Desperation Happiness

First I was at a college frat type party. It was a pool party, and I was 'lucky' to be there. The new recruits were floating on floaty things on the pool and the goal was not to be flipped over, so I lay there very still and never got flipped over. But instead of being praised for the smart thinking they secretly made fun of me. Then someone mentioned how I needed 104 FB comments in order to stay at the party which gave me an idea for a new movie.

The cool buy nerdy male lead some how makes it to a party where the popular girl he likes is, but he needs to keep his FB popularity up in order to stay at the party and get noticed by the girl, so his cute but unnoticed best friend girl helps him to do that and antics ensue at the party.

Then I dreamt I was at the library and found a book called something like "RPG hero something something" and I had heard of it but never read it. I opened it and all it was was chapters of maps of a fictional world. I found out you make your character and then read/play through the story like in D&D except the book is the the DM and you play by yourself. In my dream I thought that sounded fun and after I woke up it still sounded fun, but as I think about it it wouldn't really work/wouldn't be any better than playing a video game.

I was watching TV with my family (as I used to do before I moved to Taiwan) including some extended family and a girl I didn't know. Then I started trying to make energy balls between my hands and suddenly I knew I was dreaming. I sat where I was and looked around, wrung my hands a bit to stabilize the dream. This seemed to put the dream "more in focus" the brightness visibly changed. Then I got up to explore, trying not to get too excited and wake myself up. That happened anyway of course and I woke.

This is my second night trying to get back into Lucid Dreaming. Rereading Stephen LaBerge's Exploring Lucid Dreaming. It's a good sign that I'm not completely hopeless.

I dreamt that that I fell asleep in my bed straight into a lucid dream where I grew wings and flew through the ceiling. It was exhilarating and I flew higher and through more and more ceilings, one after another. Then I noticed the ceiling fans were below me and I was actually flying downwards (paradoxically it would seem).
Then I landed lying in front of St. Peter's gate. A large stone gate standing on top of a circular stone foundation, seemingly floating in space. The gate was unattached, merely a gate with the carving "St. Peter's" on it. I started getting scared and really wanted to ascend, away from here. I was lying in my bed again, "half-asleep" (still within a dream). I even kept having to adjust my sleeping mask on my eyes.
After wishing hard enough to ascend, everything became bathed in golden light, and I knew I had golden wings. I flew up once more only to start falling straight down, quickly. Staring straight up, I fell straight past the gate and the platform it was on so I could see how it was standing atop a giant tower or spire. I kept falling, fast, with occasional vibrations that I could feel in the "real" world (within a dream).
Finally I landed on my my back on my bed, but under my eye mask I could see the shadows of flames flickering in the corners of my room and my bed started getting hot. (I could never really see any flames) My legs and back grew warm. I could see the shadow of a figure walking bath and forth on one wall. And heard a voice talking less TO me, but more AT me. It was around this point I realized I was in Hell and shocked myself awake.


I actually only woke up with a very vague after sense of warmth on my back. And surprisingly the fear and surprise wasn't there, like how emotions follow me from other intense dreams. I think that everything took place in a dream within a dream really helped. That and the fact that I don't believe in a Heaven or Hell and am incredibly secure in that belief that it didn't bother me as much as it should in my logical waking world. Of course I'm shaken that I would have such a dream in the first place, but I still think it was neat. Also even though the dream FELT lucid it couldn't have been, I was merely dreaming of having a lucid dream where these things happened.

I was on a planet or moon with a bunch of scientists when we discover we are not alone. There is a race of insectoid aliens living there as well and they aren't friendly. I put up turrets and build up our defenses as we run to some sort of safe haven. At his safe place, I'm waiting for my test scores but some aliens have taken human form and killed the humans and threw away my scores. I found them anyway and got a 3.8 gpa (?) and then kill the aliens with a long metal ruler. I try to decide what to do with the aliens in human form who haven't killed anyone. They try to teach me a spell but it's too hard to say. Then I wake up.

I was courting a girl who was younger than me. Maybe 20-21 y.o. She wanted nothing to do with me, but I was pretty in to her. I showed off my ability to stop time and seemingly teleport (she didn't know I was stopping time) and impressed her. Then I found her laying on some grass on a hillside. I lay down next to her and she curls up on my right side. She says "I was so tired, but I'm not anymore." Then we kiss a few times, slowly, tentatively, humid breath on each others faces. It was wonderful!

