for her to come back. That part was really weird. The whole scene upon remembering it feels like it had meaning to it. I don't know why. I don't really remember anything else from that dream anymore. I remembered a lot more details earlier today, but I ended up writing the journal really late, so I forgot most of it. I know I also dreamed something else before that, but I've forgotten it by now.

Tonight I had two long dreams. I woke up after the first one, wrote down some key words to make sure I remember it, and went back to sleep. It's been crazy hot lately, with temperatures in my apartment going up to 27-28 in the evenings, so I'm sleeping without covers on nowdays. It's just too hot.

Anyway, the first dream was essentially my brain creating a new episode of Dr House. I was taken to a prison where I was set to step in for a drug abusing ego-centric doctor who was currently in rehab. I remember making snide remarks about this to someone, but there wasn't anyone there whom I recognize. I don't even remember seeing any faces, just that there were actually people there. Apparently, I was to take care of two patients whom had been making the life of the previous doctor a living hell. I decided to give them some of their own medicine and put my desk outside of their cells and started making constant, annoying noises in order to frustrate them. Eventually we ended up in a shouting match, which I seem to recall winning. Either that, or someone walked in and told us to stop. Not sure of which. I woke up after that.

The second dream started with me arriving somewhere with a bag of alcohol. There was a bottle of bacardi in there, 4 of my favourite ciders and I think there was something to mix the bacardi with aswell, but I'm not sure of that. I'm certain about the ciders and the bacardi, though. Then the dream suddenly transitioned into me being a lion. I don't remember much after that, but I remember that something happened, and that I had to go back somewhere, and passed by the bag of alcohol from before that I had apparently dropped.

Weird, I've been dreaming a lot of dreams lately where I am different things. This is probably the first similarity I've noticed between dreams. Interesting!

Dreamed the kind of dream where you feel like you are watching a movie. The dream was about a girl, an assassin. The enviroment was futuristic, and she had (among other things) a lightsaber of sorts as a weapon. While on a mission, she was hit by something which supposedly ripped away a piece of her soul. The dream then continued to describe her escape from the complex where she was attacked, and how she kept trying to figure out how to "heal" herself. Supposedly, there was someone or something that could help her in a nearby forest, and she went there (apparently now with friends). Along the way she stopped by some kind of shop, but I don't remember what was inside it. I think I woke up after this. Obviously, there were a lot more details along the way. I remember seeing a girl sneak into a room, and I remember spying on some kind of medical examining area. Other than that, it's pretty bland. What I mainly remember from the dream is the intense feeling of desperation, which by itself is rather interesting.

Gonna go to bed early tonight, get a real nights sleep for a change.

I had three dreams tonight. The first one I was with my dad, and he was attempting to heat up something that was outside our house by frying eggs. Don't ask me how it makes sense. I remember wondering what the hell he was doing, but then hearing some new music I've never heard before (my brain identified it as Daft Punk, but it wasn't), and I went on some kind of trip trying to figure out what it was.

I was then suddenly inside a gameworld, with graphics styled like unreal 1. There was some kind of asian girl there, and it was a mountain-type area. I remember there being fireballs of some sort, and a stone that we kicked around. There was also a cave in the mountain, which I walked into. Inside it was a bunch of creatures, I think my head told me they were ants, but they quite obviously weren't as they seemed intelligent. I then got out of the cave and found myself in room with a bed and insect-proof windows (the kind with a net behind them that you can open). I went to look out the window because there was something outside I really wanted to see, but there was a wasp on the inside, so I backed off. Then a friend of mine came and we talked a little, and then we went back to the window because we thought the wasp was gone. It then came back, and my friend backed off. I stayed there, and suddenly a kitten appeared between the window and the insect net. After a little while, we got it out of there and it turns out to be my friends kitten. I went back to the window once again, and there was now a huge spider there. Easily the size of my hand. It had an orange patter on it, and was quite bright in general. I told my friend about it, and then looked back only to find yet another huge spider. This one was brown and hairy.

That's about all I remember. I woke up shortly after that.