Then I'm searching for her at her place of work, a HUGE music store. I find her a floor down after a covert nod in the direction from a coworker. She gets PISSED that I came there, she said that she said we'd hang out between 10am and 8pm so why did I have to go looking for her. Then she kicks me out, I steal a picture that is supposed to be really well done, so I can draw it myself on a tablet PC and impress her again. Then I wake up.

I was new to town. My friends and I just moved came in on a bus and found our new apartment. Then I'm at a school where I presumably work. Then I'm talking to a Korean guy who wants me to drive him somwwhere the next day at 5:30am and make sure he survives, is okay (bodyguard type work). Because his girlfriend's mom will be doing an experiment on him and his girlfriend and maybe others. Something to do with increasing their memory. After he walks away I turn to someone who knows me and he says "Oh are you done mumbling to yourself now?" So I ask if he can see the guy as he walks away and he says there's no one there. So I believe him that I was hallucinating and tell him what I was 'talking' about.


Another dream I was god-like with telekinetic powers and I could make people say whatever I wanted.

I dreamt that L and I were actors in a remake of Scott Pilgrim vs. the Universe. The same director decided to make the movie again with the same script but with actual twenty-something nerds. Obviously L was Romana and I was Scott. We met up with some other people after the initial shooting... something about a car and a hill?

I became lucid suddenly and walked towards a cute red head to chat her up. But upon approaching her she said "I'm not going to talk to you." And that really surprised me, usually dream characters tend to lose a will of their own when I'm lucid dreaming and never do they act so opposite my intentions. I have a vague memory also that she said her sister told her not to talk to me. Then I woke up.

I looked at my clock when I awoke, it was only 5am! Usually my lucid dreams are MUCH later in the night. I wonder if that has to do with my lack of dream control this time...

I woke up to look out the window and see a neighbor on his way to soccer practice. Then I heard voices, my father and a kid's, I thought it was a brother I don't have. The door bell rings and I realize it's my book. I pretend to sleep and outstretch my hand. My dad gives me my book and I ask who's downstairs. He answers cryptically, saying it's him, mom and maybe more. He says mom is really mad at me for not putting tequila on her dinner and instead watering it down. Then he effs up my room. I get really offended and decide to take my book and read in Ann Arbor all day. But then birds start forming symbols and animals in the sky. I'm afraid of them but then I have a towel which I'm holding above my head by the ends and it's pulling me into the air. It has a picture of a whale on it, so I fly to Seattle looking for the birds in the shape of a whale. I think if I can fly into them I can get the power to fly on my own. I visit a LOT of places in Seattle in search of the right birds, but I don't find them.

I awoke in my bed, in my room. My dog (who has passed somewhat recently) ran from the foot of my bed through the door. Then I looked at my old completed puzzle turned picture on the wall. There were clumps of puzzle pieces missing, and behind them was a mirror reflecting a storm out my window. At that I became lucid.

I stood in my room and marveled at the realism of it all, the texture of my sheets and curtains. I touched my hands a bit to stabilize then flew out the window. The window broke into puzzle pieces and stuck in my hair, I was worried they'd block my sight and force me to wake up so I did some flips in the air to get them out. Then I landed in my neighbor's driveway which was surrounded by long flowers. A man drove up in a low golf-carty vehicle and asked me if I wanted 60,000 dollars. I said sure, but in the back of my mind I was wondering if it was some sort of trick my subconscious was playing on me, a test. I asked what I had to give him and he said "10, 20, no 21,000 dollars". I said okay and he drove by a little. Then I decided to try spinning and teleporting to Egypt to visit the pyramids (My loose intent for lucid dreaming) and while spinning, woke up.

I was visiting K at her house but I ended up chatting with her mom and making her watch Game of Thrones, but then got nervous when the sex and nudity came on. I asked "so is K here?" and she finally went and got her.

Longer dream: I was exploring the world and some how found a small separation between continents tha twas just a small river. That when approached turned into a road crosswalk. I crossed and was in Australia. A pier in front of me, I flew around and messed around on the pier. I think I was at the very lowest point of lucidity around this time.

I'm at some kind of training in Seattle. In a tall building that's half offices, half hotel and half mall. (yes 150%) I liked 'blonde girl' but she was hooking up with someone else in our training group. I hooked my computer up and someone stole/hacked the monitor, causing commotion. Eventually I hooked up with "blonde girl" (yay)

Even though I wanted blonde girl, there was cute "brunette girl" with an accent I really liked (more emotionally?). I finally won her over with good flirting, we kissed once and I woke up.

Back to sleep there's another cute girl whom I seduced by tickling the back of her knee.