Been a long time since I attempted to write down and recall my dreams now. I've been stressed and busy with lots of things that I've finally sorted out. Most of them, anyway. And with the issues out of the way, I decided to start trying to build up dream recall again. So, without further adeau:

Tonight I dreamed a few fragments, and a long dream. The fragment is just me walking through a guitar store, except all the guitars had broken strings and they weren't tuned properly. I think there was also another dream fragment of me being a part of some kind of capture-the-area game, where you and your team had to take over areas by pushing a button in the middle of them.

The long dream was very different. I remember meeting a girl somewhere and falling in love with her. We wandered around a lot and talked, although I don't remember about what. I was at her place a few times, and she was at mine. At some point, I remember getting a ride home by her and her parents, and as I was getting out of the car and saying thanks to them and telling the girl I'd see her later, she gave me a smile and got out of the car with me. The girl was definitly a student of sorts, and so was I. I remember us studying together.

Later on in my dream, she disappeared to the future mysteriously, and I tried to figure out how and why. Eventually I somehow got a hold of a phone that could call the future, which I used to talk to her. I remember talking to her inside of a broken down, moldy old office building. She told me over the phone that she wanted me to get her a cup of coffee, so I went to the coffee machine that was in a nearby room. Everything around me was wet, there was furniture and broken down old desks. The coffee machine was operational though, but it was out of coffee so all I got was hot water. I didn't put the cup into the machine fast enough though (actually I'm not sure if I ever intended to) so the hot water went down into a sink of sorts that didn't drain. So I scoped up some water out of that instead. I told her that there was no coffee, and she asked me if it had tea instead. I told her that this wasn't the time for tea, to which she responded that there was never a wrong time for tea (kudos to her for that). I then told her that I meant that there was no tea. Then the dream fast-forwards to me talking to an old friend of mine, who seemed to be hiding something. I knew he had been at the place where the girl disappeared at, because I had found his backpack there. Supposedly, he had hidden a clue somewhere, but he wouldn't tell me why. I kept pressuring him, and eventually he told me that he had hidden something in a nearby building, about 9 kilometers away. I think it was kilometers anyway, i remember the number 9 very vividly. I went to the place, and I THINK I found a time machine there, but it wasn't working.

That's about all I remember at the moment.

Last night I remember 2 separate dreams, and one that is more of a fragment.

I dreamed that I was with two friends, one of which I could identify as my friend, Fredrik, and one DC without a name. I dreamed that we were playing some kind of game where we had to sit in a sofa sort of thing that was attached to a metal contruction. At the push of a button, the sofa quickly started traveling along the tracks of this construction, sort of like a rollercoaster. At first, it went quickly down to a dip that by the normal laws of physics would've caused the sofa to get completly stuck, but instead it seemed to just jolt past this gap. I do remember however that going past this part of the ride made a really harsh bump that I really disliked. Then it travelled a bit upwards, then down again then really quickly ascended a slight hill. At the end of this we were ejected out of the sofa and had to attempt to shoot ourselves into holes in a wall. Kinda like how you throw balls into holes at a faire, except we were the balls. The area around us was really dark, as if we were in a damp cave.

The next dream was with a group of people whom I could mostly not identify. I do know that one of them was an old teacher of mine (that I really liked). They were sitting and watching something, and me and another dream character were cooking some sort of food. At some point, whoever I was cooking with got hurt by something, and went to sit down. At this point, my teacher and one other person decided that it was important to keep people distracted from something, so they (with very serious demeanor) started entertaining the group through various means.
*THIS IS WHERE IT GETS FUCKED UP*
They started singing a song about daring to take chances to be with the one you love, and as they were singing, various pairs of toys I had as a child started appearing in the food. They searched for the other one of the same kind, and when they found their match, they got out of the pot and disappeared. I can really vividly see a pair of toy soldiers floating around in a pot of bacon sauce, and as soon as they touched eachother they just climbed out of the pot and disappeared. This went on until the dream ended.

I also have this fragment of a dream where a friend of mine, Adina, whom has recently lost her shades, decided to buy a new pair. And I disliked it. A lot.

Tonight I went to bed after drinking a bit again, and surprise! I only remember one dream. Beginning to see a pattern here.

I dreamed that I was part of a defence team on a spaceship which consisted of what I think was about 15 members, both male and female. I think they all were people I knew, but I'm not able to pick any individuals out. The spaceship came under attack at some point from a force about equal in size to my team, and some kind of battle broke out. After a while, the attacking force backed out, shouting something about the monster. My team later on went exploring through some new areas of the ship that explosions from the battle opened up. What we found was some sort of monster, and we made the decision to fight this monster to try to kill it. The areas around us were some sort of mix between metal and forest. A very lush, green area. As we went exploring this, we encountered some sort of green goo that was apparently dangerous. I don't remember anything else about this, other than that it kept appearing around us. After a while, I apparently decided I had to shower due to being sweaty. So me and some of the other guys showered, while we forced the rest of the team to go to another room. I don't recall much else about this dream.

I also woke up at around 6am this night, after about 5 hours of sleep and decided I'd try to WILD, so I got up and drank a lot of water, stretched a bit, opened a window to cool down my room and then went back to bed. However, as I currently have a really, really painful ulcer in my mouth, I couldn't quite focus on the process of entering the WILD due to it hurting too much. As soon as it heals, I'm going to attempt WILDing a bit more consistantly.

Slept rather well tonight. Got just under 7 hours of sleep in total, but I'm aware of about 5 dreams in total, 2 of which I remember vividly and one I remember vaguely.

First dream was me in some kind of housecar vehicle thing with two of my friends. We were having fun and joking around while studying, I believe. There may have been more people around there aswell. Actually, there was more people for sure. It was dark outside, and the place was quite crammed. There was a microwave with the brand Nintendo on it, which I found to be quite incredible in the dream. I definitly microwaved something, but I'm not sure what it was exactly. While I was microwaving it, I commented to the people around me how funny it was that the microwave had the brand nintendo on it. I also remember it looking a lot like my own microwave. After I was done microwaving...whatever it was, I went to the back of the housecar and sat down by a table with two of my friends. At some point during the dream, someone brought out a bottle of alcohol and started passing it around. This apparently was illegal, and whoever was driving instantly stopped as soon as he realized and turned on the lamps in the cieling and walked back to us to look for it. When he couldn't find it anywhere and nobody said anything, he warned us not to do it again and then went back to driving. The dream ended after this.

Second dream I remember was sitting in a bus with an old internet friend of mine. He was talking to some girl whom when I observed closely had some kind of tag on her that said "[email protected]" where the x's represents letters I don't remember. So I went back to the two of them and sat down and started talking to the girl aswell. I remember her face incredibly well. She was pretty standard white, with a little bit of a puffy face. Her skin was really clear, almost reflective, and her hair was blonde. She was slightly shorter than me. I was drinking one of my favourite ciders while talking to them, and it was night outside the bus. There wasn't a lot of people on the bus, and the three of us just sat there and casually chatted. I remember bringing up Scott Pilgrim with this girl as a conversation, and even calling her fake-asian. And she understood what I was referencing to, aswell. Surprisingly. I don't recall much more of this dream.

I also dreamed about my ex-girlfriend. We were in some kind of cabin thing, in a room with one other person. We were classifying different sexual acts into levels and determining standard responses on what to do depending on how the act was "recieved". Before we got too into it though, she got up to turn off the lights that were outside the room, but none of the switches worked, so she walked around completly naked outside the room for a while before giving up. I believe some of my relatives were in this dream aswell, but I don't remember that part very well.

I must say, the awareness training it really helping. I've gone from BARELY remembering one dream per night to 3 in just 2 days. I'm quite simply astounded by how quickly it's taking effect.

Went to bed at a reasonably normal time tonight, and wanted to attempt WILDing tonight, so I set my clock to go off after 6½ hours of sleep. Turns out that was a very bad idea, as it made me wake up at 3am, 4am, 5.30am (turned off the alarm here, couldnt be fucked anymore) and then 10am. Also have a rahrt large scar on my tongue that is making it really hard to relax. I do remember one dream though.

I was in some kind of ruined city, and there were zombies and zombified animals everywhere. But for some reason being bitten by them did not cause the infection or whatever to spread. I was also with someone, but I can't quite recall who it was. I THINK it was my mother, but I'm really not sure. We were running around in this post-apocalyptic city anyway, and I recall watching the city from some kind of tall tower. I watched as zombies as a group caught up to a group of normal people, and I saw a few zombie animals darting past street corners here and there. I don't recall meeting any actual zombiepeople though, only zombieanimals. At some point, we apparently managed to get to some sort of safe haven, and my mom wanted me to take the car to drive somewhere and buy something. I had enough presence of mind to realize that I couldn't drive, and told her so, but apparently I had to practise. That's all I remember from it.