Now there's a giant swimming pool, still in Seattle. I swim around and eventually decide to fly out of the water and skim over it like in the movies. So I do and land on a jungle gym which isn't surrounded by water. President Obama is there and people are sent up to subdue me. I knock them down and give a speech to the president about how I just wanted to fly around and have fun. I wake up.

WILD! I'm flying around Seattle, I decide to spin in the air and go to visit the pyramids (my current intent). I go to some really digital city that does have a pyramid looking structure in it. The city is even more digital than Tron. The road is a touch screen. Arrows accelerate you in either direction. I fly down and use the street interface to find out what I should do in the city. The power plant is broken and the map shows me where to go, I look in that direction and see smoke (super cool). Apparently I have suit that is giving me my powers too. So I fly over there and use my powers to reconnect batteies and things and get it running again. A door opens and a blurry object comes out, I try to decloak it but I don't have that power yet so I overturn a truck on it and it decloaks to reveal a robot. My arms are asleep in WL and I wake up.

I'm back in high school and I'm not paying attention in class and other students are getting mad at me for not following along. Something goes on at the office lunch something or other. On my way back to class I try to help a girl with her recurring dreams involving Heimdall. I also try and warn people about Justin Beiber.

Before the lucid dream started I just remember fragments. Something about eating four-leaf clovers in my bathroom, but I didn't mean to, it was just habit. I was supposed to let someone else eat them. Eating the four-leaf clovers granted superman-like powers.

The next memory I have is being lucid in the hallway outside my room. I wanted to do something other than flying around looking for women so I decided to talk to my parents, I walked to their rooma and asked them what they thought of L. As in, what do you think of me dating her/marrying her. My father said "Well she's not who I'd go with, but she's nice." My mother said "I think you want to have her goals, like her double major and you call her everyday, well you don't call her but you ask her questions."

While they were talking I decided in my mind I'd like to try spinning and teleporting somewhere, I've never done that in a dream. So I started spinning and everything went black. I thought about going to see M, but settled on a wooden cottage. I stopped spinning and came to in an attic where a little boy was playing with a dollhouse cottage with figures in it. He started telling a story with it and his parents were there. I asked if it was haunted and made the shoe toy float (I think it was supposed to represent the mom).

Then I flew straight up through the ceiling (I decided on doing this earlier too). Now I'm among the stars in mostly darkness, I pass over water and the reflection of stars. Then a giant cell phone appears and I can scroll through a student story on the screen with my mind/perspective. It's the beginning with the author's names and I try to read it but it keeps switching perspective like it's in a mirror. I decide I can always check the phone when I wake up so I continue on. Then it starts going black and I start to wake up so I try to fly fast and teleport again but through my eyelids I see red, like light pouring through.

Then I experience one heck of a false awakening!

I awake super tired, it's hard to remember the dream but I lay still and piece it together. I'm still too tired to write it down and consider briefly using my cell phone to record it via voice. I hear movement in the hall. My father is dragging a chair from the closet to the bathroom and left the door opposite mine open. Inside is a two-headed mannequin with a shawl/shirt on. I ask why he has such a frightening mannequin. He opens the other closet and asks me to do something with the car somethings, because they look like whips.

Finally I wake up for real and it takes a moment to realize the first time was a false awakening.

At first "I" wasn't even in the dream, or if I was, I was a girl and a vampire made me his puppet using a piece of mirror. He made me kill someone then we were friends and I was me again. He turned into a psycho killer teenager and I got in too deep with him, even though I disagreed with him I couldn't do anything about it or he'd kill me. There was definitely some homosexual vibes coming from his direction that made me uncomfortable too.

There was a movie screening we were going to go to. I told someone about him on the way in, but I don't know if I saved her because he found out via her cell phone. I raced to tell security in the theater but for some reason I was carrying a puppy. They took it then arrested someone else for something else and dismissed my warnings.

Sitting in the theater now it took awhile to find him, he was disguised in the crowd but I did. It was like this was a second play-through of a game, so I thought I knew what would happen. Then the vampire and girl thing was on the screen, then someone killing lots of attackers with various weapons (like a video game) all the while I was waiting for him to slit my throat, but I knew he was excited about the violence on the screen. I had a pair of scissors to defend myself. The movies tarted to become the focus of the dream then I woke up.

Also when I woke up in the middle of the night before this dream, the picture that has been on my wall of killer whales underwater looked to me like a scary clown face.

Earlier that day I watched a short amateur movie about The Joker and Harlequin, he convinced her to kill someone in a room, it was all very like the dream.