I think I vaguely recalled two dreams tonight. I'm fully aware that I dreamed 3-4 dreams in total tonight, but I only recall one vividly, and one extremely vaguely. Worth to note that I was slightly drunk when I went to bed, and I was really tired as it was quite late. I also began practicing awareness training during the day.

All I remember of the first dream is that I was making some kind of potato dish with slices of apple in it. That's literally all I remember.

The second dream is a lot more vivid. I dreamed about my stepdad and my step-granddad.

Kjell (step-granddad) was apparently entering some kind of competition, and needed to borrow my calculator and my glasses. He was extremely nervous, and wasn't really acting like he usually does. I recall standing in a hallway and looking at him and knowing that he was nervous. My stepdad was there aswell, and was driving with him to this event. Shortly after they left though, they came back. The event had apparently been cancelled, and kjell seemed extremely relieved about it. When they came he acted just like he normally does again. I noticed that they were back because I heard something by my balcony door (I'm in my own apartment now, suddenly), and I look out to see my stepdad drawing something on it from the outside. I looked at it, but it appeared to be just scribbles to me. He was drawing with a lead pencil. After he had finished drawing that, he started drawing something on my clothing, but quickly realized it didn't work too well and stopped.

Then he asked if he could borrow my hammer, which I let him have. He apparently needed it to build something with an unidentified dream character. I sat there and talked to them for a while and watched them as they were building the device while playing around with the hammer when they weren't using it. Apparently the head of the hammer was twistable, and it was very rusty.

That's all I remember. I'm aware that I had more dreams tonight, but I can't recall anything about them.

As far as I remember, I dreamed that me, my dad and his girlfriend were fighting or running away from a witch of sorts. The witch had a ring that we needed for reasons I don't quite remember. I recall myself walking along a street had houses that seemed quite medival on both sides of me. It felt like the city was modelled after the way they looked 300-400 years ago. At some point, I encountered the witch and failed to steal the ring from her and, which forced me to run away.

Then I ended up at my dads house, where I apparently had to get changed for some reason. He wanted me to put on a blazer and a button-up, so I did. I had to go fetch the blazer from somewhere, and when I found it, the arms were folded up and it was slightly creasy. After I had put the blazer on, I was going to change my pants and put on a pair of red chinos that were nearby. But when I was about half-done with putting them on, they changed colour to white (at this point, I think I was close to achieving lucidity). When I was fully done with putting them on, they had changed to jeans. I remember thinking this was extremely wierd. Then I realized the pants were a bit too long, so I folded them up a little. The house I was in was a model of my dads place but with more defined contrasts between the old parts and the parts that he had renovated. Once I had gotten dressed, I was told we were going out biking.

Next thing I know I'm biking up a mountainside with my dad, Jennifer (the girlfriend) and a relative of my dads. My bike was dragging something behind it up the mountain, but I don't recall what it was. I distinctly remember it being red though. I was biking a bit ahead of everyone else, and was told to slow down in order for them to catch up. A short while after that we had to get off our bikes in order to walk up a hill. There were several houses dotted out around us. Then we walked past what I can only describe as a fusion between a small house and a car. It had the bottom-side of a car and instead of seats and whatever there was a small house. It was rather big. I recall it very vividly. I can still see the shape of it inside my head, and twist it around and look inside it. It seemed like the inside of it was slightly larger than the actual car, though. We were apparently on our way to a house at the top of the mountain to have a chat with the owners. I distincly recall not really needing to be there, so I started looking around for alternative things to do. I remember myself looking at some kind of map in order to see what existed. The map had names, but I can't quite remember them at the moment.

Then I suddenly find myself walking alone through a forest. I come upon a lake of sorts, in which I see a boat with a person behind it. Then the boat starts speeding forward and I realize that the person is on waterskis. I distinctly recall wanting to try it really badly, but before anything else could happen I woke up.